Forty-two, a few times the soul dream is the same as the king
The night is slowly falling like a fluttering feather tent. The night in the desert is a deep blue. The stars hang down on the plains, shining brightly with silver light, as if they are far away and within reach.
He and I rode together, trusting the horse to rein in the horse and moving forward slowly.
His body was warm, and he was behind me in a protective posture, never leaving me.
The open wilderness seems endless, enough for me and him to roam the world.
I leaned on his shoulder and whispered: "How long do we have to go?"
His words gently brushed against my ears, and he said: "As long as you like it." His arms tightened, hugging me tighter, and his voice was as low as a dream, "Huan'er, I never thought that there would be this day, that I could regain what I lost.
."
I lowered my head and smelled the green and dark aura on his body, which was the familiar fragrance of Du Ruo.
At this moment, I really felt that I could let go of the past, and there was nothing safer and happier than being able to stay in his arms.
I smiled softly and said, "If there is something that never changes, I believe it is the smell of Du Ruo on you."
"The people in the mountains are as beautiful as Du Ruo." His voice was like a gentle spring breeze, swirling in his ears, "The little portrait will fade, I will grow old, and even my mind towards you will change, but this Du Ruo
But it has always been kept together with your little portrait, and it will not change." My eyebrows moved slightly, and he noticed it. He stretched out a finger to press my eyebrows and said, "Don't frown. Huan'er, I didn't want to tell you such disgusting words.
, but to tell you this, I need to wait for many years before I have a chance, so you have to remember that my love for you has never faded away, it will only become deeper and deeper. Even if you are with the emperor, even if Yu Yin is with you.
By my side."
His chin was pressed against my cheek, and the new beard on his cheek was slightly itchy, like the new spring grass in spring, velvety, with the breath of endless hope. I didn't dare to move, just lightly
He said lightly: "I know everything."
I took Jinying from his arms and smiled unconsciously, "It's been so many years and I still have such a silly attitude."
He sighed softly, but with a warm smile, "Yes, but you don't think I'm stupid."
I couldn't help but chuckle and stretched out my fingers to scratch his face, "Are you ashamed?"
The moonlight is pouring like silver, and even the distant horizon has a faint silver light, as if the Milky Way is pouring down, and it is a continuous line. It has been a long time, and the tassel has been slightly dimmed by the fingers, and even the tassels on the belt have become dull.
There were traces of sewing. I said softly: "Are you going to mend this yourself?"
His eyes dimmed slightly, but he still smiled and said: "It was sewn by Yu Yin. I have always been suspicious of why the little statue suddenly fell out in front of people that day. It turned out that the strap was broken over the years. Yu Yin knew that I didn't want to replace it with a new one.
Later she mended it."
I smelled the word "Yuyin" and thought of the scene that day. I didn't want to say anything in my heart, so I carefully put Zhenying into his arms.
Seeing my silence, he shook my hand and asked, "What's wrong?"
I said, "Did Yuyin know when you came out?"
He nodded slightly, "You probably know. When I asked Yurao to take her to Pingyang Prince's Mansion, she seemed to have doubts and politely persuaded me."
"You always have to think about her and Yu Che."
The wind blew his words into my ears word by word, "I don't know if Brother Huang has other plans for you to get married, but I can't help but be afraid of what might happen, what if you can't come back, what if you can only stay here for the rest of your life.
He He, if He He wants to threaten you when he goes to war with Dazhou again one day... Huan'er, I will definitely take you away this time."
There was a warm sweetness in my heart, but that sweetness was filled with a little bit of sadness, "Where can we go?"
"The world is so big, there is always a place for you." His cold lips kissed my temples, "No matter what the reason is, the emperor is willing to allow you to get married, but I dare not let you go back to him. After so many years, he has wanted to
I don't have to fight with him about anything, except you. Since he betrayed you, I can't let you go back." He sighed deeply, with infinite emotion, "Just think of me as the only one who fights with him. I
I will tell the emperor brother that I can't catch you, but I heard that you failed to assassinate Mog and fled without a trace. When things settle down and I have settled everything, I will come to find you."
The clatter of horse hooves sounded, and I murmured: "The world is so big, there must be a place for us."
I stared at the deep blue sky in a daze. I had already reached the end of the desert. Further ahead, I could faintly see the lights of the posthouse. Looking back, I saw that the vast wilderness was vast, with only a Populus euphratica tree standing in my sight.
Here, the leaves on the branches are rustling in the wind. In such a vast desert, the wind blowing on your face seems like a lonely leaf floating in the vast sea. The boundless wilderness seems like you can never leave.
to the end.
How great it would be if we could really be just a leaf in the ocean, drifting with the waves, and anything would be great. But the world is so big, after all, there is no place for Zhen Huan and Xuan Qing.
Is it the king's land in the whole world, is it the king's ministers who are on the shore of the land? Even the small tassel has been contaminated by the stitches sewn by Yu Yin's own hands. How far can we go freely with the concerns in our hearts?
We can't let go of too much. The sea of suffering is endless and we can't cross it by ourselves. Therefore, we can never reach the other side together.
The wind gradually picked up, and the fluttering corners of his clothes were like a pair of huge fluttering butterflies in the middle of the night, as if they were about to fly freely. I looked into his eyes, held his clothes almost greedily, and leaned against his chest.
before calling him, "Qing..."
The extinguished lights in the distance were reflected in my eyes like shining stars, like drops of condensed tears. A poem I had read when I was a child suddenly came to mind. The first words and the last sentence were blurred. I only vaguely remembered that sentence,
"Work hard for a lifetime to rest, and enjoy yourself for one day."
Rest for a lifetime? I didn't have time to think about it, his kiss fell on my lips, with a familiar breath, sweeping over me.
The moonlight is as clear as frost, leaking through the old windows of the post house, clearly illuminating his peaceful face in his sleep. I haven't seen this look for several years, but it is so familiar and the same as the impression in my memory.
There's no difference at all. I just feel like I'm in a dream. I don't believe there will be such a day.
This kind of moonlit night is no different from the previous moonlit nights at Lingyun Peak.
His face was slightly flushed, and his handsome face was slightly tired. I leaned over to look at his face carefully, and my heart softened. I caressed his eyebrows and his face with my fingers. Suddenly I felt my hands tighten, Xuan Qing
He actually grabbed my hand tightly, and I didn't dare to move for a while. I just smiled softly, "Hey, I'm not a good sleeper either..." But I saw him turning over in his sleep and saying intermittently: "
Huan'er,...don't go, after all these years...I've finally waited for you..." I was stunned there, slowly lying on his chest, feeling the endless warmth on his body, calming my body and mind.
After a long time, there was a whistling wind outside the window, shaking the thin window paper. The wind outside the Great Wall was different from that in Ziao City. The wind in Ziao City was just like the drizzle, but here, even the wind was blowing.
It's tough.
But……
I slowly let go of his hand, and at that moment, blurry tears suddenly filled my eyes. In the hazy eyes, I remembered the day he left for southern Yunnan a few years ago. Before we left, my bright eyes were full of hope and affection.
, "I'm waiting for you to come back."
Finally, I waited for him to come back, but I had to leave.
This kind of fate can never be escaped.
The long-abandoned inn was very simple and crude, and there was still a bit of dusty smell. I stood up very quietly and took out a thin roll of soothing incense from my bag. When I lit it, my hands trembled slightly, as if they had been burned.
I calmed down and saw a thin white smoke rising from the lit soothing incense. Then I put on my red clothes and quietly opened the door and went out.
The moment I stepped back and closed the door, I saw his figure hidden in the frosty moonlight, so peaceful, with a smile on his lips, maybe he had dreamed of something pleasant.
The door closed with a creaking sound. I forced myself to turn around, only to see deep in the courtyard, the ground was covered with white snow and falling flowers, like the cold snow of Yanshan Mountain, silent and silent. A round moon, as round as a bright moon, hung far away in the sky, watching with cold eyes.
It turns out that the so-called beautiful flowers and full moon are just that the bright moon does not know the pain of separation and hatred, and will always hang calmly and knowingly at the end of the world.
I finally shed tears.
After walking out of the double courtyard, outside the gate of the post house, Ah Jin and Jin Xi were squatting on the steps and dozing off. Jin Xi slept lightly and woke up immediately. She was not surprised at all when she saw me dressed up, just with such a
With a sad smile, "I know that the lady will come out sooner or later."
I nodded slightly and pushed Ah Jin. When he saw me coming out alone, he was surprised and said, "Why are you coming out?" He looked behind me and asked, "Where is the prince?"
"Your Majesty is still asleep." I looked at him and said calmly: "Ajin, you lead the troops and send me back."
"Where to go back?" He couldn't react at the moment.
I answered briefly: "Go back to the palace."
Ah Jin's face was as ugly as a ghost, "It doesn't matter if I'm confused, the prince will kill me if he finds out!" A look of perseverance suddenly appeared on his young face, "No one else knows how the prince has been doing in these years.
Ah Jin knows it all! That time, if Concubine Jing had not been drunk by the prince, and Concubine Jing was wearing clothes similar to the concubine, the prince would not have thought it was the concubine, and then... The prince had no choice, but I all know that the prince
I only have my wife in my heart. Now that my wife has finally been able to leave the palace, why not go with the prince? I couldn’t leave before, so why can’t I do it now?”
I breathed a sigh of relief, "Ajin, I know you are loyal, so I asked you to save the prince's life." Ajin stared at me with his eyes wide open, "The prince has brought out the people under the command of the nine kings, and there is only one person in the capital."
I'm afraid it will turn into a mess. Even if you go back and say that the prince never found me or said that I escaped. But where in the world can such a thing be said by everyone? Furthermore, if the prince takes me away, the concubine, the concubine and the hidden concubine will be together.
What should Yu Che do? When the emperor sets up a dragnet to hunt us down, he has to vent his anger on them. Then I will trap the prince in a place of unfilial piety, wariness, loyalty and unrighteousness. If the prince places me outside, there will always be a time when the news leaks out when we meet.
, I'm afraid the consequences will be even more disastrous. A Jin, you are the most loyal person around the prince, you can't just watch the prince..."
There was a hint of hesitation on Ah Jin's young face. He rubbed his hands and said, "The prince deeply regretted that he could not take his wife away, so that they were separated and she suffered in every possible way in the palace. This time..." He looked at me and said very
Worried, "My wife failed to kill Mog Khan as the emperor wished. If the emperor knew that it was the prince who brought my wife back, I am afraid that even my wife would be killed."
There are chirping sounds of summer insects in the distance, as if they also carry the sound of autumn. The silver moonlight slants on A Jin's armor, and there is a faint halo. No matter how beautiful the halo is, it still has the murderous aura of the armor. I
Sighing softly, "A Jin, do you think the emperor is a fool? He told the Sixth Palace early in the morning that I am scared to death, and he wants me to become a benevolent person if I don't succeed. If I succeed, I will return to the palace as a concubine who has recovered from the illness.
, still in charge of the harem. If I die by mistake, the emperor will naturally say that I died of fear, and he will hunt for me with great honors and honors. But there is only one way that I cannot take, and that is to escape. I have always known
I can't escape. If I really die, I will stop worrying about the prince and his children. But while I am alive, I have to think about them. So, I can only go back." The moonlight was faintly like this.
The thin warmth that came out would dissipate at any time. I smiled sympathetically and said, "Ah Jin, that's why I want you to send me back. Everyone knows that you are the most capable person around the prince. Only if you send me back to the palace, can others
I will believe that it was the prince who asked you to send me back to the palace. The prince brought people to rescue me back to the palace because he was loyal to the emperor, so as to avoid the emperor having an excuse to touch the prince."
Ah Jin, a young boy, already had tears in his eyes. The whip in his hand hit the ground hard, raising a gray mist. "I don't understand. There are so many lovers who eventually get married. Your Majesty."
Why is it so difficult to be with my wife?"
I smiled slightly, as if there were many little bugs biting them desperately in my heart, and I was so sad that I could not help but feel sad in my voice, "A Jin, if we finally get married and it costs his life and fortune, I only hope that he will live in peace until his death."
."
Ah Jin's tears were about to fall. He raised his arms and wiped his face. What he wanted to say finally lowered his voice, "In the next life, in the next life, I will meet the prince sooner. Don't do two things like this life."
Sad people.”
I nodded, stretched out my hand to rub his forehead, and said with tears in my eyes: "Silly boy."
The moonlight was a little to the west, and I said: "Hurry up and lead a team of trustworthy people to send me away. If you wait any longer, it will be dawn."
Ah Jin nodded and hurried away. Within half a stick of incense, he brought more than a hundred people over and led a horse to me, "Madam, please mount the horse."
I got on my horse, and Ah Jin turned around and said, "Be gentle, don't disturb the prince."
"It doesn't matter." I thought of the roll of soothing incense, which was enough to make him sleep well until noon. I looked back and saw that the courtyard door was heavily locked. At this moment, he must still be immersed in the peace and happiness of the dream. If, such a dream
How nice it would be to never wake up.
He has always been my favorite man, and I would risk my life not to be with him. However, the deeper I fall in love, the more I have to let go of his hand again and again when faced with a choice.
The world is so big, the years are so long, and it seems to be endless forever, but what belongs to me and him has already come to an end, and we have to let go.
I felt a pain in my heart and whipped my horse.
In the deserted wilderness, the clatter of horse hooves shattered the silver light all over the ground, making people feel ecstasy. It was just a farewell.