"Chen Yuan, don't spoil him so much, or he won't cherish you at all! Men are like this, the better you treat him, the less he will care about you. You are too simple, you don't understand!" Zhuang Qing!
He said, then he burped and waved his hands in mid-air, "Go to sleep. I have to teach this man a lesson today. He is ruthless and unjust. He is not a thing!"
Chen Yuan came to see me, and I couldn't help but get angry, so I ignored her, "Zhuang Qing, tell me, where am I ruthless and unrighteous? Okay! I'm ruthless and unrighteous. I'm leaving. Isn't it okay for me to leave?"
Do you think I want to see something like this happen? Really!" After saying that, I stood up and turned around to leave. I was very angry.
"Feng Xiao, you are really not a fucking man! I, and Chen Yuan, we have given you everything, can't you bear a few words? Me, am I so fucking stupid? I'm so stupid.
!Haha!" At this moment, Zhuang Qing burst into laughter, and along with her laughter came tears.
I suddenly froze.
"Feng Xiao, come back and sit down! Unless you don't want me anymore." Zhuang Qing's voice became softer, but her crying became heavier.
I was extremely ashamed and turned around slowly.
She didn't come to see me, she was drinking. Chen Yuan at the door was giving me a wink, asking me to sit back.
I sat back and said, "Zhuang Qing, I'm sorry. If you're unhappy, just hit me again." I said to her softly.
She stretched out her hand and grabbed my wrist tightly. I suddenly felt a sharp pain in my wrist. I saw her nails digging deeply into my skin...
I endured the severe pain and picked up the wine glass with my other hand to drink. At this moment, I suddenly felt the pain in my hand, which gave me a euphoric feeling.
She let go of my hand, and my wrist was already dripping with blood. Chen Yuan screamed. I waved my hand to her, "It's okay. You go to sleep. Zhuang Qing, come, let's drink."
The bottle of wine was finished quickly, and she drank most of the bottle. She was very drunk.
"I'll get another bottle." I said and stood up immediately. When I passed her
Now, I really feel Zhuang Qing's feelings for Song Mei. Maybe she didn't feel that she had such deep affection for him before, but now, once Song Mei leaves this world, she will completely
When she disappeared from this world, the unforgettable feeling in her heart was suddenly and completely released.
Only when you lose it do you know how valuable something is. Although this sentence is too old, it will always be a curse that people can't get rid of. Isn't it the same for me? In the past, I didn't cherish Zhao Menglei so much, until now, until she
After leaving me, I felt the pain of separation at this time. Although my personal life is relatively chaotic, to be honest, the feeling of cherishing her that I once had in my heart is only now fully revealed.
come out.
Men and women are different. Men's emotions are often easily separated from their bodies, and their inner love and sensory needs are often out of sync and separated. Because of this, there are so many promiscuous men in this society.
It is precisely because of this that the urology department in our hospital is overcrowded. Of course, this happens to women, but after all, it is much less common than men.
I think the relationship between Zhuang Qing and Song Mei is different from the situation between me and Zhao Menglei, but the main point is the same, that is: there was true love between them. Or at least Zhuang Qing had true love for him. Now.
Thinking about it, it seems that Song Mei and I are the same kind of people in one aspect - our personal lives are relatively chaotic. But there is one difference between him and me, that is, I will not give up my lover for money. Even if I
If you don't love the other person, you won't do that.
I think this should be the most basic principle of being a human being, right?
Zhuang Qing, she is drunk now. She is lying on the dining table, but she is crying.
"Zhuang Qing, go and have a rest. Come, let me help you in." I said to her softly.
This time she was very obedient because she didn't object. She continued to cry. In fact, what I said just now was just a test, because her temper was a bit violent today, so I had to be cautious in front of her.
She didn't speak, and her crying was much quieter. This meant that she agreed to my proposal. So, I stood up and went to her side, and asked her carefully again: "Zhuang Qing, let's go rest.
Okay?"
She finally spoke, her voice filled with sadness and tears, "Feng Xiao..."
I sighed in my heart and felt a sour feeling at the same time. I leaned over and picked her up, "Let's go to bed. Things have happened, but your life has to go on, right?"
She stretched out her hands and hugged my neck, pressing her face against mine. I suddenly felt a dampness on my face. "Feng Xiao, my heart hurts..." she said, and then "
"Uuuuuuuuuuuuu" I started crying. I suddenly felt a sad feeling in my heart, because she stirred up the pain in my heart, because I thought of Zhao Menglei.
He gently put her on the bed, pulled the quilt over and gently covered her, and wiped the tears on her face with his hands, "Be good, have a good sleep."
"Don't leave..." she said, her voice soft and still filled with tears.
"I'll get you a hot towel and wash your face." I said to her softly.
She stopped talking. I sighed and went out.
"Brother..." After going out, I saw Chen Yuan. She gestured towards me at the door of her room to let me in.
"What are you doing?" I asked her in a low voice after entering.
"Will something happen to Sister Zhuang Qing?" she asked.
I shook my head, "It seems that won't happen now. She's in a bad mood. She just needs to vent her feelings."
She looked at me and said, "Brother, you are so kind."
I smiled bitterly, "I'm not good. What happened today was my fault. I shouldn't have left her under such circumstances."
"Brother, I'm sleeping. Can I sleep on your bed?" she asked me, her big eyes full of expectation.
"Of course." I said to her with a smile, "But I can't come to accompany you today. I'm not at ease with you, Sister Zhuang Qing, looking like this."
She looked a little disappointed, "Forget it. Your bed is too big. It will be very cold for me to sleep alone."
I stroked her hair gently, "Be good. You can sleep alone today. You can say a few more words to the child on my behalf." She suddenly laughed, "I have already said it. I said: Baby,
Your father is not free, he will come to talk to you later. How about you say a few words to him now."
I couldn't help but laugh, "How much time is it now? The child has fallen asleep long ago. Be good, go and have a rest."
Then she reluctantly went to the bed. I couldn't bear it, so I immediately went to her side, leaned over and kissed her forehead gently. She smiled, sweetly.
I sighed again, but this time the sigh was in my heart.
I washed Zhuang Qing's face, then went to clean up the things on the dining table and wash the dishes... After finishing all this, I went to take a shower, put on my pajamas and went to Zhuang Qing's room. When I got to her door, I hesitated.
I felt that I shouldn't disturb her now and should leave her alone. Then I turned around and went to my room.
Lying on the bed, I looked at the ceiling and couldn't fall asleep. Everything I experienced today happened so suddenly, it made me feel like a dream.
When I saw Song Mei's body in the hospital, I already believed that he was dead, but now, I suddenly don't believe it anymore. I highly doubt that this is a dream.
I often come into contact with death in the hospital, but I always felt numb when I came into contact with death before. Birth, old age, illness and death are the natural laws. As a doctor, illness and death are closely linked. Now I
Suddenly a question came to mind: How would I feel if Chen Yuan had slept like that until her life disappeared?
Suddenly, I felt that something was wrong with me today - Feng Xiao, how could you think about such an inexplicable thing? Isn't she well? Isn't she sleeping well in the room next to you? And hers
There is still your child in my belly.
I stopped myself from thinking about Chen Yuan, but the horrific scene when Song Mei died came to mind again. Now I find that this is the first time I have been shocked by the death of a person in the hospital.
. Of course I know the reason: I am too familiar with Song Mei, and it will definitely be different when a person I am familiar with suddenly turns into a corpse in front of me.
Song Mei died. His former voice and smile were gone. All that was left was a body. At this time, he was no different from other animals. He was just a corpse with bones and flesh. He was so beautiful during his lifetime.
He was smart, so ambitious, but once his life was lost, everything disappeared with the wind. What he left behind was Zhuang Qing's endless pain, and my sigh.
After sighing, he turned off the light and went to sleep.
In a daze, I felt someone coming to my side. I didn't know if it was Chen Yuan or Zhuang Qing, but I naturally took her next to me into my arms and immediately felt her.
Dependence and tenderness on me - her body was completely nestled in my arms, like a docile kitten.
In confusion, I patted her back gently, and immediately understood who she was. Zhuang Qing.
Zhuang Qing is thinner than Chen Yuan, and her back is not as soft as Chen Yuan. "Zhuang Qing, I don't want to disturb you. I want you to be alone." I woke up immediately and whispered to her.
said.
The voice she was speaking was indeed Zhuang Qing's, "Aren't you angry with me at all?"
I gently hugged her body and said, "How could I be angry? When you face such a thing, you are sad and grieved. This shows that you have true feelings for him. As a passionate woman like you, how can I not feel the same?"
What is the principle of respect?” (To be continued)