Although it is the weekend, the traffic jam in the city is still very serious. At this time, I am very anxious, because I don’t know how far the old director’s condition has progressed, but I have a very bad feeling in my heart, and now I am most worried
What I wanted most was not to be able to see the old director for the last time.
Under such circumstances, I no longer paid attention to the rules of courtesy and drove forward as fast as I could, taking advantage of every opportunity along the way. Finally, I drove into the hospital parking garage in nearly an hour.
Then I quickly ran towards the internal medicine inpatient department. The elevator in the hospital was very slow, and I had a hard time waiting for it to reach the first floor. There were many people waiting for the elevator, and when I was about to enter, I found that it was already packed with people. I ignored my identity and demeanor.
After squeezing in, the elevator immediately sounded an alarm.
"You sit down! Really, it's still crowded after this!" Someone began to yell dissatisfied.
My face felt feverish, so I had to get out of the elevator awkwardly and wait for the next one.
We are often like this. When a person is more anxious, God will be against you.
In fact, we also know that this is just a state of mind. In our peaceful state of mind, we often ignore these small troubles - traffic jams, we can enjoy the street view and listen to music. The elevator is full of people, which is normal.
That's the next trip.
When we feel anxious and irritable, we tend to exaggerate these small troubles without limit. Therefore, a person's mood is very important, and people with great wisdom and successful careers are often able to restrain their inner irritability, even if the mountain collapses.
Even before, I was able to keep my thoughts calm and calm.
While waiting for the elevator, I took a few deep breaths, and my mood became calm and relaxed. In fact, there were several elevators where I was standing, so my waiting time was not long.
At this time, I suddenly had a realization: only when a person is in a peaceful state of mind can he suddenly find that he has many choices, can he calmly accept all situations that are unfavorable to him, and can he find a path that is more suitable for him.
the way.
Ward No. 2 of the Department of Hepatobiliary Medicine is a single ward, and the old director is eligible for such treatment.
Through the glass window of the square door of the ward, I found the old director lying on the bed, seemingly sleeping. Three infusion bottles hung on the shelf next to him. The old director’s wife and Chenchen were sitting on the sofa in the ward, looking sad and silent.
Speechless.
After I entered, they noticed my arrival and stood up in a hurry. I immediately asked the old lady and Chenchen in a low voice: "What's going on, old director?"
The old lady shed tears all of a sudden. Chenchen glanced at me, came over to pull me, and then walked out of the ward with me, "Brother Feng, my uncle, he has advanced liver cancer."
Although I had already made such a guess, I was still shocked when I heard the news coming out of her mouth. I hurriedly asked: "When was it discovered? Doesn't he have to have a physical examination every year?
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She also started to cry, "I don't know. Recently, he suddenly felt pain in the liver area, and when he went to the hospital for examination, he found that it was already in the advanced stage."
I seem to have understood in my heart: maybe the old director has alcoholic liver disease and has already turned into cirrhosis. It is possible that he has been hiding the disease and avoiding medical treatment, which is why the condition has been delayed until now. What is more likely is that the old director understands in his heart.
There is no cure for my cirrhosis of the liver, and it is impossible to reverse such a condition under today's medical technology, so I just let it go.
I took out a handkerchief and handed it to Chenchen, "I'm going to look at the old director's medical records."
When I arrived at the nurse's station, I introduced myself to the nurse on duty, "Hello, I am a teacher at the Medical University. I would like to see the medical records of bed number two, is that okay?"
Under normal circumstances, when I introduce myself like this, the other person will have a sense of intimacy. After all, we are all from the same unit. Sure enough, the nurse agreed immediately, but she still asked me: "Are you from the school?"
Which department?"
I replied: "Foreign Affairs Department."
She said, "Oh, I'm not familiar with that department."
I started to look through the medical records and answered her at the same time: "The Foreign Affairs Office mainly manages international students and the school's external exchanges."
She didn't bother me again, maybe because she wasn't interested in this aspect. In fact, nurses on duty are often very lonely, so sometimes they seem a bit talkative.
The old director's condition is indeed serious: MRI found five or six masses in his liver, and one was located at the porta hepatis. Other laboratory indicators also showed that his condition was in the advanced stage of liver cancer.
It is impossible to undergo surgical resection or liver transplantation in a situation like his. The old director's condition is almost a replica of my father's condition at that time. At this time, I also felt a sense of sadness and extreme disappointment in my heart.
Shrouded. I already knew very well that the life of the old director had come to an end.
When I put down the medical records and was about to go to the ward, I discovered that Chenchen was standing outside the nurse's station looking at me. I don't know when she came here.
I thanked the nurse on duty, and then went to Chenchen's side. I shook my head at her with a heavy heart, sighed in a low voice and said to her: "It seems like it's not possible anymore."
She started to cry again and nodded at the same time. In the blur of her tearful eyes, I clearly saw the way Zhao Menglei looked when she was miserable in front of me. My heart suddenly hurt, and I couldn't help but reach out and wipe away her tears.
She didn't object to my move.
I looked at her, "Chenchen, when did the old director say he wanted to see me?"
She choked and answered me: "When he woke up earlier, he said he wanted to see you. I called you right away, and then he fell asleep. Director Shang and others also came to see my uncle this afternoon.
, he was not very sober at that time. Director Shang said, let us rest assured that the provincial admissions office will try its best to cover all of uncle’s medical expenses.”
I nodded, "Director Shang is a very good person. Let's not talk about medical expenses now. I'm here, so it's not a problem at all."
She choked and said, "Yeah."
I looked at her, and my heart was full of pity. I knew in my heart that she was already very upset at this time. I asked her: "Where are the old director's children? Why didn't they come?"
She said: "They are working in other places and are returning home."
I couldn't help sighing in my heart: Many of us parents are like this. We raise our children, but in the end, their children go to work far away, and they may not even look at them when they die. This is how many people in our country
The sadness of being a parent.
Many of us live for our children without asking for anything in return from our children. At this time, I don’t know whether this is right or wrong, whether it is worth it or not. (To be continued)