It was already after four o'clock in the afternoon when we returned to the provincial capital. After lunch, she continued to drive, and I fell asleep after fastening my body with a seat belt. Maybe I was really tired, or maybe it was just me.
I am escaping, escaping from the fear in my heart.
I was worried that I would have nightmares while sleeping, but fortunately I didn't.
When she woke up, we hadn't entered the city yet. When she saw me waking up, she immediately said to me with dissatisfaction: "You are really, very boring. I am so tired driving like this alone, and there is no one to talk to."
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I hurriedly said: "Didn't you sleep for so long when we went there? Wasn't it me driving alone?"
But she became even more dissatisfied, "Why do you always argue with me? You are a man."
I had no choice but to apologize to her hastily, "I'm sorry. I won't do this next time. The main reason is that I got up too early today, and I had cerebral ischemia just after eating the food, so I felt sleepy all of a sudden."
Her expression improved and she said, "It's rare for you to believe in me and my driving skills."
I regarded her words as a test again. So I hurriedly said: "Don't you think my skills are poor? Even you believe in me. When sleepiness comes, you can't resist it no matter what.
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She smiled and said: "I know that. But you have slept for too long, haven't you?"
I thought to myself: When I went there, you were the one who could outlast me. But I didn’t dare to say this out loud because I was afraid that I was going tit-for-tat with her. I said, “I won’t do this in the future.
Alright. Is that okay?”
But she immediately turned to look at me, "Smile, why do I feel like you are afraid of me? Why is this?"
My heart suddenly thumped, and I hurriedly answered her: "Don't tell me, I'm really afraid of you."
She looked at me again, with a half-smile on her face, "Why?"
I smiled bitterly and said: "Now, I realize that I am very worried about losing you, so I am afraid."
She looked at me, still smiling, "Really?"
Of course it's a lie. I said to myself in my heart. Moreover, when I just said those words to her, I immediately felt a layer of goosebumps on my back! I said: "It's true.
.Don’t you believe it?”
The half-smile on her face immediately turned into a real smile, "I believe. In fact, you don't need to smile like this. You are the first real man in my life, and I can't live without it in my heart."
It's off to you. You know what? So, you don't have to worry about this."
My heart had already become complicated, and I was far more frightened than moved at the moment. I said: "Oh..."
She looked at me and smiled, "You look so stupid."
We parked the car downstairs where she lived, went shopping for groceries, and then went back to cook a lot of delicious food. After dinner, she insisted on going to the movies with me.
I don't want to go, "I'm too tired. Let's go to bed early today."
But she insisted on going. I had to reluctantly agree to her. In fact, in my heart, I didn't want to go to a movie at all, and I didn't even want to continue living in her place. But I knew this was not possible.
After watching the movie, we went back to her place, took a shower and went to bed separately.
She came into my arms and nestled against my body. I looked at the ceiling with a dull expression. At this moment, I still couldn't get rid of the gun. On the contrary, the feeling in my heart at this moment
This fear is getting stronger and stronger. I also tried not to show it, but I found that I couldn't do it at all.
No, I have to ask her, I have to ask her what exactly is going on. I thought in my heart.
However, immediately there was another voice rising from my heart: Don't ask, otherwise you may be in danger...
She sensed my indifference. She stroked my chest with her hands and asked me at the same time: "Smile, what are you thinking about? Why are you so worried?"
No, I can't ask her, I can only pretend not to know about this matter! I made such a decision at this moment, and I immediately found a very good excuse, "Xiaoqin, I feel that I can no longer be like
This goes on."
She immediately raised her upper body, looked into my eyes and asked, "What do you mean?"
I said: "Since I was transferred to the Provincial Obstetrics and Gynecology Hospital, my major has almost been lost. I have not been in the ward for a day, have not seen an outpatient clinic once, and have never had an operation. Also, I was once in
The scientific research project undertaken by the Medical University has also been completely stopped. Although there were factors that were obstructed by my leadership, it was also the main reason why I did not pursue it. Now, I have not even consulted the relevant departments of the Department of Health.
, and I have never been to the Provincial Science and Technology Commission. In fact, I know that I am lazy. Alas!"
Then she lay down again, and then came to my arms and snuggled up again, "Smile, you are now the dean, you can do such things or not. I don't think it matters."
I shook my head and said, "I don't think so. Being a leader is only temporary. If one day I make a mistake and the organization fires me, then I will have nothing. I am a doctor by training, so I cannot fully
Throw away your own business. I have been studying medicine for so many years, and I have managed to accumulate so much clinical experience. Now I am at the golden age of doing surgery. It would be a pity to give up my profession and scientific research like this.
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Her hands were still rubbing my chest, "Smile, what do you mean?"
I said: "I think we can't continue to be entangled like now. From now on, I have to spend a few days a week to go to the ward, or go to the outpatient clinic on weekends, and I should try my best to do some scientific research in the evening."
She raised her body again and looked at me, "Smile, are you tired of me?"
Her reaction was expected by me, but I had to do this because I had to find a suitable and reasonable reason for not being with her every day. I thought: If she is really like that
As a person, maybe we can become indifferent to each other in this way. Although I know that this is probably a futile effort on my part, I really can't find another way.
I went to gently hug her body and said, "Xiaoqin, why do you say that? We will still have a long time together in the future. Look at us now, I have almost completely given up on my business, and what about you?
?You have hardly participated in any of the company's entertainment. Think about it, can we continue like this for a long time? It's impossible, right? So I thought, since it's impossible, let's start living a normal life earlier.
Get used to that kind of life earlier. What do you think?"
She whispered: "You always have a point."
I immediately breathed a sigh of relief in my heart, and then smiled and said: "That's because I told the truth. You think so?"
She said: "Smile, you like me..."
Immediately, she hugged my body tightly and started to kiss my lips.
I really didn't have that kind of interest at the moment, "Xiaoqin, I'm too tired today. Let's get up earlier tomorrow morning and do it again."
She immediately became unhappy, "I wanted to sleep in the morning, but it was very dry down there."
I kissed her cheek and said, "I'm really tired. And I haven't fully recovered from drinking yesterday. I feel a little sore."
Her hand immediately went to my crotch, "Aren't you already hard?"
I smiled bitterly, "But, I really don't want to move."
Her lips came to my ear, "How about I come up?"
I smiled bitterly and said, "Then come on."
So, she really came up and immediately took off her pajamas and everything inside them, and then gently pulled me into them. She looked at me and smiled, "You are so lazy."
I didn't feel much joy, "Do you feel comfortable?"
She moved a few more times, then turned over and said, "Forget it, you are like a piece of wood and boring. Go to sleep. By the way, you have to make up for it tomorrow morning, otherwise I will think that you must be bored."
Me."
Now I was most worried about her thinking this way, so I hurriedly said: "Then let's continue now."
But she immediately went to pull up her pants, "Forget it, I see you are really tired. We have to live a lifetime together. Let's enjoy it slowly in the future."
I no longer insist.
I knew in my heart that she was still reminding me of one thing: we still have a future.
Immediately, she snuggled into my arms and fell asleep deeply. However, I found it difficult to fall asleep because my thoughts always went to the business car downstairs and the people inside that car.
Inside that storage box. The cloth bag always pops up in my mind, as well as the black, scary thing inside the cloth bag... (To be continued)