"Okay." I said, then clinked glasses with her and drank.
"Feng Xiao, what I'm most worried about now is Chen Yuan." She said quietly next.
Of course I knew what she was worried about, but she said, "Zhuang Qing, don't worry about her. Now she has a job she likes. You saw it today, she is very happy."
"
She shook her head, "Yes, I saw it. I saw that she liked her current job very much, but I also saw her crying later."
I suddenly felt sad.
"How are you going to treat her?" she continued to ask me.
I suddenly felt uncomfortable, shook my head and said, "I don't know."
"You'd better get a divorce. Your wife doesn't know how many years she will stay in jail. Aren't you very sorry for Chen Yuan?" she said.
"No, I won't divorce her. Zhuang Qing, you don't know how I feel in my heart. I feel very guilty about my wife and feel that she is too unfortunate, so I can't make her more unfortunate. Zhuang Qing, I do
Not even." I shook my head.
"What about Chen Yuan? Don't you feel guilty about her? Do you think she is just as unfortunate?" she continued to ask.
I waved my hand to her, "Zhuang Qing, please stop talking. I beg you, please stop talking."
"Didn't you say it today? There are some things you can't avoid. In this case, you should make a choice." She said.
"Zhuang Qing, please stop talking. Let me ask you, if you were me, what would you choose?" I said, feeling a little headache.
"You are a man, and I am not you." She said, and then added: "Feng Xiao, do you know what your biggest problem is? It is hesitation, and it is indecisive many times. I have already told you,
Judging from your current situation, the best option is to divorce your wife."
I shook my head, "Impossible."
"There is another way, that is to ask Chen Yuan to abort the child, and then you will never see each other again," she said.
"She doesn't want to." I sighed.
"Are you willing?" She laughed suddenly, "Feng Xiao, don't I know you? Which of you men is not the same? Which one of you doesn't want to have your own children? You are right, you really can't do it now Choice, but you have to make a choice in the future, right? The child has not been born yet, do you hope that your own child will not have a father in the future? There is a saying that long-term pain is worse than short-term pain. Feng Xiao, please show what you have done Can you let your manly spirit come out?"
I didn't speak. I filled myself with wine and drank it alone. "Stop talking. I want to sleep."
She didn't stop me, "Just run away. I hope you don't keep running away like this."
Lying on the bed, my mind was filled with the shadow of Zhao Menglei. I found that her image in my heart when I was in middle school was far away, and her image in my mind was so blurry. And our first time many years later
When we met, I went to her house for the first time, the day we got married, every time she saw my smiling face when I came home, everything about the night before she surrendered, etc., etc., were so vivid in her mind.
No, I can't abandon her at this time. Never! I said to myself firmly.
But Chen Yuan...I felt pain in my heart because I suddenly thought of the way she cried when I left her today.
Alas! I found myself sighing.
I don't know when Zhuang Qing came in, because she got directly into my bed. "Feng Xiao..." She called me in a low voice.
I didn't answer her because I felt very sad.
"Are you angry with me? I'm sorry, I drank wine today and got a little excited. But I'm really thinking about you." She said, and then she came and snuggled into my arms.
"I know." I said, "But, I really don't know what to do now. One thing I have already decided is that I will never divorce Zhao Menglei. But, Chen Yuan... I feel very ashamed of her.
, but I can't find any way to deal with this matter properly. I think maybe waiting, maybe time can help me solve this problem. Zhuang Qing, and you, I can't really let you go, unless you don't want me
Already."
"Feng Xiao, actually there is something I really want to say to you tonight." She whispered in my ear, "Feng Xiao, have you ever thought about it? I will leave you sooner or later. Because I want to
I want to be independent because I don’t want to make things more difficult for you.”
When we were drinking together, she said she didn't want to make things more difficult for me, but I didn't expect that what she really meant was to leave me. Now, she said it, but my heart felt like a hammer.
An even greater uncomfortable feeling suddenly hit me. I knew, I knew what she meant just now, but I just didn't want to believe it. At that time, I was still escaping.
But now, I can no longer escape, "Zhuang Qing, as long as you think which life is better, I will not stop you." I said, although this was something I said against my will, but it came from my heart, because
I can't be selfish anymore.
"Feng Xiao, you can move back in tomorrow. We can't live together anymore. As I said just now, long-term pain is worse than short-term pain. Since this day will come, I think it's better to make a decision earlier. Do you think so?" she said, and then kissed me on the cheek.
"Okay." I said, feeling sour in my heart, and suddenly I had the urge to cry. Not long ago, I took the initiative to move back home. At that time, I didn't feel any discomfort, but now I just
I found that when this day actually came, I was so unbearable.
"Feng Xiao, I just thought that maybe you would be more sober when you are alone, so that you can make better decisions about your own affairs as soon as possible. Do you think so?" Her lips came to her earlobe.
above.
"Yeah. Stop talking. I understand." I still felt uncomfortable, and I no longer felt excited about her lips.
"That's fine for you. I'm worried that you won't be able to bear it." She said, and then she crawled towards me, "Feng Xiao, let's have a good time tonight. You promised me to let me come on top of you.
"
"Zhuang Qing, I'm not in the mood to do that right now." I said. I was telling the truth, because I was in pain right now and had no such interest at all.
"No. After today, I don't know when we will be together next time. Maybe it will never be like this again. Feng Xiao, let's have a farewell ceremony." She said, and then came to untie my clothes.
I struggled a few times and said, "No, I'm really not in the mood. Besides, I probably won't be able to get up."
"Don't move, I'm here. Today I want to be a man for once." She said, then chuckled, her hands had already unbuttoned all the buttons of my pajamas, and were now moving to the waistband of my pants.
I sighed in my heart and didn't move, letting her toss me around.
She had already taken off my clothes and pants, but I still felt that I had no reaction at all. She was looking at my crotch and laughing, "Feng Xiao, why did you become gluten? How about I turn off the light?
You can think of me as any woman."
"Zhuang Qing, I'm really not in the mood. Can you stop making trouble?" I said.
"No. The more you say this, the less I will turn off the light. By the way, I don't allow you to fantasize about other women. Today is probably the last time for both of us, and I have to let you remember me." She was petite.
Endless.
I couldn't help but sigh, "Then come on."
She was still looking at my crotch and chuckled, "You are so soft, how can you get in there?"
I was immediately amused by her, "Just press it in."
She laughed, "It would be better to put a piece of ham in it."
I didn't know whether to laugh or cry, "Zhuang Qing, you look like this, there is no trace of innocence left."
"Feng Xiao, are you still thinking about that female star? Didn't I tell you that you are not allowed to think about it?" She glared at me, and then she crawled on my chest and touched me with her hands.
"Feng Xiao, what I just told you is true. I used to have a female classmate, a female classmate in the nursing class, who would stuff a piece of ham inside her every day during class. Later we found out
But she told us that it was very comfortable and would not cause drowsiness in class. Hee hee! Interesting, right? Okay, okay, you finally got up, I don’t need to use my mouth to get it up. Huh? Why are you soft again?
?”
When she was talking about the ham sausage just now, I did have a slight reaction, but I don't know why, but I fell silent again after a moment.
"You can't tell a story?" She was laughing. "The main reason is that you didn't take a shower today, and your lower body is too dirty. Otherwise, I would really use my mouth to get it up on you."
"You bad thing." I couldn't help laughing anymore, "Zhuang Qing, why do you women think that the mouth is more important than the bottom? If my place is dirty, you won't be afraid of the bottom?"
"My mouth wants to eat. It's disgusting." She said with a smile, but her hands kept touching my top, "Huh? Why are you still not responding?"
I also felt that I was very strange today, "Zhuang Qing, give me your calves. I want to kiss them."
Her calves were really beautiful. I held them in my hands and stroked them gently. Soon, I felt that part of myself began to react. "Huh? She's really up. Don't move.
Wait for me to come up."
.I felt like I was suddenly enveloped and enveloped by her body temperature.
"Feng Xiao, do you have the feeling of shifting into gear?"
A wonderful feeling is hitting my whole body, and the cells in my body are starting to get excited, "Now, oh, now you are obviously in gear..."
"I'm helping you put it into gear." She laughed, and then she squatted more frequently. I suddenly felt that my body was light and airy, and my soul had already drifted to the clouds... (To be continued)