I gradually fell asleep, and Na Jintang lay next to me to tell the story she once thought. In the process, I knew that there were many things to do. If I couldn't do this in the process, it would be better.
rhythm, then it is impossible to express one's entire state.
The Jintang is very gentle, like a piece of music being narrated.
"It happened many years ago. After all these years, I still remember what happened."
"I remember when I was very young, my father went out one day, and he never came back. I waited at home for a long time, and there was still no one at noon. When I came back, I was taken to a family member. That home
The person inside is a very strange person, but I know that the place is very luxurious..."
"It was a very beautiful villa. There was a very beautiful and noble woman living there, but everyone seemed very strange. I didn't know any of them. They were also very strange and had no function for me. They were
Arrange to live in a small room. I live on the second floor of this villa. For me, it is better if the whole environment is well arranged. Because this is a detail of everyone's arrangement, I think this matter is still important to you.
good."
"I was only eight years old back then. I finally left home that year and left my mother for the first time. I didn't know where my father was, so I arranged to be sent to this place. I don't know what happened.
, but all of them here take good care of me and take good care of me.”
"I have been waiting, but never waited for my father's arrival. I have been in this villa for nearly a whole year."
At this time I asked him in a daze.
"If you follow your plan, where will your father go? Will he leave you temporarily due to work or other mobile phone matters? If he leaves you and you have no way to notify anyone in time, what will happen to you now?
Will this happen if we don’t get his information?”
He touched my head and said calmly.
"At first, I had the same idea as you. I thought it would be okay. He had something to recognize and wanted to leave or leave for a period of time. I also thought the same way at the time. I thought this matter was almost consistent with what you imagined.
Yes, but in fact this is not the case, because if my father and mother were away for a period of time, they would definitely tell me through a message or through other people, but until now I have not received any news from them.
source."
I said: "In my situation, wouldn't it be very panicky, helpless, and lonely? A child leaving his parents, isn't this a very lonely thought? If so, how could there be such an accident?
Woolen cloth?"
He felt that this matter had been immersed in his world, and he even understood it according to his own ideas.
He did not answer my words and continued to tell the story, probably because what he said was very long.
I just sounded serious. I don’t know that this matter is a very important moment for me and everyone. It is a story that is very speechless for me.
Because this matter is really important to me. If there is no way to use such a process to achieve the best effect, because I know that the entire project should be under a lot of pressure now, and maybe everyone has his or her own past.
, everyone has their own story that they cannot forget, but everyone should be their own protagonist in this story.
I heard from his language that he was cowardly, so lonely, and that indescribable sense of confusion as a child.
I kissed his hand gently. I wanted to give him this kind of encouragement, or I wanted to give him this kind of comfort. I hoped that in the process I could show a mentality that made him feel stable.
Will he be serious? Because he responded to me so sincerely.
Because I feel like I can be completely like two lonely souls who need comfort from each other in this dark night.
Perhaps only in this process can a truly lonely person realize the other person's deep feeling of loneliness that cannot be rejected.
He held my hand quietly and continued talking.
"It was a lot of young things. I really didn't understand it at that time. I thought something really important happened to my father, or that my father had to do something very important. You know, I know that my father
He is a very important person, a businessman, and his business ability is very strong, and because the parties involved in procurement often go on business trips, disappear or leave for a period of time because of this matter
Deep in my childhood memories, it seems to be something I have become accustomed to recently."
"At that time, I thought it should be normal. I also thought this kind of thing was strange. I also felt that this kind of thing no longer made me feel scared. When I was taken to the villa by others, I just felt very scared.
Surprised, because when I was waiting for my father, I always waited at home and would not wait anywhere else."
"At that time, I didn't know what would happen. I thought my father might be going to a far away place, and no one could take care of me or help me. Although there were women in the family, I might not be very worried at all.
Don’t worry, I will have these English people to take care of me, maybe I can leave it in a friend’s home..."
When Na Jintang finished saying this, he let out a sigh that often sounded like what kind of person feels a chilling feeling of guilt.
"It's all gone. It's like I'm thinking about the panic scene again, as if it happened yesterday..."
I looked at his helpless eyes, and I knew that there must be an important ups and downs in his heart during this memory, because I have never had parents, so I would rather not have the lonely feeling of leaving my parents, but
I know that this feeling of loneliness exists for everyone. Maybe it is because he has experienced loss before and feels more painful.
I gently touched his hand.
"It's all in the past, isn't it? Then what happens tomorrow? What happened that day must have been a major change for you. Is it because your father did not come back that day, or did you wait?
You haven't waited for your father for a long time, right?"
Na Jintang let out a deep, silent sigh.
The sigh was long and long, just like an ancient bell emitting a long and long cicada chirp.
But in the darkness, I lit a black cigarette.
Maybe cigarettes can relax his spirit, maybe relax his entire mental state, so that he can continue to maintain this calmness.
He was blowing smoke in circles in the darkness.
"Yes, that year, I really didn't wait for my father to come back as I did in the past. I waited for a long, long time. I estimate that if I had to go out, it would usually be anywhere from three days to three months, but this time I waited
After waiting for a year, I still didn’t get my father’s return. Regarding that matter, I really felt that my father should have gone abroad, or that something very important had happened. That was a very bad premonition, because in this situation, I
I don’t know who to talk to, I often cry in embarrassment, I have already gone to find someone to talk to..."
I watched him enter such a silent place, and I felt in my heart that he was already feeling pain deep down.
If it wasn't for a painful feeling, how could he have let himself go deep into such a state of desire so quickly.
"I was still a child, I didn't understand anything, and I really felt that I was in pain. If all that had not happened, maybe I would still be a carefree child, and I would still be playing with my favorite deformations.
King Kong, one of Quan’s favorite creative activities of all kinds..."
"But all of this disappeared. On the way to disappear, I immediately didn't know why it disappeared. What was the reason for its disappearance? I just felt that I was completely in a world that I couldn't see through. The world had changed too much, and there was nothing that existed at all.
This kind of mutual responsibility between people, a kind of burning situation between people that cannot communicate..."
I asked him because I thought this matter might be very painful for him, but for me it was indeed within the scope of his painful understanding, and there was more of a curiosity.
"That year you were sent to the home of a friend entrusted by your father. According to this, you should be able to live very well in their home. Didn't you say that many people there should have better education?
If many people accompany you, will you still feel lonely at that time? Does this common feeling really need to be so strong? Is it possible that the feeling of loneliness is because you feel very comfortable in other people's homes?
It’s not that kind of life, right?”
At this time, he hugged me tightly, as if recalling this time in the past, he was strongly restraining his trembling. Maybe after this trembling, there must have been a painful experience, otherwise how could he have been like this?
This kind of trembling is a trembling that cannot be expressed in words.
He said: "It was really cruel to say that to an 8-year-old child. It was so cruel that it made people feel completely unprepared. You know what happened that year. I had no idea there would be so many faces. I only knew
I haven't come back for a long time. I will go and ask my father's friends later. I want to know where my father has gone and when he will come back. This is what my father wants to know, because I feel that I can't leave my father."
"The entrusted friend never told me the answer..."
I was very surprised recently because this time point happened to happen when he was ten years old.
I understand this time point very well, that is to say, if you can understand it from this time point, then this time point is actually very close to the time point of the mysterious woman Anna mentioned.
Suddenly when I thought about this problem, I couldn't help but become serious, and I couldn't help but wake up a little immediately, because of this matter, and Lawyer Zhang and that mysterious woman must have foreign concepts. If we foreigners have the perspective, how can we
There may be this kind of timely confession. If you look at his whole state, he is completely immersed in the depths of the past.
I suddenly felt that my inner world was very dirty now, and how could others be in the most pain and suffering? I suddenly remembered that it was very helpless to gossip about his past, as it seemed to have some ulterior purpose.
I am very embarrassed today. Why don't I know how to express my feelings? Or maybe it is only in your situation that he continues to talk about these situations.
"When this happened, people were really caught off guard, because it happened in a very cold and romantic winter that year, just like today's weather was very cold, and I lived a thick life that day.
When I walked into this home, I felt a strange feeling, so everyone is new. I hope they will be nice and friendly to me, but I have never found that feeling of home...
…”
What a genius, I suddenly want to ask about what happened that year, because I am really too curious about this matter, and I really can't bear to let it go.
I really want to know what happened in the past. For this kind of story, I really have an uncontrollable desire for curiosity. I am completely curious. Oh, the more things I know.
To me it really is better.
I said: "So according to what happened to you back then, you were forced to leave your father and were sent to a friend's home. Can you tell us what the situation was like at your friend's home? Maybe
Their family situation is very good, maybe they are very friendly to you. Maybe you were too sensitive because you had just left your mother, so you felt that there was no way to introduce it into other people's families, but think about it.
This is where the technology is temporarily, doesn’t it mean you have to sit there forever?”
"How could it be possible that you had too much time to do things, so you were indifferent to those things at that time? If you hadn't thought so much at that time, maybe you would have lowered this safety factor by then. Then it's possible
Will it be better?"
I asked him a few questions, because I am so curious and I really want to know what kind of person he is. Could it be that a mysterious woman really appeared in this person?
In fact, I feel that I feel the same way, so there must be some mysterious secret hidden in it, which I really want to know.
There is a vague feeling.
I even feel that something major will happen after he comes to this home.