Her eyes suddenly softened, and so did her voice, "Director Feng, to be honest, I really hope you will treat me as your friend. If that is the case, then I can say what I say below."
I was stunned for a moment, "Actually, I have already regarded you as my friend, because you have always been so supportive of my work, even unprincipled support. So, in my heart
I've always been very grateful to you, and of course I treat you as a friend."
She immediately became happy, "Really? That's great."
I smiled at her and said, "Can you tell me what you want to say now?"
She immediately said: "Director Feng, have you ever thought about it? What kind of things are worthy of our most cherished things?"
I looked at her in astonishment, "What do you mean? I don't understand."
She didn't look at me, but looked out the window, "Director Feng, what I just said may not be completely correct. After all, I am a woman, different from you men. I think, the most cherishable thing in life is
It’s something you like and strive for at the same time. Whether it’s fame, fortune or marriage, it’s all about this. Don’t you think so?”
I suddenly felt very uncomfortable. I seemed to understand what she meant: it seemed that what she was saying was that everything I got now was donated by others.
I couldn't help but think: Aren't you the same?
But I just said lightly: "Director Shang, in today's system, who can say that everything they have is their own hard work?"
She immediately turned back to look at me, and I noticed that her face was already flushed. She sighed: "Director Feng, you misunderstood what I said. It seems that you still don't regard me as a friend."
I looked at her, "Really? Maybe I'm too stupid and I really didn't understand what you meant."
She said: "My point is just one. As a man, I think you should take the initiative to pursue the woman you like, rather than relying on other people's introduction, and don't expect women to take the initiative. Because only what you get after working hard to pursue it will
Let you truly cherish it. Director Feng, my words can only go so far. No matter whether you regard me as a friend or not, in my heart, you are already my friend. Otherwise, I will not treat you
You are the one who said this. Director Feng, good medicine tastes bitter but good advice offends the ears. I hope you don’t blame me."
Her words shook my heart suddenly, and I completely understood what she meant. I looked at her and said to her sincerely: "Director Shang, thank you."
Immediately, I got up and left her office.
After returning to my office, I couldn't calm down for a long time, because what Shang Longxing said just now really shocked my heart deeply.
Shanglongxing is so right!
I have always passively accepted everything, including my current position. In my more than thirty years of life, I have had so many women, but now that I think about it, which one should I pursue by myself?
What did you get later?
No! Not one!
It is precisely because of this that I do not cherish every woman in my life.
At this moment, Zhao Menglei, Chen Yuan, Sun Lulu, Shangguanqin...all my women who have left this world suddenly appeared in my mind.
In my mind. At this moment, I suddenly wanted to cry.
Because, I found that I was wrong, I found that everything I had ever experienced was wrong, and my life seemed to be meaningless.
But, can everything about me really be changed? Can I really pursue what I like?
I found myself shaking my head uncontrollably.
I don’t know how long it took, but I found that the shocking feeling in my heart had disappeared unconsciously, and what replaced that shocking feeling was sadness: It’s impossible, I can’t do that. Now
I no longer have the confidence and capital to pursue it.
In fact, I know myself. I know that I have the same inferiority complex as Kang Demao. So, I finally chose to be numb.
However, I did not blame Shang Longxing for this. On the contrary, I was grateful to her in my heart. Because I knew that it took courage for her to say those words in front of me, and she needed to bear the courage that I might misunderstand her.
Is what the old director said right? Can she really become a confidante in my life?
Some people say that a confidante is a female friend who is spiritually independent, spiritually equal and capable of profound resonance with oneself. To be more precise, a confidante is a wandering listener and soul reader of a man, but only
It may be a communication on a spiritual level. Once love or sex occurs, the relationship will disintegrate.
If I can really have that kind of relationship with her, this is the greatest blessing God has given me. Thinking of this, I can't help but be fascinated. Because I know that among the men in this world, there is really a confidante.
Very little.
I thought about it for a long time, and suddenly felt that I was very funny. Because I suddenly woke up: the so-called confidante is just a legend. Feng Xiao, I didn’t expect you to have such extravagant hopes that you would have such a blessing.
How can you be so virtuous and capable?
No one knows the shock that Shang Longxing’s words brought to me, and no one knows the turmoil in my heart at this time. No one knows that in this short period of time, I have already experienced what I have experienced in my heart.
It is a process from shock to numbness, and finally to feeling inferior again.
I am still the same person, and I have not changed because of what Shang Longxing said. Because I cannot change myself.
Sighing inwardly, I picked up the phone on my desk and said, "Director Liang, please come to my office."
When I hung up the phone, I realized that my voice sounded so hoarse and old.
He came very quickly. After entering my office, he looked at me in surprise and asked, "Director Feng, are you sick? I heard something was wrong in your voice just now."
I smiled and asked him to sit down, "Director Liang, I came to you today to have a good talk with you."
"Yeah." He said, and then sat upright.
I looked at him and said, "Director Liang, the first thing I want to tell you is that your promotion to deputy director of provincial recruitment has basically been approved."
"Really? Thank you so much, Director Feng." He was immediately overjoyed.
But I was shaking my head, "Director Liang, the purpose of my coming to you today is not to tell you about this matter. It's not up to me to announce this matter to you, because it is a matter for the Provincial Education Commission's Organizational Office."
He immediately became calm and said, "Director Feng, then..."
I looked at him and said, "Director Liang, someone reported to me that you often accept property from candidates' parents?"
His face turned red all of a sudden, "Who said that? Director Feng, there is someone behind this!"
I ignored his excitement and still looked at him straightly, "Director Liang, I just want to ask you, is there such a thing? Of course, you don't have to tell me the truth. But you should believe it,
I still have the ability to prevent you from becoming the deputy director."
He suddenly stopped talking. I knew that a fierce inner battle was going on in his heart at this moment.
I sighed softly and then said: "Director Liang, you should know why I told you about your upcoming promotion in the first place? Because I just want to hear you tell the truth, not to care about your past.
.To be more precise, I don’t want you to make bigger mistakes in the future, because you will have more power in the future, and I don’t want your promotion this time to pave the way for you to go to prison in the future. You understand.
What do I mean?"
He slowly raised his head, a trace of panic flashing in his eyes... (To be continued)