I really want to fall asleep immediately, but my heart is full of expectation. In fact, I am very excited now. Even if I want to go to bed, I may not be able to fall asleep for a while.
I don't want to wait like this for a long time, but I completely believe that she will come. There is no reason, just a feeling.
Drunk people are very persistent, and I am the same at this moment. I firmly believe that she will definitely come.
I went to take a shower. I almost fell to the floor several times after being drunk. But I finally insisted on washing my body and brushing my teeth.
Then, I walked out of the bathroom in my pajamas.
I felt much more awake now, and then I lay down on the bed and fell asleep. I was waiting for the knock on the door outside.
She finally came, and I heard a knock on the door. I suddenly became excited, hurriedly got out of bed and ran outside. As a result, while running, I felt that my legs were not obeying me at all, and even several times
Fell to the ground.
I finally ran to the door, calmed myself down, and then slowly opened the door.
Sure enough, it was her. She was looking at me with a half-smile in front of me.
At this moment, I suddenly had an impulse, and I immediately pulled her into the house, and then pushed the door shut with my feet. She was pulled into my arms, and I lowered my head and kissed her neck...
I don't know if it's an illusion or some other reason, but I think she's prettier than last night.
…
I fell down slumped, panting like an ox. At this moment, I suddenly felt that everything was so meaningless. While hating myself, I also began to get tired of the woman next to me.
Why is this happening? You were like this before, making the same mistakes again and again, but you continued to make them again and again! I blamed myself in my heart.
…
When I woke up the next morning, she was gone again. I touched the side of the bed, and it was cold inside. I guessed that she had been gone for a long time.
She was drunk last night, but it was me who was drunk last night.
At this moment, I suddenly thought: maybe death is not terrible, maybe the door to this world is closed, and the door to another world is opened at the same time.
Therefore, I also feel that what happened between me and Dai Qian doesn't matter, and all the things that happened to me in the past don't matter. They are just fragments of my life experience.
But now I have a deeper understanding of myself: my sanity is so poor that after being drunk, when I feel lonely and lonely, I will think about women, and now, it seems that she is the only one I can find.
.But I don’t want to be like this again.
After thinking about it for a long time and hesitating, I deleted Dai Qian's phone number.
I didn't deliberately record her number, so once I deleted it, I couldn't remember it again. Because of this, I hesitated for a while. But then I decided to delete it because I couldn't believe my determination and
Be sensible, especially next time you're drunk.
I feel that what I experienced last night when I was drunk was a bit like obsessive-compulsive disorder, because at that time I was so impatient to make that phone call to Dai Qian. And now I have realized that in the future, when I am drunk, even
When I feel lonely, I can't help myself from doing the same thing.
When I was working as a doctor in the Obstetrics and Gynecology Department of the Medical University Affiliated Hospital, an intern came to me and asked me: I can't help but touch my wallet at any time. What should I do if it's still there? I simply can't control myself from touching it! At that time
I answered her: It's very simple, just don't bring a wallet, put the money in your trouser pocket or somewhere else. She said: I tried, but it still doesn't work, I have to go into my trouser pocket at any time to see if the money is still there.
It was immediately clear that what she was worried about was not the wallet, but the money in it.
So I said to her: Then don't carry money with you. Give the money to your best friend. When you need it, ask your friend. But she still shook her head and said: No, I
I tried it, but I still couldn't help but touch my trouser pockets at any time. She had severe obsessive-compulsive disorder. Then I said: Then you'd better sew all your trouser pockets shut.
She didn't come to me again after that. I guess my suggestion had an effect on her.
Now, I delete Dai Qian's phone number, the purpose of which is the same as sewing the trouser pockets.
Then I called Man Jiangnan and asked him if he had prepared the fishing rod. He replied that he had prepared it a long time ago and had put it in Xiao Sui's car. He also said that there were several bottles of wine in the car.
, Maotai, Wuliangye, Jiangnan Tequ, as well as cigarettes, mainly for my recent temporary New Year greetings. Finally, he said: "I asked Xiao Sui to borrow 20,000 yuan from the Finance Department. Director Feng, do you want
If you want to give someone a red envelope or something, or if you want to treat a guest temporarily, just let Xiao Sui handle it at any time. Of course, you can also call me at any time."
I fell silent immediately: on the one hand, I thought Man Jiangnan was very smart in what he did, but on the other hand, I felt that his power seemed a bit too great.
After thinking for a while, I said: "Director Man, thank you. But you should still tell me the money spent by the office in advance, right?"
He is a smart man, and he immediately understood what I meant, "Yes. Director Feng, we only borrowed some money temporarily, and we haven't had time to ask you to sign it yet."
I said: "Director Man, under normal circumstances I must sign for the unit's expenses, but whether you report to me in advance is a matter of attitude. Do you think so?"
His voice on the other end of the phone became nervous. I immediately hung up the phone.
In fact, this matter boils down to two words: rules. There must be rules in a unit, especially in the financial system. As the office director, Man Jiangnan should be very qualified or even outstanding, but if he does not follow the rules,
No matter how outstanding he is, he has become unqualified. I am the leader of the unit, and I must take care of such things, otherwise it will cause chaos, and the final result will be to harm him. Every position has its scope of authority. If it exceeds
If it reaches such a range, it means there is already a problem.
Muzi Li, the former director of the Provincial Education Commission Office, is a good example.
The system in our country has created a situation where power is not supervised. In many places, top leaders always have problems. This is certainly true, but as an internal unit, if your subordinates are allowed to mess around, then the top leader will be the first to
It is unqualified. If there is a problem with the top leader, it is a problem with the system. If there is a problem with the cadres in the unit, it is a problem with internal management. For now, this is how I look at this problem.
Then I thought about it, so I called Man Jiangnan again, "Director Man, you go with me today. You ask Xiao Sui to pick you up first and then pick me up. I will be in the community where I live in half an hour.
I’ll wait for you outside.”
After I finished speaking, I immediately hung up the phone again. I wanted to tell him that this was an order, not a discussion.
Just now, I suddenly had an idea: after criticizing this subordinate, I should have a good talk with him. The office director is very important. He is equivalent to the general manager in a unit, so I feel that after criticizing him, I should still talk to him.
Just comfort him.
After washing up, I put on a set of very ordinary clothes: thick black corduroy slacks, a sweater on my upper body, and then a leather jacket. On my feet were a pair of sneakers. I didn't deliberately put on my
My hair was so shiny, but I shaved myself cleanly.
Dressing is not only a science, but also very particular. You need to consider what kind of clothes you wear for any occasion and in front of whom. Although this is a detail, I believe that sometimes details often play a big role.
Today I went fishing with my old director, so I thought I should be low-key and casual like this.
Half an hour later, I slowly walked outside. When I arrived outside the community, I waited for a while. I suddenly discovered that there were many cars entering the community today. Many of the license plates were from the counties and cities below, and they were all very good numbers.
, and most of the cars are Passat or Audi. It seems that there are many officials living in this community. It is obvious that the people sitting in these vehicles should be going to pay New Year greetings. (To be continued)