Soon, the two of us came to Chen Yuan’s tomb. Standing in front of Chen Yuan’s tomb, I said to Chenchen: “She is the mother of my child.”
She knelt down and looked at Chen Yuan's photo on the tombstone. Then she reached out and touched Chen Yuan's face in the photo, and said softly: "She is so beautiful."
I said: "The child looks like her."
She looked at Chen Yuan's photo and said softly: "Don't worry, I will be good to the child."
What she said was not only to Chen Yuan in the tomb, but also to me. At this moment, my heart suddenly shook, and I said to myself: From now on, for her,
I can give up everything!
After leaving the cemetery, I said to her: "Let's go to your aunt's house. What she needs most now is everyone's comfort."
But she shook her head and said: "She doesn't want anyone to disturb her now. I will visit her often in the future. Now I suddenly feel that my uncle and aunt are like my biological parents."
I nodded and asked her: "Will she continue to live here in the future? Or will she stay with her children?"
She shook her head, "I don't know. But she should be going to live with my brother and my sister."
I feel the same way. At that time, the words that the old director told me before his death seemed to contain such a meaning. Chenchen should understand it.
At this time, I couldn't help but gently hugged her arm, but I immediately took my hand away from her arm. I suddenly felt that my just action had somewhat soiled her.
I said: "Chenchen, don't worry, I will take good care of you from now on."
She glanced at me, her eyes full of tenderness, "Yes. I believe it."
The tenderness in her eyes melted me at this moment, and I suddenly had a courage that even I had not expected. I said to her: "Chenchen, I know you can never accept and forgive me.
I don't blame you at all for the past. I believe in a saying: Everything a person has done needs to be repaid. I used to be so decadent and bohemian, and now I should bear the bitter consequences I have caused. So.
, I don’t dare to expect you to like me, but this does not affect my commitment to the old director. Chenchen, you should understand what I mean, right? "
She blushed again, then looked at me, "What do you mean?"
I sighed and said: "You know what I mean, right? Chenchen, I know what the old director's last words mean, and you also understand. But I don't want you to force yourself because of your uncle's last words.
It would be so unfair to you to establish that kind of relationship with me."
She looked at me and said, "Since you have mentioned this matter, I would like to ask you: Do you like me?"
At this time, she was looking at me with burning eyes. Although her face was blushing even more, her eyes were looking directly at me. My heart suddenly panicked. At this moment, I seemed to have returned to the past.
When I was in middle school, I didn’t dare to look directly into Zhao Menglei’s eyes.
But now I have to face it. I said to her: "Chenchen, I have been married twice. Although it is not divorced, in fact, I have been married twice.
When my second wife, the Chen Yuan you just saw, passed away, I told myself that I would never get married again in this life, because I was really scared, and I was afraid that the people around me would leave me again.
And go.
But, I like you, I don’t know why I like you, maybe it’s because of your eyes..." At this point, I was shocked and continued hurriedly: "Every time I see your eyes...
I feel very warm and peaceful.
So, later I said to myself in my heart, if we can really be together, I am willing to give up everything for you. Even if I am not the mayor now, I am willing. Really, Chenchen, what I said is true.
talk."
Her eyes slowly softened when she looked at me, but when I said the last sentence, she suddenly asked me: "If you are with me, will it affect your ability to be the mayor?"
Something?"
I was shocked again, "No, I just used that analogy."
I didn't want to deliberately lie to her, because I know that no woman can accept that a man likes her because she resembles someone before this man. Also, things between Lin Yu and I have gone beyond certain
It is not just my personal matter, but involves the privacy of a provincial party committee organization minister. Including the relationship between me and Governor He, this cannot be told to anyone.
I really like Chenchen in my heart, and I can do more things for her in the future to make up for all the deceptions I have done to her. At this moment, this is what I am thinking in my heart.
Now I realize that it is so difficult for a person to tell all the truth and all his past in front of the person he really likes.
But the words I just said came from the bottom of my heart, so I became really emotional later on.
Chenchen was also a little moved, I could tell, because her eyes were moist and her eyes became soft again. She said to me: "Brother Feng, you are a good person. I have known you for a long time.
, I never thought that one day I would have such thoughts about you, but then I found out that you are really good to me. I feel that your kindness to me is completely from the heart. But I still can't accept it.
Your past. Your past is too confusing. No, it’s not that I can’t accept your past, but I’m not sure I can change you in the future. I doubt that I have that ability. I don’t want my future to change.
It's a tragedy, so I don't dare to accept you. I, I don't know what I am saying to you now, but that's what I'm thinking in my heart."
I have noticed that her words have become confusing. No, she has completely expressed her inner ambivalence. I sighed softly and said: "Chenchen, I know, I used to be too
It's too dissolute. But I am willing to give everything I have for you, and I will change myself from now on, and I will never be as ridiculous as before."
She turned around, looked into the cemetery, and continued: "My uncle told me many times that you are a very good person, and he also praised you for your kindness. I didn't tell him that you once told me
But he seems to know something about you." (To be continued)