She looked at me with horror on her face, "Yaya? Did she tell you personally?"
I was very confused: Why did she have such an expression? "Yes. She answered me at that time that her name is Yaya and her real name is Dong Jie. Is there anything wrong with this?"
She suddenly became excited, "She had a sister named Yaya, but her sister died of acute meningitis when she was seven years old. Xiaojie didn't have a nickname, and her family usually called her Xiaojie. Feng Xiao, Xiaojie
Are you possessed by evil spirits?"
I was stunned because I could not imagine such a situation. After being stunned for a while, I said: "Yaru, you and I are both knowledgeable and educated people. How come you are here with your relatives?"
After encountering such a thing, she became so superstitious? Have you ever thought about it? This explains the problem even more. It shows that Dong Jie has deep feelings for her dead sister in her heart, and it also shows that she
In her heart, she is very sad about her current situation. She may be thinking: Rather than living like this, it would be better to die like her sister. Dong Jie’s current condition is schizophrenia, that is to say, in a state of illness
She is not in her normal mental state at all, it is her true self in her subconscious. Do you understand? So, what she needs most now is formal treatment. Yaru, you must not try to use unscientific methods again.
We tried to restore her to a normal state, which would definitely harm her. Now it is a reality that she suffers from mental illness, and we cannot avoid this reality. What do you think?"
She was still crying and murmured: "She, how could she get such a disease? Although her academic performance is not good, there is no way she could get such a disease? I can't accept it.
Such a thing... I, how can I accept such a thing? Is it really that I was too strict with her before? I really shouldn't let her become a model? She is not the only model in our art academy
One, how come other people don’t have this situation? I, I really... woo woo!"
In fact, I know that she is beginning to regret it at this moment, but she is unwilling to admit the wrong decisions she has made in her heart. I understand her very well, because I believe everything she has done to Dong Jie
It was all for her own good from the bottom of my heart. Such a thing would not be acceptable to anyone else.
At this time, my heart suddenly moved, and I immediately asked her: "Ya Ru, are there any other people among Dong Jie's elders who have suffered from such a disease? For example, your parents, or Dong Jie's grandfather, grandma, or even...
The elders above?"
She suddenly raised her head and looked at me, her face full of tears, "Feng Xiao, what do you mean?"
I replied: "Although the causes of mental illness are not yet clearly studied in medicine, one thing has been confirmed, and that is genetic factors, and genetic factors account for a large proportion of the incidence of mental illness.
A huge proportion.”
She was stunned immediately, and after a while she said to me: "Dong Jie's grandfather, my father, committed suicide. But that was during the Cultural Revolution, because he was labeled a rightist, so he wanted to
It’s impossible to commit suicide by jumping off a building.”
The purpose of asking her this question just now was not entirely to find out the cause of Dong Jie's illness, because figuring out the cause of her illness is within the scope that psychiatrists need to understand. But my purpose is only one, that is, I don't want Wu Yaru to
I blame myself too much. As for me, I also hope to find the cause of this disease, because I also need to further shirk responsibility for Dong Jie's problem.
We often live under the condition of anesthetizing ourselves, because we all do wrong things. I am the same at the moment, and I also hope to find a reasonable excuse to anesthetize Wu Yaru.
I said: "That's it. As far as I know, so many people were labeled as rightists back then, but not many committed suicide, right? Of course, I don't mean that all those who were labeled as rightists committed suicide at that time.
Everyone has mental problems, but I think it can at least explain one thing, that is, the mental endurance of this type of people is relatively weak. As for your father, he may have hidden mental illness problems. If
If you search further, your father's grandfather and grandmother may also have such a condition. Because medical research has found that mental illness is more likely to be inherited from the maternal side."
She was silent again.
I knew that my anesthesia on her had a certain effect, and maybe she no longer blamed herself so much. So I took the opportunity to say: "Ya Ru, I hope you can make a decision as soon as possible.
Let Dong Jie go to the hospital as soon as possible."
She took a few quick breaths, and then let out a long sigh, "Feng Xiao, please contact me. Find the best doctor for her."
I thought about it and said: "My thoughts now are different from before. I used to think that mental hospitals were more professional after all, and the treatment might be more effective. But now I think that an environment like a mental hospital might be better."
It's not good for Dong Jie's situation. After all, there are all types of mental illness there, and it wouldn't be good if the news about her stay in a mental hospital was spread. So, I think it would be better to go to the psychiatric department of a medical university for hospitalization.
First, because it is a teaching hospital, and the treatment is equally formal. Second, I am relatively familiar with the doctors there, after all, I have worked there. Also, the technical strength of the psychiatric department of the Medical University Affiliated Hospital is also
It’s not bad, I think they don’t use drugs that violently. I’ve been an intern there and know some of the conditions inside.”
The main reason why I told her these situations in detail is because of what she said before.
She listened quietly, while tears began to flow out again, "Since you said so, please help me contact you."
I said: "When do you think you will go to the hospital?"
She hesitated, "Tomorrow morning. I'll take her to stay with me tonight. I want to talk to her."
I nodded, "But Yaru, you must not irritate her. Also, before going to the hospital tomorrow, you must not say anything in front of her that she is mentally ill."
She asked me in surprise: "Why?"
I replied: "A mentally ill person will not feel that she has such a disease, and she is also particularly sensitive. In that case, it is likely to irritate her."
She stood up immediately and said, "Okay. Then I'll take her back."
I suddenly saw the long box containing the painting on the sofa, "Ya Ru, please take this painting back. I can't have this thing from you."
She shook her head and said: "Why do I need something like this? If something like this happens to Dong Jie, I may not be interested in creation from now on. Alas!"
I said casually: "Ya Ru, I have heard a saying: The source of creation comes from suffering."
She immediately said angrily: "Feng Xiao, how long has it been? Are you still making such a joke with me?"
I immediately became embarrassed, because I felt that what I said was indeed inappropriate at the right time. But what I never expected was that my words would actually become reality by Wu Yaru in the future. After that,
After hearing about Dong Jie's incident, her creative passion reached a climax from the day Dong Jie recovered and was discharged from the hospital, and the works she created immediately became famous both at home and abroad. She later said this to me
: "Feng Xiao, you said to me at that time that suffering is the source of creation. In fact, what you said is not completely accurate. I think it should be: hope after suffering and despair is the best source of creation."
Of course, this is a story for another day.
However, I also gained a lot of insights from this——
There is no way to avoid suffering in life. Without the infiltration of suffering, life will become superficial and pale; without the baptism of pain, life will appear thin and fragile. Suffering is like a shadow, always accompanying us.
Real suffering can make people calm and mature. Only when you learn to be good at transcending suffering and gain spiritual richness from a painful life that cannot be obtained in a peaceful life will your life become flavorful and colorful. Life will become more interesting and colorful.
It itself means feeling and thinking, suffering and enjoying happiness. Suffering is a deep emotional experience in life. Only when you have experienced setbacks can you truly experience the joy and joy of success. Nietzsche once said: "Everything
Happiness is born in pain. Without the steps of pain, happiness will never come."
The road of life is not smooth sailing. We often encounter setbacks and feel pain. We must first have the ability to suffer, and then we can enjoy happiness. People who don’t know suffering don’t know true happiness, and they have never cried.
People will not understand true joy.
For a wise man, suffering is a stepping stone to success, a ladder to climb to glory, and a rare wealth in life. Every elevation in life is supported by suffering.
Suffering and happiness are like twins in life. When life gives people happiness, it never forgets to add a share of suffering. Enduring suffering has almost become a necessary condition and core trait of a great mind. Those who face it calmly
People who endure pain and overcome it bravely can often achieve great things.
Suffering is a precious spiritual wealth and a threshold that must be crossed in life. Suffering can make people think deeply and understand the true meaning of life. A person who understands life and a person who is full of hope for life will reflect hard because of suffering.
And transform frustration into a kind of motivation and strength. What suffering brings to him will definitely be happiness in struggle and a leap in life realm.
The experience of suffering and spiritual trauma can make people stronger and braver. Suffering breeds happiness and contains creation. King Wen acted in "The Book of Changes", Zhongniu wrote "Spring and Autumn", and Qu Yuan banished Nai to write "Li Sao". ", Sima Qian was tortured to write "Historical Records", Cao Xueqin was frustrated and wrote "Dream of Red Mansions", Beethoven was deaf and wrote "Ninth Chorus Symphony"... all of this proves that many of the masterpieces handed down from generation to generation were written by the authors in great pain. came out. Their love for life defeated their personal pain and despair, and their suffering became the source of their creative power.
Suffering is the purgatory of life. Suffering can be decomposed, adapted, and overcome. Experience suffering rationally and tenaciously, and suffering will give you profound and useful enlightenment. If suffering is a kind of silence, it must be the silence before success. If Suffering is a kind of darkness, it must be the darkness before dawn. Many things in life cannot be controlled or changed by myself. We cannot change the environment, but we can control our own courage and belief. And with a heart A kind and simple heart should face the setbacks of life, move forward courageously, and face life head on.
If life is a river, then suffering and happiness are intertwined undulating waves, and each of us is a surfer on it. For the brave, suffering makes them wise, brave, and open-minded. A strong person can only endure the Only after suffering challenges can we be truly tested.
Whether it is suffering or happiness, we must be grateful and moved by our fate. Because suffering, like happiness, brings us more philosophy and a deeper and more mature understanding.
But the hope that emerges after experiencing suffering and despair can open the door to a person's success.
Lin Yi's story is like this, and what happened to Wu Yaru later is also like this.
That night, I personally escorted Wu Yaru out of my villa, but I didn't go to Ning Xiangru's car because I didn't dare to face Dong Jie again, let alone look into her eyes.
After returning home, I started calling Dong Jie to contact the doctor. (To be continued)