I couldn't laugh or cry, I was so embarrassed. At this moment, I seemed to understand why Shangguanqin had to let me take this class: it is not easy to work in such a place, and she wanted to make it easier for me and the children here.
They have established a relationship. Poverty alleviation is not about giving, but a kind of sincere help.
I suddenly remembered Shangguanqin's explanation to the villagers when we were at the foot of the mountain. I suddenly felt stupid, so I immediately said: "The computer is connected to the computers of the children in the big city with a wire. You are here
You can talk to them, watch movies, watch TV, and learn about the outside world and many things. Do you understand now?"
Some children nodded, but most of them still said: "I don't understand..."
I suddenly thought to myself: This is really hard to explain, because this thing is completely beyond the understanding of children. So I said: "After a while, when your teacher installs these computers, you will know when you use them.
Already."
I immediately told the children what schools in big cities are like, and I also talked about my own experience from elementary school to college. The children listened with interest. I have only one purpose in telling these things, and that is to let these children
Full of dreams for your future.
I found that I slowly integrated into the atmosphere here, and the nervousness I felt at the beginning gradually disappeared. Moreover, I also found that telling these things to such children actually has a very wonderful feeling, as if my soul also
Became pure.
I spoke for about an hour, all in Mandarin. This was because my previous university teaching required this.
After I finished speaking, everyone applauded.
Shangguanqin later said to me: "Your lectures are better than mine. Laughter, this is the first time I heard you talk about your past. So you are so cute?"
My heart suddenly felt warm.
We stayed at Teacher Hu's house in the evening. But the dinner was very grand: many people from the village came, and each family brought their own dishes. Anyway, they were bacon, sausages, game and the like. Of course,
There are also fresh vegetables.
The wine we drank was their own sorghum liquor.
At first, these villagers were a little restrained, but after a few glasses of wine, they became more relaxed.
Teacher Hu also drank, and she suddenly came to ask Shangguan Qin: "Shangguan, is this Dr. Feng your man?"
Her voice was so loud that everyone suddenly became silent and came to look at me and us.
Shangguan Qin looked very generous, "Yes, he is my boyfriend, what do you think of him?"
I was immediately embarrassed.
A villager said: "He is good-looking, but he seems to be much older than you."
Teacher Hu said hurriedly: "Don't talk nonsense. Doctor Feng and Shangguanqin seem to be a perfect match."
The villagers laughed and wanted to drink wine from the person who just said the wrong thing.
The villagers here are very simple, and I really like this place from the bottom of my heart. I found that I did not have the feeling that the giver was superior. In fact, before we came here, I still felt that way in my heart.
It was a natural thing in my heart. I knew I shouldn't be like that, but those thoughts always appeared unconsciously.
But now I no longer feel that way. At this moment, I seem to understand why Shangguan Qin likes to do such things, because with these people, my heart no longer has the slightest complexity.
Shangguanqin and I drank a lot of wine in the evening, which made us not feel how cold it was in the cold night in the countryside.
When the villagers were drunk and dispersed one by one, Shangguanqin and I went to wash up and then entered the room arranged by Teacher Hu.
Teacher Hu's home is similar to the home of Zhuang Qing's parents that I once visited. They are both relatively dilapidated old houses.
The shape of the bed in the room is a bit quaint. There is a bed frame on the bed, which should be used to hang mosquito nets in the summer. The sheets and quilts on the bed have obviously been recently changed. Even after drinking, I can still smell them wafting out.
The light soap scent.
Shangguanqin and I got under the quilt, and I immediately felt that my back was very soft, and the quilt on my body was also the same. It was very warm.
Shangguanqin got into my arms, and her lips came to my ear, "Smile, let's do that."
I was shocked and said, "No, this house is not soundproof. Besides, I just changed the quilts and sheets. If they are dirty, I will be embarrassed tomorrow."
Her lips were still next to my ear, "It's okay, I brought a condom. I'll just throw that thing outside in a while."
I was still a little worried, "Then let's be gentle, don't make any noise."
She pinched my arm lightly and said, "She is still a woman... Hee hee! Got it."
We adopted a special position, mainly because we were worried about making too much noise: her back was facing me, and I moved slowly behind her.
She didn't make a sound while we were doing it, but her hand was holding my arm tightly. I knew that she was trying her best to hold back her moans.
After exercising for a long time, I didn’t have the urge to release, because I didn’t dare to move too much, and more importantly, I drank, so my excitement point was a bit too high. Also, the one on my body
Condoms also make me less sensitive.
After a long time she spoke: "Forget it, the bed is already making noises."
Then I pulled out of her body and said, "Let's do it when we go back. Or we can go live in the county town tomorrow."
She said: "Maybe not. People here will treat us to dinner tomorrow."
I suddenly remembered something, "Xiaoqin, I think your method of poverty alleviation is not the best. Have you ever heard of the saying that it is better to teach people to fish than to teach them to fish? Your Jiangnan Group is fully capable of letting people
The people here have become rich. I don’t believe that this place doesn’t have any special products. For example, game, bacon, etc., and wild fruits from the mountains.”
She said: "I told the chairman about this matter, but he said that such things are what the government has to do. Now the local government does not care about such things. If we set up a business here one day,
They will come to collect taxes right away. He also said that it’s not that you can’t do that, but it just makes you feel upset when you think of such a thing.”
I think so, but I always feel like something is wrong, "Xiao Qin, does Uncle Lin feel that the government here is too ineffective?"
Shangguanqin said: "Yes. He even quarreled with the Poverty Alleviation Offices of several counties over poverty alleviation matters. At the beginning, we all transferred the poverty alleviation funds to the Poverty Alleviation Offices in the counties, but later we discovered that the Poverty Alleviation Offices
We actually took 10% to 20% of the money to fund work. One year we allocated 10 million yuan of poverty alleviation funds to a county, but later we found that the local government actually used nearly 2 million of it.
It was used for food and drink. In addition, the project of the Hope Primary School we assisted was also used by local officials to work on for their relatives, and they earned another sum of money. Later, the chairman changed that approach. First,
We send money and materials directly to the school, and secondly, we find construction teams ourselves for construction projects."
Only then did I understand, "I see. But I don't think things can be generalized. For example, you can set up a bacon or other product processing factory here, and then communicate with the government to let them tax exemption. Such a policy
It seems that there is, right? You can't stop doing meaningful things at all just because some local governments are messing around. What's the difference between this and being angry?"
She said: "If you have a chance, go and tell the chairman yourself. He is a very stubborn person."
I smiled bitterly and said, "Forget it, I'm just saying it."
At this time, she suddenly said: "Smile, actually I really want to buy a few acres of land in a place like this, build a few thatched houses, raise chickens, ducks, feed pigs, etc., and then live with you in a place like this for the rest of my life.
.Do you want to?"
I immediately laughed, "Everyone has such a dream, but if you really have to live in a place like this for your whole life, you will get bored of it soon."
She said quietly: "You can, but I can't..."
I suddenly felt that she seemed to have something serious in mind, "Shangguan, why do you have such thoughts?"
Her body was nestled tightly in my arms, "laugh, you don't know, sometimes I really feel too tired to live alone, sometimes I really want to just jump off the building, in that case
It’s all over once and for all.”
I was shocked.
I never thought that such words would come out of her mouth. And it was obvious that she did not have such thoughts because of her relationship with me, because she was saying such things in front of me.
From this, I felt that she must be facing more troublesome things, and the words that nursery rhyme once said to me suddenly popped out of my mind. I thought to myself: No matter from the perspective of caring about her,
In order to clarify some things, I should take the opportunity to ask her what happened.
"Shangguan, why do you have such thoughts?" I asked her after kissing her cheek.
However, she didn't answer me.
I was even more worried, "Xiaoqin, please answer me quickly? Why do you think that?"
She still didn't answer me. I went to shake her body, and she finally spoke, but her voice was vague, "I'm tired. Go to sleep."
I sighed in my heart, and then I hugged her and fell asleep together. Before falling asleep, I thought to myself: I'll ask her again tomorrow morning. (To be continued)