Of course I wouldn't believe that Lin Yu called me just for dinner. I guess she must have something to tell me.
To be on the safe side, I didn’t bring a driver with me, so I went directly to Xiao Sui, took the key, and drove to the restaurant by myself. I didn’t have the slightest need to make such a show in front of Lin Yu, and it wasn’t a big deal to bring a driver with me.
convenient.
In my impression, Lin Yu never had a driver when we were together.
The place to eat is not far from the Organization Department of the Provincial Party Committee and is a Western restaurant.
After I entered, I found a beautiful white performance-style piano on the right side of the entrance of the western restaurant, and a girl with long hair shawl was playing a piece of music.
I heard this piece of music when I was in college. At that time, this piece of music was mainly used for guitar playing by students. The name of this piece of music is "For Alice"
I think this song sounds better when played on the piano.
I stopped immediately and couldn't help but listen to the beautiful sounds floating in the air. The notes from the piano were like the sound of nature, and every note made my heart ripple and tremble.
The rhythm is sometimes fast and sometimes slow, the notes are constantly changing, and my mood is also changing from joy to sorrow, and from sorrow to joy, along with the melody.
The music at first was very peaceful, and it seemed to make me feel how beautiful everything in the world was. There was laughter all around, and moving pictures flashed before my eyes. It also seemed that I felt very warm, covered with flying gauze, welcoming
Facing the soft sunshine, my hands are flying, and the spring breeze blows slightly from my fingertips...
Under the blue sky, I seemed to be floating...I was intoxicated, and I suddenly felt vaguely the composer's mood at this time.
I once read in a book that Beethoven composed this piece of music as a gift to her beloved, Therese Malfati, who was his student. Maybe Beethoven was composing this piece.
For a while, there was Therese Malfati's figure in front of him. He forgot everything and was intoxicated in the days with her. Maybe this is love, how beautiful everything is when thinking of the person you love...
...
The tune changed, it seemed to make everything clearer, and I seemed to have increased my courage. Listening to its melody, I felt like a brave man. In an instant, an excitement emerged deep in my heart...
...
After a series of rapid transitions, the tune returned to the beginning, and everything became extremely gentle. I immediately felt a sense of satisfaction, and I was immediately intoxicated...
Suddenly, the tune took a turn. Such notes made me feel confused. I felt like a small boat, rising and falling alone with the wind and waves. Suddenly, there were strong winds around me, lightning and thunder, and the wind became more and more...
The waves were getting higher and higher, and the huge waves kept hitting the side of my boat. Just when I was about to be swallowed by the waves, the tune changed again. After a series of transitions, the tune returned to the first verse. Suddenly, I felt like I was surrounded by
The dark clouds gradually dissipated, the sea began to become calm, the breeze blew, caressing the sea and causing ripples, and the boat I drove slowly flew towards the blue world. Perhaps Beethoven was at this time
His mood was solemn, and he was lost in thought. He struggled whether to tell her that he loved her deeply. He thought about it for a long time, a lot, about the age gap between them, and perhaps many other aspects.
He meditated while struggling. He got a truth, love is not possession, and loving someone should make her happy... So, he did not tell her, but just loved her silently in his heart...
.Perhaps this is the great love in the world.
I was intoxicated, really intoxicated. An intoxicating, poetic and picturesque scene suddenly appeared in my mind - accompanied by soft music, clouds were floating in the sky. The beautiful girl by the pond looked away from the tree.
, Her affectionate eyes are like a clear lake, watching the flying clouds, feeling the cycle of time. Her intoxicating smile, her dancing slender waist. The longing in the clouds, sinking in the lonely dusk. Thoughts sprouting in the sky, hallucinations
Stepping on the fallen leaves, she walked gently, gently into my heart. She...her affectionate eyes have melted me...
Tears filled my eyes immediately because the girl who appeared in my mind was her, my former wife.
Suddenly I felt someone tugging on my sleeve. When I looked sideways, I found that it was Lin Yu. She was looking at me with a puzzled smile, "What's wrong with you?"
I smiled sheepishly and quickly took out my handkerchief to wipe my tears, "This piano is played so well."
She smiled and said, "Why are you so sad? Come on, I've already ordered the food."
I immediately went with her to a corner of the hall and sat down. It was a small dining table with only two cups of steaming coffee and knives and forks placed on the table.
"I ordered steak and some other dishes. This place is very good to eat. Although it may not suit your taste, it is very quiet." She stirred the coffee elegantly with a small spoon and spoke softly to her.
I said.
I looked at her and said, "Sister, do you have something to tell me today?"
She shook her head, "It's nothing. I don't know what happened, but this morning I suddenly remembered the situation when we first met. Time flies so fast."
I immediately laughed in my heart, because I also immediately remembered that the first time she and I met was in the ward. She came to see Yu Min who was in hospital at the time. At that time, I was still a person who didn’t understand society.
There are very few little doctors who act ignorantly. So I sighed and said: "Yes. It's really fast."
She smiled at me and said, "I remember the first time we had dinner together was in a Western restaurant, right?"
My heart suddenly felt warm, "Yes. There is also a piano there. The girl who played the piano later became my wife. She is the long-lost daughter of Lin Yi's wife."
Her eyes also softened, "So, where were you lost just now? Because you thought of your wife?"
I shook my head slightly, "Yes. But what I suddenly thought of was my two wives who are no longer in this world. Sister, when I was listening to that piece of music there just now, I suddenly felt that a person's life seems to be a lifetime.
It’s like a dream. Now, I don’t dare to think about many things in detail. The more I think about it, the more emptiness I feel.”
She looked at me in astonishment, "Feng Xiao, what do you mean? Why can't I understand you?"
I also said gloomily: "Sister, I don't know why, but recently I always like to think wildly. Sometimes I wonder: Why are we in this world? Do we really exist?
? Is everything I sit and experience now real? Is it just a dream? When I woke up, I realized that it was all a dream, and I was already too old.
Lying in bed unable to move. If that happens, wouldn't my life be even less interesting? Haha! Sister, you think I'm ridiculous too, don't you? But I just can't help but think like this."
Her expression suddenly became serious, "Feng Xiao, have you been stimulated by anything recently?"
I shook my head, "No. Sister, really not."
She looked at me with concern, "Feng Xiao, maybe you are too tired. I think you should take some time off."
I nodded, "Yes. I'm also going to take a long vacation after finishing my recent work. I want to go to Tibet again, or somewhere abroad."
She nodded, "I understand. It may be that you are not used to many things in the officialdom, so you are under a lot of pressure."
I shook my head, "I'm not under any pressure, I just feel helpless. I want to do a lot of things well, I really want to do everything according to my own intentions, and I really want to be able to achieve the goal I originally envisioned. But now
I discovered that many things are not like that at all. I feel like I have been sucked into a huge whirlpool and I can’t help myself.”
She sighed softly: "I know. Feng Xiao, now I realize that I may have been wrong at the time. Maybe I shouldn't have let you come out of college. Maybe you are most comfortable with the kind of relative relationship in college."
Simple environment. After all, you are still a person with simple thoughts, a person who has illusions about everything. Hey! But Feng Xiao, now that you have come out, if you are asked to go back to the past, you will
It’s even more unaccustomed. Because you have seen the most real side of the world, and then if you are asked to live a fairy tale life, it may be a more painful thing.”
I immediately thought in my mind: Yes, if I were to go back to college to work now, I might not be used to it. I nodded and said, "Yes."
She said: "In a person's life, our work and our personality should be the same. When we were young, we were naive and naive, then in youth we were enthusiastic, in middle age we were steady and resourceful, but in old age we were dull
We need to be quiet, and our character will become like children who like to show their true selves. Of course, at that time, it was actually a state of returning to nature. The same goes for our work. When we first started working, we were full of fantasy.
, and ambitious, and then when we have a certain status, we start to be keen on fighting, because we also hope that our career can go further. Before retirement, we lose sight of it, and then we will feel that this life is just a passing cloud.
So Feng Xiao, you can’t go back now, because you are still so young. If you are allowed to live such a leisurely life at this time, you will
I will definitely feel unwilling and always feel that I can do more meaningful things. In fact, this is the case for each of us. Generations of people are repeating this cycle. This is because we simply cannot control ourselves.
Desire. Those who are monks, or those who really want to go to the Peach Blossom Spring, actually do not really see through it, but they are disappointed because of failure. Feng Xiao, you are now on the rise of your career, so
You simply can't let yourself relax and live a stable life. You can do it for a short time, but it is only a temporary adjustment. So, I think you should go out for a walk and adjust your current state of mind."
Her words made me suddenly understand what the whirlpool I felt was, and I said: "Sister, you said it so well. I seem to understand, in fact, everything is caused by my own unwillingness. A lot of it is caused by my own unwillingness.
Sometimes I know clearly that I can't do that, but I can only go on step by step. This is certainly related to the general trend of reality, but it is more because of my own desire. If I don't have such unwillingness, I won't resign directly.
It’s over? But who can do it? In the final analysis, it’s because we ourselves can’t bear to give up.”
She smiled and said: "That's right. That's what I mean. But why should we give up? We have finally struggled to reach this position, why should we give up? You think so? So, don't worry about this.
Nothing in the world is truly nothing, I am me, and the you I see is the real you, and only real dreams are illusory, as long as what our bodies perceive is a kind of reality, although this kind of reality
You may deceive yourself at any time, but at least what you see and touch is real at the moment. Feng Xiao, am I right?" (To be continued)