"Sister..." I turned off the hair dryer and called her softly.
She didn't understand what was going on, "What's wrong?"
"Sister, you have gray hair." I said to her softly.
She shook her head and said: "Old man, this is the law of nature. Please help me pull it out."
I immediately put the hair dryer on the ground to one side, and then gently pulled out the few white hairs scattered in her black hair. At the same time, I heard her sigh softly and said: "Hey! This person is always old
It's so quick to get up. Now I often think of when I was in college. I was pretty pretty at that time. At that time, I had red lips and white teeth, and I was young and beautiful. Recently, I think of myself at that time as if it was yesterday. Time
Time flies so fast. The past twenty years have passed in the blink of an eye. Not long ago, one of my middle school classmates came to find me. At that time, this classmate of mine was the most handsome boy in our class, but
When I saw him this time, I almost couldn't recognize him. His back was stooped and his head was bald. He looked like an old man in his sixties. Originally, I rarely helped my classmates solve job problems.
But when I saw his appearance, I immediately felt soft... Hey! Man, sometimes it’s really boring when I think about it.”
I immediately regretted that I would not have told her about her gray hair if I had known it earlier. But now, it actually aroused her emotion and directly hinted at the fact that she was old.
An important sign of a person's psychological aging is that he likes to recall the past. This is what she is like now.
I hurriedly said: "Sister, you actually look very young, and you are not very old. How many people of your age have reached the level you are now? So, I think you are not good at all.
There’s no need to be so sad.”
She shook her head and said: "What sister said is true. This is also a natural law. In fact, it is not a big deal. People are born, old, sick and die. From birth to old age and then leaving this world, this in itself is a very big thing.
It’s a normal thing. If I am still as young as I am now when I am eighty years old, wouldn’t I become a goblin? Feng Xiao, the same will happen to you in the future. You may be uglier than my classmate when you are old. Haha
!”
I didn't expect her mood to change so easily, from being depressed to being so open-minded all of a sudden. But I was still very happy, "Sister, you're right. We just need to live in the present moment."
She smiled and said, "I agree with what you said. Feng Xiao, have you finished pulling it out? After you finish pulling it out, continue to blow dry my hair to prevent me from catching a cold."
I hurriedly said: "After pulling it out, there are only a few small ones. I think it may be that you have been too busy recently, or it was caused by overuse of your brain."
She kept chuckling, "You are so good at talking and pleasing women. Keep going."
After more than ten minutes, I dried her hair. She shook her head slightly and said, "Well, not bad, very comfortable. Feng Xiao, you can definitely become an excellent hair drying master. You are gentle and patient."
Okay. Sister specially offered praise."
I immediately laughed and said, "Sister, it's not easy to get your praise."
She immediately said: "Sister is tired, let's go to the bed and lie down and talk. Turn off the light, and then carry my sister to the bed."
I did as she asked, and soon we were lying on the air bed together. She was in my arms, and I felt that her body was very relaxed.
I was about to ask her about that thing, but I heard her whispering in my arms: "Some people say that people only do three things in their lives: their own things, other people's things, and God's things. Because there are many of us.
People tend to forget their own affairs, care about other people's affairs, and worry about God's affairs. But people in Buddhism say: People only do two things in their lives: eat when they are hungry, and sleep when they are sleepy. I think it makes sense, because
, it is indeed not easy for a person to eat well and sleep sweetly throughout his life. There is a story about Taiwanese freelance writer Lin Qingxuan who was in great pain because of a broken love when he was young, and his meals did not taste good every time.
Sleeping is not sweet. The Zen master told him: People need to practice. Lin Qingxuan asked: How to practice? The Zen master said: Eat when you are hungry, and sleep when you are sleepy. Lin Qingxuan asked: Do you have to practice while eating and sleeping? The Zen master said: It is also eating.
, it’s the same as sleeping, but with different results. When ordinary people eat, they look left and right, think about this and that, care about everything, and think about everything; when sleeping, they dream upside down, dreaming about this and that, with thousands of thoughts. For practitioners, eating is just like sleeping.
Eat, sleep, just sleep, there is no other thought. Lin Qingxuan asked puzzledly: But how can we achieve "eat when hungry and sleep when tired"? The Zen master said: You can't change your appearance, but you can show your smile.
You can't control the weather, but you can change your mood. You can't predict tomorrow, but you can grasp today. You can't decide the length of life, but you can broaden its width. It's better to ask for yourself than to ask for others, and it's better to ask for yourself than to ask for your heart. Heart, should
It is a pool of clear water. When the heart water is clear, the mountains, rivers, flowers and trees reflected on the water will be beautiful. In that way, every day is a good day, every night is a clear night, everywhere is a blessed place, and the Dharma is a good Dharma, and there is nothing to worry about.
It confuses and pollutes us. Feng Xiao, listen, what this Zen master said is really good. But how can secular people like us do it?"
I hurriedly said: "Sister, what happened to you today? Why do I feel like something is wrong with you? You are not going to practice now, your career is at its peak."
She sighed and said: "It seems that I am really old. I don't know what happened recently. I know that it is not easy for me to struggle to this day, but I often feel that a sense of normalcy is more important than anything else."
I’m old, that’s why I’m so conflicted.”
It seems that she is probably telling the truth, but I think it is not good for her to be like this. I think this is probably related to the more complicated officialdom situation she faced after becoming the top leader. After all, the position of the Provincial Party Committee Organization Minister is
To deal with all aspects of relationship issues, the arrangements for the entire Jiangnan Province officials were in her hands. Although many key positions were not decided by her, she had to arrange and handle them herself.
It doesn't matter if a person is older, but it will be troublesome once the mentality is old, which will make people feel tired or even depressed.
…
She fell asleep immediately after the incident, and I didn't have the chance to ask her about it.
When I woke up the next day, I found that she had left at some point. Maybe I was too tired after going abroad this time, and I had sex with Zhong Feng too frequently, so that I fell into a deep sleep without knowing about her.
When to leave.
After I woke up, I still felt very tired, so I said to myself: Forget it, I won’t go to the office today. There’s nothing special to do anyway, so I might as well just stay here quietly for the whole day and take advantage of the opportunity.
Cultivate yourself.
In fact, this may happen to anyone: once their minds are tired, they will always find a reason for their tiredness that they think is reasonable. This time I went abroad for nearly half a month, and Zhong Feng and I indulged in the mountains and rivers every day, and spent every night
I had been so passionate and indulgent at night that I had completely forgotten about going to work. Even though my wife is back now, my heart is still in such a state of indulgence.
Once a person's spirit relaxes, the body becomes more tired. After turning over a few times, I fell into a sweet sleep again.
Later, I was woken up by a phone call from Chang Bailing, "Feng Xiao, what have you been busy with recently?"
I was very bored, but I tried my best to control the unpleasant emotions in my heart, "I've been very busy recently. I just went abroad and I just came back."
She said: "I heard that something big happened to your provincial education committee. Right?"
I thought to myself: This matter has been spread for a long time, don't you have nothing to say? I said: "I just found out about it."
She added: "I have nothing to do in the afternoon, let's go to the old place."
I immediately felt that she had a commanding tone, and I felt even more unhappy. I thought: Why? I will never beg you again. I said: "I'm sorry, I have something to do this afternoon."
I also heard it myself: my tone just now was a little cold, and I didn't say anything about the future.
But she got angry all of a sudden, "Oh! You are in trouble now."
I laughed angrily, "What's wrong with me? President Chang, since you already know that something like that just happened here at our Provincial Education Commission, shouldn't you exercise restraint on some things?"
She hung up the phone immediately.
I immediately regretted it, and immediately felt that something was wrong with my mood today. I knew why, because I missed the opportunity to ask Lin Yu about that matter last night.
But it was impossible for me to call her and apologize. I said to myself: This is fine, some things should have been settled long ago.
Lin Yu's place... forget it, it's useless to rush this matter anyway, not to mention I can always find an opportunity to ask her.
But this time it was better, sleep was suddenly driven away. (To be continued)