I was stirring the coffee in the cup, and her words immediately made my hand tremble.
She immediately discovered this detail of mine, and then smiled lightly, and then said: "Mayor Feng, many people cannot accept people with our kind of work. In fact, this is understandable.
Secretary Rong told me about your situation, and I feel that I can accept everything about you. After all, you are so outstanding, and as women, we may value more a man’s moral character and professionalism. As for other things,
It doesn't matter anymore.
But I know that although you used to be a doctor, you have been out of that industry for a while, and my profession is indeed very special, and there are also many things in my character that others don’t like.
thing.
So, it’s okay if you think we’re not suitable for each other. Just treat us as if we met by chance today and had a casual chat.”
I didn't expect her words to be so direct, and her heart to be so calm. But I was thinking in my heart: It's definitely impossible for us, especially what moral issues she just mentioned. She doesn't understand me at all.
The real situation! If she knew everything about me, would she still feel indifferent? Impossible!
I said: "Xiao Min, you are right. I was thinking that we might not be suitable. After all, I have been married twice and I have children. A situation like this is unfair to you.
, not to mention you don’t know me at all.
To be honest, if Secretary Rong hadn’t insisted that I contact you, I wouldn’t have come to meet you today. After all, she did it out of concern for me. Xiao Min, I sometimes speak more directly, so don’t
I’m surprised.”
She said: "I know all about your situation, but I don't think any of it is important. I am a person who has faced life and death, and I have executed more than one or two prisoners on my hands. So I take many things into consideration.
Very bland.”
I shook my head and said, "Xiao Min, what I said and what you said are completely different.
For me, I have been disappointed with my marriage for a long time, and I have given up on this idea in my heart. I have experienced too many things, and you don’t understand many situations at all. I also talked about it after two marriages
I was in love, but my girlfriend still died unexpectedly.
So, I told myself from then on: I will never fall in love or even get married with a girl in this life. Xiao Min, I am very happy to meet you today. After all, we can sit here and drink coffee together.
It’s also a kind of fate. Don’t you think so?”
She nodded, "I understand. But I think you are too pessimistic. Mayor Feng, I think it doesn't matter whether the two of us can be together, but it's really inappropriate that you are so sad about your future marriage problems."
Yes. In fact, each of us has his own different destiny. The key to the problem is how you face it. Haha! Look at me, I actually said such things to you, the mayor. Mayor Feng, don’t
Blame me, I’m just speaking from my feelings.”
I shook my head and said: "Actually, you are right. But as you just said, each of us has our own destiny, so I think we should accept this destiny. And if we force it, in the end we can only
Causing harm to others.
Xiao Min, I am telling the truth, because I have forced it more than once, but what is the result? The result is that I hurt others again and again, even the people I like. Although some of those injuries are not my direct responsibility, but
I always feel that there is an invisible hand controlling my destiny, making it impossible for me to fight."
She was stunned immediately, then nodded slightly, and then sighed softly, "Mayor Feng, maybe you are right. What you just said suddenly reminded me of my first execution...
Really, maybe that is fate. Including the job I am doing now, this is also a kind of fate..."
Her words immediately aroused my interest. Moreover, she had already agreed with my point of view just now, which means that we can no longer consider the matter between two people. So I asked her: "Little
Min, can you tell me about the first time you executed a prisoner?"
She looked outside blankly, and then turned back after a while, using her white hands to elegantly stir the coffee in the cup... Then, she told me about her experience——
My job is actually to make the life of a person who has committed a capital crime disappear. To make the life disappear is just a polite way of saying it. According to the serious language of the court, it is to choose the method of execution by injection.
Naturally, the choice of injection method is to give the prisoner a dignified death. Human dignity requires not only excitement, but also sometimes silence, a simple scene with no one watching and no gunfire.
Of course, a simple scene is not simple. The court first had to spend a sum of money to buy an execution vehicle, and then spent a sum of money to push a few policewomen who only dared to shoot paper targets into a brave position. Before the execution, they had to
Send people to Beijing to purchase a special agent with strict standards. The chemical name of this agent is hydrogen chloride.
Before me, my two female companions had already performed a mission. They sent a man and a woman to a place where they would never come back on the same morning. They returned to the office after finishing their work that day, and their expressions seemed to be fine. I
Looking at them, I wanted to ask something in my heart, but I stopped talking. Since I didn't ask, they didn't say anything.
The three of us stayed in the office for a while and went to a small restaurant on the street to eat together. I saw them stuffing things into their mouths with chopsticks and spoons, eating until they were almost out of breath. At that time, I was a little bit
I was stunned, thinking how could the kind of errands on the torture car turn into manual labor?
Now it's my turn to take over the job. I know that the most appropriate way to deal with this first time is to stay calm. As required, I have to first collect the prisoner's basic information. This is a prisoner who has just graduated.
The name of the thirty-year-old young man is Ye Qiang. He has a university education and works as the head of the security section of a bank. Judging from the materials, this prisoner is usually quite simple. His performance in the unit is not bad, he has no bad records, and he bought a new one.
Suite, entering the preparation stage for the wedding.
The wrong starting point was when Ye Qiang's girlfriend attended a class reunion, which was a bit lively and lasted for two days in a hotel. As a result, under the influence of memories and alcohol, his girlfriend was called into the room by a male classmate.
Pushed down on the bed.
After returning from the class reunion, his girlfriend was in a daze for two days, and finally cried and told him what had happened. He was stunned for an hour or two, then took out the pistol from the safe in the warehouse and went to find the male classmate. The male classmate was not at home, so he
The parents received the visitors. But at this time, Ye Qiang was controlled by rage. Without saying a few words, he took out his pistol and shot the two old people opposite.
In the case file, I also saw a photo of the prisoner. He had a thin face, a high nose, a protruding chin, his mouth was pressed into a straight line, and his eyes were looking forward confusedly. If he hadn't shaved his head, he would have looked like a melancholy young man.
Already.
The execution was at nine o'clock in the morning, and I came to the execution car half an hour early to make preparations. First, I opened the small refrigerator, took out the medicine tubes, and checked them out. Then I started to check the execution bed and the syringe pump beside the bed, as well as the life monitor.
Then I adjusted the small microphone for the intercom and tried speaking a few words. After doing this, I thought about it and pressed the music switch. The music was a piece of music played by the guqin, slow and quiet.
I sat down on the stool with relief and silently looked at the execution bed next to me. At this time, the execution bed was covered with neat white sheets, like a warm bed in a business hotel waiting for new guests. I took a breath,
I raised my hand and touched the sheets, and found that my palms seemed a little wet.
At this time, the wall clock on the car wall pointed to 8:50. I got up and left the car, walked to the nearby studio and put on a medical white coat, then calmed down and waited. I knew that during the ten minutes of waiting, my teammates
They will lift the prisoner into the car and put him on the execution bed, and then tie him with a safety belt to prevent him from struggling. At the same time, several leaders will enter the monitoring room in the car and sit there to prepare to watch the performance in the execution room.
The command in the headset rang, and I responded and walked from the studio to the car. My steps were fast at first, and then slowed down. I slowed down because my mind was full of conjectures. I guessed that the car in front must have something inside.
Full of out-of-control emotions, at least the air was intense or shaking.
But the moment I stepped into the carriage, I realized that I was wrong. I encountered silence. Except for the faint guqin music in the air, there was no sound of heavy breathing. When the two teammates saw me coming, they exited quietly.
The carriage stood outside the door. (To be continued)