Chapter 20: The thorns are full of unknown sky(1/2)
When the peach blossoms are in full bloom, the spring swallows fly back to build their nests. WWW.tsxsw.COM The willow silk is wrapped around it, and the spring breeze is also entangled and heated up, making people sweat inexplicably.
After I became pregnant, Xuan Ling never came to see me once, and no one was allowed to come to visit. She was not even allowed to come to visit me even if she was close to Meizhuang, and she was not allowed to step into Tangli Palace. Fangruo was only allowed to stay with me for an hour every day and visit me.
daily life, or relaxing in Shanglin Garden. All other matters were left to the Queen.
I know that he hates me so much that I have discovered the secret that he concealed so well. I have put on the clothes of his beloved without permission. And I have also resented him for all these years.
The affection is ultimately wrongly paid.
Gradually, there is no need for resentment. Thinking of his easy suspicion and neglect of me in the past, I am nothing more than nothing in his heart.
The only person who can come and go at will is Wen Shichu, who brought me some news from the outside world. The guards who killed Liu Zhu have been sent to the "violent chamber" by Xuan Ling to do hard labor;
Although I had meritorious service, I resigned from all the rewards and remained his idle prince. Although my brother, sister-in-law, and parents were worried about me, they were helpless. Fortunately, Xuan Ling did not anger them. He was talking more about Meizhuang, and I asked him to send it off today.
A box of my favorite pastries was quietly brought to me. Tomorrow it will be a piece of paper folded into a wishful knot, with warm words of relief written on it, and the day after tomorrow it will be a finished child's bellyband. I understand what she means,
I felt relieved in my heart. Occasionally, Concubine Jing and Concubine Duan would privately ask Wen Shichu for some words of comfort, but the mausoleum seemed to have disappeared, without any sound or any sign of concern.
I smiled bitterly. Although the world was in a bleak state, she might not resent me in her heart.
The weather got hotter. By June, I had put on thin gauze clothes. After being five months pregnant, I felt sleepier and sleepier. I would often fall asleep while leaning on the imperial concubine's couch during the day, and I would fall asleep restlessly at night.
I was sick, my bulging belly made me restless, and my toes and thighs were cramped and sore from time to time.
Wen Shichu came to see it and said: "Your Majesty, you should make soup with bones and add a little vinegar. You should use tofu and fruits and vegetables on weekdays, which will relieve the symptoms of cramps. If you want to sleep peacefully, drink some milk before going to bed."
Huanbi kept it in mind while Wen Shichu wrote down some anti-fetal medicines and said: "Please forgive me for talking too much. I am not sleeping well. I am afraid that I have too many thoughts in my heart, which cannot be relieved by medicine."
I rolled up my sleeves and said with a half-smile: "Since you know it, why bother to say it again? I will go and report to the Queen later. Please send my regards to the Queen and say that everything is well with me."
He said: "The Queen is entrusted by the Emperor and does not dare to take the Queen and the unborn child lightly. She often calls the ministers to inquire."
I looked at him and said slowly: "As long as you know how to deal with it."
After Xu Xu talked for a while, I asked again: "The burn on sister Meizhuang's hand should probably be healed. Did Mr. Wen give the Shuhen Glue to sister? Is it okay for sister to use it?"
Wen Shichu's face darkened and he casually said: "Much better." He hesitated for a moment, but finally said nothing more. He only mentioned in detail that Meizhuang's injury had healed well. As for whether Shuhen Glue was effective, he was just vague.
At the end, he earnestly warned: "If An Fenyi has something to send to your Majesty, please let me see it before using it."
His diligent words and careful demeanor reminded me of his worried look when I took Shuhen Guo and Meizhuang that day. My heart skipped a beat and I became more and more uneasy. I maintained my composure.
With an air of dignity, I said in a quiet voice: "Your Excellency, you want me to calm down and raise the fetus and not think too much. However, Your Excellency is hesitant in speaking. Could it be that you are deliberately making me worried and uneasy." I looked around Tangli Palace, paused and said, "If you have anything to say, please don't worry.
To put it bluntly, is there anything I can't bear now that human relations have been turned upside down?"
His eyes flickered and he said hesitantly: "Then Shuhen Glue..."
His expression was full of intolerance and disgust. A flash of lightning flashed in his mind. He no longer wanted to believe it, but he had to believe it. Why did I often have fetal movement discomfort in the days before I lost my child? Why did I smell a few things in the palace of Concubine Hua?
An hour-old "Huanyixiang" knelt down for half an hour and then she became a baby? Why did Wen Shichu conclude that there was musk in my body after I was a baby, but Lingrong's explanation was because of "Huanyixiang"?
Musk? My body trembled violently, and I felt weak. I forced myself to calm down and asked Wen Shichu: "There is musk in the Shuhen glue, right?"
He was a little speechless and said: "Empress..."
I held my hand hard and breathlessly said, "Say."
He had no choice but to say: "Wei Chen... there is a heavy musk in the glue. If it enters the texture through the wound, it will be like taking it every day. Moreover, the glue has a strong floral fragrance. It is intended to cover up the smell of musk. If you are not a person who knows spices,
It can't be prepared." He held his robe sleeves tightly and said, "Actually, it may not be An Fenyi's doing. I am just speculating. After all, Shu Hen is glued in the empress's palace, and there are people who can come into contact with it..."
The Shuhen glue was prepared by Ling Rong herself, and I use it personally every day. I don't think anyone can come close to it. And if she didn't know how to mix spices, how could she have controlled it so that I wouldn't notice it?
I just don’t know if she wanted to do this on her own or if someone instigated her. Why did she hate me so much that she wouldn’t even let go of the child in my belly that day.
My body felt cold, hatred was entangled in my heart, my chest felt uncomfortable, and I felt extremely nauseated and depressed. I couldn't help but vomited out "Wow", and the floor was in a mess. Wen Shichu didn't care about the dirty things and hurriedly helped me.
Huanbi helped wipe it clean. Wen Shichu asked with concern: "Is your Majesty so disgusting?"
I leaned on the chair and smiled coldly and miserably: "People make me even more disgusting." I looked at him: "I was actually moved by all her disguises. I am not the most stupid person in the world!"
He hurriedly said: "If An's scheming is really so deep, who would know that it was not just the empress who was deceived by her! Mobile phone visit: 16Κ"
I lazily stood up. The sunlight outside the window screen was so bright and hot, shining whitely on the ground, which made people dizzy. I tried my best to endure it and asked Wen Shichu, "Does Sister Mei know about this?"
He shook his head cautiously: "I don't dare to speak nonsense."
I nodded and said carefully: "You must not let her know about this matter, otherwise she will not be able to withstand her temper. If this matter is really done by An Fenyi, it is definitely a scheming move. Sister Mei will definitely be hard-pressed to resist, let alone me."
With the palace in such a state of decline, she is even more helpless."
Wen Shichu nodded deeply, I thought for a while and then said: "Please remember to tell Sister Mei that no matter what, you must not offend the Queen and An Fenyi." I waved my hand and said: "Go back, I am.
I’m also tired.”
Huanbi hurriedly helped me into the inner hall and lay down, and said nervously: "Since An Fenyi is related to the miscarriage in the past, why don't the young lady let Shen Jieyu act according to the situation and make plans later? Why do you have to tolerate her in everything?"
I lay on the bed, my temples wet with sweat, and slowly fanned myself, saying: "In this situation, I can only let Meizhuang protect herself. What if she gets implicated by me? If I want her to change when the opportunity arises, Doesn't it mean that she is asking for her own death?"
Huanbi blushed and said, "I'm just worried about the young lady."
I said: "You go out, let me have a rest quietly." Huanbi responded and went out. I lay alone, my heart boiling. The affection between me and Lingrong is naturally not as good as that of Meizhuang, who I grew up with. Although she has always been close to her, even though there is some alienation in this closeness, I have not felt sorry for her in the slightest!
Is the human heart so terrible? I slowly fanned my fan, but my hands were shaking slightly. Ling Rong, Ling Rong, my mind was in chaos, the feelings of the jackdaw, the luck of the gold-threaded clothes, after I fell out of favor Under the guidance of the Queen, she sang loudly and gained favor again. After she was favored, she cared about whose words Xuan Ling favored more. The Queen persuaded me to use Shuhen glue to heal the scars on my face. Those clues from the past and all my experiences Suspicion became clear and threaded through my deliberate thoughts.
The bits and pieces that I ignored or deliberately didn't suspect suddenly collapsed in front of me, all falling into pieces.
The Queen and Ling Rong, what kind of tacit understanding there is between them. The Queen who I once relied on was also plotting against me behind my back, and holding Ling Rong's hand, Concubine Hua was just a scapegoat. That’s all.
I was so angry that I almost vomited blood, and with a "click" I broke the fan in my hand into two halves.
I slept alone at night. The hot weather made me toss and turn, but I didn’t dare to want to cool off. I was so worried that I finally got up and walked barefoot to the corridor at the back of the hall. Through the window screen blown by the wind, Huanbi fell asleep on the table. After Liu Zhu's death, she took care of all my affairs closely, and also had to warn me of sudden thirst and cramps in the middle of the night, so she was very tired.
The moonlight in the corridor was separated by dense or sparse leaves, and was sifted into fragments of bright light. The pear blossoms had faded long ago, and there were many small green pears on the trees, like children's clenched fists. It was desolate in the middle of the night. The strong wind filled my thin pajamas with the lingering fragrance of flowers. My five-month pregnancy was already obvious.
I remember that when I was pregnant for the first time, I was also under this pear tree. The pear blossoms were blooming as if covered with ice and snow, and the fragrance was blowing on my face. The love I had with Xuan Ling at that time was like a spring dream in a young girl's boudoir, just like these years, they passed by in a hurry. Never come back again.
Now, this pregnancy is so hard for me. I can only feel frightened and frightened. It seems that I have never reached the lowest point.
The wind blew my long hair away, and the unknown insects chirped in the distance, gently brushing my increasingly sharp face. I suddenly burst into tears at a loss. Even though I was crying, I tried my best to suppress it into a wisp of lightness. His sobs were scattered in the night wind.
A pair of hands gently put the clothes on my body. I turned around, but it was Jin Xi. She said with concern: "My queen ran out barefoot, be careful to catch a cold."
She held a pair of soft satin shoes in her hand, helped me sit down and carefully put them on for me. She just ignored my tears and hatred and said slowly: "Shouldn't your Majesty feel happy?"
I questioned: "Happy?"
"My Majesty has been suspicious of Young Master An's intentions several times. If she was a secret assassin in the past, today she is an open weapon. My Majesty is better able to take precautions, right? Now that your Majesty is in the light, there will naturally be one less enemy in the dark." Okay." She asked me softly: "Mother, are you sad about the sisterhood that day?"
I wanted to nod, but instead sneered, "Now it seems that she and I can still live up to the term 'sisterly love'?"
Jinxi sat calmly at my feet and said with an indifferent smile: "The love between the empress and Shen Jieyu is indeed rare. Since it is rare, there is no need to expect everyone to be like this."
I spoke, feeling sad in my heart: "I really don't understand why she treats me like this?"
Jin Xi smiled: "My Lady, you don't need to understand. If you find out one day, it will definitely be an extremely ugly truth. Your Majesty does treat An Fenyi very well, but in this palace, if you don't treat her well, she will treat you well." .”
I know that I don't have any ability to fight back at the moment. Even if I bite my silver teeth with hatred, I must be patient.
I brushed away the messy hair from my eyes and said, "You are right, good and bad are all for self-interest. I also suspected that she might be instigated by others, but whether it was her will or not, what she did was what she did. ." I shook Jin Xi's hand and said gratefully: "Jin Xi, you always make me understand in time."
She was a little shy, but more calm, "This slave has grown up in a deep palace since she was a child. Now she is thirty years old. Naturally, she has seen nothing and understands nothing." She said gently and firmly: "Anfen There may be someone behind the scenes who was instigating what happened to Yi. No matter what happened to her, it would be extremely unworthy if the empress harmed herself because of her. Please rest assured, the empress." She sighed: "Actually, this is nothing, empress. Love only makes you sad. In the palace, even sisters can turn against each other, let alone sisters who are not sisters."
I was so moved by her words that I didn't know what to say, so I slowly relaxed my mood and went to sleep peacefully.
When I was six months pregnant, the weather was the hottest. I am naturally the most intolerant of heat. I couldn’t eat raw or cold food when I was pregnant with a baby. I felt more and more anxious and a little irritable. What I was happy about was the movement of the fetus in my belly. It seems a little obvious.
That day, I was taking a nap in the palace. Since I was pregnant, I had always slept poorly. It was rare to have a good sleep. Everyone was happy. For fear of disturbing my sleep, only Huanbi was left to fan beside me. .The thunderstorm just passed at noon, and the cool wind from the north window slowly blew in the cool water vapor. I slept very comfortably.
In the haze, I felt that Huanbi's hand was very strong, and the wind blew loudly, which made me feel more comfortable. I was dreaming of a distant dream. It was the year when I was lucky enough to be in the Taiping Palace, and I was also taking a nap at noon. The weather Hot, Xuan Ling came to see me. Those love words were vaguely and vaguely whispered in my ears, low and gentle. He suddenly called me: "Wan Wan, your 'Jinghong Dance' is so good. "I was dressing up in front of the mirror, and he traced Yuanshan Dai for me with skillful gestures. In fact, my eyebrow shape is more suitable for Liuye eyebrows. I suddenly became frightened and shouted: "Silang! I am Huan Huan, not Wan Wan. , it’s not Wan Wan!” But he just looked at me affectionately, and still said calmly: “Wan Wan, your Jinghong Dance——”
I had a splitting headache and almost cried. The Jinghong Dance dance was confusing and swaying, as graceful as a Jinghong, falling like flowers in the rain. A faint flute sound followed me around me. Was it the sound of a flute or a flute? I could hardly
My mother's laughter sounded clear to my ears: "I learned the Jinghong Dance because I wanted to show it to my beloved husband. How can the dance that my daughter's family has worked so hard to learn so easily be seen by others?"
I felt so uncomfortable that a big warm hand covered my forehead in a daze, and I worriedly asked: "Is she always like this? She can't sleep well."
That was clearly a man's voice, Huanbi's voice was low, "Miss always doesn't sleep well and doesn't eat well."
He said "Oh", and a cool piece of silk was placed on my forehead, which made me feel more comfortable. It seemed as if there were hands touching my increasingly rounded belly, but it was not real, it was a very slight touch. I only felt sleepy and vague.
Hearing him whispering questions and answers to Huanbi, he still fell into a deep sleep.
It was already night when I woke up. I struggled to get up and said, "My belly is getting bigger and bigger, and it becomes even more inconvenient to move around."
Huanbi smiled and said, "Young lady's figure is not bloated at all."
I smiled slightly and asked, "I seemed to hear you talking to someone just now. Has anyone been here?"
Huan Bi said: "Who is coming now? It was Xiao Yunzi who just came in. Seeing that the lady was sweating while sleeping, he put a cold handkerchief on and came in." I saw that there was indeed a snow-white square towel at hand, which seemed to be used to wipe sweat.
, I didn’t take it seriously, and was about to call Huanbi to get water to drink. Suddenly I felt a movement in my stomach, as if I had been kicked. I froze in place and didn’t dare to move. After a long time, it happened again.
.
I shed tears of joy, took Huanbi's hand and put it on my stomach, saying incoherently: "Listen! Listen! It's kicking me."
Huanbi threw away the things in her hands and said happily: "Is it true?" She pressed her face close to it, "Miss! It seems to be moving, as if... it's stretching."
The signs of life were pulsing so clearly that I was so happy that I didn't know what to say. Huanbi held my hand, her face full of joy and excitement: "Miss..." She also shed tears.
I smiled quickly and said, "Why are you crying?" I gently stroked my bulging belly and said, "You are its aunt, you should be happy."
To be continued...