I understand what she meant by what she said just now. In fact, what she said was her loneliness. Because I also have a deep understanding of this. I am also afraid of being alone at night, not just on one day, but often.
sexual.
During the day, we live hypocritically with false masks in front of everyone, but only when night comes, can we take off the masks to reveal our true selves and let our souls travel freely. So, I also like the night because
It's full of temptation.
I believe that every time night comes, there will be many souls like me that will start wandering in the night desires.
Yes, I like night, because night is real.
At night, I can truly face and examine myself, and feel the impermanence of life without any pretense, whether it is pain or joy. At night, I can let my tears fall like a downpour, and then enjoy the rain.
The freshness after the clear sky; at night, I am the most real baby in its arms, without any trace of artificiality or falsehood.
I like the night because it clarifies beauty and blurs evil; I like the night because it is my truest friend. Because whenever I enter the dark night, I can let my desires spread.
After leaving the shop, she took me towards the front. Just now we seemed to have so many things to say, but now we have become silent.
She was only half a step away from me. I noticed that her steps seemed to be staggering. So I finally found a word to ask her, "Xia Lan, are you okay?"
She stopped, then turned around, "Feng Xiao, help me, I'm a little drunk. I parked the car in the parking lot not far in front, you can help me drive in a while."
I went over to support her, and the moment my hands reached her body, I felt her body go limp.
My mood suddenly became excited, but there was also a kind of panic, because I didn't know whether she was really drunk at this moment or whether she was deliberately teasing me in this way.
My mouth suddenly felt dry, but I still remembered to ask her: "Xia Lan, are you okay?"
She turned sideways and looked up at me, "Feng Xiao, what are you afraid of? I am a woman too..."
I understood immediately, so I hugged her body tightly, and then walked forward gently with her.
Soon we arrived at the parking lot. This parking lot was actually an open space that had just been demolished. Because it was flat and empty, it was temporarily used as a parking lot. The key thing is that no one charged.
She really knows how to find a place, well, she must often come here for late night snacks or drinking alone. I thought to myself.
It turns out that the community she lives in is inside the third ring road. It is already past midnight and the community is quiet. She has a card on her car. When she enters the community, she swipes the card and enters quietly. I
I don’t think anyone will know that I drove her car back for her today.
I don’t know why, but I immediately felt like I was going home, because my car was the same model as hers, and every time I drove home, I wanted to swipe my card to enter like this. When I stretched out my hand,
It was about the same height as the credit card machine, and the scenery ahead under the car lights in front of me was also lush and lush.
This is a high-end community, which can be seen from the greenery under the car lights.
Her house is a garden house, on the top of a five-story building, with double floors. It is decorated in European style and looks very luxurious and elegant. There is a white piano in the living room, which is very beautiful.
The piano used for performances, placed in that place, adds to the luxurious and cultural atmosphere.
All the furniture in her house is European style, with white and red tones as the main colors. It looks elegant but also reveals a kind of enthusiasm. However, when I was in such a strange environment, I suddenly felt a little uncomfortable.
I got up because I suddenly felt a sense of inferiority rising in my heart.
"Sit down. I'm going to take a shower. You can watch TV." She said to me with a smile. At this moment, I was surprised to find that she didn't seem drunk at all.
Seeing my surprise, she smiled brightly at me, and then her figure disappeared before my eyes.
The heating in her house is always on, which makes me feel very warm.
I went to turn on the TV, but found that there was no picture. Then I found something like a DVD under the TV. I thought it was probably that she was watching a certain movie before coming out today. I was very curious:
Maybe it's the work she just finished.
Then he pressed the switch.
The TV picture came out, but I was immediately stunned because I found that the picture in front of me was the kind of movie that Japanese men love to watch!
Japan has a long history in this regard, and their shooting techniques have gradually moved towards excellence. The picture, sound and other aspects are definitely not comparable to those shoddy films from Hong Kong and Taiwan.
I stared at the screen dumbfounded, and saw a wretched middle-aged man kneeling in front of a beautiful woman. He kissed the woman gently, from top to bottom, head to toe...
After a while, the beautiful woman's body was revealed in front of my eyes.
At this moment, I suddenly felt difficulty breathing and my mouth was dry.
And the scene continues: the wretched man spreads the woman's legs...
"Does it look good?" When I was looking at it with fascination and fascination, I suddenly heard Xia Lan's intoxicating voice coming from behind me.
I turned around suddenly, and at this moment I was as nervous as a child who had just done something bad. However, when I turned around, I suddenly froze, because I saw -
Xia Lan was leaning on a separate sofa not far from me. She was wearing a red bathrobe, her face was red, and even the skin of her neck was in a pinkish color.
At this moment, an unspeakable sense of pride suddenly surged into my heart.
It was already noon when I woke up. This is one of the rare times when I am still asleep at the time I must wake up every day.
But at this moment, I didn't realize she was beside me.
After I got up and got dressed, when I carefully looked at the luxury of her bedroom, I suddenly felt like a dream. I couldn't help but ask myself: Is all this real?
When I went to the living room downstairs, I saw her in pajamas busy, but there was already a charcoal copper pot on the dining table, and the inside of the copper pot was rolling.
She saw me and asked me with a smile: "Are you awake? Are you hungry?"
But I still can't believe this is reality, because she is so dignified and beautiful in front of me, she is exactly like the beautiful star on the screen.
I don’t know why, but at this moment I suddenly said something that even I couldn’t think of, “Xia Lan, I was drunk last night, I’m sorry...”
She walked towards me and hugged me, "Feng Xiao, what's wrong with you?"
Her hug to me made me feel her real presence, so I said: "Xia Lan, I feel like I am dreaming."
Her hands came to my neck, and then she hugged my neck. She was looking at me, with a smile on her face, "Feng Xiao, I want to discuss something with you. Is that okay?"
Her smile infected me, and I said to her softly: "Just tell me."
She looked at me with her beautiful eyes, "Feng Xiao, you might as well move in with me while you're in Beijing. Is that okay?"
I was startled for a moment, and then slowly started to shake my head. I said: "I'm sorry, I have a lot of things to do recently, and I may have to move to the Beijing Office of Jiangnan Province today because of my affairs.
They need to come forward.”
Her eyes immediately turned into disappointment. But she still looked at me, "Feng Xiao, do you mean that we will become strangers after today?"
I shook my head and said: "Xia Lan, I really have something to do. What happened last night... In fact, we are both impulsive. We are all adults, right? And we are both very lonely people. We will be friends from now on.
Okay, okay?"
Her expression was very sad. She shook her head and said: "It seems that I am still a failure. You men are like this. You no longer cherish it when you get it."
I hurriedly said: "Don't think so. Xia Lan, we don't know each other very well after all. And you and I are both people who have had unfortunate marriages. We must be more cautious when it comes to emotional issues."
Isn't it? To be honest, there is more than one woman in my life, and I believe that you will never be more than a man like me after divorce. But I am by no means a bad man, and I also believe that you are not a bad woman either.
In fact, in the final analysis, we are all very normal people. Of course, I think these are not important. I think the most important thing is that we must be more careful to cultivate our next relationship. So, no matter what happens between us in the future
To what extent, no matter whether we become strangers or not, we can be friends now. Do you think it’s okay?”
In fact, she was just a dream in my heart. Now I regret it, because we have something substantial, so I feel that my beautiful dream has been destroyed. Women in the eyes of men are like this.
After getting it, I often feel disappointed, especially her in my heart. You know, she was the dream goddess in my heart.
But I really have no intention of running away after the incident. Last night, our love reached its peak, and I still find it unforgettable at this moment.
However, from what she just said, I felt that she had another meaning. It seemed that she had already had other thoughts about me that went beyond physical relations. So what I told her was the truth and what was in my heart.
The most authentic thoughts. In front of women, when it comes to emotional issues, I think I should treat them sincerely and have the courage to face them head-on. (To be continued)