"There's nothing interesting to see. It's all boring. Now I can't play every day. I have to read books and write papers. I'm under a lot of pressure now and I can't rest on my laurels." I said, suddenly remembering what Dean Zhang said to me.
After those words, I felt even more that I could no longer sink like this.
In fact, I know that there will always be a day, whether it is a man or a woman, there will always be a day when passion turns to dullness. This is the case for the three of us now.
I went to my room, took out a professional book from the bookshelf and started reading.
My eyes were hazy. I was very upset: once a person is addicted to desire, it will be difficult to return to a state of indifference. Reading requires a calm mind and a state of selflessness. But once the mind is aroused by desire, it will be difficult to return to a state of indifference.
It is also difficult to enter that kind of quiet state.
The pages in front of me turned into a screen, with shadows of various women on it. Lin Yu, Zhuang Qing, Chen Yuan, Hong Ya, Shangguan Qin, and the girl named Lulu last night, as well as those shapes
Room R is of different sizes. The screen is changing, and I start to recall the scene last night...it's so exciting!
My heart was swaying. Then suddenly there was a kind of restlessness, as if there were nails under the chair, making it uncomfortable to sit. I stood up immediately... Suddenly I woke up... Feng Xiao, what's wrong with you? What's the matter?
Have you become so restless? Have you been kidnapped by something like that? You know, your wife is still there.
Wife, Zhao Menglei... My heart suddenly felt like something stung me. How is she doing now? Is she okay in there? Is she thinking about me?
At this moment, my mind was filled with the shadow of Zhao Menglei, and an unprecedented guilt suddenly came over me. Feng Xiao, you have gone too far. She is in that situation now, but what about you? You are
You sang and danced all day long, enjoying yourself among women, and completely forgot about her! Although you entrusted Song Mei to clear up her affairs, in fact, you don't care about her at all in your heart! This is completely a deception! You are deceiving.
She, your purpose of deceiving others is to make others say that you value love and justice. Feng Xiao, you are really despicable!
I kept scolding myself in my heart, and suddenly felt that my previous behavior was really too much. Suddenly I had an impulse... Feng Xiao, you should have done this a long time ago, you should have gone to find them a long time ago.
I picked up the phone.
"Officer Tong, it's me. I'm sorry to disturb you at night." I tried to be polite.
"Dr. Feng, I recognize your voice. What, are you okay?" She smiled on the phone.
"I want to ask you about my wife." I said.
"You finally called me. I also said, why are you men so ruthless and unjust? What? Suddenly your conscience discovered it today?" she asked, then laughed.
I became even more ashamed, "Officer Tong, that's not the case. I heard others say that family members cannot visit her at this stage, and you won't tell me the details of her case. So..."
"That's right. But are we acquaintances? Maybe I will reveal something to you secretly. Haha! Just kidding. However, it's you who ask whether you ask, and it's up to me to answer or not. No matter what the result is, but you
Isn't it wrong to just ignore her? What? Are you planning to divorce her? From your personal emotional point of view, it is right for you to file for divorce, and we can understand it. But from the perspective of us police, we don't want it.
Such a thing happened, because your wife is currently at such a stage, and her mood will be greatly affected by it. By the way, you are classmates in middle school, so your feelings should be very pure, right?" She said
After all, I didn't fully understand what she meant.
"Yes." I replied, "Officer Tong, how is she doing now? Is there anything you need me to do?"
"Now the case is very clear. By the way, why didn't you hire a lawyer for her? Lawyers are very important," she said.
"I have a friend who is helping me arrange this matter." I said, feeling suddenly uneasy - had Song Mei hired a lawyer for me? "Officer Tong, can I go see her now?"
"No. Only her lawyer can go see her now. Because the lawyer needs to collect evidence and determine the basis for defense." She replied.
I felt very sad, "Then when can I go see her?"
"After the verdict, you can go to the prison to see her," she said.
Going to prison? I suddenly became excited, "Officer Tong, you mean that she won't be sentenced to death, right?"
"That is a matter for the court. However, she has surrendered, and we will fully report it to the prosecutor's office," she replied.
I think her current answer is too official, and I feel very unhappy. But I have no other way. If I had known this, I should have established a good relationship with her. I think of the few times I was with her.
I had a lukewarm attitude towards her, and I even ran away early when we had dinner together. Now that I think about it, I feel really ashamed. Moreover, in the final analysis, what happened to Zhao Menglei was caused by me. If I hadn't
It would be nice if Song Mei went to see Qian Zhan.
Now, the big mistake has been made, and it is impossible to change everything. I feel as if God is controlling everything.
"Officer Tong, is she okay in there?" I changed the topic. When I asked this question, Zhao Menglei's miserable look suddenly appeared in my mind, and I felt uncomfortable in my heart, and suddenly I felt a desire.
The urge to cry. I heard the choking in my own voice.
"She is doing pretty well now and is very calm. But she talks very little," she said.
I felt even more uncomfortable, but I didn't know what to ask her anymore, "Thank you, Officer Tong."
"Hey!" She sighed, "Dr. Feng, I know you are a very nice person. But the nature of my work... please understand."
"I'm very grateful to you. I used to be ignorant and made you unhappy every time. I apologize to you." I said to her sincerely.
"You were really cool before. Haha! But I understand you very well. Because you doctors are always aloof. You may have been thinking at the time, I don't commit crimes, so you police can't do anything to me. Isn't that right?"
She asked me with a big smile.
I was even more ashamed, but suddenly I felt a little unhappy in my heart, "Officer Tong, are you... Forget it, I don't want to say it anymore, you will be angry if I say it. In fact, you are wrong, it is not me who is superior,
It's you. You police officers always look at people through colored glasses, so I was very disgusted at the time."
"You misunderstood. How can we look at people with colored glasses? Maybe you are feeling guilty. Haha! Come on, I won't say anything anymore, so as not to offend you again. Okay, that's it. If anything happens, I can
Call me." she said.
"Okay. Thank you." I said, muttering, "I don't feel guilty. Why should I feel guilty?"
"What are you talking about?" Her voice came from the phone.
"It's nothing. Officer Tong, please take care of my wife. Okay?" I said hurriedly.
"Don't worry, I've already said hello to my friends in the detention center." She said, and then added: "Dr. Feng, I treat you as a friend. What about you?"
"Thank you." I said, not daring to answer her question directly. Because I never regarded her as my friend at all. Of course, I had no hostility towards her. At most, I regarded her as my acquaintance.
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"Okay, I understand." She said and hung up the phone suddenly. I immediately hated myself: Feng Xiao, you can't even tell lies? You know, you are begging for help now!
Holding the phone, I felt extremely regretful. I wanted to call her again, but I thought it was pointless, so I sighed and put down the phone.
The door to the room opened, and Zhuang Qing's head poked in from the outside, "Feng Xiao, aren't you reading? Why are you always on the phone?"
"I have something to do. Can you please not interrupt me?" I said, feeling a little annoyed and trying my best to control my inner irritability.
"What's wrong? Are you in a bad mood? What happened?" She looked at me in surprise and asked. At this time, Chen Yuan also appeared at the door, with a worried look on her face.
"You guys go watch TV. I'm going to take care of something. Don't disturb me. I'll go to sleep in a while." I said.
"Brother, what's wrong with you?" Chen Yuan asked me.
I realized that I couldn't be angry with her under any circumstances, so I said softly: "It's okay. I'm just worried about my wife. You guys go watch TV. I have to make another phone call right away."
Zhuang Qing sighed, "Chen Yuan, let's not disturb him."
The door was closed and silence returned to the room.
I suddenly felt thirsty, so I walked out of the room. Both of them came to see me. I smiled bitterly, "I want to make a cup of tea."
"I'll make it for you." Chen Yuan said and immediately stood up from the sofa.
"I'll do it myself. You guys go to bed early." I said.
Zhuang Qing suddenly laughed, "Feng Xiao, why are you so distracted today? What time is it now?"
I suddenly felt ashamed, because what I just said was completely unconscious, and what I said was completely hypocritical concern.
Chen Yuan didn't smile, and there was still a worried look on her face. I didn't dare to talk to them anymore, so I hurriedly made tea and entered my room. At this moment, something suddenly popped up in my heart.
Here’s an idea: starting from tomorrow, I have to move back to my own home. Because at this moment, the guilt I felt towards Zhao Menglei in my heart suddenly popped up like a bubble. It didn’t burst, and it kept coming.
Floating in my mind.
While drinking hot tea, I was thinking about how to call Song Mei and tell him about Zhao Menglei. I found that I am not as strong as before in front of Song Mei because I want something from him.
Therefore, I was a little worried that if I asked him directly about that matter, he would be offended. (To be continued)