Volume 8 The Door to the Past Chapter 434 The Best Winter
"Taotao looks very cute..."
In the early morning breakfast shop, Lingjing and Yahan sat down. They used to be good friends as close as sisters, but now their mood was a bit complicated. Yahan knew that she should chase her out, but what should she say after chasing her out?
, she had been thinking about it for four years, but had no clue at all. Finally, it was Lingjing who spoke first.
"I thought you had come back recently." Yahan forced a smile. She had just run so fast that the stockings on her feet were torn. Now she put on high heels and reached out to touch her calf, "Jia Ming, he
...Jia Ming him..."
She said it several times in a row, but couldn't continue. Lingjing nodded: "Is it Jiaming's children's book?"
Yahan was silent for a moment: "The year you and Shasha left... I asked him to leave me a child to study. I... didn't know what to do and couldn't do anything..."
After her 29th birthday, Yahan already had a child, and she had maintained a strong woman attitude in the company in the past few years. When she recalled those things again, tears could not help but shine in her eyes.
The reason for the peace of mind in the past few years is because of Taotao, which does not mean that the sadness in her heart can be forgotten. During the time of speaking, the waiter had already brought the breakfast to her. Lingjing tried to make her voice normal: "What happened to him?
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"You should have seen his medical records..."
"I don't believe it..." Lingjing pursed her lips, "It's like a soap opera. How...how could there be a brain tumor..." "But it's really a brain tumor..." Yahan said softly, "I
I took him to the hospital several times, but the diagnosis was the same every time. He didn't want to be hospitalized. In the last few months, he was in constant pain, to the point that he couldn't stand it. I looked... I looked
I wish I could die..."
Lingjing sat there and opened her mouth several times, unable to make any sound: "Sister Yahan, are you... are you looking at him..."
"No...he left around February." Yahan stretched out her hand to support her forehead, "It was just after the New Year. Spring began on February 4th, and it was still snowing the next night. I don't know when he left.
But there were probably signs in the past few days, and he didn’t want me to see it... He was in too much pain..."
"I can't even feel the knife cutting on my hand. It's just pain. He has been trying to endure it so that no one can see it... Painkillers are useless if he doesn't go to the hospital. You know his character... I even asked a friend to buy them.
Heroin, but he doesn’t want it...I always feel sorry for you and Shasha..."
"I asked him to at least write you a letter and tell you these things, but he couldn't write it... Sometimes I got up at night and saw him sitting by the window writing something. After writing a few words, he threw it away. Later I
I picked it up secretly and read it. He said he was sorry to you at the beginning, but couldn't even write a few words to explain to you later. He probably felt that... he didn't have the position to apologize. He probably felt that no matter how much he apologized, he couldn't make up for your reasons...
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"But I hope you can forgive him..."
"How can I forgive him..." Lingjing lowered her head and held on, "I don't even know where he is. Come to me and speak clearly..."
There are people coming and going outside the gate. There are not many people in this store. But Lingjing and Yahan's temperament and appearance are too outstanding. If you look carefully, you can still see a lot of people glancing here intentionally or unintentionally.
Eyes. Yahan held Lingjing's hand. Before she could speak, a man in a suit who looked like an employee of a large company came over: "Do you two need help... I don't mean any harm..."
There were still tears in Yahan's eyes, so she raised her gaze and looked at the man, and said lightly: "Thank you." After a few seconds of silence, the man was defeated in Yahan's eyes.
He waved his hand: "Sorry..." and quickly backed away.
"Sister Yahan..."
"Actually, I have always been sorry for you and Shasha. He likes you the most and feels sorry for you the most..."
"But he had Taotao with you."
"I begged him. He agreed..." Yahan was silent for a moment, "His worldview is very different from ordinary people. He regards me as a friend. I like him, so he agreed. He values people who are good to him.
He is reluctant to hurt you...but what he cares about most is you..."
"I know it too. I don't even know why he writes like this, but I know that after four years in Vienna, I gradually figured it out... But so what, I'm just an ordinary woman..."
Lingjing cried, "I just want to be with him. I just want to accompany him at all times. Even if I get a terminal illness, I at least want to look at him. I also want to give him birth education, not everything else."
I was kept in the dark and was thrown to Vienna. I hated him for four years. When I came back, I wanted him to make it up to me, but I could only look at his grave and cry... I didn't want to cry... but I'm not that strong..."
"He is afraid that you will see his incompetent sample..."
"Yes, he is a coward..." Lingjing wiped away her tears, her voice soft and inaudible, "Sister Yahan, can you tell me... what happened during the last time you were with him?
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"Yeah." Yahan nodded, with a slight smile on his face, "It's actually not much. He came to see me on the night of November 4th, and it was just three months until February 5th, 2001...
...In just three months, he went out seven times in the villa, and three times I dragged him to the hospital. Just like before, he watched movies and comics every day, and occasionally used the computer to surf the Internet, mainly reading
Your news. When he sent you away, he arranged for someone to take care of you, and then he was able to find some information. Some of the things you did in Vienna were photographed..."
Lingjing clenched her fists, and Yahan patted her hand: "Do you still remember the day you celebrated the New Year in Vienna in the first year? If you didn't go home, some boys came to ask you out, but you didn't go. He asked someone to send him off.
I gave you a bouquet of roses, but you confiscated them and left them at the door... He couldn't help it. When he called to order the flowers, his head was already hurting. That night he said he wanted to cook, but he suddenly suddenly happened while using a knife.
It hurt, and he cut his finger with a knife, but he didn't even notice..."
She opened her mouth, and after a long while she breathed out: "He... has been very weak since he was a child, but he never shows it to others when he is really in pain. He suddenly frowns while reading, or when he becomes unwell.
Only when he suddenly trembled could he roughly find out. The pain often occurred in November, and became more frequent in December. I didn't dare to say, so I had to drag him to the hospital desperately, but the results of the hospital examinations were the same. He looked at those
The thing is very angry. Although there is still a smile on his face, I can see it... He refuses to be hospitalized, and I can't force him... I don't know how to force him. The doctor said there is no hope..."
"Sometimes he wakes up in pain at night and can't sleep, so he looks at old photos...I noticed several times, pretending to be asleep, and I don't know if he noticed...I was pregnant with Taotao probably in early January. Check it out.
Deqin, I knew about it in mid-January, and he was still holding on at that time. It snowed during the Chinese New Year, and I didn’t go home for the Chinese New Year. Hehe, I had a big fight with my dad about this matter.
It was amazing. Who knew that he would leave within a few days... He really couldn't hold it anymore and didn't want others to see..."
"I didn't go to him, there was no way... I still had to take good care of the baby in my belly. The doctor said this was the first pregnancy. I was sick, in poor health, and prone to miscarriage. I had to do some exercise to keep myself fit, and I kept crying.
I don’t even dare to cry, because it will affect the prenatal education of the child...” Only then did tears finally flow down Yahan’s cheeks, “It went like this until 2002, when Dongfang Lu came to find me.
He said that Jiaming died and a tomb was built for him, just outside the city... have you visited it? "
"I don't believe it..."
"I don't believe he can find Jiaming either..." Yahan said, "You know him, if he really wants to leave, no one will be able to find him, but as long as he can come back, he will definitely find him.
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Yahan shook her hand, and she knew it was comfort in disguise.
"Wait for him, okay?"
Lingjing nodded: "Sister Yahan... I'm sorry..."
"I have always been sorry for you and Shasha...I should have treated you like sisters, but this matter..." She shook her head, "How could it become like this? I'm sorry..."
The two were originally good friends who loved each other as sisters. They shared hardships when they were young, and later experienced many things together. Although the relationship was sealed for several years, when they saw Taotao just now, they also felt sad and sad in their hearts.
But by this time, these things had been gradually diluted. During those three months, she watched Jiaming suffer such pain, step by step until it was unbearable but unable to do anything. Until he left, she could only put it down.
She kept these things in her heart silently and couldn't even cry. The pain she suffered in her heart was probably no less than her own.
In a sense, with Jia Ming gone, everything seemed less important. The knot in their hearts was temporarily untied, and the two of them turned the topic to another direction. Lingjing's life in Vienna in the past few years, the hard work in the past four years
Ah, and the company she recently joined. Some things may not be easy to talk about in front of her parents, and only in front of Yahan can she talk about them in trivial matters, probably talking about Yahan and Taotao.
, she was already working in the family company, so the two reluctantly ate some breakfast and prepared to go out.
"Can I go see Taotao when I'm free?"
"As long as you give her wave candy..."
Lingjing smiled and suddenly hugged Yahan: "Sister Yahan, thank you for staying with him during those three months..."
"I'm not taking care of him for anyone..." Yahan's tears fell again, "Those are the three best writers in my generation."