Na Jintang looked at me, maybe he asked me this question, or in other words, he looked at me from inside his body. But after I forgot about this question, I felt it was my own fault.
I have been in deep trouble so many times. If it weren't for him, how could I have been saved? After I came out, the question I am asking now is actually a very contradictory and self-contradictory psychological activity.
"Why do you have such an idea? Thinking that so many people have experienced so much confusion, don't you still know what I am thinking? Are you still thinking about these things? We are about to get married, I
Could this thing possibly think that I might have deceived you a little bit in the process?!"
It's rare for Jintang to show any signs of animals in front of me, but this time it really angered him. I know that he is usually very gentle and kind in front of me, but to people outside Leshan, the poet seems arrogant.
, as long as people are not people who cannot trust themselves.
We must be clear about a lion, and this lion will always be a king. It will not be as simple as you imagine. He will always let you see his sharp fangs, sharp claws and sharp claws.
"No matter what tomorrow, I will just help you go to the orphanage. Look, you are talking nonsense in this regard! And you still don't believe this thing after so many years. If I really did it because of this money, do you think I
Will you leave this opportunity? I will, so you always have to believe in some things. I know my heart is very sad for you..."
Maybe what I said really hurt 1931. Maybe what I just said was too sharp.
But I know there are some things that I have to let him let go of in this way. I don't know what the reason is, because I know what kind of situation this wealth is carrying.
But for Na Jintang, according to his character, he will never be able to touch this money, and this money should be a very important supporting part, so in this current situation,
I believe even if the money gets to him.
He also doesn't know how to solve the situation that the entire factory is facing now, and how to deal with this solution.
Now I don't know how to implement this plan at all, nor how to do this thing.
I smiled faintly, as if I didn't know what to do with his current situation, but I knew there were some things that no matter what method I used to understand them, I had to do them myself.
"Because although I believe what you said is correct, I don't even believe it in myself now. I don't know what my identity is at all. Maybe these things about me seem as natural as choices.
People, but this thing is really based on my understanding, that maybe there are too many things in this kind of thing, and human desires are in it. I don’t know what kind of situation this kind of thing will have, so if you tell me today
I feel very shocked by these things. I can’t do anything about it now. Even if I laugh at my current mood, I don’t know what the situation is like now. As a result, I need some time to process it quietly and calmly.
Clear your mind."
Na Jintang was a little anxious at this time. He directly held my shoulders with both hands and looked at me with very proud eyes.
"Maomao, believe me, you know that I am not 100% sure that this thing is your identity, but no matter what, this thing cannot become a thing between us. If you are really that out of character
As for a woman, in fact, we have such a fate that we can no longer find. I promised Nalangge that I would protect you no matter what. This is when I carried out my promise. We are common things.
We share this fate."
I looked at him, and of course I understood his excitement at this time. I knew that this thing was very important to me, and of course I also knew that this thing meant something to me, but
I'm really having a hard time with my head right now.
Because when Najintang told me again, this thing didn't give me much room to think about it at all, although I had such a thought before and thought it was possible.
But when this thing was told to me personally through the Jintang, I was really caught off guard and a little panicked. Why, could it be that my background also has such a bloody feud?
I even followed Na Jintang with some tears.
"Then Jintang, tell me, if this thing is true, if I am a princess, if I am a princess, then tell me if the person who hurt my mother is you and your enemy.
, right? Is it such a situation? Did they force my mother to commit suicide? Then my mother had to abandon me to a strange environment, right? I was
There is definitely no way for my mother to make such a situation. If she were willing, she would definitely not abandon me, right? She would definitely want me to grow up alone in an orphanage, right?"
I suddenly realized that this thing is indeed the case, and I suddenly realized that this situation is so, I really thought about this thing, there are really too many surprises, I suddenly realized that this thing may have a lot to do with 789
.
"Then Jintang, please tell me if 789 played a very dirty role in it. Did he have an inescapable relationship with 789 back then? Why has he been looking for this wealth for so many years? It means that he has long peeped at the impact of this wealth.
No, I like him simply because I want to keep this wealth for myself, so he will always look for my mother's daughter to find such a thing. He just wants to get this wealth, right?
In other words, could 789 be my enemy and your enemy?"
I was really nervous. I stared at Na Jintang closely. I felt like I could get the information I wanted from his mouth. I wanted to know what happened to this thing.
This thing is really unpredictable for me. I suddenly discovered that I am not alone in this world. I once had a mother and how much my mother loved me.
I have a great love that is not my mother's. There is no way for me to escape this opportunity. If my mother hadn't protected my group in this way, maybe I wouldn't have been able to survive in this world.
Thank you, mother, for taking such good care of me. I suddenly felt an unspeakable pain, because I couldn’t express this feeling of happiness, and I was under the double attack of this multiple feeling of happiness.
I am really afraid that I will lose my judgment every time now, so the only one I rely on is that Jintang.
Na Jintang hugged me tightly, and seemed to have more comfort and more emotion in my current out-of-control emotions. I know that this kind of thing may contain too much.
Yes, there is an element of restrained emotion in it.
"Mao Mao, let me tell you, I will tell you all these things. You have to promise me something. You have to promise me something no matter what. You promise me that no matter what, you must be safe when I come back from spending the night.
I promised to wait at home, and I must not cause trouble to anyone, you know? No one can beat you now, and if you go there at this time, you may become a trump card for others, and this trump card may be used by others.
It puts a lot of constraints on me, can you promise me?"
I looked at him blankly. I really didn’t know what to say. I really didn’t know how to talk about this. It really made me very conflicted and entangled. I really couldn’t do anything for him.
A promise, and any such promise is impossible for me to achieve, because this kind of thing is really very difficult for me.
"Then Jintang, I will be honest at home. I will stay safe at home and wait for you to come back. Don't worry, I won't trouble anyone. What kind of ability do I have to trouble others?
, you tell me at this time, we must deal with things together!"
I made such a simple promise, but I didn't know that I had some trump cards. I haven't told him the last trump card yet, and I didn't know what it would mean if I said it.
But I know that no matter what I say or not, these things are likely to cause big problems, and this kind of thing no matter what happens, no matter what happens.
The most important thing I know what to do now is to go as soon as possible.
In Jintang, he trembled and hugged me tightly. I finally felt that our two lonely hearts were so close. It turned out that I was so strange to him, and sometimes I was so strange to him.
It's so familiar, it turns out we have so many similar experiences.
Our common experience is the same twists and turns we have faced, and together we have faced an insurmountable enemy.
And this thing may really become something we face together. Sometimes fate is really a wonderful thing.
Some destiny is a kind of thing that cannot be expressed in words, just like this moment.
He let out a long sigh and finally told me everything I didn't know.
"Actually, before you were sent to Freight, this Freight had already existed. This was Nalanggege. For some unknown reason at the time, each other regarded this place as a secret place. Of course, this
In fact, the dean was also the slave of Gege back then. In this sentence, why did the slave of Gege hate you so much? Later, many years later, I discovered that there may be such a fundamental reason."
"The dean, in fact, was a slave who was punished back then. This slave simply stole an important thing from Princess and gave it to the outside world. In other words, he betrayed his brother to a certain extent, because this slave secretly followed
He was with someone else, so my brother sent him to an orphanage to punish him."
"Originally, I was going to send him back, but a huge turmoil happened to happen. At that time, Gege didn't have time to make the final arrangements, so in the end I had to send you to the dean.
The reason why the dean was so loyal to Princess was that he had always been very loyal to Princess and wanted to go back."
"In one of the dean's ideas, he believed that you killed your mother, so he vented all his anger on you, but he didn't dare to hurt you because he knew that if he hurt you
If you kill your master, you will be punished by God."
"So under this multi-layered contradiction, the dean has always treated you in a very contradictory way. You can find that you can now seriously think that the dean has been very harsh on you, and there are many
A kind of uneasy thing, but the dean has never been cruel to you. He will rely on you when you are in the most critical moment, but he will not let you get close to him, so if you go through it once or twice,
When you grow up, the reason why you feel confused and safe at the same time is because of this."
I was suddenly stunned. I thought about it seriously. It seemed that this was indeed the case. The dean really hated me. He really thought that I just wanted to study.
But sometimes the director would not kick me out of the orphanage, nor would he do anything cruel to me, but I felt at ease. It was indeed the case, so I agreed with what Jintang said.
That way.
What makes me feel very hateful and safe at the same time.
I looked at the Jintang and said.
"You don't know how much I hated the dean. The dean really wanted to peel off my skin. I once swore that if one day I could leave this mountain, I would never come back.
, I will never come back for the rest of my life, because this place carries too much hatred for me and too many unbearable memories of my childhood. After so many years, I suddenly thought of why I wanted to return to Orphan just like my brothers.
Go inside the courtyard, maybe we have lived here for many years, many things have happened here, we have stayed here for many years, this is our real home, it was our roots and our first
Hometown, it is undeniable that that place can bring us infinite attachment."
I found a secret in my heart and found an excuse to return to the orphanage reasonably. (To be continued)