It's enough for me, because I don't want to ask more about it. So many inquiries are just the past of my adulthood. Then if I have no confidence in this relationship at all, or this relationship can't be managed and continued at all.
If this goes on, I may not be able to control my emotions at all during this process.
Or, I'm not sure about this relationship.
I'm in a very indifferent state now. If it's mine, it must be mine. If it's not mine, it doesn't matter what you say.
Feelings must be mutual between both parties. If it is a one-sided behavior, then I would rather give up the relationship, because I have always been very stubborn in what I think of my love life, thinking that it is just like what is said in opera.
It's the kind of two people who stay with each other for the rest of their lives.
If my relationship or my marriage has not reached a situation that lasts forever, then I will not hesitate to pick up the kitchen knife and chop down this relationship directly.
This is my earthly principle, this is also my attitude, I do whatever I want to do.
Regarding this, I think there are many, many details in life that we need to bear and do, not just wander around in this kind of emotional life.
I have never been to great rivers and mountains. I long for everything that nature longs for. I even long for understanding these unknown things to me, so I have a lot of time and a lot of things to do. If I must put the whole thing in
This kind of going around and around doesn't matter, this kind of love is in the emotional world.
Am I not a fool? What’s the difference between me and a fool? I’m just useless.
Of course, if all this belongs to my love life, I would rather look forward to working with Na Jintang to see these great rivers and mountains together, and to start a business together that we both think is a worthy entrepreneurial goal.
This is totally important to me and totally existential.
No matter what happened in the past, there is no reason for it, but it is really not important to me. Is it important? It is not important at all. I cherish and grasp things more now.
I almost finished frying these vegetables. During this process, I chatted with Wang Ma intermittently, talking about daily life, and never discussed such things again.
Wang Ma has repeatedly guaranteed that Jintang plays a very important role in my mind.
Tell me very seriously that all of this is for sure.
"Miss Cat, I am really serious about telling you that I really wish you all the best for this marriage. This is the most solid marriage I have ever seen. Do you know? The little boss has always been a person who makes people look...
He is a very cold and arrogant person, even a very fierce person."
"But he is as tender as water. He is really good. He has a kind heart. He has been a kind and good boy since he was a child. I have watched him grow up since I was a child. Do you know? He will never hurt others easily.
He would only do such a thing when someone hurt his family, so to outsiders he really looked like a gangster, but he was really not. He was a kind and honest man.
male!"
"It has only been so many years. In fact, we have all seen the young master's feelings for you, not to mention it. The young master has been in love with a girl since he was a child, and we also know that he will never have contact with too many girls.
, many girls are really crying like dead flowers and butterflies, but the little boss is never moved, he has always left this feeling to you, and we can see this."
"Since you came back to our house, even though it wasn't nice to say it at first, the relationship between you and the old man has been a bit tense, and we have noticed it. Of course we can't say anything. As
What can we, servants, say? Of course we dare not say anything unpleasant, but the young master has been protecting you during this process, and he will even discuss your situation with the old man, but
No matter what, it is the old man who compromises in the end. The young master will firmly protect you under any circumstances. Think about it, you don’t have to look for such a good man, you can’t even find him no matter how hard you try.
!”
"So since you came to our house, Miss Cat, she has been much happier as a child. He is really happy. Sometimes when I was a child, I really wondered why he was so unhappy. He would stay alone in the morning in a dull mood.
Sometimes when he first came to our house, I thought he was some idiot who couldn't speak. He would often stay alone in the room without moving, without saying a word, and would eat when asked.
He just wanted to play, just like a fool. It took 2 to 3 years for the young master to slowly start living like a normal person..."
Ouch, what surprised me when I heard this sentence? Live like a fool.
This is information I have never heard before. This is a situation I have never been aware of. Has this ever happened before? Oh my god, what kind of revelation is this? I have never really known it.
I've heard of it.
I asked while the vegetables were being fried on a plate.
"Isn't Jintang a very powerful boy since he was a child? Looking at his appearance, you can imagine that he must have been a very naughty child in Fangjiewa when he was a child. You don't know that when he came to our orphanage, he was so naughty.
It's so powerful... When I said that he had Q coins since he was a child, and he was a fool since he was a child, I really can't tell. Did he have any major trauma? Is there some kind of situation?
?”
Wang Ma was very hesitant and confused at this time. She didn't know whether to say something or not. She looked very confused.
Judging from what difficulties she encountered, it seemed that the topic just discussed was completely taboo and could not be discussed at all, but she happened to say it, so I should be able to guess this from the look of his words.
The topic should be a taboo.
Of course, I won't force her to tell her whether she wants to tell her, because after all, this is other people's privacy. Even if I am very curious to know about the body of that girl 10 years ago, I won't have to work hard for it.
privacy.
I just took things as they came, and didn't care about her. She didn't want to say anything, but I was still very curious deep down in my heart. This completely clashed and conflicted with what I had imagined before.
Before it was my turn to talk to her, Wang Ma said this naturally. This is not my fault, because she couldn't control her words at all.
She said those words mysteriously and quietly, as if she couldn't control herself, as if she wanted to speak but couldn't stop, as if she couldn't stop vomiting.
I patted her shoulder and gave her encouragement.
"Okay? In fact, it doesn't matter whether you say it or not. What happened has already happened, and we won't mind it too much. It happened in the past. What we have to do now is to grasp the present and grasp the present.
More things are the most important things for us now, right?"
Basically, she was in a state of crying. At this time, she really had some unbearable memories that might have been caused by her past. As she spoke, she couldn't help but wipe her tears with a handkerchief.
To describe it in one sentence, it is called old tears.
Really, he is in a completely sad state now, and he feels like he can't control his tears when he recalls the past.
It can be said that it is like a flash flood.
Wang Ma looked at me with a compassionate look and said these words.
"Actually, I don't know whether I should tell you that this matter, these things have happened for many years. You also know that the old man and the little boss are not biological. The little boss was adopted by the old man, probably around the year of adoption.
He must have been very young when he was less than 7 years old. When he was brought back, he couldn't speak at all. I don't know if he could speak. Anyway, he was just stupid and stupid every day. No matter how the old man talked to him, the rest of us
He wouldn't allow the servants to hug him no matter what, and he would always refuse. He would stay alone in the room, tender and tender, often crying, and often locking himself up. This period lasted for about 2 to 3 years."
"So the little boss must have experienced some very painful things, or suffered a serious illness. The old man told us that the little boss once suffered from a headache, brain fever, and finally led to some of his illness.
But we know that he must have a lot of heart problems, so we try our best to guide him to be happy. When you see a child sitting in the room blankly, he will not come out from morning to night.
, you can imagine the feeling when I only eat your food and then hand an empty rice bowl out from the door. It makes us feel very sad. We really don’t know what to do at that time? "
"So our little eldest brother has been much more honest and stable than other children since he was a child. He knows a lot of things that he should do, but he knows so much at such a young age. As a result, we have come a long way and we really take it into our hearts.
It hurts very much. I hope he can really be happy. Does he really become happy sometimes? He hides it a lot of the time..."
"As these years pass day by day, he gradually gets better, but we know that there are still traces of those childhood memories in his heart, so we have always loved the little boss very much."
"Including that the old man treats him completely as his own child, as a real child of his own. He has never married anyone else. It is just for the safety of the little boss at home without any harm...
…”
"Mother Wang is old, and she is no longer useful, but she must see the young master happy. Finally, Miss Cat, you are here, and I see the young master wishing you happiness. Do you know? Since the little boss
I was very happy when I was 16 years old. I think I met you at that time, otherwise why would I always feel like the same person every time I come back?"
"Although I say this somewhat disrespectfully, I once took care of this old man, the young master. I really hope that he will be happy. No matter what, Miss Ma, I ask you to make the young master happy, okay?"
The words she said intermittently were something I had never known before. I didn't expect that a casual question of mine could elicit so much information.