"Why do you want to be a janitor?" Chu Zihang asked.
Lu Mingfei rolled his eyes and looked at the sunlight falling from the parasol above his head, "Because that way you can do whatever you want. I had a lot of strange and weird ideas in my mind when I was a kid. When I had nothing to do, I would read books and fantasize about what I could do."<
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"It was like this when I was a kid. When I looked around, I wished it could be more fun and weird. But now I can't understand many things, so I don't think weird things are fun anymore."
"You still have something you can't figure out?" Chu Zihang was a little surprised, "I think you live quite comfortably every day."
"There are many things." Lu Mingfei said with deep understanding, then suddenly changed his mind, "For example, I just can't figure out one thing right now."
"What happened?"
"Brother, have you ever thought about what you will do after graduation?" Lu Mingfei stared at Chu Zihang seriously.
Chu Zihang was silent for a long time, then shook his head, "I never thought about it."
"I think you should think about it. The four years we stayed in Kassel were neither short nor long."
"Youth is such a thing. When you have it, you don't think it is very good, but it suddenly slips away from your hands, and then you regret it and want to catch it, and from time to time you miss those things in the past.
I don’t think it’s such a good memory.”
"Before I entered Kassel, I was quite confused. The day I received the Kassel admission notice, I was deeply impressed. I had to take the college entrance examination in three months and four days." Lu Mingfei's feet hanging outside
He was swaying and talking as if he didn't care.
"Those countdown-like days always dangle before my eyes, as if the whole world is roaring in my ears."
"It tells me that the end is coming, and I should be full of fighting spirit. I should pounce on the mock test paper like a murderous fighting cock, showing my determination to hang my head and stab my butt."
"I can't find any advantages in myself that I can be proud of. For me, the future should be to go to an unknown university, fall in love in the university, find a job and rent an apartment."
"Perhaps my unattractive parents would urge me to get married when they think of me occasionally, so I got married, had a child, went to work every day, and lived my whole life in a miserable state."
"I thought that the chaotic days would last forever, but it finally ended on a sunny morning when the admission notice from Kassel was sent to my home."
"I didn't want to go because I had a girl I liked at that time. You should know this, senior brother, even though I don't like her now." Lu Mingfei asked.
"Yes, I know." Chu Zihang nodded, "Chen Wenwen."
"Yes, it's Chen Wenwen. She often wears that white dress that looks like it's full of sunlight. Her back is straight, her hair is like a waterfall, and she's holding a few books in her hand that I've never heard of."
"I suddenly felt a great sadness coming over me, because my time was running out. If I didn't cancel the acceptance letter from Kassel, I only had a few days left to see her." "From now on, there will be a huge Pacific Ocean separating us."
"But can I cancel that notice? What should I do if I cancel that notice? My aunt filled out applications for more than a dozen American universities for me in those few months, and my whole family was working on that American notice.
Books are life-threatening."
"I suddenly had a terrible feeling that I was really about to graduate. I didn't have much chaotic time left. A fork in the road had appeared in my life. If I didn't choose it, I would have no choice but to
Like I said before, I will spend my whole life in Mimi Lake."
"I was very hesitant, and then something happened. The role I played in it was quite funny, so I won't tell you, senior brother, to avoid embarrassing myself."
"I actually know." Chu Zihang suddenly said, "In your resume when you entered school, you clearly stated the first eighteen years of your life."
"Hey, senior brother, you will make me very embarrassed." Lu Mingfei shouted dissatisfied.
"I'm sorry." Chu Zihang apologized silently.
"Forget it, it doesn't matter, it's been so long."
Lu Mingfei twisted his butt and changed into a comfortable sitting position, "Senior brother, since you know what happened, you should also know who came to get me out, right?"
"Nono."
"Well, my senior sister pulled me out, so I had no choice but to choose that fork in the road and keep walking along it. Even if there were mountains of swords and seas of fire ahead, I couldn't look back."
"Fortunately, I met the person I love most in my life at the fork in the road." Lu Mingfei squinted his eyes and looked at Nono's dark red back in the distance, "I have no regrets in choosing this path.
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"So, senior brother, do you understand what I want to express?" He asked Chu Zihang seriously.
"Probably...your youth?" Chu Zihang thought for a while and then answered.
"You can say that."
"But I'm different from you." Chu Zihang's tone became a little gloomy, as if he was suppressing some anger, "I chose this path myself."
"Odin?" Lu Ming asked nonchalantly.
"How do you know..." Chu Zihang turned to look at him and thought of something else, "Forget it, it's not strange that you know."
"Let's not talk about that Odin guy for now." Lu Mingfei shrugged, "Let's go back to the previous topic, senior brother, what are you going to do after graduation?"
Chu Zihang thought about it seriously this time and answered, "I should join the execution department and search for traces of dragons all over the world until..."
"Until you die in an accident one day during the mission?" Lu Mingfei interrupted, picked up the lemonade and took a sip, "It's very similar to your style, senior brother. You chase dragons all over the world and kill them, or you die on the mission.
In this situation, you will either get too violent and lose yourself completely."
"Yeah." Chu Zihang said with a blank expression. He was not surprised at all about the path he chose and its ending.
"That's the problem." Lu Mingfei snapped his fingers, "That's why I said, senior brother, you have been very tired."
"I don't think so." Chu Zihang said, "Since I have chosen this path, I will not regret it."
"Hey, senior brother," Lu Mingfei suddenly approached Chu Zihang with an ambiguous expression, "What do you think of Xia Mi?"
"What do you mean?" Chu Zihang frowned.
"Literally." Lu Mingfei winked, "Don't you think Xia Mi means something like that to you?"
"I don't know." Chu Zihang couldn't help but glance at Xia Mi in the distance, "I just feel a little strange."
"What's weird?" Lu Mingfei asked.
"When you went to bring breakfast this morning, she talked to me about some things in her family, about her younger brother."
"To be honest, I just asked casually, but I didn't expect her to tell me everything directly. For example, her brother is a dementia child and was beaten by several boys on the way home from school..."
"We have just met and are not very familiar with each other. We are still half strangers to each other. Why do we need to talk about all these touching and incomprehensible things?" Lu Mingfei said, "Senior brother, you want to express this, right?" Chu Zihang was stunned for a moment, then lowered his head and said softly, "Almost."
"I don't want to maliciously speculate on Xia Mi, I just think it's strange."
"Lu Mingfei, if you really know everything, you should also know about that rainy night."
"Everyone has something to hide in their heart, just like the absolute realm mentioned in EVA, the absolute spiritual realm. You don't want others to come in."
"Wow, senior brother, you have seen EVA. It seems that I have to take back my evaluation of you. You still have a little bit of childhood." Lu Mingfei interrupted cheerfully.
"Well, I watched part of it when I was a kid, but I didn't finish it." Chu Zihang said, "My absolute realm is an endless viaduct, a never-ending rainy night, and a car riddled with holes.
Maybach."
"I thought I would never share it with anyone in my life, but Xia Mi showed me her absolute domain so casually, without any defense."
"I heard her say these things
At that time, it was very strange. I suddenly felt that Xia Mi’s heart was an amusement park? And there was that long path. She walked through it wearing a white lace sundress, followed by a silly and smiling younger brother..." "Senior brother, do you think it's too rash?" Lu Mingfei gently sipped the lemonade.
"Yeah." Chu Zihang replied, "Why did Xia Mi share with me these things that should have been buried deep in his heart?"
"I think that I will probably just sit silently in the Maybach in my heart for the rest of my life, listening to Irish folk songs that are played over and over again."
"I don't quite understand it, so I feel strange."
Chu Zihang felt that he had never chatted with someone for so many days in his life, and his mouth was a little dry, so he picked up another untouched glass of lemonade on the small table next to him and took a sip.
"Is there such a possibility," Lu Mingfei said slowly, staring at Chu Zihang's everlasting golden eyes, "Xia Mi likes you."
The cold lemonade choked into the trachea, and Chu Zihang coughed violently.
Lu Mingfei patted his senior brother thoughtfully on the back and helped him calm down.
"Brother, don't think I'm joking." Lu Mingfei said with a serious face, "Think about it, what kind of person does a girl usually face before she would unscrupulously share her thoughts with that person?"
"He's the person she likes, senior brother."
Chu Zihang remained silent and did not speak.
Lu Mingfei suddenly hummed softly, Chu Zihang's most impressive song in "ne".
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"But how could a man understand? Even if he asked, she would never tell her."
"Maybe this is a girl's unique way, a sad little stubbornness."
"I am actually a person who lacks understanding of love and girls." Lu Mingfei suddenly laughed as he spoke, "Otherwise, my senior sister and I would not be so embarrassed when we fell in love."
"In fact, I don't have any conclusions about the relationship between a man and a flower girl. Is it love? But the ending is not a happy ending. On this vast planet, they met once and they sang together.
I listened to a lot of songs."
"Everything has the most appropriate ending. In a note with no borders and no differences, everything has reached the most perfect state. It looks good, right?"
"Maybe." Chu Zihang lowered his head, his long bangs hanging down to block his eyes, "This ending is pretty good for them."
"But is it really what you said, senior brother?" Lu Mingfei asked, "Obviously they can be together, it's obvious the ending can be better, it's obvious there are so many beautiful things in the world that people can witness."
"Why can't it be them?"
"And why..." Lu Mingfei said softly, "It can't be us?"
Chu Zihang didn't speak or move. His eyes were still hidden under his bangs, making it difficult to see the emotions hidden in them.
Lu Mingfei stopped talking, looking at the lake and gently sipping lemonade.
He really hates this kind of silence, it makes people go crazy. He wants to say something, but he doesn't know what to say.
"Hey! Senior brother! What are you doing paralyzing there?" Xia Mi shouted from a distance, breaking the stagnant atmosphere between the two of them, "Why don't you come and play together? Or are you all dead nerds?" p>
"Nonsense!" Lu Mingfei glared, stood up and prepared to walk that way, "Senior Brother Lu, I am a sunny boy, I'm just afraid that I will knock you all down when I come!"
"Lu Mingfei." Chu Zihang suddenly stopped him, "I seem to understand what youth means."
Lu Mingfei was stunned for a moment, then put on a sunny smile, "Brother, youth is the fate of Chang Yongzhi."
"It is a period of time when many dreams and that girl's silhouette turned into fragments of light and foam."
"It is not sacred, and it is by no means eternal, but it is important to each of us because it is free and vast, and because it goes and never comes back."
"So, be careful about the person in front of you, senior brother!" Lu Mingfei shouted, running towards the lake wearing a pair of big pants.