At night, I asked Jin Xi to light the oil lamp and candle, put on some clothes and cut clothes in high spirits. However, I really could make a dress for my daughter, but I hesitated for a long time and still couldn't decide. www.
Jin Xi said: "My wife is not inferior to others in cutting and sewing, why are you so hesitant and unable to cut with one knife?"
I was a little surprised and said, "I'm afraid that if I don't cut it well all of a sudden, I won't be able to make the best clothes for Long Yue."
Jin Xi smiled and said: "My wife is the emperor's biological mother, so what you do for her is naturally the best. You can do it with confidence and boldness."
I scratched my scalp with a needle and said with a smile: "I'm timid when I'm close to home. That's probably what I am like."
It happened that Huanbi Lin had finished washing today's clothes and came in. She looked a little tired. Seeing several pieces of bright and good clothing folded on the table, she couldn't help but curiously asked: "Has Aunt Fangruo been here today? It's never been like this in the past."
Then he asked, "Why did Aunt Fangruo send clothes and materials this time?"
Fangruo often comes to see me, and only brings some snacks or daily necessities. She never gives materials. The only few old clothes I brought with me were also the dowry when I entered the palace. Now I have put them all away.
Never worn. I was practicing in the temple, which made me stand out. Although I was practicing with my hair on, I was like ordinary nuns, only wearing gray cloth robes and Buddhist robes.
I only focused on cutting the clothes, and said casually: "The six kings sent it to me and asked me to sew the clothes for Haoyue."
Huanbi said in surprise: "Has the prince come back from Shangjing? When did he come back?"
"Three days ago," I said, "I think I came back in a hurry, and I still looked like a dusty person."
Huanbi's eyes focused on the scroll I opened in my hand, and there was a hint of joy in her tone: "Is this child our Princess Longyue?"
Jin Xi was also happy and said cheerfully: "Yes. She looks so cute, and her eyebrows are exactly the same as my wife's."
My eyes were also attracted. I watched her for a long time and said, "Concubine Jing has become a little plumper. I want to live a smooth life in the future, but it is a pity that Meizhuang has lost weight again."
Jin Xi stood aside and said, "It's not very obvious. Shen Jieyu has never become more mellow since she was grounded. It's all because of her."
Huanbi said softly: "The characters in this painting are lifelike, and the painter did a very good job."
I took a look and said with a smile: "Your Majesty has a reputation for talent. I used to think that he was proud of his poetry and calligraphy, and that he was also very good at riding and shooting. I didn't expect him to be so good at painting."
Huanbi was slightly surprised, but then she just smiled as usual and said: "Your Majesty is interested." After that, without saying anything, he turned around and fetched some water.
There is a large bouquet of reed flowers in the porcelain vase on the table. I picked them on the shore when I came back. They have no fragrance and no good color. I just put them quietly in the vase. After looking at them, I feel peaceful and calm.
In this way, I stayed up late every night to make tailoring, and finally came out with a set of clothes and pantyhose two days before Hazy Moon's birthday. Each piece was made according to the size, and the water-red brocade was made into two bellybands, each with butterflies embroidered on it.
Playing with colorful silk patterns of peonies and dragons and phoenixes; weaving blue brocade with dark flowers and bamboo leaves to make a small skirt and coat; brocade with birds holding auspicious flowers to make winter brocade jackets and brocade trousers; Baozhao's large brocade made of spring and autumn sets.
Clothes and pants; checkered flower Shu brocade made a dress to wear on Longyue's birthday, maybe she might not wear it; rose purple satin was used to make socks and a scarf respectively.
Look at it from left to right, and check whether the stitches are fine enough. I'm afraid that a careless thread will damage Haoyue's delicate skin.
When it was finished, both Huanbi and Xuanqing were overjoyed. Huanbi worried: "This dress is very well made, but how will the lady send it to the palace? It's really troublesome."
I just looked at the clothes, smiled kindly and said, "The prince will come to pick them up tomorrow."
Huanbi asked: "Miss, are you going to see the prince alone?" She thought about it and said: "The prince has a personal attendant named A Jin who I got to know when I was in the palace. I haven't seen him for a long time, and I don't know if he is okay.
good?"
I smiled, arranged my clothes, carefully wrapped them into a bundle, and said, "I don't know that this person exists, but if you want to go, you can come with me tomorrow."
Huanbi smiled slightly, "Miss said so, of course I will go." Then she felt sorry for me and said: "Miss, you can go to bed early today. I haven't slept well for several days in order to sew Emperor Ji's clothes. Look at this
The eyes are all black and blue, and I'm going to suffer from it. Go to bed early today."
I yawned and said with a smile: "You are right. Just for Haoyue, I am willing to suffer no matter how hard it is."
At noon the next day, I found an opening and went to the river to wait. When I left, Xuan Qing had already arrived, and this time I was accompanied by a boy. He was only about twenty years old. He seemed to be alert and honest.
Huanbi saw it from a distance and waved, "Ajin."
Ah Jin was also happy to see Huanbi. When they met, he said: "I haven't seen Miss Huanbi for a long time. I thought she was a simple and ordinary person in Ganlu Temple, but I didn't expect that the girl is more beautiful."
Huanbi spat, pretending to reach out and hit him, and said angrily: "He is becoming more and more glib and annoying."
Xuan Qing saw them laughing and said to me, "This is A Jin, who I have followed since childhood."
When Ah Jin saw me, he hurriedly greeted me and said, "I didn't pay my respects to my wife in the palace before, but now I have to make up for it as well." He then smiled and said, "I used to hear our prince say how good my wife is, but I have never seen it with my own eyes.
I always thought that the prince was exaggerating, but now that I have met him, I feel that although our prince is very articulate, when it comes to the kindness of his wife, he is not as good as him, and I don’t know why.”
Huanbi couldn't stop laughing when she heard this, and spat: "Miss, don't listen to him. A Jin relies on the prince's favor and keeps talking glibly."
Ah Jin put his hands on his hips and raised his neck and said, "Listen to what Miss Huanbi said. Is this slave wrong? It's unheard of for a maid to say something bad about her master."
Huanbi was angry and anxious, and stomped her feet fiercely. Xuanqing laughed and flicked a "burst" on Ah Jin's head and said, "You're talking nonsense more and more."
I smiled and handed the clothes to Xuanqing's hands, said "Take care", and then said to Ajin: "Huanbiyuan figured that you would come, and specifically asked me to bring him here, but he didn't want you to recruit her as soon as you saw her.
angry."
Ah Jin hurriedly apologized and said: "I don't know this level. In this way, it is really my fault." Then he pulled Huanbi's clothes and said: "I am ignorant, good sister, please forgive me for this."
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Huanbi pushed his hand away with force, blushed and said, "Your Majesty is here, and he doesn't bother to discipline A Jin. He is getting more and more mischievous." He then said, "Young lady spent a lot of effort on these clothes. Thank you, Your Majesty, I will send them to the palace."
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Xuan Qing smiled faintly, "That's natural."
I took out a red tassel ball from the baggage, with two silver bells hanging from it, which jingled. I smiled and said, "This is for Yu Feng. Your Majesty, please wear it for me."
Xuan Qing deliberately frowned and said: "It can be seen that Qing is not as good as Yu Feng in my wife's heart. She only gave it to Yu Feng, but she didn't give it to me."
I covered my lips and said with a smile: "Didn't the prince say last time that Yufeng had learned all the bad things about the prince? So giving it to Yufeng is like giving it to the prince."
After chatting and joking for a while, A Jin said: "I still want to visit the old concubine."
In this way, they dispersed in a hurry.
When I returned to the house, I saw Fangruo already waiting there. Seeing me coming back, she stood up with a smile and said, "My wife is back. I came two days late because I was busy with the ceremony for the emperor's first birthday."
I said quietly: "It's okay, Auntie, please sit down."
Fangruo sat down as he was told, looked at me for a moment, and said with a smile: "Madam, you look very good today, where did you go shopping just now?"
Huanbi poured tea and said with a smile: "Miss, seeing that the weather is fine today, she asked me to accompany her for a walk."
So Fangruo picked up the banquet for Longyue's first birthday and talked about how the Ministry of Internal Affairs prepared it, how it was carried out, and what gifts the concubines prepared.
They are Ruyi, golden locks, ingots, etc. Only Xu Cairen sent a white jade Guanyin statue, which was very thoughtful." She said, "My wife is practicing in Ganlu Temple, so naturally she can't take care of the Emperor Ji.
The talented person gave the white jade Guanyin statue to the Emperor Ji. Firstly, it was to use Guanyin to save all living beings and to show her love for her daughter. Naturally, it also meant to respect the concubine. Secondly, it was also used to comfort the Emperor Ji and pray for blessings.
The white jade Guanyin statue was very expensive, and Xu Cai's family was of an ordinary family, so it took a lot of effort."
I heard Fangruo talking about Xu Cairen alone, and saw that she loved Longyue, so I couldn't help but ask: "Who is Xu Cairen?"
Fangruo said with a smile: "Xu Cai's maiden name is Xu and her maiden name is Yan Yi. She came in through the draft at this time last year. She was first named Cainu and is now a talented woman."
I pondered slightly: "Is Xu Cairen very favored?"
Fangruo shook his head, "It was fine in the beginning, but now I am not favored, and I can be said to be unknown. Now the only ones who are in the limelight in the palace are An Ronghua and Guan Shunyi - that is, the former An Fenyi and Qi concubine
, in addition to the new concubines of Qing last year, Chang concubine and Yang Liangdi, these three are the most favored among the new concubines. Especially Chang concubine Hu, she did not enter the palace as a show girl, but
The emperor personally took a fancy to her during the palace banquet. Her biological mother was the youngest daughter of Princess Wuyang, Taizong's sister, who is now the Princess of Jinkang. Although Princess Jinkang's husband's family has declined, she is still a relative of the royal family.
Well. She was born so beautiful that even the Queen Mother specially summoned her when she first entered the palace."
I pinched my palms and sneered: "Congratulations to An Ronghua and Guan Shunyi for their promotions and promotions."
Fangruo said flatly: "That's true. An Ronghua was granted the title of Jin again this year, and it is indeed extremely glorious." Fangruo slowed down her tone and said word by word: "Besides, Concubine Chang is pregnant at the moment."
I was suddenly startled, opened my eyes slightly, and said, "Is Concubine Chang pregnant?" I immediately realized my gaffe, calmed down, and said tentatively: "Concubine Chang, whose status is valuable and unusual, it is natural that she is pregnant.
It's a good thing. If you give birth to an emperor or a prince in the future, your status will be particularly noble."
Fangruo was stunned for a moment, then understood what I meant, and whispered softly: "Don't worry, Madam. Emperor Longyue will naturally have the protection of Emperor Longyue. As for the fetus of Mistress Changbi, it will naturally attract the emperor's attention, not only
In this way, everyone in the palace will pay attention, and even the biological mother of the young master Changbi, Wengzhu Jinkang, comes to the palace to visit from time to time."
I closed my eyes slightly and said meaningfully: "Since we attach so much importance to it, Chang Bin's fetus will definitely be safe and sound."
Fangruo smiled towards the sky and said calmly: "Who knows this? It's just because of Concubine Chang's pregnancy that the emperor has not visited Di Ji for three or four days, but when Di Ji is born, the emperor will definitely arrive."
"This is to be expected, but when Concubine Chang's child is born, Longyue will be even more neglected." I sighed sadly, "A daughter who does not have her biological mother by her side will always suffer."
Fang Ruo disagreed, "However, Emperor Ji Wen Yi was raised by the highest-ranking Concubine Duan, and Emperor Shu and Emperor Ji had their biological mother, Concubine Xinggui. Emperor Ji Shuhe was not as favored as Emperor Ji Wen Yi, and the two emperor concubines,
None of them are as beloved by the emperor as Longyue Emperor Ji."
"It's just..." My brows gradually furrowed like a mountain peak, "Longyue's biological mother was someone who was rejected by the emperor. Therefore, the only thing that Wuyue can rely on most in the palace is his father's love.
Love that will lessen is the way for her to settle down and live her life."
In fact, the concubines in the palace compete for the emperor's favor to protect themselves. As the emperor's children, why not? The prince can still rely on his own strength to make progress, but the emperor's future and fortune are all dependent on her father's pity.
Falling in love with love.
I held my chin and meditated slightly. There were a few bright yellow chrysanthemums in the room. The bitter, almost medicinal aroma made people calm and clear-headed. I slowly opened my eyes, showing a very calm and quiet smile, and said: "Queen Chunyuan's
Who is taking care of the relics now?"
Fangruo clapped her fingers and thought while saying: "Empress Chunyuan's most beloved intimate clothes or jewelry are all with the emperor, and the rest are kept by the queen, and there are some more with the queen mother."
"So when Queen Chunyuan was alive, did she have any favorite jewelry, necklaces, etc.?"
Fangruo thought carefully and said after a moment: "Yes. I remember that Queen Chunyuan had a jade hibiscus necklace carved from suet-fat jade. In the center was a double-petaled hibiscus, which was white and pure. There were nine pieces of sapphire carved on each side.
It is made of branches and leaves connected together. The empress loved it very much during her lifetime, and it seems that it was given by the emperor himself on the wedding day."
"So, if you want to carve a similar collar, how much effort will it take?"
Fangruo thought thoughtfully and said: "Pure mutton fat jade is hard to find. Even if it is available, it would take at least half a month to make it."
I folded a chrysanthemum in my hand, and slowly pinched off the petals one by one. The slightly yellowish juice stained the palm of my hand, with a faint medicinal smell that filled my nose.
How long will it take to carve the petals of Begonia into leaves connected with ordinary jadeite? I only seek resemblance in spirit, not in form."
"It is an ordinary thing, and the carving is simple. It can be completed in about three or four days."
I stood up and opened the long-dusted pearl and jade box, reached out and grabbed a handful of glittering bracelets and pearl flowers, and handed them to Fangruo's hands, pleading: "Longyue is my only daughter, and now she is about to turn one year old. As a mother, I
, I just want to do my best. I asked my aunt to take these jewelry and ask the craftsmen of the Ministry of Internal Affairs to quickly carve a necklace like what I just said, so that Ogyue can wear it on her birthday, and I will do my best as a human being.
A little bit of mother’s wishes.”
Fangruo looked at me with deep and clear eyes. After a long time, she sighed longly, held my hand and said, "My wife doesn't have much savings, and hiring a craftsman doesn't need to cost so much." She casually took out a bunch.
Jade bracelet, said: "This is enough. Madam, don't worry, I will do my best."
I warned: "I was offended by the misuse of Queen Chunyuan's old clothes. I hope that Haoyue will not make the same mistake as me."
Fangruo patted my hand comfortingly and said, "Madam, don't worry, I'll spare you the trouble."
I leaned on the door and watched Fangruo go back. When I saw her figure disappearing into the twilight, the feeling of dependence in my heart became even stronger.
When Fangruo came again, it was already a month later. As usual, she put away the Buddhist scriptures that I had copied and said with a smile: "I heard from the Queen Mother that my lady's handwriting is much better, but it lacks some vitality. It's about the same as reading Buddhist scriptures."
Too many, and his temperament is too quiet."
I said: "The Queen Mother is very good at identifying people by using words."
Fangruo smiled and said, "Concubine Chang is three months pregnant, and her belly is a little visible."
I said a faint "Oh" and slowly twirled the nanmu Buddhist beads in my hand. I didn't care at all and said, "Who is pregnant or not? What does it have to do with me?"
Fangruo said: "It really has nothing to do with the lady. It's just that Concubine Chang's pregnancy would have diverted the emperor's care for the emperors and princes. Now it seems that we don't care about others, but Emperor Longyue is the only one."
When it comes to divine favor, no one can part with it."
I turned over a page of "Yan Leng Jing" with a smile, and said with a faint smile: "Thank you for your consideration, Auntie."
"This servant is just doing things according to the instructions of the lady. Even the concubine Jingfei is impressed by this turn of events." Fangruo said happily: "The sixth day of October is the grand day of the emperor's first birthday, so the ceremony was held in the Chonghua Hall.
At the banquet, the guests and hosts enjoyed themselves. The emperor was wearing a checkered Shu brocade dress. She was very cute. She was held by the imperial concubine and sat on the left side of the emperor. When the emperor held the emperor, he saw the hair on the neck of the emperor.
Jade necklace. This matter was originally a risk. Even Concubine Jing had hesitated for a long time, fearing that Di Ji would follow in the concubine's footsteps and cause disaster. However, the servant persuaded her carefully and used the concubine's past plans as an example, and Concubine Jing finally agreed.
.Seeing that the emperor saw the jade necklace of Emperor Ji, he couldn't help but sweat. Unexpectedly, the emperor stared blankly for a moment, only said that it looked familiar, and was not angry at all. He only asked Concubine Jing where this necklace came from. Concubine Jing, Concubine Jing.
He said that he was preparing jewelry for Emperor Ji two days ago and found that Emperor Ji did not have a jade necklace, so he anxiously asked the Ministry of Internal Affairs to make one for Emperor Ji to wear. As the lady knew, Queen Chunyuan had already passed away when Concubine Jing entered the palace.
Of course, Concubine Jing has never seen the relics of Queen Chunyuan. The workmanship of this jade necklace is also simple. It only looks like Queen Chunyuan from a distance, but it is different when seen up close. Naturally, the emperor will not be suspicious of Concubine Jing.
I thought it was just a coincidence. I immediately asked Li Chang to get the necklace from Queen Chunyuan and gave it to Emperor Ji, and even put it on myself. In this case, I was relieved."
The round beads of Buddha passed through my fingertips one by one, over and over again. I closed my eyes and lightly smelled the scent of sandalwood, and said slowly: "Emperor Ji is young and ignorant. Even if it is the same thing, the emperor will not
You will think that the emperor is intentionally offending. By making a similar appearance, one is to prevent the concubine Jing from being implicated by someone with intentional intentions, and the other is to make the intentional things unintentional, so that the emperor will be more likely to believe it, and even the queen will not be suspicious."
"Afterwards, even Concubine Jing said that with Empress Chunyuan's hibiscus jade necklace, Di Ji was like having a talisman."
I asked: "Then how does Concubine Jing address Di Ji in front of the Emperor?"
Fangruo lowered her head slightly and said softly: "When I'm around people, I call her 'Long Yue', and when I'm alone with the emperor, I call the emperor's concubine's maiden name 'Wanwan'."
I nodded and smiled, "Concubine Jing is a smart person and knows how to protect herself. I am very relieved that the Emperor will be raised by her. I also ask my aunt to tell Concubine Jing when she returns to the palace that this hibiscus jade necklace can only be kept properly. If
Showing off all the time will cause unnecessary trouble."
"Save it for me, slave." Fangruo smiled softly and said, "My wife has learned to turn defeat into victory when she was in her own defeat, which has greatly benefited the Emperor Ji. It can be seen that my wife's mind has not been dulled by the immersion in Buddhism, but has become more comprehensive."
I said indifferently: "Auntie is joking. I am just a defeated general, how can I dare to speak bravely? I just gain wisdom from the experience, and I will try my best to help my daughter."
Fangruo was pleased, "With this hibiscus jade necklace, it shows the emperor's status in the eyes of the emperor. Even if the concubine Chang gives birth to a child, the children will never endanger the emperor's status."
There was a trace of comfort in my heart, and I sighed with a smile: "If I raise a child for one hundred years, I will always worry about ninety-nine. There is no time to be truly relieved. Even if the princess is married to a good consort in the future, I will still be worried.
Is the consort sincerely interested in her?" I thought for a moment and asked Fangruo: "There is something I have always wanted to ask you. Concubine Duan is a good general. After Qi Buzi, her first position in the palace was that of a noble concubine; she was the patron of Concubine Hua.
She is the King of Runan, and she is the concubine Hua as soon as she enters the palace; the queen is not to mention the emperor's cousin, and the niece of the queen mother. She is respected as the concubine Xian when she first enters the palace. So Concubine Chang is the daughter of Lord Jinkang
, you are related to the royal family, so why are you only granted the title of concubine when you enter the palace? Now that you are pregnant, you can only be called a concubine?"
Fang Ruo thought thoughtfully and mused: "The emperor has just ascended the throne, and the foundation of the harem and the previous dynasty are unstable. It is inevitable to have several concubines with high status and rank. Now that the foundation of the harem is sound, no matter how favored the concubine is, it will be
You have to start from the bottom step by step. For this reason, Princess Jinkang complained a lot when she came to pay her respects to the Queen Mother. However, Princess Jinkang was too confused." Fangruo shook his head and said: "Today, the Queen is in charge of the overall situation in the harem, and the Queen Mother's
I am not in good health. Is it still the time when the Queen Mother kept her promise?"
"So what is the relationship between Concubine Chang and the other concubines in the harem - is there anyone particularly close to her?"
"No," Fangruo said without thinking: "Concubine Chang has a noble status and has always been very self-respecting. She doesn't interact with many people and always keeps to herself. Except for the empress, Concubine Duan and Concubine Jing, who have a little respect, others
Don’t even take it to heart.”
I rubbed my increasingly thin chin and whispered, "What about An Lingrong?"
Fangruo didn't even raise her eyebrows and said, "Concubine Chang's eyes are higher than her head, how could she take An Ronghua seriously? Although An Ronghua's position is above Concubine Chang, she is very respectful to Concubine Chang.
Be humble."
I sneered slightly, "An Lingrong has no family background in the harem, so he is naturally humble and submissive in front of Concubine Chang. However, as long as Concubine Chang and An Lingrong are not colluding, I have nothing to worry about."
Fangruo helped me wrap up my winter clothes, stood up and said goodbye, "My lady has nothing to worry about, so this slave has nothing to worry about either."
The cold winter always comes very early in the remote mountains. This year's winter came as scheduled after the leaves have fallen. Xuan Qing's visits were fixed at two or three times a month, in order to avoid suspicion and to pay attention to
I am not troubled by rumors. He often waits for me by the long river at the foot of the mountain when I go out to wash or collect firewood.
At first, he often asked Ah Jin to tell Huanbi the time he would go, and then waited for me to meet him. Gradually, perhaps due to a tacit understanding, I often felt as if I could know when he would return, so
Once you go, he will always be there.
When I asked about it occasionally, he just smiled and said, "I just had nothing to do, so I wandered by the river. If I wandered a lot, I would naturally know when the lady would pass by." His smile was as calm as the wind, crossing the calm river.
, affecting the sparkling waves, "In other words, I secretly like to wait here. If I can wait for the person I want to see, it will be a special surprise. The sigh may be due to fate."
I smiled in the wind: "To be honest, I don't believe in fate when it comes to the relationship between men and women. I have always thought that only those who are weak and unwilling to fight for it will use fate as an excuse. Use deep fate as an excuse to get close, and use fate as an excuse to get close.
"No fate is a false word to end love."
Xuanqing smiled earnestly, "My wife's wonderful remarks always make people feel that there is a new village with dark flowers and bright flowers, as if there is a new world after the end of time."
"Your Majesty, you praise me too much." I looked at the boat on the Linbo River from a distance and said softly: "Maybe one day when there is no way out and there is no solution, I will say that my fate is over."
Xuan Qing's indifferent smile was better than the clear and bright light of the waves, "It would not be surprising if the lady said such words when she was proud in the past. But now that the lady is practicing with the Buddha, she still doesn't believe in fate?"
"Yes." I tightened my clothes. The gray clothes reflected the clarity and calmness of my heart at this moment. "Even in Buddhism, I still have my own beliefs. What's more, the Dharma is profound and I don't understand it all. I only hope that the Dharma is far-reaching and I can
It calms people's hearts. As for fate, I just think it all depends on man-made things. There is no need to use the word 'fate' as an excuse for gatherings and separations."
Xuan Qing clasped his hands and smiled, "Qing only thought that the lady's temperament had been softened by the Buddhist scriptures, but he never thought that there was such a side. What the lady said this time, there is nothing like the flavor of a monk."
My face turned slightly red, and I quickly smiled and said: "Although I have been influenced by my ears and eyes, I have only been studying Buddhist scriptures for more than a year, and I still can't understand all the profound and profound things. What I say and do is a joke to the prince."
In this occasional chat, he didn't say any personal words about men and women, which made me slowly let go of the little anxiety I had about the little portrait.
Except for sending a portrait of Long Yue every two months, at other times he would often talk to me about Buddhism or poetry. Sometimes we would have nothing to say and would just sit together and watch the clouds rise. Or if he got any good books, he would also send them to me.
Give me a copy. If it is inconvenient to meet each other, let Ajin give it to Huanbi when she is out and give it to me. The years in Ganlu Temple are always boring and lonely. Apart from scriptures and labor, there is almost nothing else.
It was fun, and chatting with him allowed me to remember a little bit of poetic feelings in the silence, which was also a little bit of fun stolen from my life.
During the days at Ganlu Temple, my heart was entangled with heavy despair and resentment, and the broken traces of the past, whether bright or cruel, pressed into my heart one after another. I always struggled hard to forget, but always in the dead of night, the wind passed by
When I was sobbing, it hit my heart like a drop of water, crushing me cruelly and decisively along with the mark of time. Like car marks on the snow, it was extremely clear.
She suffered so much and couldn't break free, struggled repeatedly and was exhausted, yet she could be so calm in front of him, as calm as a lake illuminated by the sun in autumn.
Huanbi was always worried that Xuanqing and I were alone, for fear that there would be gossip similar to what Wen Shichu did at that time, so he followed him blindly. However, seeing that he and I were just chatting, he stayed far away and joked with Ah Jin.
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In this way, it is just a light exchange, a friendship between gentlemen.
It wasn't until many days later that he didn't come. When passing by the long river under Ganlu Temple, I could smell the chirping of birds. The wind blowing on my face had already brought the unique gentleness and intoxication at the turn of spring and summer, blending with the mature vegetation.
The sweetness and warmth.
I suddenly realized: Xuan Qing has not been here for two months. Only the river is still meandering quietly, and Anu is singing the song she often sings as usual.
A little girl should treat her lover well - kindness is deep, don't let your sister down - when you see a relationship, you should treat her well, but when you don't see her, you should keep it in your heart seventeen or eighteen times every day!
Anu's singing voice is loud and cheerful, and she always sings happily like this.
Sometimes I was puzzled, so I asked her: "Anu, do you know the meaning of this song?"
Anu smiled brightly: "Of course I know."
I smiled and sighed, "This song is about the love between men and women. Although you know it, you don't sing that kind of love at all."
Anu raised his head in disapproval, only twisted his braids, and said with a smile: "So what if you know, but what if you can't sing it? There are many things in this world that you know clearly but can't do. What's more, I don't have a sweetheart, so I can't sing.
What's so strange about the love between a man and a woman?"
I still listened to her happily singing love songs, and suddenly a vast loneliness arose in my heart. Beside me, Huanbi also sighed: "Your Majesty has not been here for a long time, and there is no one left to listen to her words." Her tone also sounded like this.