I was listening to his story, and my heart was beating with fear. It was a very difficult process for me, because it was like the bloody thing that happened once.
It's really hard for me to accept him. For a person, it's a kind of wound that has been reopened.
One can only imagine how severe this discomfort would be.
I didn't make any more specific noises, I knew he would definitely tell me about the case.
Why should you reject his response?
Because when they fully speak out, it may be a good thing for him, a slow process, what kind of process happens.
But if he is willing to revisit and think about this matter again, it means that he may have to face this matter again.
No matter what the overall process of things will happen.
But I think he must have his own ideas and solutions.
He seemed to be controlling his emotions, controlling his nervousness, controlling his trembling, and controlling all his current uneasiness.
He took a deep breath and hugged me tightly.
I know that he is trying hard to overcome various emotions that cause him great anxiety.
"I know this kind of thing may have a long story, but it is really a very painful thing. Now when I think about what happened, I feel like I am living in a dream. I lost my mother and I forever that day.
Father, I will always remember that moment! There was a black scar on the right side of the black man's neck. I am looking for this man's excess. I believe there will be something here soon. Don't worry too much.
Repaying my parents is something I must do. If I can't do something as a child, how will I face my parents in the future?"
"Don't worry, Jintang, these people will have their retribution eventually. It's not that heaven will not repay them in reincarnation, but it's just that before the time comes, they will be dug out."
He didn't seem to have much recollection of my words. He seemed to be still immersed in his past time, and he continued to speak slowly and unconsciously.
"When I was knocked unconscious, I was taken to a strange place that I had never been to. There was a very noble and beautiful woman there. This woman was about the same age as my mother.
, but I never knew her identity at the time, but I knew that she was a very mysterious woman, with many servants serving her, and she would never show up easily. Later, in many people’s conversations
Among them, I finally found out that her name is Nalanggege."
When I heard this, I was very shocked and speechless.
The name is very familiar, so familiar that it makes people feel as if they feel familiar when they hear the name.
This morning, when they opened the church to worship their ancestors, one of the people ranked was Nalanggege!
Could it be that the person who adopted him at that time was indeed Nalangege, so when I paid homage to my ancestors today, I went to worship Nalangege specifically.
It turned out that Nalangage was like giving him a second life.
When I thought about this, I certainly seemed to have some clues. It turns out that when I worship my ancestors today, this should be the reason, otherwise I would not understand his tablets as how precious they are.
When he said this name, I don't know why, but I felt so excited deep in my heart, as if I was inextricably linked to the name, but I couldn't tell what kind of relationship it was, but I didn't say anything.
As for Yu, I should have a very familiar feeling for this name, but I can't tell. Maybe it's because this Gege once helped Na Jintang.
"Later I have been living in Nalangage's house, and Nalangage has been taking care of me. Later I found out that Nalangage has always been mysterious because he has been taking care of a child, and this child is him.
His biological child, so he used all his strength to take care of it. In addition, his postpartum constitution is relatively weak. Suihua has not visited very often, but I often hear the cry of a child coming from the room.
But a very clear girl’s voice…”
I listened quietly, and I felt that there was nothing special, but it seemed that Jintang was not only that, he looked at me with a very deep look, and kept looking at me, as if he had integrated me into
Inside a deep ocean.
I don't understand the meaning of his look, but I only know that this story is very important to him. Could this girl be the legendary girl from Zuma who grew up with him in the village?
That is, the back of the girl I have been looking for. This girl's back exists.
There should be a lot of family affection between them, or is there some kind of role that involves competition and love?
I had a certain feeling of jealousy in my heart. I knew that maybe this girl was the so-called childhood sweetheart, which meant that they had had some kind of relationship. Then I heard Anna say the girl's voice at the right time,
So that's it, it seems this story is true.
But at this time, I didn't feel any jealousy at all. It was too late to be jealous now, because this sad story had already spread in my mood.
"What happened next? You continued living in Nalanggege, so why did you come to the old man's house later? Did something happen that caused you to have to separate like this? Or was it?
Because this Nalangge may have to go abroad or something like that, what will happen if it causes you to separate again?"
I kept silent and dared not talk about this woman. I knew that if I talked about it, I would definitely be extremely jealous. I could only find a topic to talk about this girl. I was really jealous at this moment and going crazy.
Feel.
He sighed deeply, and there was a sense of resonance in the process of sighing. I knew that his feeling should be very obvious.
I don't know what that feeling is like, but I know that he has a deep, unspeakable train of thought and an unspeakable emotion.
I can't find a place to look for this feeling.
"Later, I lived in Nalangage's home for three full years. During these three years, I have been living in pain. I have been thinking about your mother and my mother. I have been wanting to find my enemies and take revenge all day long.
, but Nalangge has been blocking me. She used various methods to prevent me from leaving this house. I know that he is doing it for my own good, but I know that I don’t have any emotions to stay in that home now. I have to
To leave, I tried all kinds of ways, but after all, I couldn't leave..."
"During this period, Nalangege taught me martial arts and taught me various martial arts moves. Nalangege is also a master in her own right, but you don't think she is a woman, but she is a real person.
Zhong is among the masters. During these three years, she tried every means and taught me all the skills. I had no choice but to grit my teeth and learn with her..."
"In the past three years, I have had this nightmare countless times. I have had many nightmares. I dreamed that I could save my parents and hurt those poor people. I have achieved these dreams. I dream about them every day.
I did these things until one day, Nalangge took me into the room and told me something carefully."
"She asked me to hold this little girl and make me swear to take care of this little girl forever and ever. No matter where this little girl lives in the future, no matter what happens to the little girl, I must go and take care of her wholeheartedly.
Take care of her, love her, protect her, and give her the best of everything..."
With a hazy attitude and looking at the sadness in front of me, I finally understood why he was deeply in love with a woman and never talked about such a topic. This may be what Anna said.
In fact, he himself had such a woman, and this woman had already occupied all the positions in the Jintang many years ago.
So it is irreplaceable, but where has this woman gone, where is this woman, why are they looking for her now, to make her her woman.
Did any accidents happen?
"Even if you tell me what happened to that girl, why have I never seen you mention any girl? Has something happened to her somewhere now?"
I asked this question eagerly. It was really important to me. I felt an unspeakable sour feeling in my heart. The three times I felt it directly defeated all my nerves and desires.
I know this is too cruel for me. I originally thought that the man I loved was so non-narrow and loved me wholeheartedly.
And I loved him with the same emotion that I used all my strength to love.
However, there is still a girl among us.
Now I finally understand the reason for this. It turns out that any love I have cannot be so simple and pure. Many things may be just wishful thinking on my part.
My heart is full of bitterness.
at this time.
Na Jintang stretched out his hands and gently touched every inch of my face, my eyes, my nose, and my hair.
"Yes, what happened to that girl was an accident, an unexpected future, an accident that caught people off guard, so you would expect that things would happen. At this point, we should all have thought that all things can continue at once
If it goes on, all the good things can continue, but everything is a little unexpected in this way?"
I saw him looking like he was obsessed with the past, so I asked a question out of nowhere.
"Then Jintang, tell me, do I look a lot like him? That's why you have more contact with me because of him, right? Is it because what we are looking for is a little bit similar, you
That’s why you use this method?”
I feel a little regretful. It’s really embarrassing for me to blurt out these words. How could I say such similar words?
But this thing really makes me feel very strange. When I asked you later, he once said that if I smile at someone, it is because of my appearance that I have attracted too much attention from him.
That's why the words triggered an idea in him.
I'm not sure, but I always feel that there is some possibility. It is indeed possible that my appearance caused him unnecessary misunderstanding.
Or it may cause him to like you. This possibility is possible.
Who doesn't say that this possibility exists, everything is possible.
Even though he didn't say this to me, he himself was shocked. It seemed that he found it a bit unbelievable for me to ask this question, or that it was impossible for me to say such a thing.
But as I looked at his trembling body, did I feel that what I just said was wrong, or that one of my judgments should be that my intuition was correct.
I saw him touching my hand and paused. For a moment, I really felt that all my judgments were true and valid.
"Maomao, how could you have such an idea?"
"This is normal. If Nalangge wants you to take care of the girl, then you must agree to take care of the girl. Now that the girl doesn't see it, is it because of other reasons?
Or is it because of your guilt that you are in this situation, that’s why you have such a good impression of me, and that’s why you see me? Is it for this reason?”
I blurted it out, but I felt deeply afraid that the answer I got was correct.
I'm afraid that he will admit and nod this answer, which is really important to me.
I really feel that I really can't accept this kind of charity love.
He looked at me deeply and had no intention of answering my questions afterwards. In my opinion, if he was silent, then silence means a certain thing. I don't care what happens to this matter.
But I know that his promise is really like agreeing to something that I am very optimistic about.
I'm really scared of what will happen. What will happen then? Is it something I can't bear?
If I were really a female substitute, this would be a very cruel blow to me and more than just me.
What I want is the pure love between two people for a lifetime.
I don't want those so-called substitutes, let alone those so-called sympathy and charity.
There were some tears in my eyes. I didn't know how to express it, but I knew that there were some things that I had to accept as facts.
Because he has not told me the answer for a long time.
His silence scared me and made me feel that the truth of this fact was so close... (To be continued)