At night, we lingered for a long time. But when it was over, I still felt a dull feeling in my heart. Later, when we went to wash off separately, when she put on her pajamas and snuggled in my arms, I found
I finally felt a feeling of love and pity for her.
She was very docile in my arms, like a kitten. Her hair was right next to my breath, letting me fall asleep in the fragrance of jasmine.
When I woke up in the morning, the sky was not completely clear yet, maybe because I went to bed too early last night. She was still in my arms, sleeping sweetly. I found that there seemed to be a faint trace of tears in the corner of her eyes.
Is she in pain? I couldn't help but wonder.
One thing is clear to me: in fact, like me, she doesn’t really like each other. She is performing Lin Yi’s mission, and her mission is to marry me. I am forced, although I once
I rejected her temptation to me for the first time, but in the end I still came to this point.
Therefore, I know that she is in pain in her heart, because I believe that any woman will have a common wish, that is, to live with the Prince Charming of her dreams in the future. But the reality is cruel, and most girls will eventually get married.
The subjects are all mortals. I am also a mortal, even a man who has fallen to a certain extent.
However, it happened that two people like us slept together and were planning to talk about marriage. Therefore, it was inevitable that she felt pain in her heart. But I felt a little more ashamed at this time. There was also a feeling that came from my heart.
Deeply and deeply sorry.
I took my hand out from under her head, and was about to turn around and face her with my back, but she suddenly woke up, and then she asked me: "Is it dawn? What time is it?"
I stopped turning over and said, "There's still a while. You can sleep a little longer."
She put her hands on my neck, pressed her face tightly against my cheek, and asked me vaguely: "Why did you wake up so early?"
I said, "Maybe I went to bed early yesterday. You can sleep a little longer. I'll make breakfast."
But she said coquettishly: "No, you sleep with me."
I couldn't help but put my hand under her neck again, letting her return to my arms again.
Her voice became clearer, "laugh, I woke up."
My heart felt soft, and at the same time I began to doubt the inference I just made. I said: "Then get up. Falling in love with bed is not a good habit."
"I'm going to sleep for a little while. It's so comfortable and warm to sleep in this weather. It would be great if I could just stay awake and sleep like this all morning," she said.
I smiled and said, "Let's do it on the weekend. That's it on the weekend."
"I want to go out with you on the weekend. Laugh, I have a task for you. You must do it well today."
I said, "What's going on? Just tell me."
She said, "You go buy a tent today and everything you need for camping."
I asked her in surprise: "You mean, let's go camping?"
She came and kissed me, "Yes. I want to go out romantically with you."
In the end, I got up first because I found that it was completely bright outside and it was time to get up.
I went to make breakfast. In fact, breakfast is very easy to make: there are eggs and bags of mustard in the refrigerator. We went back home directly last night, and we were always surrounded by love, so we completely forgot to buy them.
It was about milk and cake. So I cooked gruel for two people.
After making breakfast, I went to wake her up. After she woke up, she stretched out two snow-white arms towards me, while still looking at me and smiling coquettishly, "Hug me up."
I picked her body up from the bed and let her lean half on the bedside table.
She said to me again: "Get me dressed."
So I went to dress her, and she was very docile, letting me control her like a child.
I smiled at her and said, "You're so good."
She smiled brightly at me and said, "I just like being your little girl. Okay, I will wear it myself later. You are so kind."
My heart was full of tenderness, "I have already made breakfast. You go and freshen up quickly, otherwise you will be late."
Then she thought about it, "Ah... you have to send me to the company today. You won't be late, right?"
She moved very quickly. When I brought breakfast to the table, she had already come out, casually wearing a sweater, but she had already combed her hair and simply traced her eyebrows.
While eating, she said to me: "From now on, whoever goes home first will buy breakfast for the next day in the supermarket downstairs. This is so simple."
I nodded, "Okay. In this case, the steamed buns in our hospital cafeteria are pretty good. I'll bring a few back every day."
She said: "I like to eat steamed buns, meat buns. Does your cafeteria have them?"
I said: "Yes." Then I went to look at her, and suddenly I found that she had a mature beauty at this moment, and my heart suddenly surged, "Xiaoqin, I also like to eat steamed buns, your meat buns."
She raised her head and glared at me, "Disgusting!"
I suddenly remembered something, "Did you dream last night?"
She looked at me in surprise, "How did you know? I was talking in my sleep?"
I shook my head, "No. When I woke up in the morning, I found tears in the corners of your eyes."
Her expression suddenly darkened, "I dreamed of my mother."
I thought to myself: So that’s it. So I hurriedly asked her, “Let’s take some time to see her.”
She shook her head, "She has already left. It happened a month ago."
I remember that I rarely saw her a month ago, "Why didn't you tell me?"
She shook her head and said, "What was your relationship with me at that time?"
I was silent for a moment.
She continued: "I thought at that time, it would be great if I could take my boyfriend back with me at that time. At least I could let my mother feel that her future son-in-law was beside her before she died. That way
She would leave with more peace of mind. At that time, I thought, if you went with me at that time, I would marry you right away. But, you rejected me again and again. Laugh, you don’t know, at that time
I’m so disappointed and sad.”
Didn't she come to be like me just for Lin Yixian? I thought to myself. No, it's impossible. What kind of man can't a girl like her find? Why does she have to find me?
Of course, it was impossible for me to ask her such a question. I could only say to her: "I'm sorry..."
She smiled brightly at me, "It's okay. Anyway, I promised the chairman and promised to marry you. So, I just hope that we can be together earlier. Since we will always be together, why can't we let my mother know
What about this matter?"
I felt extremely ashamed, "You should have told me clearly at that time?"
She sighed, and then said in a low voice: "I am a girl. I did that in front of you at that time, but you still didn't accept me. I thought I was ugly. Forget it, I won't say any more.
Everything is over."
I still had no choice but to say that sentence to her, "I'm sorry..."
She glanced at me and said, "Okay. I've finished eating. You wash the dishes. I'm going to change clothes. It's almost time."
Before we went out, she came and kissed me, "Smile, we will be like this from now on."
I smiled stupidly at her there.
I didn't drive into the Jiangnan Group, but stopped outside the gate. She requested this because she said there would be a traffic jam in the morning and she was worried that it would be bad if I was late. I said I was the dean and should go early.
It didn't matter if I went later. But she still insisted on me stopping the car.
When she got off the car and walked into Jiangnan Group, I found that her steps were not so brisk.
I drove directly to the health department. On the way, I called Shen Zhongyuan and asked him if he had reported the situation to the disciplinary committee of the health department. He said not yet, and then said to me: "Dean Feng,
It’s really useless what I said. And what the Discipline Inspection Commission of the Department of Health said doesn’t count. So I think you should report it to Director Zou in person.”
Of course I knew in my heart that what he said was the truth, but I was still a little dissatisfied with him, because I felt that since he was the leader of the disciplinary inspection team, he should report the problem to the top from his level, just as Lin Yi said to me
: Regardless of whether it is effective or not, it is a procedure and it can be considered as our best effort.
But I couldn't blame him, because such accusations were meaningless. But I hung up the phone immediately. This was my way of expressing my dissatisfaction with him.
I suddenly remembered that I had often encountered leaders above me doing this to me, but I never imagined that I had become like this unknowingly. This is not a temper or method learned from them, but as a leader.
A natural reaction: I am the leader. Since I am dissatisfied with my subordinates, I can show it without any scruples. Hanging up the phone directly is relatively gentle. (To be continued)