This guy's eyes are really poisonous, I thought to myself. However, even though he is my cousin, I can't let him know things like this so clearly.
I said, "Don't talk nonsense. She has a husband. She was my friend many years ago, that's all."
He smiled and said, "Brother, I don't mean anything else. I'm worried for you. Your ex-wife has passed away for so long, so you should find another one. Life is actually very simple. Marriage is actually about not letting yourself
Loneliness, don’t think of it too sacredly. By the way, brother, if you like blond hair and blue eyes, how about I introduce you to one? Then it will be very good to give birth to a few mixed-race children."
This guy has finally returned to his fun-loving nature before, and also showed the closeness we once had. I laughed, "Forget it, they are not the same model, I still like our Chinese girls."
He also laughed immediately.
The weather was good today. When we arrived at the cemetery, the sky was shining with warm sunshine. We bought memorial supplies outside the cemetery and then entered the cemetery together.
Now, with the passage of time, the grief in my heart is no longer so severe. When I come to this place today, it is more to pay homage and commemorate.
In the traditional impression of Chinese people, cemeteries must be eerie and terrifying. The worship and fear of ghosts and gods make people stay away from them. But with the changes of the times, as the cemeteries become sunny and beautiful, when people's concepts are no longer constrained by
During the era of ghost culture, the cemetery, as a unique memorial place, showed its deep, tranquil, peaceful and peaceful qualities.
True access, the harmony of beauty, and the eternity of love are all reflected here, and they are more in line with the depths of people's hearts. This is exactly the purpose of the cemetery today: a place where people's souls return, a place where culture is passed down, and a place where culture is inherited.
A world that needs to be appreciated with tranquility and tranquility.
He and I went to my father's grave, placed sacrifices, and kowtowed together. Xiao Lin said: "Uncle, I'm sorry, I just came to see you now. I think you have already met my father and mother, right? Heaven is very beautiful
, I wish you have a good rest there..."
I knelt next to him and listened to him speaking to his father's tombstone. His tone was very calm, just like his father was in front of him at this time. At this time, I didn't feel much sadness in my heart, but more warmth.
I didn’t say anything to my father, but I was telling him in my heart: Dad, don’t worry, everything is fine with us now...
Before leaving my father's grave, I said to Xiao Lin: "You go to the car and wait for me. I'll stop by to see the child's mother. She is also buried here."
He said: "Let me go with you, she is my sister-in-law whom I have met."
Originally, I wanted to go to Chen Yuan’s grave to have a few words with her alone, but now that I heard what he said, I couldn’t refuse. Then I went to Chen Yuan’s grave with him, where I was just pretending
Put some sacrifices and so on, and then bowed three times towards the tombstone. Xiaolin looked at Chen Yuan's photo on the tombstone, sighed and said: "Brother, I know why you haven't found a new woman for so long, she turns out to be so beautiful.
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I couldn't help but smile bitterly in my heart: You also thought that I was too great and too pure. But I didn't say anything more, I just patted him on the shoulder and said, "Let's go."
He looked at me and said, "Brother, I find that you have changed so much. You really look like an official now, so profound."
I smiled and said, "Haven't you changed too? You and I are both the fathers of our children now, how can we not change?"
He shook his head and said: "No, you have the air of an official now. Your temperament makes me feel so strange. But this is good, it shows that you are mature. It seems that I am the one who is really immature, so yesterday I
What I said to you is all nonsense, don’t mind it.”
I immediately grabbed his shoulders and said, "Why are we brothers saying such unfamiliar things? I'm still the same person I was before, and I'm your brother. It's very simple."
He said: "Brother, I know. Maybe it's because we haven't seen each other for many years. I really feel that you are so strange. It is precisely because of this that I said those words to you yesterday. My purpose is very simple.
, I just want you to think that I care about you. In fact, I am just an intellectual, and I don’t know many things as much as you. Brother, I want to go to Shanghai tonight. I want to get together with my middle school classmates in the provincial capital at noon.
Just go directly to the airport and buy a ticket. I will come back often in the future. Your current conditions are good and you should find a girlfriend as soon as possible..."
I immediately interrupted him, because in such a place, in front of Chen Yuan's tomb, I didn't want to talk to him about such a topic. This is not superstition, but because I feel guilty in my heart. I believe one thing: in fact, we often
All superstitions are caused by inner guilt. I said: "Let's do this. I will ask the driver to take you to the airport in the afternoon. You guy, you have to leave after just one day, can't you stay a few more days?"
He shook his head and said: "My schedule when I come back this time is very tight. In fact, there is a lot of competition pressure abroad. Many Chinese people work in foreign laboratories. If they leave for a long time, they can easily be replaced."
I was very surprised, "You are engaged in scientific research. There are not many high-end talents like you, right?"
He shook his head and sighed: "When I was at home, I always felt that I was a talent. After I went abroad, I realized that there are so many Chinese talents who went abroad! You need connections to apply for scientific research funds at home, but you don't need connections abroad.
, but if no results are produced for a long time, they will be eliminated. People like me can only adapt to foreign lifestyles. Since they have chosen fair competition, they must face it at any time."
He suddenly said a curse word, which almost made me laugh, but his words still made sense. I was thinking in my heart: In fact, people are tired no matter where they live.
I patted his shoulder and said, "Brother, I know it's not easy for you. In fact, it's not easy for everyone. But my current situation is pretty good. We are brothers. Our fathers are gone. We are the only people in our generation.
Brothers. If you have any difficulties, you can tell me at any time, and I will definitely help you to the best of my ability."
He shook his head and said: "It's not necessary yet. The money I earn is enough to support my family. In any case, I still belong to the middle class in the United States. Although I haven't bought a house yet, there is no problem for me to buy a house. It's just
I just didn’t have enough investment awareness before.”
After hearing what he said, I didn't say anything more. After returning from the cemetery, I drove home first because his suitcase was still at my house. I called Xiao Sui on the way and he had already
Waiting at my house.
The mother was very sad. She said to Xiao Lin: "What's going on? You just came back and you have to leave?"
Xiao Lin comforted my mother and said: "Mother, I will come back often in the future. I will bring the children back for you to see."
My mother was still very sad and watched Xiao Lin leave the house. I asked the driver to take him to the class reunion first, and then take him to the airport. I didn’t buy anything for him, because I knew that anything was only important to him now.
It would be a trouble. The United States is thousands of miles away from here, and he has to go to Shanghai to reunite with his classmates on the way. Unless I give him money, but today at the cemetery, I rejected my intention in disguise.
Giving things is nothing more than expressing an emotion. We are close relatives, so there is no need to express emotions deliberately.
He didn't refuse me to arrange a car and driver for him, and I couldn't help but feel a little funny: it seemed that he was only verbally criticizing privilege. In fact, as a Chinese, his yearning for privilege has not changed much in his bones.
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My cousin never came back after he left. Although he left me his phone number, over time I almost forgot about him. Later, I occasionally saw his name when I looked through the phone book.
, but I didn’t know what to say to him, so I never called him once. He also knew my phone number, but he never contacted me, not even a text message.
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Later, a few years later, when I faced the biggest choice in my life, I suddenly remembered him and what he once said to me: China's officialdom is similar to that of the feudal era.
If you really can't adapt, you might as well go to a place where everything has rules...
In fact, he is also a standard intellectual. Although his views on problems are sometimes relatively absolute and he is still simple, it is often people like him who can see the essence of some problems because his thoughts are not that complicated, so
Only then can the vision directly hit the problem itself.
For me, I originally thought that my cousin's return to China was just another reunion in my life, just like the reunion of classmates after graduating from college, so I didn't completely take it to heart.
I was overweight, and I thought that as long as we got in touch this time, we would contact or meet frequently in the future, but I didn't expect that his coming and going would become a thing of the past. Later I found out that he actually lived in the United States.
He didn't do well, but he was so concerned about saving face that he was unwilling to take the initiative to contact me.
Many people around us are really just passers-by in our lives. Even close relatives will have their family ties diluted by time and distance. (To be continued)