I was very happy for her, "Yes, the most important thing is that a person can do what he likes to do."
She raised her glass to me, "Come on. Drink. I know what you want to do with me. It's about Yu Min and the child, right?"
I nodded.
She sighed softly and said: "Yu Min has her own husband, so I think you'd better not disturb her and the child. This is the greatest favor you can do to her and the child. Yu Min's husband always thought that the child was
My own, that’s why I’m so kind to Yu Min and the child. Even if the child doesn’t know who his biological father is when he grows up, it won’t hurt him. Many things are like this, a person doesn’t know anything,
On the contrary, you will live a happier life. Isn’t that what the people of our country were like a few decades ago? At that time, everyone really believed that they lived in the best country in the world. In fact, people at that time felt that they were better than people today.
I'm much happier. That's the truth. What do you think?"
Although I thought what she said seemed reasonable, I still felt that something was not quite right. I said, "But..."
She glanced at me and said, "Feng Xiao, in fact, you are too selfish, because you only consider your own personal feelings, or you always analyze other people's possible feelings from your own perspective. But you
Have you ever thought about it? If you were Yu Min and you were your child, how would you think about this matter? Isn’t this a very simple truth? If you really want to be nice to them, it’s best not to
To interfere with their current lives. Unless they encounter difficulties that they cannot overcome in the future, then you can help them. In fact, Yu Min is really good to you. If it were me, I wouldn't bother to care about you, and I wouldn't tell your child.
This is your matter. Do you know? She did this entirely to consider your feelings, and to let you know that you still have a son in this world. Why don't you understand her thoughts? "
Her words suddenly woke me up, and I suddenly felt a shock in my heart.
What Tang Zi said is right. All I consider is just thinking about other people's feelings from my own personal perspective. That's it, I don't really look at the problem from the perspective of Tang Zi and the children.
Tang Zi was right to criticize me. In fact, I was selfish. Even if I summoned Tang Zi today and tried to ask her how to help Yu Min and her daughter, in the final analysis, it was for my own peace of mind.
At this moment, I truly realized that what Tang Zi said was right. Now, for me, not disturbing the lives of Yu Min, mother and son is the greatest help to them.
There was a brief silence between us because I was feeling guilty.
After a while, she suddenly asked me: "Feng Xiao, how many women have you slept with since you broke up with us?"
Her words came out of the blue, catching me off guard and making me feel extremely embarrassed.
I said awkwardly: "I'm a single man. It should be normal for me to date women, right?"
She pursed her lips and said: "Yes, you are a single man, and it is normal for you to date women. But is it normal for you to date multiple women at the same time? Now I am also a single woman. If I date multiple men at the same time,
What will others think of me?"
I was speechless for a moment, and then I said, "When I was with you three women, why didn't you talk about me then?"
I regretted this sentence as soon as I said it, because I suddenly realized that I had made the mistake that I should not make, which is the principle of never being serious with a woman at any time.
Well, women are very emotional when it comes to things like this. For example, the woman in front of me, why didn’t she criticize me like this at the beginning? It’s just because she’s not with me now, so she thinks I’m like this
That's just wrong.
However, I shouldn't defend myself against such a thing, and it would be useless to defend myself, because I can't find any excuse for it in terms of right and wrong.
However, my words had already been spoken, so I had to apologize to her immediately, "I'm sorry, Tang Zi. Let's not talk about such things today, okay? You know that since Chen Yuan left, I
I have no plans to get married anymore because I have long been discouraged. Of course, there are also my own moral problems... But Tang Zi, I really don’t want to talk about such things today. We have been together for a long time.
We are no longer together. Today we finally managed to sit down together to eat and talk. Why can’t we talk about something happy? "
She sighed softly and said: "Actually, how can I say such unpleasant things? I am worried about you. My own life was too chaotic before, and I actually came with a few sisters to do that to you...
...Now that I think about it, I feel very dissolute and shameless. I know in my heart that everything that happened to me later was actually retribution. Feng Xiao, do you know? I suddenly thought of this thing again just now, so
I am worried about you......"
I was very moved. Of course, I don’t believe in the theory of retribution, but judging from the laws of development of things, her words still make some sense. After all, if there are too many things like that, some unexpected consequences may occur.
Question. This is actually a cause and effect.
I looked at her and said to her softly: "Tang Zi, thank you for worrying about me, but there are some things that I don't want to say more about. I have said it before. The reason is of course my own character, because I
My self-control is too poor and I indulge myself too much. But besides that, there are other reasons. In short, there is one sentence: people cannot help themselves when they are in the world."
She raised her glass to me, "Oh, I understand. But I really hope to be a man in my next life. As long as I don't get married, there will be no problem with any number of women. Hehe! Feng Xiao, I actually envy you."
I was embarrassed again.
Although I knew she was joking with me, I was still embarrassed.
I hurriedly said: "Tang Zi, let's not talk about this, okay? I'm embarrassed by what you said."
She couldn't stop laughing immediately, "I didn't expect you, Feng Xiao, to be embarrassed sometimes."
I put down my chopsticks and looked at her, "Tang Zi, have you always thought I was cold and heartless?"
She was avoiding my gaze, "No."
I felt very uncomfortable because I didn’t expect that she would still look at me like this after I explained so much to her. I sighed and said, "Tang Zi, do whatever you want. I have always understood myself relatively well."
Yes, although I am very sentimental and dissolute in life, I have never been ruthless. I know why you think that, because I chose to escape after Liu Meng and your uncle had an incident. But Tang Zi, what do you want?
I thought, what else could I have done in that situation? What would I have done if it were you? Stand up and take on everything? But can I take it on? And you know, in
In all the things, I personally did not have any financial problems. On the contrary, I have been investing in you. Let’s not talk about this. Let’s talk about other situations at the time. Maybe you overestimated my energy and thought that I
Everything can be dealt with, right? But do you know? I was secretly double-regulated once, but I really didn’t have any problems. But it’s impossible to say that I don’t have any problems at all.
Yes, for example, I am dealing with women's issues. But such things cannot be exposed. After exposure, it will have a great impact on me, and it will also be bad for you. Do you think that is the case? "
She sighed and said, "Stop talking. Drink."
I also wished for this, "Okay, let's drink. Tangzi, do you drink a lot on weekdays?"
She nodded, "When I was at home alone, sometimes I would come here and drink alone. Feng Xiao, what do you think is wrong with this person? When I had no money before, I would think about it every day, what if there was someone else in the future?
How great would it be if I had a lot of money? I could buy nice clothes, buy high-end cosmetics, go for regular beauty treatments, travel all over the country and even abroad... But now, when I really
After having so much money, I don’t want to do anything anymore. Now I hope I can find a true relationship and live with a man I like for the rest of my life. It doesn’t matter how much money the other person has.”
I smiled and said, "People are like this. Once they get it, they feel it is no longer so important. And after getting it, they realize that what they really want is not such a thing. This is actually a kind of mentality of people.
"
But she shook her head, "No, I don't think that's the case. Although it is the mentality of many people to look forward to Shu, including myself, but I think what a person really pursues in his heart is actually very simple, and that is true love. Including you
Feng Xiao, although you have had many women, there are very few that can really touch your heart. It seems that you have not met one yet, otherwise why have you never gotten married?"
I immediately looked at her in surprise, because I found that she had changed, and the change was so great - now she seemed to have seen through her own life.
He also saw through me.
I have to admit that what she said is right, because although I am absurd and wanton in my private life, my heart has been pursuing the true love.
I can't restrain myself from pursuing something like that. Maybe it's because I haven't found the true love that I need in my heart so far, so I've been waiting.
But there is one person who is different, and that is Zhuang Qing.
The true love I need is not only what the other party can give me, but also what I need to do to her. (To be continued)