Bai Qing said: "There are so many dishes, but we still can't finish them all? Mayor Feng, please eat some too."
I shook my head and said, "I really can't eat anymore. You guys should eat slowly. If you can't finish it, you can pack it back."
Chenchen asked me: "Do you know how to pack on weekdays?"
I was startled for a moment, and then replied: "It depends on the situation. If the family is eating out, sometimes it will be. But there are not many such situations, because I often attend official receptions, and it is definitely inconvenient for me in such situations.
Packed. In fact, I think packing is not a shameful thing, but rather a virtue."
She asked me again: "Do you always drink? I heard that you officials drink almost every day."
I shook my head and said: "That is, it is an official reception that I must attend, or a gathering of friends. I don't like to have too much contact with my subordinates. Haha! For this, my leader even criticized me, saying
I'm a little bit out of touch with the masses."
Bai Qing said in surprise: "Mayor Feng, your leader is too low-level, isn't he? If he doesn't drink with his subordinates or eat with his subordinates, does that mean he is disconnected from the masses?"
I immediately thought she was cute and innocent, "You can't say that. This is indeed one of my shortcomings. Leaders should always mingle with their subordinates, especially drinking. Because within eight hours
At that time, those subordinates appeared in front of me with fear and fear, so it was impossible for them to tell me the true situation of some things. Only when they were drinking, they would feel that the leaders were also ordinary people, and they would feel a sense of closeness.
Only when they have feelings can they tell some of the situations they know. However, leaders cannot get too close to their subordinates. Only distance can produce majesty. Haha! This question cannot be explained in one or two sentences. In fact, when
Leadership is also difficult. Take Secretary Wu and the others when they were here just now. You may have seen that although the division chiefs occasionally joked with Secretary Wu at the wine table, but
But he always maintained the humility of being a subordinate. Secretary Wu also joked with them, but his words always showed the majesty of a leader."
Bai Qing smiled and said, "It seems that's true. Mayor Feng, I think you are very easy-going today."
I laughed "haha" and said: "I used to be the director of the Medical University, so Secretary Wu is my old leader, so of course I should respect him. I was also familiar with those director directors before, so of course I was casual with them.
Already."
She smiled and said: "But I think they also respect you."
I pointed to my head and said with a smile: "That's because I now wear the hat of a mayor. What they respect is my identity, not necessarily my person. If one day I am no longer the mayor, even
He’s not even the director anymore, so the situation would probably be different.”
Chenchen suddenly smiled and said, "You are a sensible person."
I said: "I'm thinking about it all the time. Your uncle once said something to me before. He told me that being an official is not a lifelong matter, but learning to be a talent is a lifelong matter. What he said makes sense.
It’s great, I will always remember it. He also told me that a person in a leadership position must be cautious at all times and walk on thin ice. Only in this way will there be no problems.”
Chenchen shook his head and said: "He is a person who has a lot of things in theory, but in fact he is still very confused. By the way, Mayor Feng, I haven't thanked you for what happened last time. I'll toast you with a glass of wine."
, can I ask the waiter to bring a bottle of wine?"
I hurriedly said: "No need. The old director is one of the people I respect the most, and that is what I should do."
Bai Qing asked us in surprise: "What are you talking about? Why can't I understand?"
I immediately waved my hand to her and said, "It's nothing. I used to be the director of the Provincial Admissions Office, and I invited Xiaochen's uncle back to be a consultant. That was because I asked him to help me, so to be precise, I should be the one thanking her uncle.
.”
Bai Qing smiled and said: "I understand, Uncle Li must have felt uncomfortable after retiring, so you invited him back, right?"
Chenchen glanced at me gratefully. In fact, I also knew that she just let it slip for a moment.
Later, Chenchen packed up the remaining dishes. She smiled and said to me: "I will go back to the Medical University in a while. They may be hungry. These dishes are enough for them."
Indeed, we had a lot of leftover dishes today, and several dishes were almost untouched.
After leaving this restaurant, when we walked to my car, Bai Qing said to me and Chenchen: "I will go back by myself. The direction I live in is different from yours. Mayor Feng, please see Chenchen off."
I asked her with concern: "You drank so much, are you okay?"
She smiled and said: "It's okay, this drink is nothing to me. Mayor Feng, Sister Chenchen, I'm leaving."
Then, she winked at me and then made a grimace at us.
Chenchen's face suddenly turned red. At this moment, my heart suddenly pounded.
"Let's go too, thank you for seeing me off." Then I heard Chenchen say to me in a low voice.
I responded repeatedly: "Okay... don't be so polite."
Then I went to take the package from her hand, almost not holding it in my panic. After holding it in my hand, I didn't know where to put the package...
She immediately laughed, "You are still the mayor, why are you acting like a young boy?"
Only then did I wake up a little and said with a smile: "Haha!"
Then he took the things in his hands and put them in the trunk.
After getting in the car, I suddenly didn't know what to say to her. She didn't speak, and the two of us remained silent.
"Actually, I can drink. But I don't like drinking on such occasions. Thank you for blocking me today and not letting me drink." After a while, she said to me softly.
I smiled and said, "It's okay. If you don't want to drink, just don't drink. Secretary Wu will still give me this face."
She said with a faint voice, "Actually, I'm not worried about anything. It doesn't matter if he doesn't let me open this music bar anymore. Now I feel very tired, but I don't know what else I can do in the future.
"
I asked her in surprise: "Why do you feel tired? Isn't this your dream all along?"
She shook her head slightly and said, "I don't know. Anyway, I just feel a little tired. And now I also feel confused because I don't know what I can do in the future."
I thought to myself: This is understandable. After all, this situation may happen to anyone. Even if it is a dream, when it becomes a reality, it will slowly make people feel numb and tired.
I thought about it and asked her: "So what do you think you want to do most? What do you most hope you can do?"
She shook her head and said: "I don't know. I used to think that I could do this for the rest of my life, because I was with music every day. I also thought about composing by myself before, but then I found that I didn't have that kind of talent at all. Composing music and composing
Art works are the same, they require talent, and just relying on love and persistence is simply not enough. So, now I am getting more and more confused."
I said: "Think about it again, what is it that you want to do most? Maybe you don't understand what I mean. What I mean is that before, you thought it was your dream to be able to be with music every day, but
That's not the case now. This is a natural thing. For example, I used to dream of becoming an outstanding talent in medicine, but later I found that I couldn't do that because it also requires talent and luck. Now I
I am engaged in administrative work. Many people envy me for sitting in the mayor's seat at such a young age, but I am actually very tired inside. But I have no choice because I can't help myself. But you are different, you are still so young,
And you are free, so you can do what you really like to do. Now you are confused, which is normal. It shows that you are a step more mature than before, because you have found that your previous dreams are somewhat unrealistic.
Don't be afraid of your own confusion. You can calm down and think about it carefully, or you can seriously ask yourself, what is your favorite thing to do in the future? Don't think about whether you can do it. I
Do you understand what it means? Haha! I drank some wine today and my thinking is not particularly clear, but that’s what it means anyway.”
But she shook her head and said: "I think about it, but if I can't do it, what's the point?"
I smiled and said: "If you think about it and understand what you want to do most, then you will work hard in that direction. The process of working hard is actually a kind of fun and fulfilling. You
Say yes?"
She nodded, "Then I'll think about it again."
At this moment, I suddenly understood what she was really confused about. As a girl, most of them will be confused at this age. What they are confused about is often not their career, but their destination.
Women need someone to rely on, even those strong women still do. Zhong Feng and Ning Xiangru, they finally chose to get married, and this is the reason. But women like Lin Yu are different, because
She has been subject to a lot of restrictions. In fact, I know that she still has a desire for marriage in her heart, or in other words, deep down in her heart, she still hopes to find her own destination.
Maybe at this time, Chenchen hasn't realized what she really needs in her heart, but this kind of thing is not something I should point out to her. She must figure out things like this by herself.
I dropped her off outside the bar, then turned around and drove home. When she got out of the car, she softly said "thank you" to me, then looked at me before leaving.
There was a kind of gratitude in her eyes, but what I saw more was familiarity, a look that made my heart skip a beat.
On the way back by car, my mind was filled with that look in her eyes. No, there was also Zhao Menglei's appearance.
She was walking in front of me, wearing simple clothes, and her ponytail on the back of her head was swinging up and down.
When get out of class was over, she walked past me, and our eyes accidentally touched. I hurriedly got out of the way, but her intoxicating eyes had touched every nerve in my body.
After we got married, every time she looked at me, I would recall the look in her eyes that was so pure and without a trace of humanity when she looked at me in middle school.
It's a pity that when she actually became my wife, I discovered that she actually had so many flaws in reality. Later, I kept thinking that maybe I had exaggerated her flaws too much, which made me
Betray her again and again.
Now I also understand that it is precisely because she is tolerant to me that I go further and further step by step. I also know that she is punishing me with her tolerance and has been punishing me until now.
Now, she seemed to be resurrected, in Chenchen's eyes.
After returning home, I found a photo of me and her from the bottom cabinet in the study. The photo was a little yellowed, probably because of moisture. When I opened one of the pages, I found
The photo and the album were stuck together, and I tried to uncover it... Her face in the photo was torn apart, and that part of her was stuck to the album, leaving only a headless body in front of me.
Body.
My heart suddenly trembled, and I felt regretful. I hurriedly went to get a glass of boiling water, put the bottom of the cup on the spot where it was stuck to the photo album, and after a while I gently lifted it up... In front of me was her deformed body.
, a face that looks a little weird.
When I carefully glued that part of her photo back, I saw her smiling at me.
At this moment, I burst into tears... (To be continued)