I found that I really like this kind of tranquility.
Suddenly I heard Shang Longxing's chuckle coming to my ears. I immediately returned to reality from this peaceful comfort, and immediately turned sideways and asked her: "Director Shang, what are you laughing at?"
She said: "I think it's funny when I think about what happened tonight."
I couldn't help but smile bitterly and said, "Are you still laughing? The old director has been embarrassed for a long time. I feel very embarrassed too."
She came to look at me and said, "Director Feng, tell me the truth, have you ever pursued this girl?"
I hurriedly said: "No, absolutely not!"
She was still looking at me, "Then, why does she treat you like that?"
I immediately sighed, "Didn't I tell you? One of her good friends was my father-in-law's little lover, and now that girl is dead. Maybe the old director's niece hates rich people because of this. I
He is Lin Yi's son-in-law, so of course she has no good impression of me."
Shang Longxing said: "Oh."
Then she stopped talking, and soon we reached the side of the road, and she said to me: "Director Feng, I took a taxi back by myself. You should go home early too."
I nodded to her. In fact, now I really want to walk alone on this street, because my mind became confused again after her question just now. Besides, the air tonight is so good, on such a night
Walking alone inside is also a rare enjoyment.
Shanglongxing immediately hailed a taxi. Before getting in, she smiled and said to me: "Director Feng, even you think what happened tonight is a coincidence, right? Hehe! Maybe this is it."
Fate?"
I smiled bitterly and said, "Stop joking."
But she was still smiling, "Director Feng, I will go talk to this little girl when I have time."
I was suddenly shocked, "Don't..."
But she had already got in the car and left. I suddenly felt uneasy, and then smiled bitterly: Maybe she was joking with me. But it didn't matter, even if she really went to find Chenchen to talk, it would only be like that, at most.
Just to prevent her from being as disgusted with me as she is now.
I walked alone on the street for more than an hour. Later, I felt my legs were a little sore, so I took a taxi home. One thing I was a little surprised about: Kangdemao didn't call me, or even send me a text message.
I almost called or texted him several times while I was walking, but in the end I resisted the urge. I know Kang Demao’s character. Under current circumstances, if I took the initiative to talk to him
If I contact me, he will most likely say some unpleasant things to me. It's not that he hates evil and has clear grudges, but that he is narrow-minded, and he doesn't look down on me at all in his heart.
I didn't understand this view of him until not long ago.
Kang Demao grew up in a poor family, but he was very smart and ambitious. He had excellent grades since middle school. He was admitted to university through his own ability, and later was admitted to the graduate school of Renmin University. This shows that in his heart
Always understand one thing: this is a world dominated by power and wealth. A child born into a wealthy family can easily get what he wants, but for him, this is the only way to change his destiny.
However, his heart is fragile and humble. Many things in a person's life are related to our childhood life, including our character and attitude towards things, etc. The same is true for Kang Demao. He can never get rid of his family situation when he was young.
The inferiority complex brought about by poverty makes him more ambitious and arrogant. This is a contradictory inner world. Although such an inner world can give him endless motivation, it also makes him more ambitious and arrogant.
The desire for success in my heart was too urgent, so I inevitably made such a mistake.
I will understand that he looks down on me in his heart.
When I was in middle school, my academic performance was not as good as his. Later, he worked in the Organization Department of the Provincial Party Committee, and I was just a junior doctor. Now I still often think: If Lin Yu and I didn't have that kind of relationship, what would Kang Demao be like?
Will you come to me?
I feel that Kang Demao probably knows what kind of relationship I have with Lin Yu. Perhaps this is the fundamental reason why he looks down on me from the bottom of his heart. But he has to use me because he knows that I am his
The only person available at the time.
Of course, I think there are reasons why he looks down on me. For example, he has doubted my relationship with Ding Xiang more than once, and he can't help but show his arrogance and indifference towards me after becoming Governor Huang's secretary.
Also, his indifferent attitude towards me after that incident happened to him, all of which seem to have explained this problem.
However, I feel that I still cannot truly understand him, maybe because I have never truly entered his world.
I slept very soundly that night, maybe because of the short walk I took today, because that short walk gave me a moment of peace in my heart. Also, I was no longer in my own heart.
Waiting for a call from Kang Demao, because I seem to have been particularly disappointed with him.
Yes, I have become very disappointed with him. In his current situation, maybe the only one who can help him is me. Maybe I can't change his current situation much in a short period of time, but
I believe that as long as I am given a certain amount of time, I will definitely find an opportunity for him to convince Governor Huang.
It must be that Kang Demao hated me in his heart, so he gave up such an opportunity. Yes, that should be the case. At this moment, I seemed to understand: Maybe Kang Demao had already despaired in his heart and was content to be his deputy.
Director. Or maybe, in his heart, he regarded it as a shame to ask me for help.
Unless I take the initiative to find him. Yes, maybe that's it: he is waiting for me to take the initiative to find him, because in his heart he always thinks that I am sorry for him.
There is indeed a type of people in this world who always feel that they are right and others are the ones who are sorry for them. Such people actually have a high self-esteem and are often very selfish.
I think Kang Demao has more or less such a problem. In the final analysis, it is actually a sign of inferiority, because such people do not have the courage to admit their mistakes, nor do they have the courage to change themselves.
In fact, sometimes I am like this myself. For example, after Shangguanqin’s incident, I used her fault to defend myself at first, and it was not until later that I began to truly face myself. So, deep in my heart
I have always hated myself, even despised myself. Sometimes I think that maybe this is the root of why I sometimes give up on myself.
Since Kang Demao has no intention of coming to me, can I take the initiative to find him? Of course not, unless I am a bitch.
When a person has figured something out, his heart will be at peace and he will have fewer worries. Because of this, I slept so sweetly that night.
Two days later in the morning I received a call from Secretary He, "Director Feng, Governor He is on the phone with you, please wait."
This is a leader. He even needs his secretary to dial the phone for him. I smiled bitterly in my heart.
However, I could only hold the phone to my ear and wait. After a while, Governor He's voice came over the phone, "Xiao Feng, I have already communicated with the comrades of the Provincial Education Commission about your team's affairs.
, I also called Director Lin from the Organization Department of the Provincial Committee, and Director Shang’s transfer order will be issued today. Next, the Provincial Education Committee Organization Office will talk to the three comrades promoted this time."
I said: "Thank you Governor He, your arrangements are so thoughtful."
She laughed "haha", "I also hope that your team will be in place as soon as possible. I am still waiting for your reports."
In fact, I didn't put off those reports because of the team, but because I was still hesitating, and in my heart I was still trying to find some better ways to solve certain problems.
I said: "We will study those issues as soon as possible, don't worry."
She then said to me again: "I'm not calling you to talk about this matter, it's about another matter."
I hurriedly said: "You tell me."
She said: "Minister Dou is coming to Jiangnan recently. Although the provincial government is hosting this matter, you must participate. Therefore, I asked Secretary He to come as soon as possible to discuss the details of the reception with you, and then submit it to the provincial government office.
Office. Xiao Feng, you had a good communication with Minister Dou during your visit to Beijing this time, so you should pay more attention to the reception. He is not only the leader of the Ministry of Education, but also the head of recruitment. This person
We must receive it well."
I was a little surprised, because the national enrollment work conference will be held in our Jiangnan Province soon. Minister Dou should come at that time? I asked: "Governor He, the main purpose of Minister Dou coming to Jiangnan this time is
What?"
She said: "Work research. Let's do this. Xiao He will come and discuss this matter with you in detail."
She immediately hung up the phone.
Work research? I couldn’t help but smile bitterly.
In my mind, the so-called leader's research is actually synonymous with leaving work and going for leisure. At this time, I really can't figure out why Minister Dou came to our Jiangnan Province for research at such a time. (Unfinished)