I think many people may have the same escape complex as me.
I remember when I was in high school, my biggest wish during the time when I was applying for the college entrance examination was to fill in the school as far away from my hometown as possible. This was not just so that I could go to school every time and travel around the mountains and rivers on the way during the holidays.
And more importantly, I hope that I can be as far away from my hometown as possible.
Because at that time, all I saw were things I was dissatisfied with about my hometown. I was dissatisfied with the poverty in my hometown, my parents’ nagging, my teachers’ pampering of those students with particularly good grades, and even my dissatisfaction with the rural people in my hometown.
I'm tired of the lousy accent.
The same is true for a company. When a person works in a place for too long, he or she will become bored. Once he can leave that place, he will try his best to find a way to leave.
But after leaving, the feeling of nostalgia and longing will arise. When a person has been wandering outside for a while, he will think: Oh, it turns out that everything in my hometown is so beautiful and kind; it turns out that those people in my previous work unit have given me so much.
With so much help, their feelings towards me seem to be more real than those in my current workplace...
I think this may be the reason why I agreed to help Meng Xiaoyun. But I am arrogant because I don’t want her to think that I have any intentions towards her: She is obviously asking for something from me, so why should I take the initiative to give it to her?
What about making phone calls?
She didn't call until after three o'clock. I suddenly felt a little annoyed and even angry: Didn't we agree on it last night? What's the trick? If you don't talk to me this afternoon, I still have to talk to someone.
, aren’t you wasting my time? People who have been working in colleges and universities for a long time are really ignorant!
I checked my phone again, but there was still no movement, and the time showed that five minutes had passed. I didn’t want to let time pass by like this, so I immediately picked up the phone on my desk and called the director of the training center.
, "Director Li, please come to my office. My name is Feng Xiao."
Soon the director of the training center came. She was a middle-aged woman.
After she sat down respectfully across from my office, I immediately smiled and said to her: "Director Li, I just came here not long ago, and now I am taking time to find each middle-level cadre to understand the situation of each of your departments. Now,
Please tell me about the situation in the training center."
It seemed that she had been prepared, and soon she took out some materials from her bag.
But at this moment, Meng Xiaoyun called, "Director Feng, I'm at your unit. How can I find you?"
I suddenly became dissatisfied: I'm not here early, I'm not late, why did I arrive at this time? Do you want me to go downstairs to pick you up in person?
But I didn't have an attack. I thought that she was related to the Wu principal anyway, and she even came here in person. I said to her: "Wait there for a while, I'll have someone come down to pick you up."
Then I said to the director of the training center in front of me: "Director Li, I'm sorry, a colleague from my previous unit came to me to tell me something. I'll find time to find out more about the work of your training center later. By the way,
Please go down and pick her up. Her name is Meng Xiaoyun, she is the Youth League Committee Secretary of the Medical University, and she will be transferred to the Provincial Obstetrics and Gynecology Hospital where I used to work as the vice president. Thank you."
After I finished speaking, I suddenly felt that I had said too much. Do I need to do this in front of my subordinates?
Director Li seemed very understanding. She immediately packed her things back into her bag, "Okay. Director Feng, then I'll report to you another day. I'll go down to pick her up right away."
Watching her leave my office, I couldn't help but shake my head and smile bitterly.
Meng Xiaoyun came to my office. After taking one look at her, I couldn't help but blame her in my heart: You are here to talk about work, why are you dressed up so beautifully? Aren't you letting others gossip about me?
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In fact, I know why I just said those words in front of my training director, because I know that Meng Xiaoyun is beautiful, so I don’t want my subordinate to misunderstand. Now it’s better, as if what I just said seemed a bit cover-up.
, there is no more three hundred taels of silver here.
After Director Li brought Meng Xiaoyun in, I glanced at her, and then said to Meng Xiaoyun enthusiastically: "Sit on the sofa over there for a while. Director Li, please make her a cup of tea, and I'll take care of it."
Thank you for this document."
In fact, the document in my hand is not important, but I feel that I need to do this because I am trying to let my subordinates see the distance between me and Meng Xiaoyun.
The more I fear that others will misunderstand me, the more I feel worried and uneasy in my heart. My worry and uneasiness are not because of Meng Xiaoyun who is in my office at the moment, but because I am afraid that the women in my past will be exposed.
Everything that happened in the past has become a huge psychological burden for me now, but I can't guarantee whether I will continue.
I don’t think I am romantic, I just regard what happens often as a need, as a man’s need. And my decision not to get married is not only because I am completely disappointed with marriage in my heart, but also
Yes, this is the safest excuse to satisfy your own needs.
I am a human being, a living, flesh-and-blood man, not a moralist or a moralist. But I know that with my current identity and status, what happened in the past cannot be exposed, even if I have thousands of reasons.
You can explain it.
So many times I was very distressed in my heart, and at the same time I was constantly struggling, because I tried to really calm down my heart, and it was best to be abstinent, but later I found that such efforts would eventually be in vain.
In addition to my own desires, there are also many external temptations that would make it impossible for me to do that.
After Director Li made tea for Meng Xiaoyun, he said to me: "Director Feng, I'll go down first. If you have time, please call me anytime."
I looked up from the document and said, "Anyway, around the Spring Festival, I must find out about the situation from you as soon as possible."
She left immediately, and before she left my office, I said to Meng Xiaoyun: "I'm sorry, please sit down for a while. We will talk after I finish what I am doing."
Meng Xiaoyun smiled and said: "Okay. You are busy."
After about five minutes, I finally "read" the document, and then stood up from my seat and went to where Meng Xiaoyun was. After sitting down in front of her, I crossed my legs and said, "Secretary Meng, haha! Now
Should I call you Dean Meng?"
Her face immediately turned red, "Director Feng, why are you so polite? I'm not used to you being so polite. You are my senior brother."
I raised my head and smiled, "Aren't you also 'you' and 'your' in front of me? Haha! Okay, tell me, what do you want to know from me?"
She glanced at me, and I suddenly discovered that her eyes had a kind of seductive power. A beautiful woman, when she suddenly looked at me with a look that was full of reproach, coquettishness, and even affection.
, it immediately touched my nerves.
Of course, the most fundamental reason is that I am a man. Under the influence of male hormones, my nerves have become so sensitive to her eyes. What’s more, she has a different kind of beauty today——
She must have dressed up deliberately today.
She has cloud-like black hair, and under her curved willow eyebrows are a pair of eyes as bright as autumn water, like stars and the bright moon. Her nose is exquisite and small. Her peach cheeks are slightly dizzy, which is because she has applied a light layer of rouge. Her
Her lips were as eye-catching as red dots, her melon-seed face as white as snow was shy and affectionate, and the smooth skin on her neck was as tender as honey. Even though she was sitting there, she still deliberately made me feel the allure of her figure.
At this moment, she was looking at me charmingly and affectionately, with joy and anger.
In the past, she always showed me a fierce and generous attitude, but today, now, I discovered that she also has a feminine side. (To be continued)