How could I not know how she felt in her heart at this moment? How could I not know that everything she said was true?
But... I shook my head slightly, "Sister, it's not a matter of frequency or interval, it's that I can't cheat on my current girlfriend. She and I will get married in the future, but it's impossible for me and you.
Sister, from now on I will treat you as my own sister, but we can no longer have that kind of relationship.
Sister, do you know? How difficult it is for me to convince myself to do this, but I have to do it because I am still young, I must have my own family in the future, and I must set a good example for my children.
The child is growing up day by day. He has lacked maternal love since he was a child. I must give the child a complete family, otherwise I will be sorry for my child and my mother. Sister, I have no choice but to do this. Please forgive me...
"
Her hands were still on my shoulders and refused to leave. Instead, she hugged me tightly again, and her lips came to my ear, "Feng Xiao, okay, I understand you, we will do it from now on."
Real siblings. Then, don’t leave today, let’s spend the last night together. Okay?”
My heart moved, and the inner struggle became more intense. However, I kept telling myself that this is absolutely not allowed. If I waver today, I will find excuses for more wavering in the future. I shook my head slightly.
, "Sister, I can't do that anymore. Do you know how difficult it is for me to make such a decision? And, sister, if we are together today, it will only make us more painful later. Sister, I'm sorry,
I really can't do that anymore. From now on, I will never have that kind of relationship with any woman except my girlfriend. I just want to be a good husband to my wife and a good father to my children. Sister,
Please understand me and support me from now on."
Her hand slowly slipped from my shoulder, then turned around, "You go..."
I glanced at her and found that her shoulders were shaking while she was carrying me. I knew that she was feeling sad and crying quietly. My heart softened again. Sister... I tried to call her, but it didn't work.
I never screamed out. I forced myself to leave immediately.
When I walked to the door of her house, I suddenly heard her crying sadly. She tried her best to suppress her cry, but it became even sadder in my ears. My heart pounded.
The ground twitched, and I almost wanted to turn around and hug her again...
However, I forced myself to leave.
When I arrived outside her house, I gently closed the door. There was a dim night in front of me, and it seemed so peaceful. The air was filled with the smell of flowers and plants around me.
When I got to the car, I immediately drove away. I didn't dare to stay here for any longer, because I was afraid that the persistence in my heart would not last long.
When I arrived outside the villa area, I stopped the car suddenly. At this moment, my tears could no longer be suppressed and welled up again.
I didn't have a good rest all night, and no one knew the complicated state of pain and relief in my heart.
Later, I seemed to be asleep or awake, and suddenly I felt a person sitting on my bed floating in the air. Without caressing or tenderness, his body was pressing heavily on mine...
Suddenly I woke up and realized it was a dream, but I couldn't remember who she was in the dream. But I felt that it was Lin Yu who entered my dream just now.
The sadness and guilt in my heart filled the air again.
Later, I fell asleep again in a daze. I felt as if I had walked outside my house and found that the small garden outside was full of cabbage.
First there was a charming cabbage, which somehow managed to come out of the soil. It came straight over and introduced it to me one by one. The introduced cabbages nodded and said hello one by one. Some cabbages were thin, some were plump, and some were plump.
They even deliberately made a show of themselves, as the autumn coolness had just entered, and all the cabbage cabbages were still naked, breathing in the cold air as they spoke.
I was reviewing them all like an emperor. Suddenly, a very small cabbage came over, stood on tiptoes and whispered something to me. Before I had time to understand what it was, the other cabbages all started laughing.
When he got up, the petite cabbage disappeared.
I continued to walk forward, but this time as I walked, I found that many cabbages were very sick. After asking, I found out that they all had oral ulcers and many leaves were rotten. So the corners of my mouth hurt and I woke up.
Came over.
When I woke up the next day, this dream was still fresh in my memory. I immediately felt some pain in my mouth. I quickly looked in the mirror and found that I actually had a small ulcer in my mouth.
I knew in my heart that I had not had a good rest last night, and the extreme emotional fluctuations had caused great problems in my body's resistance. The appearance of oral ulcers is often one of the symptoms of physical dysfunction.
Severe emotional fluctuations are the most likely to cause physical dysfunction. There is a saying that among various cancer patients, the real cause of death is not the cancer itself, but fear. In other words, the vast majority of cancer patients are
Scared to death.
This is indeed the case. In fact, each of us produces seven to eight thousand cancer cells every day. Under emotional conditions such as fear, fear, and anxiety, the cancer cells will increase greatly. However, if we are in a happy mood, the cancer cells will increase due to the body's
It is killed by the enhanced function of the immune system.
I once saw such a case with my own eyes: My counselor in college, who was nearly forty years old at the time, suddenly discovered a mass about five centimeters in diameter on his lung during a physical examination. It was later diagnosed
He was diagnosed with lung cancer. He was a long-term smoker. If other people encountered this situation, they would definitely quit smoking immediately and then fall into fear. But he didn't. He still smoked, and the amount of smoking was still increasing.
His mood was not affected in any way, and he still laughed every day, and then he added a sport of playing basketball every afternoon. Later, a miracle happened - three months later, the mass on his lungs miraculously disappeared.
Disappeared. This person is still alive and well.
This is a reflection of the power of our human spirit. But many of us cannot be like him.
Modern psychologists have discovered that the biggest difference between humans and animals is that humans are afraid of things that do not exist - we ourselves are also surprised by this phenomenon because we don't know where this fear comes from.
According to the British theologian James Reid, "Many fears come from our incomprehension of the world we live in and from the control this world has over us." "In order to realize a full life, we need to
The first thing to do is to gain power over your fear."
In modern society, fear is torturing us more and more powerfully, to the point where no one can avoid it.
It is precisely because of the huge gap between human beings' limitation and insignificance and the unfathomable abyss of the universe and the world that people are afraid of many incomprehensible things.
For example, to this day, many people naively believe that the numbers "four" and "thirteen" will bring them ominousness. This shows how fragile and helpless people are in the face of the impermanence of the world. (To be continued.