So I held the cup and said: "Here, please raise your cup. I am very happy today. My old colleagues and new colleagues are gathered together. This is a rare opportunity. Well, as for the important meaning, there is also this meal.
I won’t say what purpose it is intended to achieve. I only have one sentence: I wish you all a happy New Year. Come on, let’s drink the first cup!”
Since I proposed it, there is no reason why everyone should not cheer.
In fact, we were drinking and telling jokes throughout the dinner. At the beginning, I was the one doing the talking mainly because I didn’t want to be left in the dark. But the effect was pretty good, and soon everyone became familiar with each other and became casual.
In the middle of the process, Shang Longxing said to Dai Qian, "Dean Dai, will our Director Feng's year-end bonus be distributed to you this year? You see, he refused to accept the year-end bonus we gave him after he arrived at our place.
Woolen cloth."
Dai Qian was stunned for a moment, and then said with a smile: "Of course. After all, Dean Feng has been with us for one full year. Dean Feng, this is how you are, financially putting yourself at risk."
It’s so innocent.”
I am very grateful to Shanglongxing in my heart. This is not just a matter of money. It is not easy for me to take the initiative to talk to Dai Qian about such things. And judging from Dai Qian's reaction just now, maybe she is not interested at all.
I haven't thought about this matter. After all, she is still a little young and doesn't think about the problem so carefully.
The year-end bonus from the obstetrics and gynecology hospital is not much, but I should have received it at that time. But I can't take the initiative to ask Dai Qian for it, right? It can be seen that Shang Longxing is indeed a person who has been trained in the local area. She considered
The problem is much more detailed.
But I still said with a "hehe" smile: "It's okay, it's okay! Let's not talk about such things when we drink. The smell of copper in our mouth will affect our enjoyment of drinking. But I still want to offer the director a glass of wine.
....Thank you for your concern."
She accepted my toast with a smile.
Then I went to greet Dai Qian again, "Dean Dai, thank you for remembering to give me the year-end bonus."
Dai Qian smiled and said: "Dean Feng, are you being mean to me? The amount of the year-end bonus was signed by you before you left. I'm just following your advice."
I took a look at Meng Xiaoyun and joked with her: "Xiao Meng, I'm sorry, I didn't know you were going to be transferred to the obstetrics and gynecology hospital at the time, so I had no plan to give you a year-end bonus."
Meng Xiaoyun burst out laughing and said, "Director Feng, you are really good at joking."
At this time, Ke Xiangnan spoke, "Director Feng, you just said not to talk about money anymore, but in the end you continued talking alone. You are fined for drinking."
I laughed, "Okay, what's this called? A carpenter making shackles? Haha! Okay, I'll punish myself with three cups of wine."
Then I drank three glasses of wine, and Dai Qian also drank her glass of wine. But I began to worry about her, so I went to her ear and reminded her in a low voice: "Xiao Dai, what are you doing now?"
You are the person in charge of the hospital, don't get drunk from now on. If you can't control yourself when you are drunk, you will make a fool of yourself."
Her face immediately turned red, but she still agreed to me with a "yes".
In the end, we didn't drink much. I could see that everyone was relatively restrained when it came to drinking. The main reason was that Ke Xiangnan and I were the only two men at the table, and neither he nor I wanted to get drunk.
Meaning, even the women have not reached the level of excitement.
Later, it was me who suggested that the dinner be over. I gave a very tacky but very high-sounding reason, "Everyone has to go to work tomorrow, so let's call it a day."
The drivers were eating in the lobby outside. They had finished their meals long ago and were waiting for us there. The strange thing is that Zhong Feng didn't come to greet us today. She should know that I am here?
I was thinking: She must be angry because I ran away last time. After all, it was her birthday, and my running away made her very embarrassed.
Women are really stingy animals. I smiled bitterly in my heart.
After the group of people left the private room, I said to Dai Qian: "Xiao Meng will go to work at your place soon, which means that she will be a member of your hospital soon. You can send her off tonight."
Dai Qian agreed repeatedly.
Then I went home and took a shower and went to bed. The wine I drank tonight was not particularly comfortable, but I felt very tired at the moment, because when I was at the wine table today, I suddenly thought of a question: Should I continue to hang out like this from now on?
Work during the day and drink at night? This is a waste of time, right?
I was lying in bed but couldn't fall asleep. The effects of alcohol made me feel a little excited. I didn't even think about it deliberately, but I couldn't help but recall my life over the years in my mind.
In my mind, I thought of the women I had experienced. The smiling faces of each of them flashed through my mind. Later, I found that I became confused, because it was only now that I discovered that my life
There are so many women in it. I can't help but feel ashamed.
So, I couldn't help but start thinking about a question: Feng Xiao, have you ever really liked them? Or, do you have true feelings for some of them in your heart?
I can be sure that I have true feelings for Zhao Menglei, and Zhuang Qing. For Chen Yuan, maybe I like and feel guilty more, Lin Yu? I should be more grateful and dependent on her, right? Hong Ya
, it seems that I have a kind of nostalgia for her, maybe this nostalgia is also a kind of emotion. Shangguanqin... don't think about her, she is also a kind of pain in my heart. And, and... forget it
Okay, stop thinking about these things, Feng Xiao, what kind of person are you?
At this time, because I didn’t dare and didn’t want to think about such things anymore, my thinking suddenly started to jump. My thinking suddenly jumped to a problem that I rarely think about.
——What kind of person am I? Who am I?
Some people say that this is a philosophical proposition, but I don’t think so. Maybe it’s because my realm has not reached that level yet?
For me, this is not the first time I have thought about this problem. However, in the past, every time such a question rushed through my mind, I would immediately laugh: I am who I am, and my name is Feng.
laugh.
But tonight I suddenly thought more deeply. I don’t know why, but I suddenly thought about this question again: Who am I?
But what followed immediately was fear.
I was really scared because I thought of a question, and this question was "me"
I didn't think about where "I" came from, but I was thinking: Where will I go after I die one day in the future?
From this, I thought of Zhao Menglei, Chen Yuan, Su Hua, Liu Meng and Shangguan Qin. Where are they now? Did they also think about this problem when they were alive?
I don't know, because I'm not them. And they are: Duan Muxiong, Song Mei.
What about myself? Thinking of this, an unspeakable fear began to strike me, and I seemed to be sucked into a black hole full of whirlpools. It seemed that a huge force was pulling me towards
I was pulled into that terrible black hole. I was so scared that I hurriedly tried to struggle out of it. At this moment, I truly felt my fear of death.
I broke free because I heard the ringtone of my cell phone... It turned out that I fell asleep without knowing it.
I don't want to answer the phone because I'm still immersed in the fear just now. Who am I? (To be continued)