On that day, a deputy governor in charge of transportation came to our city to inspect the work. The leaders of the four major families in Shangjiang City went to the highway intersection to greet them. The motorcade to greet the leaders set off from the municipal party committee. At that time, we had all gathered outside the municipal party committee in advance.
, waiting for Secretary Chen to arrive and set off together.
When Secretary Chen arrived, everyone greeted him respectfully, including me. He greeted everyone else with a smile, but when I greeted him, he completely turned a blind eye, as if I was like
It's like the air doesn't exist at all.
I was immediately embarrassed for a moment, and then I could only smile bitterly in my heart.
"Let's go." Secretary Chen waved his hand, and then everyone got into their own cars.
When we arrived at the highway intersection, the deputy mayor hadn't arrived yet, so everyone got off the car and chatted with each other. But most of the people were around Secretary Chen. I didn't want to make trouble, so I went there with Political Commissar Liu.
Talking.
When the deputy governor came, Secretary Chen stood at the front to greet him. The rest of the leaders stood behind him naturally according to their duties. Behind me was Minister Wu, who came and patted me on the shoulder.
Turning around to look at him, he was shaking his head at me.
His action has multiple meanings: apology? Sympathy? Wry smile? Maybe something else? But I can feel his inner thoughts, maybe everything. The meaning of his shaking his head is something that can only be understood but not understood.
Only the two of us can understand the various meanings contained in the words and actions.
When we hosted a banquet for the deputy governor that night, our leaders in Shangjiang City first had to toast the vice governor and his colleagues, and then went to toast Secretary Chen. This was the norm, and it was the same for receptions like this in the past.
Secretary Chen really likes everyone to toast him under such circumstances, because it can make the leaders above feel how high Secretary Chen's prestige is in the local area.
On this day, it was my turn to toast Secretary Chen. When I went to him with a wine glass and said, "Secretary Chen, I toast you." He didn't even turn around, and he didn't raise his glass. However,
He said, "Mayor Feng, you should toast the leader a few more glasses of wine. Why are you toasting me?"
You know, he drank the wine that other people in front of him proposed to him.
I didn’t expect that his temper would become so small, and he would embarrass me again in front of so many people, but I tried my best to endure it and said with a smile: "You are also a leader, I will respect you first, and then go
Governor Jingkang."
He said nothing more, then picked up the cup and drank it all in one gulp. I drank too, and then again went to pay homage to the leaders and his entourage who came inside one by one.
"Mayor Feng, let's find a place to sit." After the reception, Minister Wu came to me and said.
I nodded to him, then asked the driver to drive back, and then went to the city streets with Minister Wu. We didn't speak, just strolling quietly and slowly.
"Let's go inside." Suddenly, Minister Wu pointed to a place across the road and said to me. It was a teahouse, and it looked pretty good. Judging from the decoration outside, it should be the best in Shangjiang City.
One of the teahouses.
I nodded and went in with him.
We asked for a private room and a pot of Biluochun. After the waiter left, he said to me: "Mayor Feng, I'm sorry, you are so embarrassed because of me."
I shook my head and said: "I have already offended him, but what happened later made him hate me even more. It doesn't matter. But Minister Wu, I really don't understand why he has become so narrow-minded. Actually, he
Although doing this makes me a little embarrassed, it damages his own image in the eyes of everyone. He is the secretary of the municipal party committee, and he can’t get along with me, the deputy mayor, so why bother?”
He smiled bitterly and said: "Think about it, he is so self-aggrandizing now. If you do that, he will directly feel that his authority has been challenged by you. It would be strange if he is not angry. In fact, for a self-
For an inflated person, his words and deeds are completely self-centered. He only has his own feelings in his heart and never considers others. If you think about it this way, you will understand why he is like this."
I was silent for a moment.
In fact, I still can't understand why a person can become so egotistical when enveloped by the desire for power. Maybe it's because I'm not him, so I simply can't understand the changes in a person's heart.
We didn't sit in the teahouse for long, because I was still feeling a little depressed, and such a dull atmosphere made me even more depressed.
The next morning I received a call from Secretary Yang. He asked me: "What happened? Why does Lao Chen have such an attitude towards you?"
I smiled bitterly and said: "It's simple, because your last prediction really came true. I didn't promise his friend."
He couldn't help sighing, "So that's it. How did this old Chen become so unruly? Alas..."
I am silent.
He then added: "Brother, it's nothing. What else can he do to you besides giving you a look? But that's fine, there will probably be rumors that there is a conflict between you and him soon.
"
I smiled bitterly and said, "It's up to him. But I still want to talk to him."
He immediately laughed and said, "It's okay to talk. Actually, I know your character. It's only a matter of time before you go talk to him."
I immediately felt very uncomfortable, "Secretary Yang, you have predicted everything."
He smiled and said: "It's not that I expected it, but some things must happen. Cause and effect are twin brothers. Those causes have appeared long ago, and the results will only appear sooner or later. Do you think so?"
I couldn't help but smile bitterly, and then asked him, "Secretary Yang, if you become the secretary of a local municipal party committee in the future, will you be as self-aggrandizing as he is?"
He was silent for a moment, and then said: "It's hard to say. In fact, we are the ones who don't understand ourselves the most. Mayor Feng, do you think so?"
I deeply agree.
He is right. In fact, what a person knows best is himself, and what he knows least is himself. Many times, it is because he does not understand himself that he does not know how to make decisions. He knows what he is doing, but he does not know why he is doing it.
, I don’t know why I am doing this, so I have persistence and regret...
The most common situation in reality is that many times we can judge the pros and cons of life for others, but we cannot sort out the love, hate, and sorrow in our own life...
It is precisely because of this that there is a saying that "the authorities are obsessed with it".
After several days of hesitation, I finally decided to talk to Secretary Chen.
I didn't call his secretary like before, because I estimated that he would probably reject me if I did that. After the call was made, I said to him directly: "Secretary Chen, I want to talk to you and tell you some things.
Please explain. I hope you can give me a chance."
He said: "What are we talking about? You have done everything right. In your eyes, I am just a municipal party secretary who uses his power to seek personal gain for his friends. In this case, what else can we talk about? The conscience of heaven and earth,
Mayor Feng, I would like to ask you, have you never helped your friends?"
I was speechless. When I was about to ask him again to give me a chance to explain, he had already hung up the phone.
I didn't expect that he would refuse to have a heart-to-heart talk with me, and I immediately understood: his self-inflatedness had reached a level that even he couldn't control.
He closed the door of communication with me because he could not tolerate my challenge to his authority and my lack of face to him.
Maybe he thinks this in his heart: All the faults are mine. (To be continued)