What I really want to know is that secrets are really important to you and me, no matter what happens, no matter what difficulties we experience.
But sometimes my brothers and I are completely integrated, but this thing is really too important to me.
If I can't even know this thing, I can't help my brother at all. My brothers, he has experienced this pain for so many years. We just share the difficulties and the blessings.
So if it is really as I imagined, and their parents' generation is actually connected to mine, then why do you need to treat some things as something that you have no way of understanding?
Of course, this thing is really not important. What is important is how we solve the problem. It can only create the best survival for us.
No matter what, we must cherish our lives and be filial to our parents first. If everyone has a concern for social survival.
Wouldn't that be a waste of time?
"Tell me what happened? Is there anything that can't be solved at all? I should have the right to know this kind of thing. You know brothers, it's a very important thing to me. It's reaction, there is
What kind of special status, shouldn’t they know their own lives? Shouldn’t they know their rights in life? Even if they don’t know, I have the right to know if it’s right, and I also need to know how to help.
They, I will not tell them this situation, you believe me, I will not tell them this kind of thing so silently, I will not harm them!"
The thing about me is that I actually want brothers. You know what these things are like, and I know that there are many things that I may not write about.
But they would never do it, not knowing that it might be harmful to them.
Na Jintang is looking at me now and hugging me deeply.
"This thing is actually a secret. Why haven't I talked about it for so many years? Because I don't want to cause you too much trouble. Those things really don't matter what kind of things I have experienced.
Even your fathers must not want us to make anything. Maybe they want us to live such a simple, ordinary life. Maybe they don’t want us to go there at all. They have the same common experience as them.
Maybe their experience is that they are such ruthless people. Sometimes we have to abide by their thoughts, because this thing is an unspeakable pain to them. Of course, they hope that their descendants will always be mediocre.
An'an."
I roughly understood what he meant, and I understood that what he said he had to say was actually the same thing as what I wanted to say.
There is no such thing as a peaceful life in this world, and there is no such thing as wealth and honor. Some things are just a last resort, so some things are definitely not what they are.
More of a do-it-yourself approach.
Sometimes people will continue to push forward in this irregular process of fate.
"Well Jintang, I know, if I guessed correctly, their parents are actually the people who came out of the palace together, right? The people who will take care of you and protect this wealth after these 1 kilometers are actually their parents.
, they will come out with their families in the future, and there will also be children left behind, is it them?"
Then Jintang knew at this time that there might be nothing that could be done about this matter, so this case was done. What was there to hide about this kind of thing, and this thing had reached such a critical moment.
It doesn't make any sense if you are necessary here.
"Yes, often these things really cannot be hidden from you. You are very smart and you know this very well. In fact, they are not orphans in the true sense. They are all descendants of heroes. They all do it out of necessity.
, to live in this orphanage, to live in an orphanage, in fact, it is really because of these reasons that we got there. All of these, but it is because of this factor, so you are not orphans, you are all
They are people who have parents, but your parents are the same as my parents in some things. They have to do what they want to do and they want to realize their dreams."
Although I already had this answer in my heart, when I said it through Najin Hall, I was still shocked.
This is an indescribable shock, not only to me, I really didn’t expect this, but also whether I should believe it or not.
There is a bitter feeling inside that cannot be put into words.
"Then their parents were all killed that night when you were protecting Nalangge. Is it because of that night?"
When I said this, my voice trembled loudly. I knew it must be that night. If it hadn't been for that night, how could the entire army be wiped out in one moment? How could everything have completely disappeared in between.
It started with that night. It was that night that the black people killed all of them, and they came to the orphanage in pieces.
I followed Na Jintang for the whole time. I didn't want to miss any of his words at this time, because every word was too important to me. I didn't know what my mood was like at this time.
But now, besides being dumbfounded, I feel more sad. I am really sad. I really thought I was living a carefree life, but we lived a very miserable childhood there.
I used to think that we were orphans with no one to love us, but I didn’t expect that until today, in fact, we might really be babies in the eyes of our parents. Which child is not a baby?
And our children have really grown up now, but we may be very different from the previous generation.
Maybe to them we are safe and happy now, but to us it is extremely cruel.
"Mao Mao, I'm telling you all this now. You have to listen carefully. All of this is very important to you and to me. All of this has happened before. We should know the truth of this matter. I have been here for a long time.
I don’t want to tell you the truth of this matter, but I have never dared to tell you. I am afraid of disappointing you. I am afraid that you will be suddenly broken in the circle of life that you are accustomed to. I am afraid that you do not know something.
I'm afraid that you will lose this balance with this kind of thing. I'm really afraid. I don't know how to say it. It's something that is impossible for you and me to face, but now I'm telling you these things.
, I hope you will face it with me, I am willing now, I want you to come with me to understand this thing together..."
I nodded to give him a private encouragement and gave him the courage to continue speaking, because he was trembling all over in Najintang.
I know that for such a strong man, what he said again has touched the weakest voice in his heart, the very subtle thing deep in his heart.
I think this kind of thing is really a very cruel thing for him, and it is also a kind of torment and torture for him.
"This thing has happened for many years. I always remember what happened that night. Then they all came to this villa in darkness, and when they entered the villa, no one said a word.
If you say that, you will kill anyone you see. And because those guards with swords were given an ecstasy incense and poison all over their bodies in advance, they had no way to develop any martial arts, and all their internal strength disappeared. In this case, because they were poisoned by such poison,
, so they had no way to resist, they were hacked to death one by one!"
Na Jintang's eyes were red when he said this, and every word seemed so gritted, but every word he said seemed so difficult, I had a feeling that I couldn't speak.
I wanted to cry, I wanted to cry loudly, even though I didn't experience it at that time.
But I can feel how tragic the process was at that time. If that terrible thing happened when this thing has reached its extreme, I can really imagine the pain of that process.
Then the process has always been something that comes out in a way that is self-evident.
You can imagine what happened like a river of blood.
"I was hiding in a small closet. I didn't dare to come out at all, but Nalangge protected me. He always wanted me to hide in it. He told me to leave quickly. I knew I really couldn't leave at this time.
, I really don’t know why, I felt very scared at that time, you were crying, you were crying loudly, you seemed to feel the coming of life, you used your cry to shout, you used your cry
To fight against this reality, you were such a small person at that time. When I heard your voice, my heart was torn, and even Nalan Gege shed tears!"
"Later, there was nothing we could do. There was no way at all. Everyone had lost any resistance. They killed all of them one by one. Our guards with swords here, we guards with swords, powerful orphans
The parents of the children in the hospital, they are warriors, they are real warriors. Even when there was no resistance at the last moment, they still persisted. They used all their strength to protect us. They used all their strength to protect us.
Let them live in this world, but there is nothing we can do about these things, because..."
When Na Jintang finished saying this, he lowered his head and cried quietly, crying loudly.
He couldn't talk any more and buried his head deeply in his hands.
He couldn't talk anymore, he couldn't hold on anymore, maybe this story caused too much pain to him, and then at this time he finally started crying. I have never seen him have such a fragile feeling before.
when.
But the way I see him now, he is really speechless, so fragile, he feels like a new life.
It has lost any resistance to the outside world.
He cried silently, probably for about ten minutes, with a slightly depressed and low voice. He was trying hard to control his emotions.
He is using all these to suppress this kind of thing, but he can't do it. There is no way to control it at all. You can imagine how much pressure this pain has on me.
What a huge thing that he couldn't hold on to, and how much damage this thing had caused to him, he had no way to hold on to it for so many years.
In other words, he has endured this kind of pressure and it has reached his psychology, and all of this finally broke out at this moment.
I also shed tears silently. It really seemed to me that I had seen that cruel scene. I saw my brothers’ fathers, including my mother, wearing the kind of skirts worn by men in black.
There is no grievance at all. They simply stick to their words and cut the machete into softness. They also want to stick to these things, insist on themselves, insist on their own strength, and insist on being unyielding.
This kind of life insists on this kind of persistence that cannot be expressed in words. They may have their own dreams.
But this dream has become their eternal everything.
Just like that thousand-year-old mantra.
After about ten minutes, Na Jintang started to look at me with a confused look.
"Tell me what I did wrong, tell me, I haven't told any of you for so many years, I have been really useless for so many years, I have no ability at all, I thought I could take revenge on everyone's behalf, I can
I want to avenge everyone, but over the years, I haven’t found anything here. I feel like I haven’t found my conditions. It’s really useless for me to be specific. I can’t make any explanation in front of their graves.
, I’m really useless!”
When I heard his painful voice, I immediately hugged his head tightly and comforted him. I knew that he felt that the pain had reached his limit. At this time, I couldn't control my tears.
It flowed down loudly.
"It's not your fault. You were still young at that time. You couldn't help you with anything, and I couldn't help you. We all had no way to control this fate. This life, he started to come like this. You can't do these things
You can't live without one's achievements, you should tell me all this early, maybe I will bear all this with you, and we will kill our enemies together!"
"No, you can't do it now. We haven't reached that time or opportunity. Now we have to wait..." (To be continued)