I suddenly didn't know what to say, because I knew what she said was right.
When she saw that I was silent, she immediately came to toast my drink, "Uncle Feng, let's not talk about this anymore. Come on, I'll toast you. Thank you Uncle Feng for taking me out to play today."
I smiled bitterly and said, "You took me out to play, okay? And you also acted as my tour guide. I respect you."
She smiled and said to me, "Let's respect each other." Then she smiled sweetly at me, "Uncle Feng, do you think I'm too young, that's why you don't like me? I know you are single now, and you and I
What am I afraid of being together?”
At this moment, our bottle of wine was almost finished. When I heard her asking me this question, I immediately felt that she was already drunk, "Mujiao, don't say that. Didn't you call me Uncle Feng?"
?”
She drank the wine immediately, then pursed her lips and said to me: "You are not my biological uncle. I feel like I am used to calling you this. Uncle Feng, in fact, I can see that you still like me very much, because
I think I'm pretty pretty. Is it mainly because of my mother that you are so restrained in front of me? Also, my matter is too big and you don't dare to agree to it all at once. Is that right?"
I hurriedly said to her: "Mujiao, you drank too much."
She said: "I didn't drink too much. I spoke from my heart. Uncle Feng, you are older than me, but I think you actually have something on your mind just like me, but you don't want to say it out. And
It’s just that you are too good at disguising yourself.”
I immediately laughed and said, "What you said is quite right. But I feel that one's own affairs should be kept in one's own heart, because there are some things that are useless to others. As the saying goes, it is better to ask for others than to ask for yourself.
.Do you think so? Also, it is not a bad thing for a person to learn to disguise himself. This is actually the nature of animals. Because only by disguising yourself can you be less hurt. Do you think so?"
She sighed and said, "In the end, it's better for you to be men."
I said: "This has nothing to do with gender, right? By the way, you mentioned the issue of making money earlier. In fact, it is not easy for anyone, whether a man or a woman, to make money. So Mujiao, I think
The most important thing for you now is to study hard. Only when everything is well with you, will your parents feel relieved and feel hope. I hope you must understand this."
She shook her head and said: "No, I have to help my father get out of there as soon as possible. Uncle Feng, I hope you will reconsider the proposal I gave you today. What you said about medical parole, commutation of sentence, etc. are too slow. I
I don’t want to wait. Yes, you said this matter is risky. I know that I can do what you said and hire a lawyer to handle the matter. But I need money now, one million. But I can’t afford it.
When money comes, I only have my own body. I think I am worth more than those girls in the countryside, right? If I were to be the lover of a rich man in a place like Beijing, they would definitely be willing to give me one million.
Yes, I am completely confident about this. But I don’t want to go looking for those old men with big bellies. Uncle Feng, I think you are a good person, at least you are not that old, and I like your appearance. More importantly,
You look very clean. Uncle Feng, don't think I'm mean. I'm really still a c-girl. I really want my dad to get out of there as soon as possible. You said you would lend me money, but I want to
It’s one million yuan. When can I pay it back? Even if I work from now on, my monthly salary will only be three or four thousand yuan, right? In a year, it will be less than fifty thousand yuan, no.
It will take twenty years without food or drink! Uncle Feng, just help me, okay?"
I immediately regretted it: I had known I wouldn’t have gone out with her today. Why was she still thinking like that? Besides, when I told her that I was willing to lend her money, that didn’t mean I wanted to lend her one million.
?I'm just talking about attorney's fees.
How could I agree to her request? But I couldn't refuse her immediately. This was a public place, and I was worried that she would cause some trouble if she got too excited. So, I could only stay silent.
She looked very excited. After she said those words, she immediately picked up the wine bottle and poured herself some wine, but she found that the bottle was empty. She came to look at me and said, "Uncle Feng, you can
Think again, think again. I’m not in a hurry to rush you. We’ve finished the wine, how about we get another bottle?”
I said: "Stop drinking."
But she was still looking at me, "But what if I want to drink?"
I sighed: "Then drink less. Don't get drunk."
I found that the current situation was simply the opposite: I was actually afraid of her. In fact, I just thought that maybe the best way to resolve this matter was to tell Jordan immediately. But I didn't dare.
The waiter brought another bottle of wine.
Mujiao poured it for me and herself, and then she raised her glass to me, "Uncle Feng, I respect you."
I didn't say anything, and drank the cup immediately. At this moment, I was thinking: This matter doesn't matter, as long as I don't agree to her request. But I always felt a little strange in my heart: Why did she
Would you do this? Is it just out of filial piety?
I suddenly remembered a theory in psychology - the death instinct.
Freud believed that people have two instincts: life instinct and death instinct. The former refers to all instincts that make life continue and move in a better direction. The latter refers to all instincts that destroy life and destroy life, both external and internal.
There are two internal parts: external such as attack, hatred, war, etc., and internal such as self-blame, guilt, suicide, etc. The death instinct is unique to human beings. Under normal circumstances, this death instinct of people is in the subconscious, but when a person's
When the psychological state is imbalanced, the death instinct will emerge, even very intensely.
Freud believed that the death instinct leads people to death, because that is where true peace can be found. Only in death, the final resting area, can individuals hope to completely relieve tension and struggle.
This is actually a self-destructive impulse. Most of us are suppressed by the life instinct, so this self-destructive impulse weakens or changes its direction. But when the life instinct loses this
When the person is strong, the death instinct may manifest itself through suicide.
The life instinct can force the death instinct to be disguised in various forms. For example, when a person has a desire to self-destruct, then the person will be unable to resist and will have to commit suicide. Or, the person will
Become an abused person, and then feel the physical and mental pain alone. Of course, this person may also direct all his "destructive energy" to the outside world, thereby becoming an aggressive or sadistic person, or even
He might also become a murderer.
Under the same pressure, most people may become addicted to alcohol or drugs, or may become prone to accidents. Even a person cannot persist in working. It is said that the habit of biting nails is one of the milder ones.
The most common manifestation of a person's death instinct is to torture oneself to make one forget the inner sense of failure or frustration. Especially when a person encounters huge difficulties and cannot extricate himself, it is often easy to destroy himself.
Try to solve the difficulties in front of you.
Of course, such subconsciousness is something a person does not know, because after such a situation occurs, a person will feel that he should do it this way, and he will stubbornly believe that this is the only effective way for him at present.
I think Mu Jiao is in such a situation at the moment.
It is said that a person is prone to the urge to die under certain circumstances such as:
#When looking down at the beautiful scenery from a high-rise building above the 0th floor.
#While watching the ebb and flow of the tide by the endless sea.
#When holding a sharp knife in your hand.
#While standing on the bridge and looking down at the rolling river.
#Standing on the side of the road and watching the endless traffic.
#While holding your breath and sinking at the bottom of the swimming pool.
#couplesmakinglove.
#When facing a table of delicious food.
#While looking around from the steep mountaintop.
#When the car is speeding on the highway and people are in the car.
#When encountering insurmountable difficulties...
In fact, we can also find the death instinct that they once had in the performances of some historical figures we know. For example, King Gou Jian of Yue suffered from daring while lying on the firewood. People throughout the ages always like to understand and praise his behavior from an inspirational perspective.
.In fact, it is not the case. From a psychological point of view, he is an act of torturing himself. By torturing himself in that way, he transfers the "destructive energy" deep in his heart, thus strengthening his inner self.
desire for revenge.
There is also Han Xin when the Chu and Han Dynasties were fighting for supremacy. The story of Han Xin being humiliated under the crotch has always been praised by the world as a person who endures humiliation and has lofty ideals, but I still think that is not the case. From a psychological point of view, he still reflects it
It is the death instinct deep in his heart, which is one of the ways of self-destruction.
You know, at that time Han Xin was in such a down and out state that he had trouble even eating. When the butcher asked him to crawl under his crotch, he could have run away, but he didn't. Instead, he really ran away from the butcher.
He got under his crotch. Why? He hoped to torture himself and ruin himself in that way, so as to stimulate his inner desire to become famous and successful. In fact, Sister Feng appeared a few years later.
Isn’t this the case for people like this?
From this, I can analyze the deep-seated psychological reasons why Mu Jiao had such thoughts, and I completely believe that my analysis is correct. However, this makes me deeply worried. Because I know that once a person appears,
After having such a self-destructive death instinct, it is very likely that there will be more terrible consequences in the future, and that terrible consequence is revenge, which is almost cruel and inhumane revenge.
Gou Jian, the king of Yue, later launched a war against the state of Wu. Of course, it was Fu Chai who failed in the end. He lost because of his pride and arrogance. But what about Gou Jian, who became the hegemon after that? He was proud and tyrannical, and was defeated by his dictatorship.
He mercilessly killed Wenzhong who shared the same hardships with him, and Fan Li could only leave behind the words "You can share the hardships with us, but you can't share the joys" before running away in panic. Later, Gou Jian became the overlord, and later, he and his friends worked hard and endured hardships.
The story will last forever. But no one cares about Gou Jian's cruelty anymore, and no one analyzes that the root cause of his cruelty is the result of his self-destruction under the death instinct. Everything is just out of place.
History is like this, the winner is the king and the loser is the bandit. This kind of thing is still happening again in our reality today.
There is also Han Xin. People all know that Han Xin is a military genius, and they all think that he died unjustly in the end, but few people know that he once had a story of "asking for directions and cutting down the woodcutter"——
When Han Xin fled from the Chu State to join Liu Bang, he killed the reporting officer and five sergeants. He thought: If the local government knew that I had killed the officers and soldiers, they would definitely chase me from this road. So he turned around the mountain pass and walked out of the remote village.
Take the road to the southwest.
It didn't take long for him to arrive at a place where he saw mountains on both sides, with only a small road in the middle. The mountain stream was gurgling, the waves were sound, and the bank was cut off by a foot, which was very dangerous. Han Xin could not gallop here, so he had to rein in his horse.
He was walking slowly, but he didn't know how to get to Chencang Ferry. While hesitating, he saw a woodcutter coming round the hillside. Han Xin stepped forward and asked: Woodcutter, which way can go to Chencang? That woodcutter
Putting down the load of firewood, he pointed to the mountain road with his finger: This way, we bypassed this hill, but it was a small pine forest; after passing this forest, there was a rocky beach below, and there was a stone bridge. After crossing the bridge, it was Emei Ridge...
After passing Hanxi, we reached Nanzheng. The general was not allowed to travel at night for fear of big insects. The woodcutter told him the mountain path, and Han Xin took out the geographical map and checked them one by one. He found that everything was correct, so he thanked the woodcutter and rode on.
The husband then picked up a load of firewood and was about to go down the hillside, but Han Xin secretly thought: If the pursuers know that I have killed the sergeant, they will definitely come from this road. If they get to this fork in the road, if they meet this woodcutter, tell him
He came from here on a small road, and my horse was tired, so I was caught by him. If I had killed the woodcutter, if the army and horses came, I would have only driven on the plank road, and I would never have known that there was such a way. Han Xin returned.
When the horse came, he called to the woodcutter. The woodcutter thought that she was going to ask about the route again, so he turned back and was waiting to ask, but Xin grabbed her hair and killed her with a sword. Then he dragged her to the valley and used earth to kill her.
Its buried...
Also, after Han Xin made great achievements, he actually blackmailed Liu Bang into making him king, so his murder was not entirely unjust.
His crazy behavior is difficult for later generations to understand. In fact, it is also the result of the fermentation of the death instinct.
Therefore, at this moment, I am particularly worried about Mu Jiao and her future. I suddenly feel conflicted: If I don't agree to her conditions, she will definitely take revenge on me in the future, because I didn't give her help when she thought she needed it most.
Help her. But what if I agree? She will also take revenge on me in the future, because I made her lose her first time.
Now I regret it very much: How could I have messed with her? (To be continued)