I still insisted on leaving. After returning home, I took a shower, and then fell asleep feeling extremely sleepy.
In fact, I hate myself very much, because I find that I am still dominated by desire. But now I am very contradictory, because on the one hand, I want to solve my problem of poor willpower in the face of desire through marriage, and on the other hand, I want to solve the problem of poor willpower in the face of desire through marriage.
On the one hand, I have to admit that marriage cannot solve this problem. Moreover, deep down in my heart, I really long for true love.
What is true love? I have a standard for this, which is four words: unforgettable.
So I couldn't help but think: Have I ever had such an unforgettable feeling in my more than thirty years of life? I immediately answered myself: Yes, there was only one time, and that was the feeling I had for Zhao Menglei when I was in middle school. Other than that
There is no more. No, there seems to be another time, that is the feeling I had for Tong Yao.
Chen Yuan... I really have never felt that way about her, or it's not to that extent. I feel more pity and love for her.
After waking up early the next morning, I forced myself to sleep for another two hours. This was the first time I didn't eat breakfast.
After I woke up again after nine o'clock in the morning, I never fell in love with the bed again because I thought about getting that report. The paternity test report of Lin Yi and Dong Jie.
My mother insisted that I have some breakfast, so I hurriedly drank a bowl of porridge and told her that Ruan Jie was coming for lunch.
My mother asked me: "What is the relationship between this person and you?"
I replied: "It's my former colleague. Now she is divorced and is raising the child alone. In the future, she may travel frequently and put the child in our home. It was me who took the initiative to propose it to her.
from."
My mother asked me again: "Is she beautiful?"
I immediately laughed, "Mom, let me tell you, it is absolutely impossible for me and her. Just remember this sentence, lest you say something that will embarrass everyone.
"
The mother sighed: "You..."
Then, I drove out.
In fact, everyone is like this at any time. Before the outcome of a matter comes out, they are always worried. The difference lies in whether a person can keep calm.
Although this is Lin Yi's matter, my heart is still full of anxiety and of course curiosity.
I was thinking about this in my mind along the way. Although I knew that any speculation at this time was meaningless, I couldn't help but still think about it. People are like this. It is more difficult to control one's thoughts than one's body.
However, when I took the test results in my hands, I suddenly felt calm and no longer felt anything, as if such a result should be normal and inevitable.
Dong Jie is indeed Lin Yi's daughter.
After getting in the car, he called Lin Yi, "Uncle Lin, I got it..."
His voice turned out to be very calm, "You can come to my office in an hour. I have something to do outside now."
Then he hung up the call on me. This made me feel uncomfortable because I wanted to let him know the result as soon as possible.
But there was no way, so I drove slowly on the city streets. I found that I had not paid attention to observe the changes in the city for a long time, and now I have such leisure. Still
Have a state of mind.
Then I discovered that our city had really changed a lot inadvertently. High-rise buildings suddenly appeared in many places, and the greening on both sides of the streets seemed to be better than before. The buildings were like
The music played by the pianist jumps and develops in romance, the floors are getting higher and higher, the colors have also changed from single to colorful, and from the original matchbox to each with its own characteristics, staggered up and down.
Green has become the color of the city. Large squares and parks are filled with green, and green is revealed in front of and behind the houses.
The changes in cities reflect the changes of the times and reflect the progress of people's ideas. Of course, people's ideas are also changing at the same time, becoming more and more keen, more advanced, and more and more realistic.
Looking at the changes in the city outside the car window, I suddenly felt a sense of shame in my heart, because I found that the fundamental reason why I had not paid serious attention to this city for a long time was more because I did not care about my home. If I could
If you take more time to play with your children, you will definitely not feel like you do now, and you will no longer be surprised and fresh by the changes in the city.
But then I thought about the more and more complicated tasks I would face next, and I couldn't help but smile bitterly.
In fact, I also know that the most important thing about spending time with my family is an attitude. As long as you have an attitude, time can be squeezed out at any time. But I always make excuses for myself on such things.
When I arrived at Jiangnan Group, I found that it had not taken me an hour, so I parked the car in the parking lot and went to the company's gate to wait.
When a person's position changes, his mood will change accordingly. At this moment, I feel very uncomfortable in my heart, because as the executive deputy mayor, I can still only wait here obediently for Lin Yi like this.
’s arrival. And today I didn’t come to him to do something. On the contrary, I was doing something for him. I thought: A situation like mine is unique at least in our Jiangnan Province.
But then I comforted myself in my heart: Lin Yi is your father-in-law after all, so what do you have to do by waiting for him?
When I thought about it, I immediately felt much more comfortable.
People are like this, and many times it’s their mentality that is at fault.
It took about half an hour for Lin Yi to arrive. This half hour of waiting made me very uncomfortable, but I couldn't call him because I felt there was no need to rush him.
When he saw me waiting here, he immediately asked me in surprise: "Why don't you go up first? Did I tell the people in the office?"
I laughed and said, "I thought it was the weekend and I thought there was no one upstairs."
He shook his head and said: "Anyway, you are now the executive deputy mayor. How shameful is it for others to see you standing here? It's my fault too, but I hope you won't do this again in the future. You have an identity.
People should maintain their own style at all times."
I understand what he said.
Most of the time, putting on airs is to save face. To put it bluntly, it is just a vanity to maintain identity and status. Officials put on airs because they think they are in a high position: sitting on the stage during meetings, cheering before going out, and having someone support them in the rain.
Umbrellas, people are waiting for them in the office, and putting on airs consciously or unintentionally is to remind others that "I am the leader"; elders put on airs because they feel that they are well-informed: they like to talk about old people when things happen, and often mention their courage in the past, and use their age to suppress them.
A person's airs can cover up his untimely embarrassment; a rich man's airs are to show off his wealth: money can make ghosts grind, fine clothes and fine food can be luxurious, an empty belly doesn't matter, money can make you look good, and you can swagger through the market with your outfit, and drive.
A luxury car drives wildly.
When people have some kind of capital, such as power, experience, title, and wealth, empty shelves will be quietly put up to support their face and show their status.
In addition, officialdom has official rules, and officialdom has no choice but to do so. When you are an official, you have official affiliations, and you have to put on official airs. It is not that officials themselves have to put on airs, but the rules stipulate that they must be like this. When a meeting is held, those who sit on the rostrum
They are all people with status and status, most of whom are officials. The people sitting in the front row of the rostrum are qualified to give instructions, have the responsibility to give instructions, and must give instructions. Leader A said it, leader B said it, leader C said it
Supplement, Leader Ding will add... Even if it is a celebration, commendation meeting, or press conference, the real protagonist often just passes by in disguise, and all qualified leaders cannot be missing. There is no need for a certain leader to be left behind.
If you talk on the wheel, you will be in big trouble. (To be continued)