Her words suddenly shook my heart. Her soft, faint voice made my heart tremble. I could feel that her heart was in pain and tangled, and
These are all caused by me.
I stopped talking, but my heart became warmer. I was thinking that as long as she could feel my sincerity towards her, everything would be enough.
I went to look at the river surface, looking at the river surface at night.
In the night, the river flows quietly, whimpering towards the end of the sky, gradually blending into the boundless darkness.
The hazy piece of snow-like beauty in the distance is a sea of flowers, right? Because the air is full of fragrance, it's hard to tell what kind of flowers they are. But it doesn't matter, flowers are beautiful, and hazy flowers are even more beautiful.
The flowing water carries falling flowers, which is not only poignant but also tender. The snow-like flower forest, the gentle flowing water, the match of lovers. The world in front of you is very delicate and hazy. The white and soft beach on the riverside is as ethereal as a dream,
Yet incredibly real.
This is winter in our Jiangnan, so there are still flowers blooming.
These flowers and this water constitute this winter night.
The sky and the earth are silent, and there is a special majesty in the silence, pampering the river, the flowers, and the night like a father.
The river in front of me is a gift given to me by eternity, right? I understand that my life will also be short and eternal, just like the passing river.
I shook my head, trying to break away from my thoughts, but fell into deeper melancholy. Because she was beside me, but she didn't belong to me.
I felt a chill, and my fingers were a little cold and painful. But I still sat there. I felt that the physical pain could bring some relief to the pain in my heart.
Suddenly I felt her standing up next to me, "Let's go back. Now that I'm in a much better mood, I can't sit down anymore, lest you catch a cold and affect your work tomorrow, and I can't bear the responsibility."
Her words conveyed a clearer message to me: the relationship between me and her could never change. If she really wanted to get along with me, she would never let me put my clothes on her body.
, but should let me hold her.
I also stood up, and suddenly I felt my feet were numb, so I stamped my feet on the ground a few times. She asked me in surprise: "What's wrong with you?"
I smiled bitterly and said, "My feet are numb."
She said to me softly: "I'm sorry...thank you."
I felt even more desolate in my heart, "It's nothing. Let's go back."
On the way back, we didn't say another word. In fact, my heart had become as calm as water, because I already knew this would be the result. It's just that today my heart went from excitement to sadness all over again.
.Maybe her mood is a little complicated at the moment, but that has nothing to do with me. I know that in her heart now, she pretends to be more apologetic from Fang Qiang.
This is also cause and effect, retribution. If I had known this, I shouldn't have indulged myself so much before. However, everything has happened and it can never be undone.
But I am still very grateful to her, because I once had her. Although the time I had her was so short, it was enough to make me happy and miss her for a lifetime.
When I got in the car, I looked at the time and found that it was close to midnight. In other words, we spent this New Year's Eve in the car, and we traveled from the old year to the new year in the car.
This year, we are destined to live such a dull and tangled life.
She called her while she was on the road and learned that the old lady had gone home. So I drove directly to the downstairs of her house.
When she stopped the car, she glanced at me and said, "Feng Xiao, thank you. I wish you a happy Spring Festival. I'm going back."
Her meaning was very clear, that is, she told me not to get out of the car. I smiled at her and said, "I wish you happiness too. Good night."
She jumped out of the car and quickly disappeared into the corridor. My heart suddenly felt empty, and there was a ringing in my ears. I shook my head and smiled bitterly, and immediately turned the car around.
At this moment, I feel lonely and sad in my heart, but only I can feel it.
The roads at this time were already empty. On days like this, maybe only lonely people like me would drive around. The roar of cars stirred up the surrounding air, making a harsh sound. The city was still lit with lights.
Brilliant, the lights inside the tall buildings are bright, and I can imagine that every family there is full of laughter.
I speeded up because I suddenly thought that my mother was waiting for me at home. Maybe my child had already fallen asleep.
I suddenly discovered my unfilial piety - on days like this, I still ran outside, leaving my mother and children to spend the New Year's Eve alone at home.
When I got home, I saw my mother still sitting on the sofa watching TV, with the child asleep in her arms. I suddenly felt ashamed. I went to my mother and said, "Mom, I'm back. I'm sorry for asking you to
Alone at home..."
I found that my voice was choked with sobs. My mother looked at me, her eyes full of kindness, "Are you not drunk?"
I shook my head, "I didn't drink much."
The mother sighed and said, "Drink less. Think about your dad. He ended up with that disease because of his drinking. Why didn't you learn your lesson?"
I felt even more uncomfortable, "Mom, I know."
My mother looked at me, "You and Tong Yao, you..."
I shook my head and said, "She has a boyfriend. She and I are just ordinary friends."
My mother said: "Since it's impossible for you, then don't stick with others. You are already the mayor, why don't you understand such a clear truth?"
I nodded, "Yes. I understand. Mom, you should go and rest early. I have to go back to work tomorrow. I haven't been able to come back in the past few days. The city has arranged work. I have to visit laid-off workers and invite foreign companies.
I can’t help it. You and your children are at home, and I feel very sorry for you to celebrate the New Year like this."
My mother said to me softly: "I know you are busy. It's all on TV. The leaders of the central and provincial governments don't spend the New Year at home every year. They have to visit the people below. You are the mayor now, I know
You must do the same. You don't have to worry about us. Tomorrow I will take the child to see his grandfather and mother, and the day after tomorrow we will go back to our hometown to visit relatives. You can do your business and leave us alone."
I felt even more sorry in my heart, "Mom, how inconvenient is it for you to go back to your hometown alone with your child? When I am free, I can take the time to go back with you. Is that okay?"
The mother shook her head and said: "You go about your business. Didn't I take you to the countryside when you were young? Now I am tired of staying in this provincial capital all day long, so I want to take my child to my hometown.
It’s okay. It’s just a ride anyway.”
I said: "Let me ask the driver to take you back. It will be more convenient that way."
Mother said: "No need, your driver is also a member of the country, what does it mean if he sends us back? That will have a bad impact on you. It's okay, just go about your business, I'll come back in about a week."
I knew that my mother was actually quite stubborn, so I didn’t say anything more. I asked her, “Mom, do you need money? If you go back to your hometown, you must buy some things for your relatives.
If you are a child, you should also give some lucky money, right?"
The mother smiled and said: "I am rich. There is still so much money on the card you gave me before. You know that I don't spend much money. My retirement salary is almost enough for my family's life. The nanny's salary is almost enough."
You're the one giving me the money. I still have so much money on my card, so don't worry about it. I'll take some out when I get back to the county. It's not safe to carry this cash with me."
I nodded, "Then you must pay attention to safety. It would be great if the nanny is here. Let her accompany you."
The mother smiled and said, "I have to go home to celebrate the New Year. It's okay. It won't be too tiring for me to take care of the child by myself. The child is already so old and very obedient, so it'll be okay."
I said: "Okay then."
Immediately, I picked up the child from my mother's arms and went to his room. The child slept deeply and never woke up. I put the child on the bed, I looked at him and found that he looked like Chen Yuan, and I suddenly felt
There was a burst of pain. I touched the child's head, sighed, turned off the light and went out.
My mother is no longer in the living room. It is obvious that she has been waiting for me to come home, so that she can be together as a family on the first day of the new year.
I fell asleep without taking a shower. I felt so tired. (To be continued)