She looked at me and said, "Dean Feng, you are right. Even Dean Chu said you are a good person."
I was stunned immediately because I never expected that she would mention Chu Dingnan in front of me. You know, she and Chu Dingnan are not in an ordinary relationship, and such things should definitely be avoided by a woman.
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She came to toast me again, and then said: "Dean Feng, maybe you think it's a little strange, right? You think that a woman shouldn't talk about him and me directly like this, right?"
I was a little embarrassed, "I didn't say that."
She shook her head and sighed: "Dean Feng, I am a woman, and I have my own dignity. But do you know? How much pressure are we each under now? My man is an honest person. Apart from being nice to me, he does almost nothing else." I can't find any advantages. He commutes to and from get off work every day, and his monthly salary is less than 3,000 yuan. But our children want to go to the best school and buy a house. I have to take care of these things. Chu In fact, I have known that the dean likes me. Although I don't dislike him, I still won't casually sleep with a man who is not my husband. But I need money, and such temptation makes it difficult for me. Restraint. Later, something happened to him. In fact, I knew that this day would come sooner or later, but I did not commit a crime because I did not give or take bribes, and the money I earned was not earned in our hospital. It was made by President Chu. I introduced a hospital, and an acquaintance of the leader of that hospital was doing medicine in our hospital, and I went to their hospital to do it. He told me at the time that it was safe. But I still know that if such things are really taken seriously, , I couldn’t run away. In fact, he had already had a premonition before something happened to him, because he found that Secretary Qiu suddenly disappeared during the Spring Festival. At that time, he found me, and he said to me: Jiang Mei, I may want to Something happened, but nothing will happen to you. I was frightened at the time, but I also felt a little strange, so I asked him why he said that. He said: First, your matter has nothing to do with our hospital. Second, , the new director Feng in our hospital is a kind-hearted person. Maybe he is more serious about his work, but he will definitely not get things done when it comes to handling his subordinates. I didn’t quite believe it at the time, but he But he said to me very seriously: "Jiang Mei, please watch from now on. I have been observing him since he arrived at our hospital. You believe me, I am very accurate in judging people. President Feng, I later learned that he He is really accurate. He also told me at that time that if I have any difficulties in the future, I will come to you and you will help me. It is best to let me resign after being punished. In this case, you will Will sympathize with me more."
I couldn't help but sigh, "It seems that Dean Chu is really my confidant."
In fact, I myself know my own personality traits, and I also regard my personality traits as a shortcoming. But what I didn't expect was that Chu Dingnan would see my shortcomings so clearly.
The thing is, at this moment, I can't understand why Jiang Mei said these words to me, and why she said them so directly and clearly.
She picked up the wine glass, clinked it with me, and drank it down in one gulp.
I looked at her, and then at the wine glass in my hand. I didn’t want to drink it all at once like her, because I really didn’t know what this woman was going to do with me today. Anyway, I knew one thing,
That means she is definitely not just looking for me to chat and have a heart-to-heart talk.
Also, I don’t want to do things like that in drunken places like before. Women are really scary. What’s more, she had that kind of relationship with Chu Dingnan before. Even she said she couldn’t resist the temptation of money.
,So, I think such a woman can probably do anything.
I became wary of her, so I only took a small sip, the same amount as before.
She didn't take it seriously, and then picked up the wine bottle and poured herself some wine. After she filled her own glass, she came to ask me: "Dean Feng, let me fill it up for you too."
She always used the honorific title "you" to me, and I was ready to correct her several times, but then I thought it was better because she could at least keep a certain distance between us by calling me this way.
But her behavior now made me feel a little embarrassed. I said to her: "Jiang Mei, don't drink like that, you will get drunk easily."
She shook her head and said: "Dean Feng, I hope I can drink more. When I was in the hospital, including after I resigned until now, I wanted to invite you out for a chat several times, but I always hesitated.
.Actually, now I still feel that some of my words really can’t be spoken, so I thought, maybe if I drink more, it will be okay.”
I said: "Actually, you don't need to drink more to tell me. After all, we are former colleagues, and I also told you when you left the hospital. If you have any difficulties in the future, just ask them. As long as they are
We will definitely help you if it is within the scope of the principles. No matter what, you are a person who has made a great contribution to our hospital. So, you say, it is better to drink less alcohol."
In fact, I was refusing her to pour me another drink in disguise.
She also understood what I meant, so she put down the bottle, "Dean Feng, let me tell you the truth, it's very difficult for me now. After resigning from the hospital, I took on several jobs, but in the end I gave up.
The main thing is that I was assigned office-type jobs, because the most important position in my resume was office director. Although the salary was not bad, I thought that since I resigned, I had to find a way to make more money.
Yes. Later I worked as a sales manager in several companies, but I didn’t have any connections, so I never received any projects. Alas! If I had known that it would be like this, I shouldn’t have resigned in the first place. Dean Feng,
Do you know what kind of dreams I have been having recently?"
I couldn't help but sigh in my heart, "You said."
She herself was sighing, "Recently, I often have the same dream. I dreamed that I was still working in the hospital, or I got a notice from the hospital telling me to go back to work immediately. Last night's dream was even weirder.
I dreamed that our hospital has been renovated. It is so big and beautiful! Then you came to me in person and said to me: Jiang Mei, our hospital has just been renovated and is in urgent need of manpower. Can you come back to work?
?How about we let you be our office director? In the dream, I was so happy that I agreed immediately. When I woke up in the morning, I still remembered this dream, but I felt so uncomfortable in my heart, because I knew this
It's just a dream. Such a thing will never become a reality. Alas..."
I listened quietly while she was telling her story. Her dream made me feel a little sad. In fact, the subconscious expression of her dream was very simple, that is, she deeply regretted her resignation, and
There are two reasons for her regret: one is nostalgia for her past job, and the other is dissatisfaction or even disappointment or despair about her current life.
I said: "Jiang Mei, I understand your current mood very well. But you have resigned, and it is almost impossible to go back. It's not that I don't want you, but the procedure is unworkable. If you had
It would be nice to apply for a leave of absence without pay or something like that. However, it seems that public institutions are not allowed to apply for leave without pay now, right? So, the possibility that you want to go back to the hospital is not very high."
She nodded, "Yes. I know. I have been the office director for so many years, am I still not clear about such things?"
I looked at her, "Then, what will you do with your reserve fund?"
She shook her head and said: "I don't know either. I don't have the start-up capital to start my own company, and I can't guarantee that I will be successful in the future. I don't have many connections when it comes to working for others. I really don't know now.
What should we do?"
I said: "Jiang Mei, after listening to your words just now, I already have a preliminary concept. I think that until now, you have been doing things because of your face. This is also the reason why you resigned in the first place.
?You said that there are several companies that let you do office work, and the income is not bad, but you are unwilling to do that kind of work, and you have to do sales or something to make a lot of money. So, I think you are the best
The key problem is here, because you care too much about what others think of you, and always hope to make money as soon as possible, so that you can have face in front of your former colleagues or your relatives and friends. Don’t you think so?"
She nodded, "Dean Feng, you are right. I am a woman, and I am also a person who cares about face. And my children also need dignity in school. If I don't do a good job now, my children will be respected by their classmates."
It will be very shameless in front of you. Dean Feng, in the final analysis, we are all living for our own face. Do you think so?" (To be continued)