All these thoughts were due to the dying words of Emperor Wu of the Han Dynasty, Mrs. Li. Mrs. Li was blessed by Emperor Wu for her beauty. Before she died, Emperor Wu wanted to see her one last time, but she covered her face with a gauze and refused to see her again until her death. .www. Losing love just because of the decline of lust is the eternal nightmare of every harem woman. Only what is lost forever will be beautiful in the memory.

After it came into my hands, my mind changed, but I felt that it would be better if I couldn't get it easily. So I tried my best to refuse it every day, just for the four words "play hard to get". The so-called "play hard to get", the ultimate goal is still in the word "capture" , "Longing" is just a means, so "Longing" must be done well and not overdone. And "Capturing" must be done properly, otherwise all previous efforts will be wasted. Just like a spider weaving a web, if the web is large, it will Only by collecting it well can you get everything you want.

Finally, more than half a month had passed. On the night of New Year's Eve, he was naturally unable to come for the next day's sacrifice and the audience. He waited until the sacrifice was completed at noon on the first day of the new year. He came to my drinking green pavilion early and sat down. .

The sun was very bright, shining on the snow with a crystal-clear light. The sunlight and the snow reflected each other, and reflected on the clear paper, making the interior of the pavilion brighter and brighter. At that time, I was sitting under the window embroidering a sachet, with my body Wearing a light purple beaded brocade dress with dark patterns, because it has dark patterns, it only looks like light purple from a distance. It is paired with a pleated skirt with moon white background embroidered with dots of goose yellow spring flowers. For fear of color, She was too plain, so she put on a rose purple satin fox-heeled pleated cloak on her shoulders, lightly applied rouge, and only inserted a purple jade tassel hairpin inlaid with pearls on her head. She dressed up casually as usual, but also had a bit of solemnity for entertaining guests. , elegant but not ostentatious at all, even the smile between the eyebrows is as quiet as pearls, only gentle but not sharp.

He came in and stood aside without making a sound. I knew he was coming, but I pretended not to know, and concentrated on holding the silk thread to embroider the sachet. After a moment he coughed, and I was filled with joy, stood up and greeted him: "The Emperor is here." He immediately scolded him: "He didn't even say a word when he came. It seems disrespectful to me."

He smiled: "In the first month of the year, why are we still holding on to this gift? I see you lowering your head seriously, and I can't bear to disturb you."

I ordered Jin Xi to serve tea and said with a smile, "I am just doing some gadgets to pass the time. Where did your Majesty come from?"

"I just came over from the queen's place. I met An Xiaoyuan there, and after a few words, she came over." He then said, "What were you embroidering just now?"

I smiled happily, took the sachet and said, "I wanted to embroider a sachet to give to the emperor. Unfortunately, I am slow and only embroidered the dragon on top. Xiangyun hasn't decided what color to embroider yet."

He said: "It doesn't matter what color it is, your thoughts are the most valuable."

I turned my head and said: "Every thing on the Emperor's body, every stitch and thread, is not careless. What's more, as the Emperor said that the sachet is my concubine's intention, I don't want to make any mistakes."

He also laughed when he heard this. He concentrated for a moment, his eyes fell on my clothes, and said with a smile: "The light purple on you is very good, and the color of the embroidered auspicious clouds and golden dragons is also suitable."

I said "yes" and said with a clear smile: "Purple air coming from the east and golden dragons flying around are indeed very good omens of auspiciousness."

So he talked leisurely, and embroidered the sachet with flying needles in his hands. Xuan Ling praised him once, but did not accept it. He took off the pearl on my hairpin and put it into the sachet, saying: "This pearl You wear it on your temples every day. From now on, I will carry this sachet with me every day and never leave it for a moment, okay?"

I spat in a low voice, blushed, and stopped paying attention to him.

Xuan Ling looked around Yinluxuan carefully and said: "I have been sitting here with you for all this time. Even if I light three or four charcoal pots in this room, it is still not as warm as the original main hall. I was just about to ask you, why are you not in Yingxin Hall?"

Living?"

I lowered my head slightly and said softly: "I like to drink the purity of Luxuan."

He said "Hmm": "That night when I was playing chess with you, Queen Xuan planted a piece of bamboo. Either the sound of the snow breaking the bamboo or the sound of the wind blowing through the bamboo leaves were heard. How can it be said to be pure?"

How can I sleep soundly at night like this? The wind and cold make it even more difficult."

There were a little tears in her eyes, and she reluctantly said: "Concubine... I can't keep the emperor's heir, so I have no face to see the emperor again. Yingxin Palace was where the emperor and I once lived together, how can I still live alone in the high palace now that I have lost my virtue?"

"I would rather live in the bitter cold place of Yinluxuan, and pray for the emperor every day to have heirs." After saying this, I was moved. I didn't say these words completely sincerely, but the word "heir" made me feel uncomfortable.

I thought about my unborn child and the bleak days after losing my child.

He was naturally moved by such emotional words. He put his hands on my shoulders and said, "Huan Huan, if you suffer yourself like this, won't it make me feel even more distressed?" He looked a little confused and pained, "Because I'm not here.

You don’t want to live alone in the palace where you have lived with me. Huan Huan, no one in the harem can match your feelings for me.” He stroked the tears on my cheeks and whispered softly: “I have come back.

How about I go back to Yingxin Palace with you? Just like before."

He deliberately emphasized the word "formerly". I raised my face and nodded with tears and a smile, but deep down I felt sad. Even though he was still the same person as before, living in the palace of the past, my heart could no longer

It's just as normal as before.

This night, I did not politely ask him to leave. His passion and expectation, which he had accumulated for a long time, erupted for a long time, with the same urgency and impulsiveness as a young man. But I just slowly endured it, enduring his caress like waves and fire.

of sensation.

It was so late at night when I woke up. The sun was just passing by and the night was quiet.

The red dome tent in Yingxin Hall, with its golden curly feathers, is as gorgeous and gorgeous as ever. Under the west window, a pair of red candles are still burning high, shining like stars. The special red bronze sculpture of Qingluan flying into the clouds is used.

The candlestick has been lit for a long time, and the cold copperware is covered with coral tears, so red that it is eye-catching. There is no sound of wind outside the window, and in the silence of heaven and earth, you can only hear the snow dripping when it melts.

The sound is light and crisp.

It was so warm that I was sweating in the hall. I lay quietly on the wide bed, and he was sleeping deeply. He held my shoulders tightly with his hands, unable to move. The muscles of his arms and the exposed skin on my chest were wet with sweat.

Sticking together hot and sticky, it feels moist and makes people feel sick in their hearts.

**It's his. The joy is like water flowing through my body. I feel that my body and mind are tired. It's like it's the same feeling as he just entered my body. **In contrast, my body's reaction is unfamiliar and dry. His lips

It was dry and hot, and the kiss was rapid, and my body was also urgent. Entering so hastily made me feel a silent and rough pain.

There was still a smile on his face, but his heart began to wander.

I don't know if the woman's body and heart are together. The heart is alienated, and the body has become an empty container. It bears his passion in a daze and loneliness, but cannot give sincere acceptance, as if it is staying away from the incident.

Just bearing it with a smile, no communion and no joy.

The cherry-colored silk curtains in front of me hung quietly like huge wings. I suddenly remembered that on such a first-year night, even the moonlight could hardly be seen. The wind, the rustling snow, and the heaven and earth nets all covered the sky with ice and snow.

among.

My life can only be like this!

At the family banquet on the second day of the Lunar New Year, I was already sitting on the right side of Xuan Ling, drinking and chatting happily. Everyone knew that Xuan Ling stayed overnight in my palace and did not come with me to the family banquet until noon. After this night, I was no longer the same person as before.

The dispirited concubine Wan Gui was gone. The queen on the left was still the queen with dignified features. Concubine Jing and Concubine Murong took the first two seats respectively, and then the head of the nine concubines, Lu Zhaoyi, and Li Xiurong, who was under her. Because of this

One day was a family banquet, and it was also the celebration of the union of the palace. As long as there were people with status in the palace, no matter they were favored or fell out of favor, they all came together. The palace hall was full of concubines, and they were overwhelmed with their coquettish voices. I am pregnant

Sitting next to Xuan Ling with a faint smile, looking at the beautiful lady under the seat, I suddenly realized that the world is unpredictable. It was just the spring of last year. I was once proud and proud, dazzling the palace, and Xia Yu's collapse brought

The departure of my child also brought about my disappointment, the long autumn was cold, and everyone in the palace thought that I had fallen out of favor. Even the concubines with a lower status than me dared to humiliate me, and Dongxue had not yet

It disappeared, and I sat next to Xuan Ling again, laughing as before.

After not seeing Concubine Murong for a long time, her face had become much duller. I heard that she had asked Xuan Ling for mercy many times and defended herself. Her words were very sincere and moving.

She was also a little more depressed, but she was dressed in luxurious clothes and sat upright in her seat. Her proud aura and gorgeous beauty still had not dissipated. It was no wonder that her father and brother still controlled the power in the court, and her father and brother's family

Behind her was the even more powerful King Runan. Although Xuan Ling did not forgive her, he did not punish her severely. This shows that if she gains momentum, she will still have a chance.

I raised my head and drank the wine in the glass. When the cold wine slid down my warm throat, I felt a cold and sober feeling. Regarding the loss of my son, I already understood more clearly that as long as King Runan did not fall, the Murong clan would be safe.

If Murong Shilan does not fall, no matter how big a mistake Murong Shilan commits in the palace, Xuan Ling will not, cannot and dare not kill her to vent his anger.

I glanced at Xuan Ling slightly. The power of the king was greater than that of the emperor. As the king of a country, he must be tolerant and sad.

I quickly turned my head and glanced at the Queen one by one. Concubine Jing and I have always been on the same page, so she was naturally happy that I came back to life, and we could both help each other. Meizhuang was even more sincerely happy for me.

Lingrong was always gentle and humble, with a faint shy smile on her face. She held my hand and her eyes were innocent and bright: "My sister has finally come to the end of her hardships, but I worry my sister."

The smile I responded to was calm, "Sister An, you're being serious." It was clear in my heart whether the emphasis was on my suffering or her worries. Her smile was a bit sarcastic, but her demeanor was still respectful and humble.

The words I heard behind the Yiyuan Palace that day were like a bone in my throat. It’s not that I didn’t understand the meaning behind her words. Even if she was trying to protect herself and maintain her favor, she and I were alienated in our hearts.

The world is in a cold state, and it takes time for people to see it. But to what extent we will see it, she and I could not have predicted it.

When her eyes came into contact with Lu Zhaoyi, she was extremely unnatural and quickly avoided my gaze. I smiled calmly, and Qin Fangyi was even more restless, as if on pins and needles. I smiled and took in all her unnaturalness, and did not intend to look at her unnaturally.

She told Xuan Ling about humiliating me. She didn't know how I would deal with her after I regained power, and she became even more uneasy. I ignored her and just faced her fear with a very bright and friendly smile. But she just lowered her head.

Too scared to look at me again.

A few days later, I came back from the Queen's Palace to pay my respects and returned to Tangli Palace from Shanglin Garden. The road was slippery in the snow, so I did not ride in the sedan chair. I just held the hand stove and slowly walked back with Jin Xi's hand. Winter ice and snow glazed

The world's Shanglin Garden is not barren and withered. In addition to the red plum trees, winter plum trees, and white plum trees dotting it, the skillful palace people used bright silk to make them look like flowers and leaves, and stuck them on the dry branches, just like the spring scenery has never left.

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I walked a few steps and turned into the Suihan Pavilion on the side of the road to enjoy the snow scenery of Taiye Lake leisurely. It was the only place Qin Fangyi and Cao Jieyu had to pass when they came out of the Queen's Palace and returned to the palace.

Sure enough, the two of them passed by in a sedan and chariot one after another, and when they saw me beside them, they had to stop and say hello to me.

There are windows on three sides of the pavilion, a door on one side, and a roof to protect it from the wind and snow. However, the pavilion is small, so Jin Xi and I stood in it, and when Qin and Cao came in, it became a bit crowded.

Their palace servants were all guarding outside the pavilion. Jinxi brought me a goose feather cushion and asked me to sit down. I ordered them both to sit down. I lowered my head and used a long armor cover to push the small lid of the enamel hand stove with flowers and birds.

, a piece of pine cone was burned in the hand stove, and there was a refreshing fragrance in the small space.

Cao Jieyu looked calm and talked to me as if nothing had happened, but Qin Fangyi looked restless. I deliberately ignored her and said to Cao Jieyu: "I was ill a while ago, and I haven't seen my two sisters for a long time.

Okay, how about enjoying the snow and talking together today?"

Cao Jieyu smiled and said: "I wanted to go back to accompany the emperor, but I haven't seen the empress for a long time, so I should ask An Feng to accompany me."

Qin Fangyi had no choice but to say: "The empress has her destiny, and I dare not disobey her."

I raised the corner of my lips slightly and said with a smile: "It sounds like I am forcing you to say this." She was startled and hurriedly wanted to explain, but I added: "Actually, we sisters see each other often, and it's great to chat with each other. We have a deep friendship.

Now, misunderstandings and misunderstandings will disappear."

Cao Jieyu was a little confused, but she didn't ask. Qin Fangyi had no choice but to agree.

Looking out from the pavilion, the entire harem is covered with silver makeup. In the vast white snow, the green pines are getting greener, the red plums are getting redder, and the color is getting dropper.

I stared at the silvery white of Yiyuan from afar and said slowly: "This season reminds me of a winter story."

Cao Jieyu said: "The empress is knowledgeable and knowledgeable, and I would like to hear the details."

I said: "It seems to be a story about human pigs. Human pigs also happened in this kind of winter."

Cao Jieyu's smile froze and she felt a little uncomfortable. She obviously knew this story. Qin Fangyi, however, looked confused. She was born in a local grain official's family and didn't have much education. Moreover, she only liked drama and didn't like history books. Naturally,

I don't know.

I smiled and said, "You are so knowledgeable and knowledgeable. In fact, I don't remember it very well. Why don't you get the book and ask Jin Xi to read it for us sisters."

What I was reading was "The Chronicles of Empress Dowager Lu" in "Historical Records", and I chose a passage for Jin Xi to read. She spoke clearly and recited each word in a eloquent way: "Mrs. Lu was the concubine of Emperor Gaozu during his reign, and she gave birth to Xiaohui.

The emperor, his daughter, the Empress Dowager Lu Yuan, and Emperor Gaozu were the kings of the Han Dynasty, so they decided to marry Tao Qiji, and they were lucky enough to give birth to King Zhao Yin, Ruyi.
To be continued...