Suddenly, I saw her figure in my vision, right at the gate of Songcheng.
Even if my mind wanders, even if I feel that there are no images anywhere I can see, my consciousness is still there. So when she appeared there, I was suddenly out of the state of wandering thoughts.
Back to reality, back to the present.
That was indeed her, Dong Jie. At this moment, she was looking around at the entrance of Songcheng.
Today she is wearing a long coat, which is blue and looks of good quality. Coupled with her perfect figure, she looks so graceful and graceful at the moment.
I immediately ducked out from behind the tree, and then shouted to her who was looking around: "Dong Jie, here!"
Now I realize something: it took her so long to come out, it must be because she hesitated and struggled in her heart for a long time.
She heard my voice and immediately ran towards where I was. However, when she ran in front of me, she suddenly stopped and looked at me. At this moment, her face suddenly changed.
There was a blush, and then I was surprised to find that she started to cry.
I suddenly panicked, "Dong Jie, why are you crying?"
She started sobbing, "Dr. Feng, I finally waited until you got here..."
I suddenly became stunned, "What do you mean? I don't come to places like this often. This is my first time here."
In fact, I am thinking in my heart at this moment: If Yang Shuguang hadn't told me that you were here, I probably would never have come here. Why do you think I will definitely come here?
She didn't answer me, but she immediately came to me, and then hugged me suddenly... She cried on my shoulder.
At this moment, I seemed to understand everything...
There is probably something really wrong with her spirit. Perhaps, her inner world is like this -
We once went to that song city together, so she thought that we men all like to go to places like that, and then she began to fantasize that one day I would also go to the song city where she is now, and then we could meet.
Of course, the way she fantasizes about our meeting is not a normal way, but one of ambiguity and desire. Perhaps, what she fantasizes about is my touching her body, like the way we were inside just now.
Otherwise, why did she use her hands to guide me when we were inside?
It's not that I'm being sentimental, or that I imagined myself to be so attractive to her. For a person with mental problems, their world is inherently incredible and unconventional, and they simply cannot use the normal world.
Thinking to imagine.
I sighed in my heart.
Immediately, I patted her back gently and said, "Dong Jie, let's go. Let's go have a cup of coffee and chat at the same time. Okay?"
But she shook her head, "No, I want to drink."
In my memory, this was the first time she rejected my proposal, so I was stunned for a moment, but I still nodded to her, "Okay."
Regarding her and her current situation, I feel that I should try my best to obey her.
Then I asked her again: "Dong Jie, where do you want to go?"
She said: "I can go anywhere you want."
I took her into the car.
At this moment, I also felt something: today seems to be the most casual time she has ever been in front of me. She is no longer shy, and there is no longer the sense of distance she used to have when she was in front of me.
I became even more worried.
Now, I suddenly feel embarrassed. You know, rejecting her is a very simple thing, but the consequences of rejection are likely to be very bad. It is even worse if she does not refuse, which may hurt her even more.
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Let’s talk to her first. I said to myself.
I drove to a relatively prosperous place in the city. What I mean by prosperous is not the city itself, but the place where there are many people drinking and eating late night snacks.
People have a consumption habit, and most people like to go to crowded places. This is called herd psychology in psychology.
When we see many people surrounding a stall or lining up in a long line to buy something on the street, even though we don’t necessarily really understand the advantages of the product or whether we need it, we can’t help but join in the buying process.
Buying in the queue is a common phenomenon of "following the crowd" in daily life. In psychology, it is called the herd phenomenon caused by the herd mentality.
Herd mentality means that individuals are affected by the behavior of external groups and behave in a way that is consistent with public opinion or the majority of people in their own perceptions, judgments, and cognitions. It is a psychological phenomenon common to most individuals.
Conformity generally has several manifestations: one is superficial obedience, but the heart also accepts it, so-called oral and heart-to-heart submission. The second is verbal dissatisfaction, and one has no choice but to obey on the surface and follow the crowd against one's will. The third is completely following the crowd, which is far from being submissive.
The problem of dissatisfaction.
Now, the reason why I choose to drink with her here is not because of the herd mentality, but because I don’t want to go to a quiet place with her, because I worry that it will make myself very embarrassed when the time comes - what if I end up drinking?
What should I do if I make a mistake with her?
In fact, I also know that I choose such a place just for my own peace of mind. Even if there are more people here, it is of no use. I still need to control the final result myself.
After all, I am here to communicate with her today. This kind of communication is different from ordinary communication. To be precise, it is a psychological communication with her, or counseling. The key to the problem is that I am not a psychiatrist, so I
I am very worried that the final result will be counterproductive.
Ah Zhu also had psychological problems before, but at that time I found a professional doctor. In the field of psychological counseling, you must have professional knowledge and ability, so the problems in psychological counseling are not like
It is as simple as people think, and the problem cannot be solved by just finding someone to talk to the patient or something.
By the way, Azhu, how is she now? At this moment, my thoughts began to wander again, which almost made me lose focus for a moment.
Fortunately, a waiter came over and asked me what I wanted to order, which brought me back to reality from my wandering thoughts.
I looked at Dong Jie and said to her softly: "Just order it. If you want to eat anything, just order it."
After saying this, I couldn't help but smile bitterly: In a place like this, how can it be possible to achieve the conditions of being casual?
Dong Jie started to order. She looked at the menu carefully, then ordered a spicy fish and braised lamb, and finally ordered a few cold dishes to go with wine.
She returned the menu to the waiter. The waiter asked us: "Would you like some drinks?"
Before I had time to ask Dong Jie for her opinion, I heard her say, "White wine. Sorghum wine."
I was immediately shocked: That was strong alcohol?!
But I still didn't say anything, because I was thinking: Since I brought her here, I should completely listen to her.
The waiter left and she came to look at me, "Dr. Feng, do you think the food I ordered is good?"
I nodded quickly, "Okay. Not bad."
But at this moment, I became even more worried: She was uncharacteristically so generous in front of me. Of course, this was incredible and abnormal. What kind of situation would happen to her next?
Now, I was really nervous. After thinking carefully, I cautiously asked her: "Dong Jie, don't you think it's inappropriate for you to go to a place like that?"
Her expression suddenly became gloomy, "I, I have nothing to do at night. I can make a lot of money there..."
I was suddenly stunned, "Does your boss Ning pay you less every month? And as far as I know, your daily consumption is not too high. Oh... the crux of the problem is not here, you are a serious person."
My child? Why do you do such a job?"
She suddenly became excited, "Didn't I take off my clothes and show them to others when I was in the art academy? What difference is there between me now?!"
I was stunned again, but I immediately reacted, "Dong Jie, how can these two be the same? When you were in the Academy of Fine Arts, you did it for art, but now it is a kind of degeneration. Don't you understand?"
But she said calmly: "It's not me who does art, it's my aunt, and those students. Moreover, aren't some of those students always looking at me lustfully? If it weren't for my aunt
If I were a teacher there, they would have come to harass me a long time ago. I was a model there at the time, does art have anything to do with me? What I was selling at that time was my body, and it is still the case now!"
I didn't know what to say for a while, so I could only murmur in pale words: "It's different, how can it be the same?"
She ignored me and continued: "In Song City, I can still move my body, drink with guests, boxing for entertainment, and sing. The tips are much more than when I was at the Academy of Fine Arts. What am I doing?"
Can't I earn this extra money? Now I understand that in the minds of some people, I am simply a useless person, so I will work hard to earn money and then open my own company. When the time comes, I will let some people see if I am
Really useless!"
I suddenly looked at her in astonishment. At this moment, I realized that her problem may not only be caused by my rejection of her, but it was already very certain that she had a psychological problem.
I felt that I was still too anxious, so I calmed down immediately. I looked at her, and then said to her gently and slowly: "Dong Jie, that's not the case. I think there is something wrong with your view. You
You have said it yourself, the reward you get in Songcheng is tips, not wages. So you should know very well that for the job you hold in an entertainment venue like that, in the final analysis, it is the real betrayal.
Your own body. You are a child of a good family and should not be like this. Do you think I am right? Dong Jie, let alone you, you would rather talk about what you would think after knowing what you did... By the way,
She is good enough to you, right? Also, have you ever thought about your aunt? What would she think if she knew about this? And your parents, what would they think? Dong Jie, do it alone
You can't just look at one aspect of things, because you are no longer just yourself. When you do anything, you should think about the people around you, and you should also think about the feelings of your loved ones. Don't you think so?"
She was silent for a moment, and her expression became gloomy again. After a while, she looked at me, and then said in a low voice: "You don't want me anyway, I can do whatever I want..."
I didn't expect that she would say such things, and in front of me. You know, she was not like this before?
After being stunned for a moment, I looked at her. At this moment, I suddenly noticed that her expression, no, to be precise, her eyes seemed to be a little abnormal... (To be continued)