In the following days, I just acted as if nothing happened, and took care of my illness. Swallowing novels www. They chatted a few words casually about the hotel, and never mentioned Xuan Ling's visit that day, thus avoiding mutual embarrassment.
Caiping and Cailan came three times a day to invite me to visit Xiaoxian Pavilion, but I couldn't refuse, so I finally chose a day with good weather and took Huanbi with me to go there with Caiping and Cailan.
Xiaoxian Pavilion is not far behind Luye Hall. It is a small and beautiful courtyard, very quiet and spacious. When you walk in, you will see a few antiques randomly displayed in the hall. They are all exquisite and simple, not too gorgeous and elegant. Hanging on the wall is a picture of "Lady with Hairpin Flowers" by Zhou Fang of the Tang Dynasty. The writing is soft and charming, even and gentle, and the charm is very quaint. On the ground is a table and chairs made of huanghuali with openwork moire patterns and roses. In the left ear room, A row of bookshelves are filled with neatly bound ancient books, filled with the faint scent of ink.
Caiping said with a smile: "Our prince said that the young lady likes reading, so he specially asked him to select the best books in his study and put them here to relieve the boredom of the young lady."
I smiled faintly and said, "I'm sorry to bother you, Your Majesty, to bother me so much."
Caiping smiled brightly, showing her white teeth, and said intelligently: "I am very happy to see our prince working so hard. I have never seen your prince look like this after serving for more than ten years. Now if the young lady thinks after reading these books, It’s interesting and beautiful, I’m afraid the prince will be even happier.”
My fingertips lightly passed over the smooth yellow pages of the book, and my heart was like the pages of the book, like the originally calm water surface, whose hand was so brisk and inadvertent that it caused infinite ripples, layer after layer. Spread across the ground.
I closed the book and said softly as if casually: "The prince is always so sincere in his treatment of others. If someone can exchange a sentence or even a sentence with him on poems, books and articles, he will treat you as a close friend and treat you sincerely." "
Caiping tilted her head, pursed her lips and said with a smile, "Isn't that right? Just meeting someone like the young lady, and having such a magnanimous manner in dealing with people, makes people feel approachable unconsciously, let alone the prince. Cailan and I are the slaves, and we feel that we are lucky to be able to devote ourselves to the lady."
I couldn't help but smile at the corners of my lips, pointing at her and Cailan and saying: "No wonder your prince loves you and Cailan so much and takes you as his maids. You are indeed smart, smart and able to talk. Your prince has you two. Having someone by your side, by your side every day, will surely relieve you of a lot of worries and allow you to enjoy a peaceful and leisurely life."
When Cai Lan heard this, she hurriedly waved her hands and said: "Miss, this is a big misunderstanding. First of all, we are just serving the prince. We are no different from other maids. There is no such thing as 'close'. The prince's personal affairs are all We can't do what A Jin is waiting for. It's just that the prince promoted the two of us and felt that we were not too clumsy, so he specially promoted the one who came to serve the young lady. Secondly..." She pondered slightly, her face flushed as if she was dizzy. Cheeks raw, hesitant to speak.
After all, Caiping Kuairen said in a low voice: "Secondly, this servant and Sister Cailan are not the prince's concubines, so..."
That's it! I knew it wasn't true, it was just a joke. But when I heard them deny it in front of me, I felt a slight sense of relief in my heart. I didn't notice how Huanbi fell out behind me. A relaxed and comfortable look on his face.
However, I was dejected. Even if I knew that I was not his concubine, what could I be happy about?
I was about to speak, but I saw Huanbiman, who had been silent behind me, step forward, take Caiping with one hand and Cailan with the other, and said affectionately: "Our lady was just joking just now. The lady looked at the two of them. These girls are beautiful in appearance, good-tempered, and very gentle and docile. They are really top-notch talents, and I love them so much. Thinking about the appearance and temperament of the two girls, although they may not be able to be concubines, they are still concubines. My aunt's good position is always certain, that's why I say this. Besides, it's not right now, who knows she won't have such a good blessing in the future. Others can't envy her. Not only the lady, but also me, in my heart Sooner or later I will say congratulations to the two girls."
Ever since Xuanqing sent Caiping and Cailan to serve me, Huanbi always kept a distance from them when getting along with them because of their outstanding appearance and distinctive clothes. It's really rare that I spoke to these two people before and they were so cordial and polite. I was also secretly surprised.
Caiping and Cailan know that Huanbi is my personal maid and have grown up together since childhood. Even Xuanqing treats Huanbi in a different light, so they are naturally very polite. Now that they see her being so affectionate, they naturally have to treat her very appropriately. Caiping is busy. She smiled and said, "Miss Huanbi said this, but she really wants to kill me and Sister Cailan."
Cailan straightened up and said: "We have an unwritten rule in Qingliangtai. Because those of us who work as slaves in Qingliangtai are not as good as the Qinghe Prince's Mansion, where the daughters of good families are all chosen. We are all family members. The road has withered, and we are wandering outside, hanging on a thread of life and death. We were rescued by the prince and served at Qingliangtai. In our eyes, the prince is our great benefactor, and we will never have any wrong thoughts. Now we are doing our best. Serve the prince and do your best to serve the prince and princess in the future." He looked at me and said: "The prince regards the young lady as his confidant. The young lady must know that our prince will not have a concubine to serve as a concubine. If he does, there will only be one. The royal princess, isn’t she?”
I nodded: "Your Majesty did say so. The women in the world are like three thousand weak water, and he only takes one gourd to drink."
Huanbi's eyes jumped slightly, and soon she smiled as usual: "Then, being able to serve the prince for a lifetime is a blessing that no one else can achieve."
When Huanbi said this, Lan and Ping naturally spoke with interest. The three of them gradually became familiar with each other's words. Seeing how lively they were talking, I couldn't bear to disturb them and just looked around Xiao Xianguan.
There is a cabinet in the inner room of Xiaoxian Pavilion. There are three or five boxes of good seals, chicken blood stones, or Qingtian stones, neatly placed in a row. There are also shelves. There is a bookcase in front of the window, and Chengxintang paper is spread randomly. Scattered around, just waiting for someone to put pen to paper, there is also a red sandalwood silk inlaid jade octagonal pen holder, a set of sapphire sunflower washers, a sapphire pen mountain, and a sapphire ink bed. They are all quaint and exquisite things, elegant and pleasant. The long window faces south. There is a Yang Fei couch with purple velvet embroidered cushions at the bottom, and the corners are sealed with dark green and black silver velvet. On the table beside the couch are two pots of narcissus, which spit out the fragrance of pistils. On the window, the same color rains through the sky-blue cicada canopy. , there is a pot of spider plant hanging under the window. Even in winter, it still grows gracefully and gracefully, with green branches and leaves. There is a local carved rosewood table, with a celadon beauty goblet on it, and a few sprigs of fragrant flowers are inserted in it. Red plums, like dots of rouge. Another set of green pastel consecrated ammonite tea sets. There is an embroidery stand next to the table. Thousands of colors of silk threads are all ready, only rolled into a ball and placed on the thread stand. .
After bypassing a four-leaf nanmu primrose-colored carved glazed screen, there is a bed further inside. The autumn-colored curtain hangs obediently, faintly revealing the light patterns of begonias sleeping in spring.
.The brocade quilt with apricot red gold heart shining satin, the bottom is paved with ermine skin mattress, very soft and warm. A smooth snow-white pink wall is built on the bluestone with passion flower background. There are no calligraphy or paintings on the wall, just hanging
There are two pieces of fine Suzhou embroidery, one of green peonies and the other of phoenix and parasol trees, both of which are displayed on the bedside.
I closed my eyes and sniffed, and the sweet fragrance penetrated my heart. Then I saw a gold-leafed silver incense ball hanging on the hook of the bed tent. The aroma came out from then on, which is what I have always loved.
Lily and incense.
He arranged it so carefully and every detail was thoughtful. It really was a truly beautiful daughter's bedroom.
I saw shadows outside the window, and I pushed it open out of curiosity, only to see a garden outside the window. Planted in the garden were not the ordinary red and white plums, but double green plum blossoms with light green petals. It was the right time at this time.
When the plum blossoms are in full bloom, the garden is full of green plum blossoms in full bloom. They are like green beads on the branches and emeralds are covered with light. Even the sunlight shining through them has a light and transparent green jade brilliance, which is not as beautiful as spring but better than spring.
I was stunned for a moment and couldn't move my eyes away.
I don’t know when Huanbi came in. She walked up to me quietly and said softly: "Look at this room, the prince must have put a lot of effort into it. Not to mention anything else, but the painting "Lady with Hairpin Flowers" has been
It’s a city-linked thing.”
I was silent, just looking at the garden full of green plums. If he really knew that Xuan Ling and I met in the Plum Garden and avoided planting red plums and white plums for fear that I would be sad, then he would be really attentive. Even if
No, it is extremely difficult to collect so many green plums.
Huanbi's eyes were also attracted by the green plum blossoms. She was stunned for a moment, and suddenly said with great joy: "Miss, look, all the plum blossoms are blue?"
I didn't have the intention to think about why she was so happy, so I just said "hmm" in agreement.
Xuan Qing's words seemed to still be in his ears, "When Qing was in the palace, he sincerely invited the lady to come to the Qingliangtai for a gathering, but the lady declined because midsummer had passed and the Qingliangtai was too cool. However, Qingyi hoped that if there was a chance,
It would be a good coincidence that the lady can go to the Qingliang Terrace. Xiao Xianguan has been preparing for it since he met the lady in the early Qing Dynasty, and now he finally has the opportunity to make the lady stay for a while." He couldn't hide his words when he said this.
of joy and satisfaction.
I also laughed: "Your Majesty also said that Qingliangtai is warm in winter and cool in summer. If one day I feel the weather is unbearably cold, I can come and get together. Your Majesty's small red clay stove is willing to melt the cold and frost for me. Although Your Majesty
I also hope that that day will never happen. But now, the one who is willing to help in times of need is the same King Qinghe who made a huge promise back then."
He was also considerate and worried that I would be uneasy, so he only let Caiping and Cailan accompany me to watch.
I heard soft footsteps, but it was Cai Ping and Cai Lan who came in. They looked at each other and smiled, and said, "Are you satisfied with the layout of Xiao Xian Hall? If you are, you can move in today."
Caiping added: "Xiao Xian Pavilion is the most exquisite room in Qingliangtai, and it is also close to the prince's Green Field Hall."
I hesitated a little, and Huanbi suddenly held my sleeve and begged me in a low voice: "Miss, can we live here?" She added: "The scenery here is good, suitable for Miss to recuperate. And..." Her eyes
Greedy on plum blossoms.
I smiled and said, "You like those plum blossoms, don't you?"
Huanbi nodded. As if her nod strengthened my wavering heart, she said, "I like this place very much. Please help Caiping and Cailan pack my clothes and move them here."
Caiping and Cailan were eager for this sound and went out happily.
By that night, I was already living in Xiaoxianguan. The room was elegant, the bedding was warm and soft, and it was ventilated and bright. When I opened the window, I could smell the fragrance of green plum blossoms in the garden.
After living like this for a few days, I felt that he was thoughtful and considerate, and everything he thought of was done appropriately.
When I woke up this morning, I felt dizzy, so I took two plasters and put them on my forehead. Huanbi loved the green plums so much that she broke off a few branches every day and put them on the bedside, whenever I had free time. Lying in front of the flowers, I can't stop looking at them.
The refreshing fragrance of plum blossoms made me feel happy. I leaned on the quilt, looked at her with a smile and said, "It's rare to see you like flowers so much."
Huanbi smiled lowly, "I was looking at the flowers, and I was also appreciating the prince's feelings."
I lowered my head and stroked the corner of the quilt, "My lord has really put a lot of thought into my illness and this Xiaoxian Pavilion."
Huanbi looked at me and said in a low voice: "Miss, do you think this is the only time the prince cares about you? In fact, when we were in the palace..." She hesitated to speak.
I interrupted her and said quietly: "I know." How could I not know, his protection when I returned from a private visit to Meizhuang, his care for the lotus flowers in full bloom on my birthday, and his care for those frustrated people? In these lonely days, it was he, and only him, who brought me comfort and gave me careful explanations.
He is the icing on the cake and providing help in times of need.
However, Huanbi shook her head, "I'm not talking about the things that the prince did to please the young lady." She turned her head slightly and said, "Miss, do you still remember the miscarriage? It was in Mrs. Xihua's Mixiu Palace."
Mrs. Xihua of Mixiu Palace! My heart suddenly ached. In the ups and downs of the past, the endless scarlet color suddenly appeared in front of my eyes. The smell of blood rushed to my nose, and my brain became buzzing and confused.
How could I forget? That was my child, my first child. He lived in my belly for four months, and then was ripped out of my body in Mixiu Palace. It hurt so much, so painful, His life disappeared bit by bit along with the blood in my body, and I will never forget it. If it hadn't been for that miscarriage, I would probably still be the beloved concubine in the harem who didn't know the pain and was held in the palm of Xuan Ling's hand.
The ups and downs of my life also started there.
I unconsciously clenched my fists tightly. During that miscarriage, I always thought it was Concubine Hua, but I didn’t expect it to be An Lingrong... An Lingrong had already buried his murderous intention when he offered me the "Shuhen Glue" .With such murderous intent and cunning, I am destined to be unable to keep this child, and it will also be my lifelong pain.
Therefore, from now on, no one in Tangli Palace dared to mention this matter in front of me easily.
But Huanbi brought up my pain so suddenly, so unexpectedly in front of me, and she solemnly said: "Miss, do you still remember that time? Who rescued you from Mixiu Palace..."
Who is it? It’s Xuan Qing.
My heart suddenly shook. Before the answer to the mystery was really revealed, and at the moment when I fell into a coma and lost consciousness, I always thought it was Xuan Ling who came to save me, but I didn't expect it to be Xuan Qing.
Murong Shilan, the concubine of Hua at that time, was the daughter of King Runan's confidant. She had always relied on King Runan as her backer and was above all the concubines in the palace. Even the queen did not pay attention to her. And Xuanqing, because of his Because of the disharmony between his biological mother and King Runan's biological mother during her lifetime, Xuan Qing was always hated by King Runan, who regarded him as a thorn in his side and a thorn in his flesh, and wanted to get rid of him soon.
In the past dynasty, King Xuanji of Runan was a prestigious minister with real power, leading troops outside the pass. He was so powerful that even Xuan Ling, the emperor, had to be wary. Xuan Qing, on the other hand, was just an idler.
The clan has no power and power, so it can only focus on poetry, books, music, and chess all day long to avoid the sharp edges.
He rashly broke into the Mixiu Palace where the beloved concubine lived to save me from danger. Not only did he greatly offend the arrogant concubine Hua, but he also directly clashed with the people of the King of Runan. It was very different from his usual practice of keeping a low profile and biding his time.
, a style of not paying attention to everything.
Huanbi has never talked about what happened that day in front of me, but now she is telling it with confidence: "On that day, the young lady was forced to kneel in the Mixiu Palace of Mrs. Xihua. Even the concubine Jing, who has the power to co-manage the Sixth Palace, could not save you.
.I knew something was wrong. That day, Jinxi was with the young lady inside, so naturally she couldn't escape. All the concubines of the first palace were also in Mrs. Xihua's palace. The emperor and the queen had gone out to worship heaven. The queen mother was very sick and dizzy.
How can I care about the young lady when I have no time to take care of myself? There is really no way to go to heaven and no way to the earth. The slave saw the young lady being tortured to such an extent by Mrs. Xihua from a distance, and she was even more worried about the child in the young lady's belly, but there was no one who could
There is no way to save the young lady, and I am so anxious that I even want to die. However, who in the palace dares to offend Mrs. Xihua?" Huanbi paused and said, "It happened that at that time, I met
A Jin, who was passing by, remembered that it turned out that the Sixth Prince lived in the Luoyue Kaiyun Pavilion on the Taiye Pond in order to be able to attend to the illness and take care of the Queen Mother."
Luoyue Kaiyun Pavilion is the place where Xuanqing lived before he left the palace and opened a palace. He was never married and was raised by the Queen Mother, so he still left such a palace on Taiye Pond for convenience.
When traveling between the palace and the palace, you can chat with Xuan Ling about poetry and calligraphy, and you can also express your filial piety to the Queen Mother. Moreover, the Kaiyun Pavilion of the Hollow Moon was built in the middle of Taiye Lake, so even the concubines and their family members would not know how to row a boat and play in it.
Going so far away can avoid suspicion.
"I have met A Jin before and know that he is a close confidant of the prince and can be trusted to serve him closely. So I begged A Jin to take me to the Luoyue Kaiyun Pavilion to find the Sixth Prince to find a way to save the young lady."
Huanbi was immersed in her thoughts and said: "That was the first time I went to the Luoyue Kaiyun Pavilion. Countless light gold and pink albizia flowers bloomed outside the pavilion. The wind blew by like a rain of flowers. If it weren't for the rush,
In order to save the young lady, I must be greedy. The prince stood under the rain of flowers, writing one stroke at a time. I didn't know what he was writing, but when he saw me coming, he knew it must be something.
What's the matter? Because the prince once told me after the young lady was pregnant that if the young lady has any difficulties in the palace, he can ask me to go to the Luoyue Kaiyun Pavilion to find him. If he is not there, A Jin will also send a message to him. But then
One day, Ah Jin took me there in person, and I was in such a panic, so the prince knew that something serious must have happened. So I cried, knelt down and begged him, begging the prince to go to Mixiu Palace to save the young lady." She said.
He was stunned and said: "When the prince heard this, his face turned pale. He didn't say how to save him. He threw away the paper and pen and pulled me away and went to Mixiu Palace. A Jin was so anxious that he almost went crazy. He tried his best to hold the prince and beg him.
Your Majesty, please don’t offend Mrs. Xihua and King Runan. But your Majesty is so strong, how can A Jin survive? Not to mention A Jin, even the guards guarding Mixiu Palace were frightened and could not stop them.
So, we broke into the Mixiu Palace like this. The prince was a man, so he broke in rashly. The concubines were frightened and hid in the inner hall in a panic. Even Mrs. Xihua’s face was frightened.
To be clear, she didn't care about avoiding suspicion, so she got very angry and argued with the prince. Alas, how could Mrs. Xihua take anyone seriously back then, but she didn't want to think about it, how dare the prince break in to save people like this?
Can I still take her seriously?"
In the painful memory of that day, I only saw Xuanqing arguing face-to-face with Murong Shilan because of me. It was the first time I saw him so angry and angry, and his expression changed drastically. Xuanqing, on the other hand, had always been gentle and calm.
"At that time, the young lady was bleeding a lot. The whole skirt was red. She was unconscious. No matter how much Miss Shen called you, she didn't wake up. I was so frightened that I could only cry. The prince saw that no one could help me.
I was so busy that I didn't care about the defense of men and women, so I carried you back to Tangli Palace." Huanbi talked about the emotional point, and couldn't help but burst into tears: "Then Concubine Jing also came, and saw that your three souls were gone.
He looked so frightened that he almost fainted, and hurriedly called for the imperial doctor. The prince ordered Ah Jin to hurry up and fetch the emperor back, and personally guarded outside Tangli Palace to prevent Mrs. Xihua from taking the opportunity to cause trouble until the emperor returned."
She didn't say anything about what happened next, so I knew it myself.
My child was not saved after all.
However, my mind was shaken and agitated like a tide, and I couldn't say a word for a moment. It turned out that he had been treating me like this all morning, protecting me and being considerate for me. I always thought I knew, but I knew so little, so little
Scattered is just the tip of the iceberg.
"Everyone said that because you are a noble concubine, the emperor's favorite concubine, and you are pregnant with the emperor's heir, that's why the six kings came to save you at all costs, even at the expense of offending Mrs. Xihua, who has the support of King Runan.
." Huanbi looked at me, her eyes as deep as two pools of still water, dark to the end, and said quietly: "I always thought so. But if I hadn't seen the prince shed tears for you that day, I would hardly have been able to do it.
I believe it was the first time I saw a man shed tears. Men don’t shed tears easily. But that day at Mixiu Palace, I saw the prince’s tears fall on your face with my own eyes, even though I was the only one who saw it. But Miss
, I understand everything... Your Majesty is feeling sorry for you."
"My concubine!..." Before I finally lost consciousness, I only heard the person holding me calling me. There was such affection, pain and forbearance hidden in this calling voice. I always thought it was Xuan Ling, my husband.
, heartache for me, anxious for me.
The heat of that drop of tear is like a burning mark. As soon as I think of it, it will burn faintly on my cheek. The trace of tears has long since disappeared completely on my cheek. Only I understand that passionate
How the temperature fell on my heart, leaving a deep and clear imprint.
These are the tears of Qing's heartache for me, and they have become my inner demon today. I get entangled with them from time to time. How can I resist?
I'm just trying my best to resist.
I remained silent, just looking at the brocade quilt with luxuriant flowers, and I was in a daze. Such embroidered flowers, clusters of flowers, were the official style. I knew that Xuanqing was careful and had people change all the palace-like patterns, fearing that they would catch the eye.
It reminds me of the sadness of the past. Although I am in the cooling terrace of his villa, far away from the palace confinement, has the atmosphere of the palace really gone away?
The spices I like rising like smoke from the incense burner are the precious agarwood incense that only the royal family can afford.
And he is a person who is constantly involved in the Gongjin Shenyuan.
There was a moment of emptiness in my mind, and even I couldn't control it. The wind blew in slowly from under the window, like a lady strolling in, and caressed my cheek with a cool meaning. The wind blew the beautiful spring flower curtain.
In a daze, the scenery outside the window dazzled me. For a moment, my mind was stirred, and I suddenly felt that I loved him like this, but I must not let myself love him like this. In such a dazed moment, all the sadness
Joy, bitterness, surprise, loss and the deep expectations of girlhood flooded into my heart.
In the early years, when I still had expectations and longing for love, I longed for someone who would not be happy or sad because of my beauty, who would not care about my family's status, who would have the same interests as me, and who would share my passion.
If you are happy with each other, you can stay together day and night until you grow old, and keep the myth of "long-lasting love, long-lasting love", just like this, "if you want to have the person you love, we will never be apart until we grow old".
However, there is such a person in front of me. He meets all my first and final dreams of love. He understands me, cherishes me, has a clear connection with me, and is in tune with my soul without caring about the changes in my appearance.
But I retreated and was afraid.
The hand of time made us miss it at the beginning. Can we still change it now?
I have thought countless times that if I had not entered the palace or become Xuan Ling's beloved concubine, I might have had a one-in-10,000 chance to meet, get to know, and fall in love with him. This one-in-10,000 chance would have been far away.
Much larger than today.
However, when I met him, I was already Xuan Ling's new favorite. I couldn't change anything, couldn't say anything, couldn't do anything. Facing his unintentional expression of affection, I could only pretend to be ignorant, turn a deaf ear, and try my best to suppress my feelings.
Mood.
But now, my identity with him is so clear. Even if I am an abandoned concubine, even if Xuan Ling and I are no longer husband and wife, I am still his former emperor's wife. What's more, he is still the proud son of heaven.
The jade hall is glorious. But I am a downcast and haggard woman with a declining family background. Facing his affection that is still the same or even getting stronger, how can I not feel ashamed and ashamed in front of him.