My father's tone was gentle and cautious, which made me feel guilty and pertinent after listening to it. In fact, I knew that this was one of my father's expectations and instructions for me. I choked and said, "Dad, don't worry. I will do it."
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My father looked at me with kind eyes, "Son, remember what my father said: Nothing is important in this life, what is important is peace and security. Although a smooth career is a sign of success, it is impossible for a person to
When you are an official for a lifetime, your family is the one you should truly cherish."
I choked and nodded. The child in my arms looked at me with his black eyes, seeming to be surprised as to why I was so sad.
At this time, my mother came out and handed a card to my father's hand.
The father held the card and said, "There are more than 300,000 yuan in this card, which is all the savings of your mother and I over the years. Yuanyuan is supported by you, so we don't have to worry about his education in the future. That's right.
This kid...hey! Let's give him this money. It can be regarded as our grandpa's and grandma's thoughts on this kid. My name is on the card, and the password is...Okay, you
Don’t let the child’s mother wait outside for too long, go ahead and return the child to others.”
As he spoke, he handed the card to the child's hand. The child's hand actually grasped the card tightly. Maybe he regarded it as some kind of toy.
I was about to go out with my child when I suddenly saw a round toy on the ground. I immediately picked it up and was about to hand it to the child in my arms. But then Yuanyuan found out and ran to me angrily.
Looking at me, "Dad, that's mine!"
I sighed in my heart and put the toy back on the ground.
After making the call, Chen Yuan told me that she was waiting for me at the gate outside the community. I held the child in one hand and drove to the outside of the community.
"This is the money given to him by the child's grandfather and grandmother. Although the money in it is not much, it is their life savings. This is also my parents' feelings for their children, so please accept it." I pointed to the money in the child's hand.
Ka said to Chen Yuan.
She looked at me and said, "Well, since it is given by the child's grandfather and grandmother, I have no right to refuse. I will save the money for the child."
Afterwards, I sent her and the child back.
When Yu Min hugged the child and left, I suddenly felt a sad feeling of "loss" in my heart.
Then I drove towards Kuzen Temple.
In my heart, although the abbot of Kuchan Temple once lied to me, I still feel that that temple is relatively better in our Jiangnan Province, at least it is not fully commercialized yet.
The abbot of Kuzen Temple looked very uncomfortable when he saw me. I felt apologetic to him, "Sorry, it was my fault last time. You are the abbot here, and it is understandable that you have to consider the development of the temple, so I should understand
You are."
He sighed and said, "I am a Buddhist, but I am greedy for worldly things. I am ashamed of myself. Amitabha!"
I said: "Although you are monks, you must first consider the issue of survival. Master Abbot, what happened last time was that I was wrong. Because it involved myself, I spoke indiscriminately and clashed with Master. Please also ask
Please forgive me."
He smiled slightly and said, "The donor is too polite. Tell me, why did the donor come today?"
It doesn't surprise me that he can guess that I came here with a request today. Because I apologized to him in such a low voice, I already expressed that I have a request for him. Although he was born in Buddhism, he has nothing to do with the world.
Your mentality may see things more clearly than ordinary people. Otherwise, how can you relieve the troubles of the world?
I hurriedly said: "Master Abbot, I came here for two things today. One is to apologize to you for what happened last time."
He smiled lightly, "That's not necessary."
If it were normal, I would probably be a little embarrassed, but today I really came here to ask for something from him, so I had to bite the bullet and continue, "Master Abbot, I have something very important to do today.
I would like to ask for something from you..."
Then I told him about my father's situation, and then put the bag containing 100,000 yuan in cash in front of him, "Master Abbot, this is my little incense money, please accept it. I don't have anything else."
What do you mean, I just want to fulfill my father’s wish and ask the abbot to fulfill it.”
He glanced at the bag, and then said calmly: "Donor, I'm sorry, this is not a hospital. Life and death are serious matters, and the poor monk dare not accept it."
I immediately became anxious, "Don't you believe in Buddhism that you want to save all sentient beings? My father's only wish now is to spend the rest of his life in a temple. I don't have any other high requirements. I just need a clean room every day.
One day, a monk recited sutras to my father, which brought him peace of mind, that's all."
But he was still shaking his head, "If everyone in the world had such a request, wouldn't our place become a sanatorium?"
I suddenly became secretly angry, but I tried my best to keep myself calm. I said: "Master Abbot, isn't what your Buddhism emphasizes about saving all sentient beings and transcending them to the Western Paradise? In the final analysis, this is just a sanatorium.
Ah? It’s a sanatorium where people’s souls can be purified. Master Abbot, do you think so?”
He was startled for a moment, and then recited the Buddha's name loudly, "Amitabha! Donor, you are right, the poor monk is narrow-minded. Since all the benefactor needs is a pure room, it is the duty of a monk to save the world.
It's our responsibility, so we'd better ask the donor to take this thing back. The money for incense donated by the donor before is enough."
I was overjoyed and said hurriedly: "Master Abbot, please don't say that. This time I am truly paying respect to the Buddha. So please accept my offer."
The abbot smiled slightly and said, "So the donor didn't really worship my Buddha before?"
I couldn't help but laugh, "Master Abbot, I always like to tell the truth."
The abbot laughed and said, "Amitabha! Since the donor is so sincere, the poor monk accepted it. I hope the donor's father can live in peace and tranquility in the small temple, and be guided by my Buddha to the Western Paradise. This is also considered an item of the small temple.
Great merit. Amitabha!"
I was immediately grateful and said, "Master Abbot, please ask someone to help me clean up the clean room. I will bring my father here in a few days."
He said to me: "Amitabha! Donor, please rest assured."
After returning home, I told my father that I had arranged the clean room in the temple. My father sighed and said, "That's great. Son, you should pay more attention to your mother in the future, especially in the period just after I left."
During the time, you should spend more time talking to your mother, or take her out for a walk."
I am most afraid that my father will talk about such a topic, because such a topic is too uncomfortable and sad, but I can also imagine how sad my mother will be in the future, "Well, don't worry."
My father sighed and said: "The most regretful thing in my life is that when party and government cadres were allowed to stay without pay, I did not make up my mind to go into business. I was too timid at the time, and I was always worried about my career.
I have fantasies. Alas! Now that I think about it, I was so stupid. In the final analysis, it was because I didn’t have that courage. Son, thank you for giving me that opportunity after I retired. If I could turn back time and start my life over again, I would
I would never do such a stupid thing that makes people regret..."
My father's words shocked me because I didn't expect that my father had ever had such a plan, and I didn't even expect that my father was already disappointed with his career. What shocked me was that I had always thought that my father was motivated by his faith.
I was holding on like that, but now it seems that I was wrong. The idea I had was too childish and ridiculous.
From this, I also understood where my mistake occurred: I had always over-emphasized the selflessness of my father’s generation in my mind. In fact, they were ordinary people like me.
This is the most common mistake that sons make. I also believe that many sons have the same understanding of their fathers as I do. This is actually the result of looking up to my father since childhood. (To be continued)