I love her, and at this moment, I completely know it.
I seemed to have no consciousness, only frenzy.
"Want me..." Her lips left mine and she let out a long moan...
"Feng Xiao, will you marry me if I get divorced?" Zhao Menglei asked me when I left her house that night.
"Yes." I said.
But she regretted it as soon as she left her house.
There is actually only one reason why I regret it: she is a married woman, yet she tempted me like this and made me do this kind of thing. Therefore, I think she is not a good woman.
That night, in just a few strokes, I lost myself. I was immediately ashamed, and at the same time felt a sense of boredom - it turned out that the relationship between men and women in my fantasy was so boring!
It's funny to say that as an obstetrician and gynecologist, although I see all kinds of women every day, I have never experienced the sexual process myself. Therefore, I have always fantasized about the beauty of that process and always hope that my first sexual experience will be beautiful.
I can put myself into a state of ecstasy at one time. However, I found that the reality is not like this. My process is like peeing during morning exercises. There is no pleasure at all. There is only shame.
and disappointment.
My shame was directed at Zhao Menglei, because I felt that I was too incompetent; and my disappointment came from the disillusionment of my many years of fantasy, and at the same time, I felt extremely frustrated that my first time had been completed like this.
"Is this really your first time?" she asked me.
I nodded, not daring to speak, and too embarrassed to answer her question, still out of shame. Then she hugged me tightly, and whispered in my ear: "My poor man..."
At that moment, I had mixed feelings in my heart, and I couldn't tell what I was feeling.
Next, she hugged me to the bathroom of her house, then gave me a bath, wiped my back, wiped me clean, and then sent me back to the large bed again. Then she went to take a bath herself.
Lying on the bed, I had a dream-like feeling - she who was once so far away was now so easy to get!
After a while, she came out of the bathroom, wrapped in a bath towel, and her skin was dazzlingly white. She was smiling sweetly at me. I found that she seemed more beautiful than before, with the appearance of a mature woman.
beauty.
After taking a bath, her body was a little cold, maybe because the air conditioner in her home was always on. She came and hugged me tightly again...
A touching blush appeared on her originally white cheeks. Although her eyes were still tightly closed, her long eyelashes were trembling slightly. Her long, black hair was as smooth as
It spread out like water plants and pressed under the body, forming a sharp contrast with the flawless white body...
This time, I truly experienced happiness and beauty...
I didn't know, this stuff is addictive.
In the following days, I was almost always entangled with Zhao Menglei.
However, I am clear about one thing: I cannot marry her because she is a married woman and because she is too casual.
However, what I never imagined was that I would eventually get married to her, and then we would enter into the holy marriage hall together. Later I realized that she was in so much pain, and that she truly loved me.
When I was at work, my senior sister Su Hua kept looking at me and smiling.
"Why are you laughing?" I felt a little uncomfortable when she looked at me.
"It seems that I'm really in love." She said with a strange smile on her face.
I was confused, "Where did you see it?"
"There are still lipstick marks on my neck," she said.
I couldn't help but panic, and hurriedly ran towards the toilet in the ward. She laughed behind me.
Last night, I left Zhao Menglei's house at my insistence. Because I was afraid that her man would come home suddenly. As a result, I went to bed without washing after returning to my dormitory. I lay down on my narrow single bed.
I was still panicking when I went to bed. I woke up this morning and wiped my face casually and went to the ward because it was the first time I slept past the time. Su Hua said that there were lipstick marks on my neck, which surprised me and convinced me.
.
But where was the lipstick mark? Looking at myself in the mirror in the ward toilet, I realized that I had been fooled! I suddenly remembered that when I saw Zhao Menglei yesterday, she was not wearing any makeup at all, let alone any lipstick!
"Junior brother, you are too honest. Haha! But now I completely believe that you are in love. Congratulations." Su Hua said to me with a smile after returning to the ward.
However, I can only smile bitterly, can she be my girlfriend?
"But junior brother, I still hate you very much." She was smiling, "You don't know, I was very busy last night. Not only did I admit several patients, but I also had a patient with ectopic pregnancy and massive bleeding.
I operated until midnight. By the way, the patient was on your bed. She was quite beautiful."
"I'm going to take a look." I said hurriedly, but suddenly realized that there was something wrong with my words - I didn't go to see the patient right away because he was beautiful, but to go for a routine daily ward round.
Not to mention, this patient is really beautiful.
I smiled at her and said, "Hello, I am your doctor in charge, Feng Xiao."
She was also smiling at me, but then she frowned and said, "Hello, doctor. I'm sorry to trouble you."
I immediately felt that she was a very educated woman, because most patients would not speak to us doctors like this, because they often subconsciously think that this is our duty.
It is very pleasant to talk to a well-educated patient. Seeing her frown in pain, I asked softly: "What? The anesthetic has passed?"
"Yes. The wound hurts a little." She answered.
"Doctor Su's surgery was very good, don't worry." I said to her with a smile, "Come, let me take a look at your wound."
"Yes." She agreed, then lifted up the hem of her clothes and pulled down her pants at the same time. She was wearing a hospital gown, which was very loose.
I looked at the gauze on her abdomen and was a little surprised because I found blood oozing from the gauze!
Gently peeling off the tape on her snow-white abdomen, and then gently opening the gauze, I saw that her wound had opened.
"Do you have a cold? Do you have a bad cough?" I asked her.
"I don't have a cold. I do have a cough, but it's not that bad," she answered.
"Your wound has cracked. You must have coughed while you were asleep." I said. This can only be the only reason, because another reason for the wound to crack is infection and fat liquefaction, but that has to be done before
It may appear after a week.
"What should we do?" she asked anxiously.
"I have to sew you up again," I said.
"Going to the operating room?" she asked, looking very nervous.
I shook my head, "Right here. By the way, where are your relatives? Why is no one accompanying you? Do you know that ectopic pregnancy and massive bleeding are very dangerous."
She said sadly: "I know. In fact, I don't care anymore. Just die. Why did you send me to the hospital?"
I immediately understood: This is another woman whose feelings have been hurt.
But I'm confused about one thing, "Who sent you to the hospital? Fortunately, it was in time, otherwise it would have been dangerous."
I have two purposes for asking her like this. One is to know if her relatives are there, and the other is not to let her continue to be sad. Because I am reminding her that she is someone who escaped from death, so she must cherish herself even more.
s life.
"Doctor, can I have children in the future?" She asked me such a question.
I was immediately relieved because her words represented her hope, the hope of life.
"It should be no problem." I answered her with a smile.
"Thank you." She whispered.
"I'm going to get ready, and I'll come over to sew your wound in a while. Don't be afraid, I'll give you an anesthetic." Then I said to her softly.
I asked the nurse to prepare the tools for me to suture the wound. I took this time to look at the patient's medical records.
Her name is Yu Min, and she is twenty-five years old. The medical records contain routine examinations, and most of the results are normal. I am mainly looking at Su Hua’s surgical records later.
No problems found.
Su Hua came in at this time. She walked in a hurry. When she reached her desk, she put the stethoscope on her desk and made a loud voice, "I'm too tired. I'll go back to bed after giving the doctor's orders."
I think I should tell her about the patient, "Sister Su Hua, the patient's wound was split. There was nothing inappropriate when you sutured it, right?"
"What?" She suddenly came to look at me, her face full of surprise.
I nodded towards her.
"Junior brother, please don't tell others about this, okay?" She then said to me softly, in a pleading tone.
I'm a little surprised, because this matter itself should not be her responsibility. Everyone should be able to understand this situation, because the patient's wound collapse does not constitute a medical accident.
"People in the department are in trouble now. Once something happens, there will be people gossiping behind me. I will be promoted to associate professor in two years, and I don't want to be affected by this." She then explained to me softly.
I understood immediately, so I smiled and said, "It's okay. I won't tell anyone. Don't worry, I will handle this matter."
"Thank you, junior brother." A smile suddenly broke out on her face. I discovered that this senior sister who usually has a masculine personality actually also has a charming side.
After giving medical instructions to other patients, I went to suture Yu Min's wound.
First, use sterile gauze dipped in alcohol to disinfect her wound, and then perform local anesthesia. When the alcohol just touched her wound, she softly yelled, "Ouch!" I also saw her abdominal muscles contract.
"It's okay, I'll be fine soon." I said to her softly.
Then, when I was giving her an anesthetic, she let out another breath, and I quickly turned to smile at her. She felt a little embarrassed, and her face turned slightly red, "Sorry, I've been afraid of pain since I was a child."
"What now? Does it still hurt?" More than half of the anesthetic has been injected, I asked her with a smile.
She is shaking her head.
I quickly pulled out the thread from her somewhat white wound, and then quickly sewed her up. To be honest, Su Hua did a good job in the operation, because I found that Yu Min's wound was very small.
After the suturing was completed, I looked at her wound and nodded with satisfaction, "Now you have to pay attention and make sure to control your cough. If it breaks open again, it will be troublesome. I won't be able to find her by then."
It’s time to put the needle in.” I said to her immediately.
"Thank you, Dr. Feng." She thanked me sincerely.
"You're welcome." I smiled at her and immediately started to pack the utensils.
"Dr. Feng, what should I do if I can't help but cough?" she suddenly asked.
"Try to control it as much as possible. Take a deep breath when you want to cough. If you really can't control it, cough gently. Anyway, just a little. Don't let the pressure inside the abdomen get too high." I replied, and asked curiously, "
Why didn't you cough when I was suturing you just now?"
"Maybe I was too scared and forgot." She stuck out her tongue and said mischievously.
I don’t know why, but I suddenly developed an inexplicable liking for Yu Min. (To be continued)