Suddenly, I heard a huge roar outside the window, and lightning pierced the sky...
Today's rain came suddenly. No, to be precise, I ignored the prelude of this heavy rain. At that time, I was making love with the beautiful girl underneath me. At that time, I forgot everything, and there was only one thing in my soul.
Her beautiful body gives me every feeling.
I saw big drops of rain outside the window hitting the glass window hard. There was already a vast expanse of white outside the window, and the world outside was suddenly shrouded in mist and rain.
I suddenly remembered that afternoon many years ago, when Yu Min was hospitalized for the first time. The heavy rain that day was the same as now. I suddenly thought of her, and how beautiful she was at that time was just like the woman in my arms.
Just like a child. At that time, I once expressed my love to her, but she rejected me.
However, God played a big joke on us and finally brought us together and gave us a child.
Child! Suddenly, I remembered something and hurriedly pushed her away from my arms, "Go and wash it quickly, don't get pregnant!"
But she said to me coquettishly: "I can't move. It's okay..."
I immediately got out of bed and picked her up. Her soft body couldn't help laughing in my arms.
The rain finally stopped and I left her. She was still sleeping when I left her.
Like last time, I took out all the money I had and put it into her satchel on the bedside.
She told me today that this is our last time, but I am very doubtful in my heart - won't we do this again in the future?
Today's car accident seems to be a deliberate arrangement by God. This is also the reason for my final wavering today.
After the rain, the city was in a mess everywhere, just like the bed Shen Bingbing and I had just rolled over. A taxi was driving in my direction, and I raised my hand towards it...
Walking on the streets of the city, the sound of light rain still echoing in my ears.
One after another, it disturbs people's hearts.
But the night in my eyes is so beautiful. It's not the bright moon or the stars, but the embellishments of the bright lights. The air is filled with moist moisture, making the city lights look extremely soft.
The night in the city is lingering, sentimental, and full of breath. The noisy sound of rain fogs the eyes, and the light images of little dancing figures, bit by bit, make people tireless.
The forest in the rain is the calmness of the trees and the etherealness of the fog, while the city in the rain is brightly lit but blurry. I like the feeling of the rain moistening my eyelashes the most, so that I can see the beauty of everything dyed with halo.
I also like the feeling of being drenched by the rain the most, which can make the hairline in front of my forehead docile, and the rain will flow along the sideburns, ears, and between the eyes and eyebrows.
It’s not that I don’t care if I catch a cold or get sick, it’s just that such a feeling is really rare.
The city is very quiet after the rain, especially at night. The city is very quiet at this time because people are hiding in their homes. Although I also have a home, it is incomplete. I like to walk on the street like this
, feeling the tranquility after the rain, I like to walk in this mature night while closing my eyes and enjoying the fragrance of flowers and grass. I feel that there seems to be a hint of earthiness in the air.
I also like to walk in the rain, not noisy, not noisy, not stained by dust. The rain just hits my cheeks softly. It is said that sad people usually like to hide in the rain and look at the sky at an elevation of 45 degrees.
I still have to go home. At night, the lights are dim.
I don’t know why, but tonight I started to feel drowsy when I picked up the book. After lying on the bed, I became very awake again, and all kinds of things kept pouring out of my mind. Sometimes it was work, and sometimes it was work.
Those emotional things that I had in the past.
This makes me feel miserable.
I thought I had been lying in bed for a long time, but when I looked at the time I realized it was not even ten o'clock in the evening. I felt restless and got up immediately.
I have experienced situations like this before, and I know that if I read a book now, I will definitely become confused again. Ultimately, this is because I am being annoyed by something I don't know deep in my heart.
I have studied psychology, and I know that situations like this are caused by a kind of uneasiness in my subconscious. I was thinking that maybe there are two reasons for my uneasiness deep in my heart: First, Governor Huang did not say anything in the end that day.
The second thing that came out was that I was worried about my relationship with Shen Bingbing.
Now I really realize something: my relationship with those women in the past is the safest, because most of our relationships at that time were based on some feelings. Even if there was no feelings at the beginning, but gradually
There you have it.
Nowadays, I don't have that much time to talk about relationship issues with women, and I think it's very risky to do so now.
But I am a man and I have needs in that regard. Although I know that such things cannot be too frequent and must be controlled as much as possible, I must have a relatively stable one. Of course, it is best to be able to get married in the future.
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However, as far as the women I know so far are concerned, they are not suitable for me to marry, or I think they are not worth it.
So I thought, who is the most suitable person for me to maintain such a relationship with in the future?
Udonmei is my favorite, she is young, beautiful, and she is so different, but she can't. Because she had a relationship with Governor Huang. It's not because I dislike her, but I can't let Huang.
The governor discovered the relationship between me and her, otherwise there will definitely be many misunderstandings - if Governor Huang knows about my relationship with Udonmei, he will definitely think that I instigated Udonmei's postgraduate entrance examination.
The purpose is to get her to leave as soon as possible and eventually be with me.
Thinking of this, I suddenly thought: Could this be what Governor Huang didn't say that day? But I immediately thought that this was unlikely, because Governor Huang should believe me - if this was the case, at the time,
Why would I send Udon-mei to him?
In any case, I will never be with Udon-mei in the future. She is a graduate student at the Medical University, so she is more likely to be discovered. After all, there are many people in the Medical University who know me.
Then there is only Ruan Jie.
At this time, I suddenly felt that among the women I had been with, only Ruan Jie was the best to me. She had the same unfortunate marriage experience as me, and after all, she was in her thirties and knew how to care about people.
, I am more able to notice changes in my mood at any time.
More importantly, I am kind to her, and I have told her more than once that it is impossible for us to get married, and she agrees.
Of course, I know that her approval is also a kind of helplessness. She has a good impression of me and hopes to be with me forever, but after all, her past things will have a bad impact on me. After all, Secretary Leng is now
If we were still in office, it would be a very embarrassing thing if she and I really got married. More importantly, my feelings for her have not reached that level yet. (To be continued)