Chapter 503: Heart-to-heart talk, am I hypocritical?
After Xu Xingyu and Gu Yuena returned to the hotel room, Xu Xingyu felt a little heavy.
His mind kept replaying the discussion with Xu Tianran. At first, he didn't take it seriously.
But after gradually recalling that conversation, he realized his contradictions and confusions on some issues.
Gu Yuena was keenly aware of Xu Xingyu's emotional changes and asked with concern: "Xingyu, what's wrong with you? You don't seem to be in a good mood."
Xu Xingyu was silent for a moment and finally said: "Na'er, what do you think of me?"
Gu Yuena was stunned. She never thought that Xu Xingyu would ask such a question: "Why do you ask so suddenly?"
Xu Xingyu smiled bitterly and shook his head: "I just thought of the previous conversation with Xu Tianran."
"Just like what he said, I always unknowingly consider the interests of Qiling Pagoda and Star Luo Empire together."
"Although I say how noble I am, in fact I also have my own selfish motives."
"Wouldn't I appear to have double standards or even be a little hypocritical?"
Gu Yuena looked at Xu Xingyu seriously: "Why do you think so? Everyone has their own selfishness. This does not mean that you are hypocritical."
"I don't think there's anything wrong with you considering Jiujiu and your hometown."
In response, Xu Xingyu shook his head and said: "I'm not just referring to my problems with Qi Ling Pagoda and Xingluo Empire."
"The same thing happened when I helped Jiang Nannan heal his illness and helped Dong'er peel off Tang San's consciousness."
"Even if part of the reason why I help is out of my own good intentions, isn't the bigger reason why I choose to help because they can give me more benefits?"
"Nan Nan is because she has been recognized by the Moon Goddess, and Dong'er is because she can have one more card to defeat Tang San."
"From this point of view, didn't I choose to approach them purely to take advantage of them?"
Xu Xingyu sighed: "For a long time, because of Blue Star's prejudice against Tang San in my previous life, I have always been disgusted with that hypocrite Tang San and don't want to become like him."
"But now, I find that I seem to have become the same as him without knowing it, or even worse than him."
Gu Yuena gently held Xu Xingyu's hand and said softly: "Xingyu, in fact, everyone has some double standards in their hearts."
"For example, I should put the interests of the soul beast clan first, but after meeting you, I unknowingly put you first and my responsibilities second."
Xu Xingyu raised his head and looked at Gu Yuena, a trace of doubt and confusion flashed in his eyes.
Gu Yuena continued: "Double standards themselves are not terrible. Everyone has their own double standards."
"It's just that a person will appear hypocritical because of it. You have to look at the mentality behind their actions."
"You just said that you helped them out of your own interests, but do you think they really don't think of this? There is no such thing as a good plot between one person and another for no reason in this world."
"Then even if they know that you have your own purpose, why would they choose to follow you or even fall in love with you?"
"This is because I think they, like me, can see your heart from your actions."
"Everything you have been doing is an effort for everyone you carry."
"You said that Qi Ling Pagoda is obviously neutral, but there is something wrong with your behavior towards the Star Luo Empire?"
"But why do you have your heart set on the Star Luo Empire? Is it your sense of belonging to the Star Luo Empire?"
"No, that's because you take care of Jiujiu and your grandfather who lives in the Star Luo Empire. One day in the not-too-distant future, you will be in a dilemma about this."
"The same is true for Jiang Nannan. Even if Jiang Nannan is qualified to inherit the throne of the Moon God, you, with the Blue Star Book, should know that there is a better candidate."
"For example, Shrek's Zhang Lexuan. Not only is she more talented and has a more suitable martial arts spirit, but she is also more beautiful. You can completely ignore Jiang Nannan and let her original fate happen, and then give the position of Moon Goddess to Zhang Lexuan."
"But you didn't do that. You chose to help her, so why did you help her?"
"In addition to being a little forgetful, maybe she is also a little dissatisfied with her original fate, right?" Xu Xingyu replied with some uncertainty.
"That's right. Since you came into contact with Nannan with such thoughts, what do you need to feel guilty about?"
"Men, whether they are humans or spirit beasts, are all somewhat lustful. There is nothing to be ashamed of."
"What's more important is that you took action to help her."
"The same is true for Wang Dong'er's incident. Don't forget that I have also read the books about Douluo Continent that you remember."
"So I also know what miserable end Dong'er ended up with."
"I believe that every individual will feel angry about such a fate. Even if they have the ability, most people will choose to help and see if they can change this cruel fate."
"Even if you have your own selfish motives in your heart, in the final analysis, the reason why you take action is because you want to help them and change their destiny."
"Therefore, I believe that you are definitely not a hypocritical person, and you cannot be called a being of absolute justice, but you are at least a person who moves forward for the expectations given by the people you bear."
Xu Xingyu felt the sincerity in Gu Yuena's words, and her originally impetuous heart gradually calmed down: "Thank you, Na'er. Your words make me feel at ease a lot."
Gu Yuena smiled and said: "You have to believe in your choice and stick to the path you choose. Even if you regret it in the future, you have to accept it, because that is the path you chose."
Hearing this, Xu Xingyu nodded, and the impatience in his heart gradually dissipated.
He is fully aware of the responsibilities he shoulders and that the road ahead is full of challenges, but with Gu Yuena's support, he has strengthened his belief.
Seeing Xu Xingyu who was in a better mood, Gu Yuena also felt very happy.
She likes to look at the confident Xu Xingyu the most, and only Xu Xingyu looks the most handsome like this.
Thinking of this, a blush flashed across Gu Yuena's cheeks, and she felt a little hungry looking at Xu Xingyu like this.
Just before I wanted to take a bite, Xu Xingyu stopped me with the excuse that he had to do something serious.
Humph, aren’t things between Xing Yu and me all business?
So that night, Xu Xingyu was forced to have a fruit platter as a supper with Gu Yuena.
These include but are not limited to cherries, peaches, honeydew melons, watermelons, bananas, fruit smoothies, etc.