I began to be unable to accept this information and could not digest it.
When Na Jintang said those words, I really had a suffocating feeling that I couldn't express. I really didn't believe it. I never felt that the old man really had the energy to leave us. He was in such good health.
, how could he leave us so easily? I never thought that these things did not exist at all. Didn't his body recover very well during this period? How could such a possible thing suddenly appear?
I don’t know why, but I felt that things really happened too suddenly, and that the person was just caught off guard, so I asked eagerly.
"How certain is the certainty of this matter? Has Mr. John officially notified us? Does he really think this is the case? Could he have some misunderstandings in the process, thinking that the old man's health may be possible?
He may recover later, but I'm not sure. I also promised to take him to various places to have fun? You promised him that we went to the orphanage together. He told me to wait until he gets better, right?
When our factory is completely on track, we will still go to the orphanage. Didn't this matter be mentioned?"
I asked this question one after another.
But Na Jintang didn't answer any of my questions. Na Jintang still looked at me with his most silent eyes. His eyes were deep, and he felt the meaning in them. Maybe some things are really self-evident, and some things maybe
I really can’t express it in words anymore. Maybe it’s true, maybe it’s false, I really don’t know.
"Tell me, tell me completely what happened. Will the old man really not be able to hold on within these three months? Is there a misjudgment in this matter??"
Na Jintang held me tightly, and there were tears in his eyes, which made people feel a kind of fear and desolation.
"Mr. John has been diagnosed repeatedly, because this old man has been in a very difficult period since he was kidnapped last time, and during this time he has been taking coffee to control his stomach pain.
Sickness, but such a thing will deeply hurt his body. A skill of Sui Hua's entire body may cause a large area of atrophy, so under the current situation, it is very possible, and the probability should be very high. In this few days
Within a month…”
I couldn't control it anymore, and tears flowed down in big drops. I hadn't shed tears like this for a long time. I really felt like I couldn't control my inner emotions.
She grabbed his hand tightly and cried without words.
I don’t know why. My old man and I were incompatible with each other before. We didn’t have any good feelings at all. We both couldn’t stand each other, but why are we crying for each other at this time?
.
After some mutual contact in the past two years, I have completely treated him as a very important relative of mine.
The role he played in my life became more and more important. When I gradually adapted to this kind of life and gradually felt that this was the most beautiful state of life, but suddenly a relative left me again, you kind of
Will I be able to accept it?
I cried with tears and snot running down my face. It was an unspeakable and very painful feeling.
Na Jintang hugged me tightly and patted my back.
Na Jintang didn't say a word, because no words could replace this feeling at this time, and all the freshmen were silent at this time.
This is a rare tacit understanding, something that cannot be expressed in words, so I will be more determined about this matter. I must do it well tomorrow, and there should be more in this three months.
There are many things and many opportunities to deal with. Within these three months, no crisis can occur in this factory under any circumstances. The old man must not be allowed to look at this matter with any regrets.
a long time.
I looked up at the stars in the sky. The stars in the sky are dotted with stars. Tomorrow must be a sunny day, but my mood is really like dark clouds. I really can’t be happy, but what should I do? Tomorrow is the most important day, right?
It is very important to everyone.
Na Jintang held my face in his hands.
The eyes are deep.
"A long tent is built thousands of miles away, and there is no eternal banquet in the world. Some things are a development and evolution of nature. We only need to care about the scenery we see in the process of our existence, the things we once owned, and we cherish the things we have now.
, one day we will also grow old like the old man, and our next generation will gradually inherit everything we have now, so we must cherish and own everything that should be cherished now, and don’t be afraid or fearful
, all this is natural..."
I cried, "But I really don't want to. The old man is in such pain. The old man is not 100 years old yet, and he promised me that we will take him to the orphanage to see what we once did."
What happened in the past, I promised him that there are still many places he has not been to, and at least I should take him to the hospital. This is what he has always wanted to see, and I want to take him to see it!"
Na Jintang gently wiped the tears from my eyes with his handkerchief.
"It's going very quickly. We are waiting for the crisis in the factory to pass and for this matter to be on the right track. It should take us less than a month to resolve all this matter and then we will go to the orphanage to take the old man with us.
Go and have a look and let him fulfill his wish, okay? I promise you this!"
I was crying so fast, I couldn't catch my breath, I couldn't rationalize at all, and sometimes I couldn't concentrate my thoughts properly. I only know that my thinking was on the verge of collapse.
All the true reserve, all the courage and all the strength that I had today collapsed in this moment.
"Maomao, after all this is over, we will plan for more futures, but you must promise me that I will not let the old man know what I am telling you today. I don't want the old man to have too much trouble.
There is more pressure. I hope that the old man will be in a happy mood in the next few months and that he can use the best way to complete the best journey of his life."
Na Jintang paused and continued,
"And Mr. John has told me that I can give up some radical treatments and now only do some conservative treatments. And conservative treatments may have a sleeping effect in them, and Suihua will be unknowingly.
Relieving a lot of pressure will relieve a lot of his discomfort. Of course, in this world, I need to tell you, because you are also his relative after all. Do you think you agree to a conservative treatment? When all this
After everything is over, the old man will slowly fall asleep as if in a sleeping state, and nothing will happen. This may reduce the pain, but if these radical treatments are given up, then the old man's life will seem to be withering.
The flowers slowly wither, are you willing to do this?"
I looked up at him, and I was very confused. I was sure that it was impossible that I couldn't accept such a method. I thought that method was too cruel, very cruel. Could it really be that it would slowly wither like a flower?
"Isn't Jintang's method too cruel? If we use better scientific methods, can we extend the life of the elderly? Can we arrange to go abroad? For example, will foreign medical technology be more developed?
?We will learn better things when we go abroad, and we will be able to do better things when the time comes. And if we make even the slightest effort, we cannot give up any of this..."
The more I say this, the less I have the strength, the less confidence I have, and the more I know how to understand these things, because for me, I am simply not willing to do such a thing.
Na Jintang didn't deny what I said, nor did he affirm it. Instead, he asked me lightly.
"If one day I am like the old man, would you be willing to let me give up conservative treatment? Which choice would you make if I were me?"
This question is for me to figure out. I really don’t know how to say it and how you should not do it, because it is really difficult for me to choose these things.
The old man has lived a magnanimous and heroic life for most of his life. If he is allowed to lie down alive and gurgling inside every day as he is now, he will definitely not be willing to do so.
Always stand up to live, never want to lie down to die.
Who would be willing to be tortured to death during birth, old age, illness and death? No one would be willing to have a beautiful life.
I can't answer his question, because it is too difficult for me. If it were me, I would pull out all the infusion tubes on my body without hesitation. I would rather die alone than live in poverty.
So miserable.
That's the old man. How could the old man be treated in this way? But the old man is a generational hero. Do you want him to still be seen as nothing more than a bad old man at the most critical moment of his life?
I know, I really don’t know, but I think this kind of thing should have its own decision-making power. I saw the Jintang in Suihua.
A very firm tone, or a very affirmative tone.
"If it really is that day, no matter what you tell me, if I really go out in a state where I can't save my life, I hope you won't let me stay in the ward anymore. I hope I can go outside to breathe fresh air."
The air, I think I want my life to shrink in nature, and I really don’t want to be in the ward, it’s so miserable.”
Na Jintang smiled, smiled softly, a rare smile today, as if he had a gentle smile from the bottom of his heart.
"Maomao, you have finally grown up. You know that there are many things in some people's hearts that you can't get if you are completely willing to fight for them. Life is a continuous process of inheritance from generation to generation. We must respect Suihua.
When my life is really about to come to an end in my heart, don’t fight. Sometimes you let nature take its course and let your life end in a very natural way. That is the best thing.”
I nodded, and I roughly understood what he meant. I knew that what he meant was a very open-minded idea. If this happened to him and me, maybe I would do something like this.