But the silence didn't last long. After a few seconds, I heard him continue to say: "Xiao Feng, thank you. If it weren't for you, I would no longer be in this world."
I hurriedly said: "Director Leng, what are you talking about? What does this matter have to do with me? I just heard that you were sick yesterday, but I have been with Director Dou these two days and I really can't spare the time.
Look at you. Director Leng, please don’t blame me."
In fact, I had already thought of a countermeasure before I came here: I must send him a signal, that is, let him know that I will never tell this matter.
He looked at me and said, "Xiao Feng, you are very smart. There are fewer and fewer young people like you now. I understand what you just said. Of course I believe you. You did a great job that night."
Okay, I thank you from the bottom of my heart. If it hadn't been for you, I would have been ruined even if I didn't die."
I hurriedly said: "Director Leng, don't say that. If other people encountered such a thing, they would do the same thing."
He shook his head, "You are so kind. Maybe other people are hoping that something will happen to me. Xiao Feng, let's not talk about this matter. This matter is really hard for me to talk about and makes me feel ashamed. Oh! It's all.
Blame me for not being self-disciplined..."
When he spoke like this, I immediately didn’t know what to say anymore, because I couldn’t persuade him on such a topic, and it didn’t feel right if I didn’t, so the only way was to remain silent.
I was silent when I heard him suddenly come to me and ask: "Xiao Feng, why don't you speak?"
I couldn't help but smile bitterly, "Director Leng, I don't know what you are talking about."
He came to look at me, his eyes sharp, but then turned soft, "Xiao Feng, I know what you are thinking. You are right to do this. Okay, I will tell you directly. Today I call you
There are two things I want to do here: First, please take more care of Ruan Jie when she arrives at your unit. She can't have anything happen to her. If something happens to her, I will be ruined. Second, I hope you don't tell this matter.
Anyone, especially Minister Lin from the Organization Department of the Provincial Party Committee."
Only then did I fully understand the truest purpose of why he called me here today: it turned out that he was actually worried about this matter. After what happened that night, I dealt with it in that way, which made him no longer worry about me.
He would talk about this matter casually, but he knew about my relationship with Lin Yu, so this was something that made him feel uneasy. After all, his position was managed by the Organization Department of the Provincial Party Committee.
But I find it difficult to promise him this, because I always tell the truth in front of Lin Yu, and there is also the matter of Ruan Jie. How can I guarantee that nothing will happen to her? Who knows that she is in the Provincial Education Committee?
Have you ever done anything illegal in the office? Who am I to guarantee this?
But it was impossible for me to refuse his two requests in front of him. I thought about it and said: "Director Leng, you should know that I will not talk casually. Think about it,
What good will it do me if I tell the story? You are the director of the Education Committee, I can't replace you, right? Even if something happens to you, it won't be my turn to sit in your position, right? After all, I am still very young
, her qualifications are not enough. There is also the matter of Ruan Jie. Now that she has come to our unit, isn’t our unit also your subordinate unit? As long as she abides by the law, how can anything happen? Director Leng, you should be more careful with me.
You know, I don’t like to bully others. Under normal circumstances, I won’t do things that harm others and benefit myself, unless she puts me in danger. Director Leng, don’t you think so?”
He nodded, "I believe what you said. What you said is very true. Well, Xiao Feng, I know you are very busy these days. You should go back and rest early. Thank you for coming to see me and buying something for me."
Here comes the fruit.”
Only then did I notice that a nurse had come in. She was here to give him an injection. No wonder Director Leng suddenly said such serious words.
I said, "Okay. Director Leng, you should also take a good rest. You need to recover slowly from your illness, especially get a good rest."
After I left his ward, I couldn't help but think: What's going on with me? Why do I always encounter such inexplicable things? I obviously don't want to get involved in such things, but I happen to encounter them every time.
arrive.
Now, I have to think about this problem.
I can only give one explanation: perhaps the circle around me is itself a group of people prone to those things. Most of the people in this circle are filthy, so it is not surprising that I often encounter such things.
It should be like this. The officialdom itself is a filthy place. The people here are full of greater desires than ordinary people, and the ravines of their desires are more difficult to fill. And the most important thing is that they hold the power, so they
Will be more unscrupulous.
I have always had a good impression of Director Leng. I always felt that as a scholar-type official, he should be different from other officials. At least he would not do such a thing, but now it seems that I was wrong. But at the same time, I also thought
Said: Feng Xiao, aren't you considered half a scholar-type official yourself? Aren't you the same as him? If you compare yourself with him, you are just as shameless and obscene in some things.
Why is this happening? Why can't I restrain my desires? I asked myself. Then I answered: Because I am a human being and I have emotions and desires. And because I have the advantage of making those mistakes, and no one is supervising me.
.
Yes, this is the root of the problem.
In the final analysis, it is still the same sentence: a kind of power without supervision is terrible, and the only one who suffers in the end is yourself. However, you cannot restrain your inner desires at all. This is a vicious cycle. People in official circles
Most people find it difficult to escape from this vicious cycle.
Hey! I couldn't help but sigh. Because I knew that the only way to solve this problem was to leave officialdom and leave the temptation of power.
But I can't do it, and I don't think anyone else can.
Now, I think the only way for me is to do more good deeds and do more good deeds, and try not to make financial mistakes. Maybe this can reduce some risks for myself.
Suddenly, I seemed to understand why so many officials believed in Buddhism. In fact, when officials went to temples to burn incense and pray to God, they were not doing it to stimulate their inner compassion, but mostly because they were afraid of doing evil things and wanted to seek blessings.
The blessing of a kind of supernatural power can find sustenance and a home for my dirty, fearful heart.
I went directly back to the hotel. Although today's reception task was relatively easy, I felt deeply tired at the moment, not physically, but mentally.
Entering the hotel lobby, and preparing to go to the elevator, I suddenly saw Ruan Jie at the reception desk in the lobby, talking to a middle-aged man.
Ruan Jie also saw me, and she called me immediately. I walked towards them, Ruan Jie introduced the middle-aged man to me, and then I realized that he was also one of our guests this time.
I chatted with the vice-principal for a few words, and then told Ruan Jie to make arrangements for him. I also asked the vice-principal if he had had dinner. The vice-principal said that he had something to eat on the plane, but now there are some
hungry.
I thought that all the guests who came here tonight might have this problem, and I also thought that it would be better to make this event more lively and casual. So I said to Ruan Jie: "In this case, you ask all the participants
If any of the university leaders at the meeting want to go out for a drink or a late-night snack, we will meet here in half an hour. By the way, Ruan Jie, please arrange the car. Also, ask Director Ke and the old director
"
Ruan Jie agreed repeatedly, and the vice-principal kept thanking her.
Half an hour later, when I came down from upstairs, I found that most of the guests were here. I was very happy, and immediately asked everyone to take the car to the food stall by the river.
The old director didn't come, but Director Ke did. Now I also find my shortcomings in my previous work - in fact, I am still a little tired of him in my heart, so I often don't give him tasks to do, and I have to wait for dinner.
I rarely call him. Now I know that he is actually very willing to do things.
Ultimately, the reason why he had opinions about me before was because I didn't pay enough attention to him. To put it more seriously, I didn't respect him enough.
The relationship between people is sometimes very strange. We may meet some people every day but remain strangers to each other all our lives, while there are some people who will become friends immediately even though it is the first time we meet. These are our guests today.
We were all a little reserved with each other at the beginning, but after I suggested having a few drinks, we quickly became familiar with each other. The reason for this is that on the one hand, everyone is from the university, or has something to do with the university.
People with connections, so they have a common language with each other. In addition, there is a more important factor, that is, these people are leaders. There is always some reason for a person to sit in such a position. Relationship is one aspect, at least
They should also have the ability, not to mention that these people have seen a lot of the world, so it is not difficult to break their reserve, and these people all have extraordinary communication skills, because everyone is a person who mixes in the scene. Therefore, it is not difficult to break the reserve.
After a while, our atmosphere became heated.
Leaders of colleges and universities also drink, and they may drink more boldly. However, leaders of colleges and universities are senior intellectuals after all, so they will not shout or punch like some people in society.
In short, the effect of the late-night snack I arranged was very good, at least it quickly brought us closer to each of our guests. However, I insisted on not talking about the symposium on such an occasion.
Specific matters, because this matter is tomorrow's task.
We drank until midnight, and then the group returned to the hotel happily and contentedly.
After returning to the room, I first took a shower and turned on the TV when I came out. I didn't want to go to bed right away because I had to completely empty out the beer, otherwise I would definitely have a lot of dreams at night. I got up again and again to go to the toilet.
It would be strange if you don’t have many dreams. (To be continued)