Regarding this matter, I think the sooner this kind of thing can pass, the better, because I don’t know how far this situation will go, of course for this kind of thing.
I think many things may lead to more judgments, and there may be some situations before such judgments.
So if I know this, I might ask Anna to do it, but I don’t know to what extent Anna can only do it.
But I can only make arrangements or give him a suggestion.
"I may tell you about this matter. I know that this matter is not understood at all, but if there are some things that are normal, I hope you can keep this matter a secret for me, because I don't know what will happen with this matter.
This kind of thing, because after so many days, I have thought about it over and over again, and I am really confused. You are my friend, and I really want to communicate with you. I don’t know if you can
You can’t listen to my explanation, but can you keep these aspects of my life a secret?”
Anna nodded. He didn't know what it meant, but he felt that my expression should be very cautious, so she nodded to express her attitude.
"Yes, about this matter, Cat, just tell me directly. I don't know what you have to say. If I can help you, I will try my best to help you."
I swallowed my saliva and spoke to him in a very calm manner, or in a way that would not cause too many fluctuations.
"Well, I haven't thought about this matter so much. I just want to discuss it with you. If you understand it this way, you may be able to do something. You know I have always wanted to return to my hometown during this time.
Go, I actually still have a lot of fear and a lot of strangeness about the city I've passed here. I know I can't adapt here at all. Although Jintang is very good to me, really good, I really
I am very grateful for his help to me over the years, but I really have never been able to adapt to my own life. I have a feeling of fear in this city, so sometimes when I dream at night, I think
Back to my hometown, my hometown is an orphanage. Although it is very poor, I grew up there. I really want to go back, but I don’t know how to tell Jintang about these things. I know that I
If I say it, Jintang will not allow me to go back, so as this matter gradually progresses, I am still a little scared in my heart. I really want to go back as soon as possible. If I say this at the same time, it will
Wouldn't that be too selfish?"
As expected, Anna looked at me with a very serious expression, as if she was caught off guard by what I looked like now.
In other words, she might have some understanding of such an action of mine. Whether she understood it or not, I just looked at her like this.
"Cat, can I be honest with you?"
"you say!"
"I know that I don't know what to say about this matter now. I know that there may be more possibilities for this matter, but I know that the relationship between you should have experienced so many ups and downs, and has also experienced so many
It has been a process of rehearsal for many years. I hope you will persevere in this study, but everyone has his own ambitions. I don’t know why you suddenly want to return to your hometown at this time. Don’t you just persevere? And
Now this factory really needs you to go through the training some time ago, and Najintang has the only important responsibility for you, and this factory is named after you. It can be imagined how much Najintang loves you, you
It's time to leave him, and this project is now in a very critical transformation period. You want his whole body and mind to be distracted at this time. In this case, you may cause great harm to this factory. Why don't you think about it?
this matter?"
I make this very distressed expression, or I make a very determined expression.
"I know that what I am doing now is very impulsive, I know that what I am doing now is very selfish, but I also know that the factory is in a period of transition, and this period is very important to everyone, so if
Can I ask you to stay and take care of him? I may want to leave soon, because I really don’t want to stay any longer. I have real feelings here every day, and I feel very uncomfortable every day.
I really can’t do it either. I think about my home. I think about breathing fresh air in our hometown. I really don’t adapt to this city at all. I have a deep fear of these interactions. Today I talked to
Dealing with these people really makes me speechless, because I don’t know what language to use to look at them. Although I smile when I see them, in fact I feel very painful inside!"
"Cat, I know you have your own thoughts and plans on this matter, and I won't interfere with you. But think about it, you have experienced so many relationships and so many years of experience. Do you really want to talk about these things?
I just left as I said, and I didn’t expect that the entire factory is facing a crisis that has lasted for more than a year. Within these three months, if we don’t have a better solution, we may not be able to stop in these three months.
, couldn’t you be with Na Jintang at this most critical and difficult time?!"
Anna's statement, there is a little bit of money and some angry feelings, of course I can understand it.
Her current mood is natural, and it is impossible for anyone to take action at this time, and actions like mine, leaving at this time are completely the actions of a special villain.
But I know I have to do this, I have to make Anna angry, I have to make Anna hate me more at this time.
At this time, she will be overflowing with sympathy and help Na Jintang. I think this is the best way.
I really don’t want anyone in Jintang to support him after I leave. Maybe Anna’s friendship is crucial to him.
"Cat, I really think you should consider this matter carefully. Of course, this is your position and this is your attitude. In this way, I will keep this matter a secret for you, because I
I promised you, but I think this thing is really not easy to do, and it makes people think, what will everyone think if you abandon Najintang at this time, and everyone will spurn you, will you?
Take this into consideration!”
I never walk carefully, I seem to make my whole performance appear more natural.
I seem to make myself appear more ruthless in this regard. I don't want to show any special wavering at this time, and I will definitely persist in this matter and go on!
"Anna, I don't know this. If I tell you this, you will definitely keep it a secret for me, because I have made up my mind about this. No matter what, I have to leave here. I have to go back to my hometown. I hope I can
Breathe freely, and the time point is very fast. I don’t know what will happen to the factory in three months. I have done my best. If this thing happens to the factory in the entire three months, there is any possibility.
A collapse, this really has nothing to do with me, and I don’t have the ability to bear all this, so, I just want to leave now. I really want to leave here now, I don’t care about this matter, then Jintang
What kind of action will he make to me? I hope I can leave quietly. I don't want him to have too many worries or too many expectations. Can you promise me? I just need to leave."
I looked at Anna sincerely.
I know that Anna looks at me now with a very incredible look, or the way he looks at me, with a very disgusting expression, maybe he has too much regard for me.
recognition.
But I know that he understands this kind of thing, so okay, I will make it better based on this understanding. It doesn’t matter, it really doesn’t matter.
Anyway, as long as Anna can be retained at the last moment, it would be better if Anna doesn't leave the country so quickly and doesn't go back so quickly.
Even if she still has a little bit of affection for Najintang, it is a good thing and an excellent thing.
I can do this, maybe I am really despicable, I took advantage of Anna's feelings and took advantage of my selfishness.
I don't know if I've done this well enough, but I know if I've made Anna angry enough at this time.
"Miss Cat, I really feel that what you just said, I don't know how to respond to your emotion, but I have to say that I am very disappointed, I am very, very disappointed with what you just said.
, I am really disappointed. If these are really your decisions, I can't stop you. Everyone's position is fair, and everyone has their own decision on this position.
There is no doubt about this, and I don’t want to make any excessive moral judgments on you on this matter. No one has the right to do this, so I don’t care what decision you make!”
I looked at her coldly and decided to say some harsh words to myself.
"Isn't it the same for you? Aren't you going back to the country soon? Aren't you leaving him behind too? Aren't the two of us mutually in love with each other? Could it be that these things can only be for you to go back to the country and live your life freely?
Life, you live the life you want, you can come when you want, leave when you want, this is your own decision, no one will do anything to you, am I not the same, don't I, I don't want to have this
Rights? I came and I left. Do I have the same rights as you? Do we all try our best? Why should we use this method and attitude to accuse me? No one uses this method.
Come and accuse me!"
Anna suddenly stood up and looked at me with a very regretful look.
"Miss Cat, I'm really sorry for what you said. I really didn't know you would say these words. Maybe if you say these words, I might be able to understand you better, but I just said,
We don’t need to look at each other from any moral perspective. You are free to go out, and I am free to go. But let me tell you, I am not as selfish as you... just pretend that I have never met you.
you!"
After she said this, she turned around and left!
I was left alone there drinking coffee, thinking that maybe my goal had been achieved...