Winter is gradually approaching, and I am still busy with work, but my body is getting tired day by day. I often cough late at night. The dryness of late autumn and early winter forces me to sleep peacefully. www.
After the Mid-Autumn Festival, I was not allowed to come to Ganlu Temple on Xuanqing Road. I felt vaguely in my heart that it was okay for Wen Shi to come for the first time. But if he was caught by someone when he came, I was afraid that there would be unnecessary publicity. And I didn't want him to.
Implicated by rumors.
The weather was getting cold, so I lazily went to the Changhe River. Maybe it wasn't laziness, but I thought of the Queen Mother's concern for his marriage, so I hesitated to stop.
After all, he and I are not suitable for each other. No matter how you look at it, no matter how you look at it, the Buddhist girl and the royal nobleman, the emperor’s abandoned concubine and the handsome young man are incompatible.
Therefore, it was often Jin Xi who went to see him.
Jin Xi came back this time with a small cup of rock sugar stewed snow pears, which was still warm. She said: "Last time, I accidentally mentioned my wife's cough to the prince, so this time the prince brought some rock sugar snow pears.
It nourishes the lady's lungs."
I was lowering my head to copy Buddhist scriptures, and after hearing this I just said: "Put it aside, I will eat it after I finish copying."
Jinxi stood aside and watched me write for a while, then said, "Fangruo hasn't been here for two months."
I nodded and said: "Hu Deyi has just given birth to Emperor Hemu, and has been married to Deyi from Chang's concubine. She is getting favored. Fangruo often takes Emperor Ji to the Queen Mother's place, so she is naturally busy and does not have time to come often to get it.
It’s a Buddhist scripture.”
Jinxi whispered in her ear: "It would be a good thing if Fang doesn't come. Her frequent visits indicate that some concubines in the harem are keeping an eye on my wife, so she has to come often to take care of my safety. If she doesn't come often, that is
It is said that some people in the palace have gradually become more relaxed about the lady."
I soaked up the ink and said lightly: "I have been out of the palace for two years, and they know that I can't go back. As time goes by, they don't take me seriously anymore. What's more, Hu Deyi just gave birth to Emperor Hemu.
When she is favored, how many people's thoughts and eyes are on her."
"It's just..." Jin Xi hesitated and said, "I heard that Hu Deyi can no longer have children."
"Oh?" I put down the brush, looked at her and said, "How did you know?"
"Two days ago, Dr. Wen sent some cough medicine, and my wife went out. The servant mentioned it when chatting with him. Mr. Wen said that Hu Deyi was injured due to childbirth and the emperor's concubine, and it will be difficult to get pregnant again."
Xi still lowered her eyebrows and looked down.
My thoughts suddenly changed, "Does Hu Deyi know that?"
"I'm afraid I don't know. If I knew, what traces would I be willing to look for for hurting my body like this? There is always a risk in giving birth to a child. Even if Princess Jinkang is angry and sad, nothing can be found."
I smiled coldly, Hu Deyi is the daughter of Princess Jinkang, her child will not fail to be born. And what does it matter if an emperor is born? In the eyes of the people in the palace, what matters is Hu Deyi’s favor.
, but will not be able to reproduce again in the future. There will be no future troubles. What’s more, even if the child is a prince, it is not known whether he will be raised well.
This trick will never cause any trouble, but it is wonderful.
I said calmly: "Then does the emperor know?"
"Of course I don't know. If we find out and pursue it, it will not be a good thing after all." Jin Xi smiled slightly, "The queen's skills are quite good. She just pities Hu Deyi!"
"Hu Deyi will not be the first, nor will he be the last, as long as the queen is still here." I sighed sadly and opened the bowl. In the small white jade cup lay a few slices of snow pears, and the soup was white and transparent.
, I took a sip, and the light sweetness slowly penetrated my heart and spleen, as if it was really moisturizing my dry and congested spleen and lungs.
Jinxi packed up the Buddhist scriptures that I had copied and said gently: "Actually, Mr. Wen's intention of 'a piece of ice is in a jade pot' is also good. It's just a jade pot, how can it be as considerate as a cup of rock sugar stewed snow pears?"
Woolen cloth."
I coughed twice, and my cheeks turned a strange flush. I clenched the prayer beads on my wrist and whispered, "Jinxi, you talk too much today."
But I know in my heart that even if I don't see Xuan Qing, his concern is always by my side.
The weather is getting colder, and my cough is getting heavier day after day. At first, I only coughed at night, unable to sleep, and suffered from severe night sweats. Gradually, I also coughed and wheezed during the day. I often wheezed all day long, my heart and lungs were pounding, my face flushed, and I would lie down.
I can't even write properly on the table.
Huanbi and Jinxi were extremely anxious. Huanbi personally went to Wen Shichu's residence, and when she came back she said dejectedly: "It is said that Hu Deyi in the palace suffered from postpartum disorder, and Master Wen was left in the Taiyuan Hospital. He has not been back to his residence for many days.
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I coughed and said with difficulty: "Hu Deyi has just given birth to Emperor Hemu. She is a celebrity in front of the emperor and is the daughter of Princess Jinkang. Naturally, she is very noble."
Jin Xi said sadly: "But how can it be good? After eating so many rock sugar snow pears, I also stewed a lot of loquat leaves. I also ate a loquat tree, but I didn't feel better at all." At this time, Jin Xi held her hand.
There was a bowl of bird's nest in it, and he said in a good voice: "The bird's nest that the prince sent quietly is the most nourishing. Please drink it."
I waved my hand and said, "Why are you so squeamish? It's just a few coughs."
Huanbi's face turned pale with anxiety and said: "It's not just a matter of coughing twice. People are already coughing. For more than half a month, I haven't had a good night's sleep due to coughing. Jingbai actually sent the young lady to
Washing so many clothes by the stream, it seems to me that I am overtired."
Jinxi pulled Huanbi's sleeve and whispered: "Girl, please stop saying a few words. Because my wife is coughing so badly, there are so many unpleasant gossips that she is said to have tuberculosis."
Huanbi was furious and said: "Who is talking nonsense like this? I saw the young lady being tortured by them like this!"
I gasped so much that my throat tightened, and my voice became hoarse and I said, "Just say a few words."
While he was talking, the door was pushed open with a bang, and a group of sisters-in-law broke in. The leader was Jingbai. She shouted impatiently: "We cannot live in Ganlu Temple with people suffering from tuberculosis.
Do pilgrims dare to come? The reputation of a century-old temple cannot be ruined in the hands of such unlucky people."
Huanbi's lips turned white with anger, and she said, "Who said our young lady has tuberculosis? Which doctor has come to see her? Aren't you afraid of being struck by lightning if you are so full of nonsense?"
Jingbai pulled Huanbi away, frowning and said, "Even if it's not tuberculosis, it's close to tuberculosis. Coughing day and night like this will make others want to live with it. It looks bad!"
I had to swallow my anger and said hoarsely: "I'm sorry, I'm not in good health and I'm troubling everyone."
A sister-in-law stretched her neck and said in a sharp voice: "If you know that you are inconvenient to others, you should leave immediately. This way you will be annoying to others."
Jing rolled her eyes and saw a bowl of bird's nests on the table. Her throat immediately became thick, and she put her hands on her hips and said proudly: "Look! She is a thief, and the ready-made stolen goods are right here!"
Her loud voice stung my eardrums, which made me feel buzzing and painful. When I heard her false accusations, no matter how well-behaved I was, I couldn't help but feel slightly embarrassed and said, "What I say must be well-founded. How have I ever done that?"
What did I steal from you?"
Jingbai was quite pleased with herself. She pointed at the bird's nest on the table and said sternly: "Only me and the abbot wife in Ganlu Temple eat bird's nest. Where did you get this bird's nest?"
I changed my color slightly and signaled Jinxi and Huanbi not to speak. How could I tell the origin of this bird's nest?
Jingbai clapped his fingers and said: "The imperial doctor hasn't come to see you for several days. Don't say that he brought this bird's nest. The aunt in the palace hasn't come for two or three months. Who else can give it to you?"
Here comes the bird's nest? The abbot's wife's bird's nest is placed together with mine. My apprentice Mo Jie stews it and sends it to me every day. If you didn't steal it from my room, could it be that the bird's nest has legs?
Did he run into your bowl by himself?"
Several sisters-in-law around Jingbai echoed: "That's right, she comes to the master's room every day after collecting firewood. She must be feeling revenge for the master's mistreatment of her, so she stole the bird's nest to eat."
I said coldly: "Monks, don't tell lies. Since the bird's nest is always in Master Jingbai's room, and it is eaten every day, if it was missing, I should have found it and looked for it long ago. Why did you just mention that there was a thief when you came to my place?"
What's going on?"
Jingbai was startled, then waved her hand and said, "I don't have that much nonsense to tell you. If you have the ability, just tell me where this bowl of bird's nest comes from. If you can't tell me, you've stolen it from me!"
Huanbi said anxiously: "Why are you allowed to have bird's nests, but no one else is allowed to have bird's nests!"
Jingbai laughed "hey" and said: "Maybe someone else or someone from the family sent something! But who is Mochou? She is an unlucky person who was kicked out of the palace. She has no relatives and no reason. How could she be so valuable?
Bird's nest, a thief is a thief, and denying it is useless!" He said in a voice: "Go and invite the abbot!"
The sisters-in-law who were watching were all sneering and whispering, eager to see the joke.
I had never been slandered like this before. I couldn't help but feel so angry that my chest was churning like a river, making me feel suffocated and uncomfortable.
The abbot arrived soon.
She looked at me with pity and said, "How did you become so sick?"
My chest felt heavy and I was breathing hard. Jingbai said: "Abbott, everyone gets the stolen goods. Mo Chou is the thief who stole the bird's nest. How can we allow a thief to live here and ruin the century-old reputation of Ganlu Temple!"
I clenched my fists tightly, holding back my tears, and said slowly, "Abbott, I didn't steal."
The abbot sighed softly and said, "What did you say about tuberculosis just now?"
I shook my head, "I don't have tuberculosis, and no doctor has come to see me and said it's tuberculosis. I just have a bad cough."
"Are you taking any medicine?"
Huanbi supported my body and said: "I took the medicine according to the prescription, but it still has no effect."
A sister-in-law said: "Mochou has been coughing like this day and night for more than half a month. In fact, she was coughing two months ago, but it was not that severe. If it wasn't tuberculosis, why didn't she get better after taking medicine for so long?
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Everyone agreed: "Look at how thin she is, and how red her face turns when she coughs. She probably has incurable tuberculosis, and we definitely can't live with her anymore."
The abbot looked around the crowd with a pitiful and helpless expression, and looked at me and said: "Right now... you are in such bad health, and everyone refuses to live with you anymore, so why not move out first?"
I felt empty and aggrieved in my heart, and said, "Abbott knows that I have no relatives and friends, where can I move to now?"
Huanbi said sadly and angrily: "The abbot can't uphold justice? He can only listen to a group of sisters-in-law yelling. He is too soft-hearted."
Before Huanbi finished speaking, Jingbai had already stepped forward, slapped his face, and shouted: "Is the abbot someone you can blame too?"
Huanbi was ashamed and angry. She covered her face and tried to hold back her tears. She held my hand tightly. Huanbi's hand was shaking slightly. Neither she nor I had ever suffered such humiliation.
Jin Xi stepped forward and said, "Abbott, can you please listen to me? I don't know whether my wife's illness is tuberculosis. It's just that she is so sick now." She looked at the sky, "It looks like it's going to snow outside. It's going to snow for a while."
Where to move? I wonder if the abbot can accommodate me for a few days?"
As soon as Jin Xi finished speaking, the sisters-in-law headed by Jing Bai started shouting and said in confusion: "How can she live with us when she is so sick?"
"It's coughing day and night, why don't we go to bed again?"
"She is a thief. She steals bird's nests today, but she doesn't know what she will steal tomorrow!"
Finally, it was combined into one sentence, "If Mochou lives in Ganlu Temple, none of us will live there."
I saw the abbot's head was as big as a bucket, and he was in a dilemma. In a moment of anger, Yingying bowed to the abbot and said: "Since Ganlu Temple can't accommodate me, I shouldn't put the abbot in trouble. The only thing is that I am not a thief, and this bird's nest is not a thief."
It's not stolen." I turned back to Huanbi and Jinxi and said, "Since Ganlu Temple can't tolerate us, let's just leave." After saying this, I ordered, "Pack up all the boxes and cages."
Huanbi agreed with tears in her eyes. Just as she and Jinxi were about to pack their clothes, Jingbai stepped forward and said urgently: "Since he is a thief, we must check these boxes one by one, just in case you take something out..."
The abbot said: "Jingbai, don't say any more!"
Jingbai was unwilling to give in, rolled her eyes, and finally did not take action again.
I was angry and anxious, the blood in my chest was surging, my vision went dark, and my steps became weak. I had to sit sideways and watch Huanbi and Jinxi clean up.
Under the gaze of everyone, a person suddenly rushed out of the diagonal stab, it was Mo Yan.
She stood with her arms crossed and said, "You want to leave?"
I nodded and said, "Yes."
She looked around at everyone coldly and said, "It's okay if you can't live in this kind of place. I'll take you out!" She said and quickly helped Huanbi and Jinxi pack up.
The abbot sighed slightly and said to me: "Ganlu Temple still has two Buddhist monasteries at Lingyun Peak. You can go and live in peace and recuperate first. We can wait until you are well. No matter how bad it is, you have to have a place to stay first."
I endured the discomfort and nodded slightly.
After packing up, Mo Yan looked at me and said, "You look so bad, why are you walking to Lingyun Peak? It looks like it's going to snow outside. Let me carry you." He picked me up on his back and walked out.
Behind me, my sister-in-law murmured: "Sure enough, it's just a matter of climbing the mountain from Ganlu Peak to Lingyun Peak, and you have to be carried on your back."
Mo Yan turned back coldly and said sternly: "If anyone wants to be nagging again, just come and talk to me." There was silence all around, and Mo Yan snorted coldly and walked out quickly with me on his back.
It was overcast and snowy in the mountains, and the wind hurt my cheeks like a knife. Fortunately, Lingyun Peak and Ganlu Peak were close, and it only took half an hour to reach them.
Huanbi said "Oh!" and complained: "How can we live here?"
There are three small Zen rooms, two bedrooms, one light and one dark, a small dining hall, and a small courtyard in front. However, it seems that no one has lived there for a long time, and it is dilapidated and dirty.
Jin Xi looked at it for a few times and said: "We can still live in it. There are trees in the yard. It won't be too hot in the summer. The orientation is okay. I just have to work hard to clean it up."
So they worked together and tidied up for two days before they could barely live in it. Mo Yan also helped to tape up the windows and tidy up the roof, and finally settled down before the snow fell. Mo Yan said: "It's snowing to guarantee that the mountain will be closed, and I can't often close it."
I came out of Ganlu Temple to see you, please take care of yourself."
I tried my best to smile and said, "Thank you very much. I have to trouble you after all."
She clapped her hands and said, "What's the matter? You might as well live here and save yourself from the noise and torture of Jingbai and those people every day. You can have a good life." She thought about it and then said: "Don't blame the abbot, she has her own problems.
Difficulties."
I nodded, "I know, I don't blame the abbot."
Mo Yan said: "Jingbai and the others already dislike you. Now that the people in the palace have not come to see you for several months, of course they will continue to abuse you."
I felt uncomfortable in my chest, and sighed: "I didn't expect that even a Buddhist temple like Ganlu Temple would not be clean."
Mo Yan sneered and said: "Buddhist temples are built in the secular world, how can it be without right and wrong? Well, you can just take care of it, your face is so ugly."
The heavy snow fell one after another in the evening. Originally, there were snow beads, and the windows were rustling noisily. Huanbi and Jinxi took advantage of the falling snow to pick up some dry firewood to burn.
Although the room had been cleaned up, it was still cold, and the heat from the small brazier could hardly warm me. Huanbi and Jinxi sat in front of the brazier, and all the clothes and quilts they could cover covered me. My body
I was still shivering slightly, and I obviously felt cold. There was a piece of cold ice at the bottom of my body, but my body was boiling hot and unbearably hot. I half-opened my eyes vaguely, and outside the thin window paper, heavy snow like goose feathers fell, covering the sky and the ground.
As I stood there, the world was in chaos. Huanbi and Jinxi's cold hands took turns to apply on my forehead, and I fell into a daze. In my daze, it seemed that Huanbi was crying, and my head was buzzing.
, causing pain and chaos like thousands of horses galloping.
The heat is so uncomfortable, like baking in the sun at noon in summer, like burning a fire next to the stove. There are countless hot little fireballs rolling around in my body, flying like fireflies in my body, making me thirsty.
He couldn't stop tearing the clothes and quilt covering his body with all his strength.
Drowsily, I felt like I was hugging a very comfortable big ice cube, which cooled me down slightly, soothing the heat and pain in my body. The ice was so hot that it melted, and after a while, I felt cool again.
Come up. The coolness is like drinking a bowl of cool iced plum soup in the hottest time of summer. The sourness and coolness are soothing to every pore of the internal organs.
I turned over and lost consciousness in a daze, feeling seriously ill.