After the incident, he and I exchanged our thoughts, but we never mentioned it again, and we just got along as usual. www. After our trip to Beijing, the weather gradually got colder, so we drove back to Zhongjing without mentioning it.
In the cold winter, there were many banquets in the palace, so Xuanqing could not come often. He came occasionally, but only to sit for half a day, and then hurried back.
When I got up early that morning, I saw Xuan Qing already standing outside the door with his hands behind his hands. He was wearing a cloud-white soft satin long coat with wide sleeves rolled back with an orchid pattern, and an autumn fragrant blue silk sash tied around his waist. He folded it leisurely.
He held a handful of green plums in his hand. The rising sun in the winter morning was a pale white halo, coating his body with a melting light golden halo.
His whole body stood in the halo, and when he saw me coming out, his face was full of smiles, "You're up."
I was surprised and said, "Why are you here so early? Is it cold standing outside like this?"
His smile was like the first light in the sky, "I rode back to the Qingliang Terrace early in the morning and saw the first bouquet of green plum blossoms. I brought them here specially for you."
I took it with a smile and took a gentle sniff. The elegant aroma made my internal organs transparent, so sweet and fresh. I smiled and said, "Come in, you have eaten."
He smiled: "I came here early in the morning to ride a horse, and I'm hungry."
In the room, Huanbi was placing several plates of side dishes and filling a bowl of piping hot white porridge. I smiled slowly and said, "There's nothing delicious. I'll treat you. Just fill your stomach."
He held the porridge bowl to warm his hands, picked up a chopstick and ate pickled melon. He looked at me with a smile and said, "I just feel that it is very peaceful to have some side dishes and a sip of hot porridge here."
I glanced at him and said with a smile: "The mouth is so sweet, as if it has been smeared with honey." He smiled and said nothing, and I asked again: "But did something happen in the palace?"
A hint of sadness flashed across his eyes, and then he smiled and said: "What can happen? The emperor's brother won a new favorite Fu Wanyi during the draft in June. It is inevitable that he will neglect the government and the harem."
I couldn't help but wonder: "This is a strange news. It is common for the emperor to have many favorites, but it is rare for him to neglect the government because of her. Is she a beauty who has conquered the country?"
He was stunned for a moment, then the corners of his lips slowly curved into a gentle curve, and he said: "Beauty is beautiful, but it has no soul."
I smiled and said, "This is strange. Why does the emperor like her so much?"
Xuan Qing shook his head slightly, "I don't know either, the emperor brother always has his reasons."
I am very calm now. Although I am still resentful towards Xuan Ling, when I talk about his love affair with other women, I feel calm about talking about anyone who is insignificant.
Xuan Qing calmed down and said, "I will accompany you today, okay?"
There was a heater in the room, which filled the room with warmth, making the smell of sandalwood a little soft and warm, losing its freshness. He sat in front of me, wrote a long painting, and drew a picture of me sitting sideways.
Body shape. I chose a volume of "Taiping Guangji" and read it leisurely. The pages were turned over lightly. There was a faint shadow of cigarettes floating in the room, as thin as a wisp of mist. I was on a whim.
, reached out to tease it, but saw that he only lowered his head and concentrated on painting.
He couldn't help but laugh and said: "Hey, how can any painter be like this? He doesn't even look at people, he just lowers his head and draws. Is the painting resembling it?"
Xuan Qing raised his head and smiled, "Just come and see for yourself."
I poked my head over and took a look, and saw that the writing work was delicate and smooth, showing every detail. I couldn't help but praise: "It's really good!" Then I scolded him, "But you didn't even look at me just now..."
He laughed loudly, pinched my nose and said, "Although I didn't look at you, your appearance is in my heart. How come I can't draw it?"
I turned away and said with a smile: "I'll just talk nonsense..."
Before I finished speaking, I felt something strange happening around me. I didn't know when Wen Shichu had lifted the curtain and came in. He stood quietly by the door, his face as white as the clearest piece of tissue paper.
My heart went cold. Wen Shichu had no idea about my relationship with Xuanqing, and I had no intention of telling him. Xuanqing had always been in contact with each other, but he had never met Wen Shichu. And the close relationship between Xuanqing and Xuanqing just now must have been caused by someone else.
He saw it, but I immediately said with a smile: "You're here."
Wen Shichu said softly "Hmm" and said coldly: "I came at an unlucky time."
I glanced at Xuan Qing and simply said to Wen Shichu: "It's indeed a coincidence. But Qing is not an outsider."
Wen Shichu sneered slightly, "Qing?" He lowered the curtain and said, "Sister Huan, come out. I have something to say to you."
I trembled slightly in my heart. I actually didn't want him to know, nor did I want to make him sad. However, since he saw it, I felt cruel and said with a smile: "Okay, then you go out and wait for me."
Wen Shichu walked out suddenly. Xuanqing tugged at my sleeve, frowned slightly and said, "Master Wen seems to be very angry."
I smiled slightly and said, "There is some misunderstanding. I just go and explain it to him. You just wait for me here."
Xuanqing nodded slightly, and I walked out slowly. The air outside was cold. When I suddenly came out of the warm room, I felt my body shrink, and the coldness stung my scalp slightly.
Wen Shichu stood by the rock angrily, his face gloomy and blue. When he saw me coming out, he said bluntly: "Sister Huan, you once told me that after several years in the palace, you had despaired of the relationship between men and women. You also told me that King Qinghe
He is from the palace, and he is his younger brother. So what do you and King Qinghe say now?" His tone was angry and sad.
I calmed my mind and said, "As you said, this is what I have said before."
"You..." Wen Shichu said sadly: "Aren't the words you once said count as words?"
I shook my head gently and said softly: "Brother Shichu, it's not that the words I once said are nothing. It's that we often don't expect changes in the world, and the past cannot be regarded as forever. Just like before, I am
To be today's favorite concubine; just like once, my family was prosperous and prosperous; just like once, I was Zhen Huan who was ignorant of the world, and could only stand on the bow of the boat holding lotus pods and sing. Brother Shichu, those are all in the past. Even though
I hope it won't pass, but it will eventually pass."
Wen Shichu said in a daze: "Don't tell me this, just tell me, what's going on between you and King Qinghe?"
I took a deep breath, and the cold air cleared my mind. I held my breath and said, "It's nothing. I like him, and he likes me, that's all."
Wen Shichu's expression changed drastically, and he said desolately: "Okay! Okay! Okay! Only today are you willing to tell the truth to me."
I apologized in my heart and said gently: "Why did I want to hide it from you? In my heart, you are like my brother, a close friend. I should have told you earlier. After all, this is not something that can be publicized everywhere.
Secondly, I don’t know how you feel about me, but I am also afraid that you will be sad and embarrassed and embarrass each other.”
Wen Shichu said in a daze, "How long have you been hanging out like this?"
I bit my lip and said, "Is it important?"
His eyes were fixed on me and he said slowly: "It's very important."
I lowered my head and said, "Half a year."
"So how long have you known each other?"
"It's been six or seven years."
Wen Shichu's eyes were filled with pain, as if he was about to bleed, and he whispered hoarsely: "You have known him for six or seven years, but you and I have known each other for more than ten years. We have been in love since childhood!"
I felt very sad and said in a low voice: "Some things are not just about how many years we have known each other and how many years we have been together."
Wen Shichu stared at me blankly, with broken pain: "Yes! Some things don't depend on the year, but you said that you have despaired of the relationship between men and women, not to mention that he is the emperor - the brother of your former husband!
Why? It must be him!"
Wen Shichu's words sharply opened my wounds in an instant, revealing the bloody past. My heart ached slightly, and I said in a cold voice: "If you want to know why, I will tell you why. Because of my love for men and women.
Despair, because I am desperate for my life, because I am basically a person addicted to pain. It was him, Xuanqing, who made me have hope for everything and made me willing to believe in what I pursue.
So that I can ignore his royal status, do you understand?"
I spoke in a hurry, my voice slightly losing its tone as before, and my heartbeat was beating clearly and abruptly, like a heavy evening drum that sounded wildly in the mountains.
Wen Shichu's eyes were sad and sad, "But if you are with him, I'm afraid you will suffer a lot in the future, and you won't even be able to get the most basic status!"
I smiled sadly, like a flower trembling in the bleak autumn wind, "With my status today, no matter who I am with, I will not have any status at all. So, Mr. Wen, can you give me
Fame? Or do you think fame is what I want most?"
He was speechless and just looked at me sadly, "It will be very hard for you..."
I supported the rock wall and stood tall, "What I have worked hard for, he has also worked hard for. It's just that you are afraid of the hardships I will suffer, but for me, they are all willing. Since I am willing to follow him, I naturally think about it."
Whatever happens, I will do it willingly."
No matter how difficult or difficult things are in this world, they can't compete with a willing heart.
Wen Shichu's expression calmed down a little, and he murmured: "I am willing to do it. I am also willing to treat you, even if I die!"
I shook my head softly, walked closer to him and said, "Brother Shichu, that's different. You're good to me, and I deeply appreciate it. But Qing and I are in love with each other." I made up my mind.
And sincerely, he said: "I know what you want to dissuade me from. But now, I am not afraid to tell you that even if my choice is a mistake, I would rather make the mistake to the end and never regret it."
I looked back and met Xuan Qing's tender and eager gaze behind me. My heart warmed and I could let go of my whole thoughts. He only stood at a distance with a clear attitude and did not come closer. I faced Wen Shichu's
He couldn't bear the sadness and shock, so he said softly: "Brother Shichu, let's be honest, do you think it's more important to be with me, or do you think it's more important for me to be truly happy?"
These words were meant to be a test. If he was selfish, I might be more candid. The moment he opened his lips, I suddenly really hoped that he might be a little more selfish.
Wen Shichu said: "In my heart, I always hope that one day I can get you. Being with you is the most important thing. But sister Huan, I know clearly even in my dream that you don't like me. You
You won't be truly happy when you are with me. So, your sincere smile is more important."
His words touched my heart and lungs in an instant, and I was moved beyond measure. Wen Shichu, he treated me so well and treated me so sincerely. His sincerity was no less than Xuanqing's love for me.
However, no matter how much you are moved, it is still just a move, not a feeling.
I leaned down to support his body and said softly: "Brother Shichu, thank you for treating me so well."
Wen Shichu's eyes were red, he raised his head, tried his best to hold back his tears, and said: "I am not good to you, I just said such cruel things to you. Sister Huan, I have never said that to you so loudly."
I nodded, my eyes slightly astringent, and said: "I don't blame you. Brother Shichu, now I have found a person who I am happy with. Although I am happy, I hope you won't be sad. You are always my best friend."
Brother Chu, are you okay?"
Wen Shichu raised the corners of his lips slightly, but there was a deep sadness in his eyes, and said: "My advice to you is useless. Then, since you have made up your mind, as long as you are happy." He stared at Xuan Qing standing from a distance.
The place, the voice was slightly cold, each word was as clear as broken ice, and the white warmth came out, "Sister Huan, he can have your willingness, you don't know how much I envy him!"
I forced a smile and said in a low voice: "There is nothing to envy, brother Shichu, in the future you will also meet a good woman who is willing to treat you."
"No way." Wen Shichu smiled sadly, "Sister Huan, as long as you are good, it will be fine."
He turned around and left, his gentle figure looking particularly lonely in the vast chill of winter. His dark red robe was rippled by a gust of cold wind, like ripples on the water, and it seemed that his whole person was so sad.
The ground is wrinkled and out of place among the blue-gray surrounding mountains.
I stood still in the wind, the cold wind blowing on my face, and even my eyes were hot. I deeply felt that some of the feelings that had been by my side for a long time had been deeply hurt by me. Even if I
No matter how unbearable it is, you will still be hurt after all.
Xuanqing's warmth and soft cloak wrapped around my body. She gently wiped away the tears that were about to burst out of my eyes, and sighed softly: "Mr. Wen likes you very much."
I raised my head, forced back tears, and said with a disappointed smile: "It's a pity that I will never be able to repay him with my whole life."
In the world of emotions, there are gains and losses. Some people are happy, and some are sad and lost. It is true for Wen Shichu, true for Huanbi, true for me, true for Yu Xuanling, and true for Xuanqing.
Xuan Qing's clear eyes were gentle and understanding, "Huan'er, you can repay him with a lifetime of friendship."
I nodded, "I can."
Xuanqing's low sigh lingered in my ears, "Huan'er, you just said that you are willing and will never regret it. Do you know how shocked I am?"
I shook my head and whispered: "I'm just telling the truth."
There was endless joy and emotion in his expression, and a touch of tenderness that could almost overwhelm me, "Huan'er, Doctor Wen's affection for you is no less than mine, but I am so lucky to be able to hold you in my arms. You are my whole life."
Everyone is looking forward to it!"
Xuanqing is what I have been looking forward to all my life. I lowered my eyebrows and bowed my head in his tolerant and warm embrace in the cold wind. Only his embrace made me feel so at ease.