I was a little surprised because I didn't expect that she could really face herself so seriously. She was right. The reason why a person doesn't understand himself is either because he is unwilling or because he has never done so. Of course there is a difference.
The former is escape, and the latter is numbness. For me, there seem to be reasons for both.
I smiled bitterly and shook my head, "I really don't know what kind of person I am. If I say that I am very simple, I guess I am not, because sometimes I feel that I am more complicated. Well... maybe there is a word that can describe myself.
One of the characteristics of people is that they pursue perfection more. Because people who like to pursue perfection actually have slight obsessive-compulsive disorder, that is, if something is not done well, they will feel uncomfortable. Also, if someone asks me to do something
When it comes to things, I tend to rush to do them right away. Sometimes I can’t even stay overnight for such things. Oh, and, haha! I also have a habit that illustrates this characteristic of mine, that is, I rush out after every convenience.
When I go to the toilet, I always have to look inside to see if everything has been flushed down. As long as there is still a little bit of uncleanness inside, I feel uncomfortable and I have to find a way to clean it before I can leave."
She burst out laughing immediately, "Feng Xiao, you are so disgusting!"
I also laughed, but only lightly, "Your words show the difference between you and me, because you are rougher, do things in a hurry, and don't pay much attention to personal details. In fact, you are a very good person, because
Your life is not as tiring as mine."
She was startled for a moment, and then said: "I don't agree with what you said before, because I am not rough, but the last sentence seems to be right. Because I am forgetful, and I will forget things that make me unhappy.
Forget it as soon as possible. Feng Xiao, some things are not absolute. In fact, I think your most critical problem is that you carry a shell on your body, which makes you feel tired and makes you unwilling to think about many things. Because you
Afraid to think about it in detail. Let me give you an example, such as the matter between Zhuang Qing and you. You always think that it is because she has feelings for you that you can maintain the current relationship. Well, maybe it is indeed the case.
, because you really have a pure friendship with each other, or there may be something deeper than friendship. But as far as I know, she seems to have another purpose."
I was immediately surprised, and at the same time I couldn't accept her words in my heart, "Tong Yao, why did you say that?"
She smiled bitterly and shook her head: "Maybe my mentality is too gloomy. I always feel that there is an element of hype in her. People in the entertainment industry are like this now."
I shook my head, "I don't think she's like that. She won't use me to hype her up."
She looked at me and smiled, "You still admit that the figure on the back is you, right?"
Only then did I realize that what I had just said had almost revealed its flaws, and I hurriedly said: "Everything I said is the same thing."
She immediately said: "Forget it, let's not talk about those things. Feng Xiao, it's okay if you don't know some things, so as not to upset you. Also, you are the dean now, so do your job well."
is the most important."
I immediately felt that there seemed to be a lot of unsaid things in her words, "Tong Yao, if you have anything to say, just tell me clearly. Why are you like this? It will make people uncomfortable if you say half of it."
She stopped the car again, but this time she did not hit the emergency brake. Instead, she slowly parked the car beside the narrow country road. She looked at the watch on her wrist and said, "Feng Xiao, it's still early."
, let’s go down and breathe some fresh air.”
I felt that she was indeed a little strange today, and I was thinking: It's hard to say what she might want to tell me about Zhuang Qing next.
So, I immediately followed her out of the car.
She stood on the side of the road. There were several terraced fields on the side of the road. In winter, the terraced fields on the mountain were like small ponds, filled with white ice water that looked cold. There were some weeds on the ridges, but they were very sparse.
This place can better show the artistic conception of winter.
She squatted down at the edge of the field, stretched out her hand into the water, but immediately shrank back, "The water is so cold."
I didn't know what she wanted to do, so I stood next to her and looked at her quietly, "Tong Yao, don't play in that water. It's very dirty. And it's also very cold."
She stood up and immediately reached out to me, "Feng Xiao, I remember you always have tissues with you, right? Give me one."
I smiled bitterly and took out a pack of tissues from my trouser pocket and handed it to her, "Maybe this is a manifestation of my mild obsessive-compulsive disorder."
She wiped her hands with a tissue, then turned around to look at the desolate mountain ahead, "Feng Xiao, did you know? Zhuang Qing is still investigating Song Mei's death. She doesn't believe that Song Mei is Si Weimin.
He sent people to kill him."
I was immediately stunned, and at the same time, I suddenly remembered something: our conversation today actually started with Song Mei. Later, she talked about the relationship between Zhuang Qing and me.
"The problem is, Si Weimin is serving his sentence, and he also confessed when he was sentenced? What is Zhuang Qing still doubting? She has never talked about such a thing to me," I said.
She shook her head and said, "Why would she say such a thing to you? In fact, the person she really likes in her heart is Song Mei. That's why she keeps insisting on finding out the truth. Moreover, she once came here alone.
I. It was when she returned to Jiangnan, that is, before there were rumors about your relationship with her in the newspapers."
I sighed: "I think it's understandable that she did that. You said the person she really liked in her heart was Song Mei, and I believe it. Although Song Mei abandoned her at the beginning, I know that she has never forgotten him in her heart.
But the facts are the facts, and it is useless for her to spend so much time investigating that matter."
She said, still facing me, "Some people in our public security system know the law and break it. Are there too few unjust, false and wrongful convictions caused by torture to extract confessions across the country? Wasn't there just one case? One
A person was accused of murder and sentenced to death. Later, more than ten years later, the real criminal was caught, but the wronged person turned into dust. This is the result of torture to extract a confession."
My heart was suddenly shocked, "Tong Yao, you mean... Si Weimin was forced to confess after being tortured?"
She shook her head, "I didn't say that. But Zhuang Qing told me one thing. She said that she once hired a private detective to investigate Song Mei's case, but the result was that the private detective disappeared. You know
Yes, the legality of private detectives in our country has not yet been recognized by the country, so such a disappearance did not attract the attention of relevant departments, and Zhuang Qing did not dare to talk about this matter casually to the outside world."
My heart was even more shocked, "Tong Yao, maybe that was just a coincidence. What if the private detective took the money and ran away? Or he suddenly encountered other things?"
She turned around slowly and looked at me with burning eyes, "Feng Xiao, do you believe that it was a coincidence? We have more than one private detective in Jiangnan Province. They investigate so many extramarital affairs, but I have never heard of one.
Who suddenly disappeared! Moreover, half of the payment for private investigators is often paid up front. Who would take the half of the money and run away? Isn’t that a fool if he doesn’t make money? What’s more, that’s his profession
, unless he doesn’t want to continue doing it. Yes, the situation you mentioned is also possible, that is, he really doesn’t want to continue doing it, because he found that the case was too terrible during the investigation, so he had to take the half
The money ran away. Also, did you know? Later, Zhuang Qing went to find a private detective, but the result was the same! The private detective also suddenly disappeared! Do you think there is such a coincidence?
?”
I was stunned immediately. However, I had some doubts in my heart at the moment: Why did she tell me this? Did she doubt me? Thinking of what happened last night, I suddenly felt angry and panicked, because she
She actually tested me in that way. She once suspected that I had killed Chen Yuan! (To be continued)